It was fresh eggs and ham, butter and jam, but not made with love πŸ˜‰ πŸ₯˜πŸŽ‚

Hi ❣Its so nice to see you ,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you πŸ’›

Well,- today we can talk a bit food,- and its fresh eggs and ham, butter and jam, and yes , cheese too, and bread of different kinds and a tiny “dasch” of a special chocolate too, or maybe it was a small piece of cake ? ,- and probably more,- I can’t remember,- and we talk #breakfast …but not in the “#consept” you maybe think 😊. Do you have time for this? This breakfast- post did took a bit longer time to write that I did #imagen before I started,- just so you now 😊. At the same time,- it did took a bit time to prepare “this” breakfast too πŸ˜‰.

Im not going to #prepare a breakfast for you,- I do really dont like to prepare breakfast for anyone else then my children and my self 😊. Its one of the worst meal Im making to my holiday- guestes and others guestes,- but still its seems that they are #enjoying to eat breakfast “made by me” for some strange reasons πŸ˜‰.

My breakfasts has been thrown right into the trash …. if it wasn’t “made with love”,- so Im obviously not the best breakfast- maker in the world πŸ˜….

And yes,- I m able to #laugh about it now,- even make a joke and two. Natasja learned me that,- but it was a bit difficult to laugh about breakfasts “made by me” some years ago 😊. Im in #progress πŸ˜‰.

And just so you know,- it can be too much sharing for some, and too little sharing for others in this post too. But Im just #sharing what I feel #comfortable with sharing today too,- and I had many, many turns with my self before I did post it too ,- because I know its a bit more in between the lines then the breakfast 😊. But I did choose to keep it all more and less just around “the breakfast” ,- but not the breakfast- table ,- its about weekend- breakfasts in bed,- together with a “mister” back there in Norway some years ago 😊. And I just repit myself now,- I have choose to let the focus in the story be around the breakfast. It can seems like a “small consept”. But this small consept, breakfast, was the best for me to share 😊.

I was use to take the weekly food- shopping on my way home from my #work every Friday, and it was one stop in one shop, and I was able to get “all and everything” we needed for the #weekend as well as for the up- coming week,- before I went home,- and could #enjoy the weekend 😊.

But you can say, that one, that “shopping- rutine” did #change a bit after I started to live together with this “mister”. And I actually did like “my easy and fast shopping rutine”. It was even a cheap shopping- trip too 😊.

Well, what to do, – it was my job in the home to take care of the food purchases, – especially since I was also the one who mostly made the food, the meals, and on Fridays I did quit my job earlier too, and I did had some time for this round. And I can promise you, I did really needed that time πŸ™„.

It was fresh egg from one store, fresh bread and a special cake in an other store. Jam and fresh butter was also #important. With that means ,- the butter needed to be open up from a new box Friday evening, or best of all Saturday morning. Imagen how many boxes of butter it could be in the fridge sometimes πŸ™„ ,- because,- is was no use in a open butter- box for the weekend-breakfast,- only un- open was usefull. 4 days butter with a “touch” of a bit darker color couldn’t been use to the weekend-breakfast,- ai, ai ai.

I did actually tried that a couple of times,- but for some #reason I didn’t understood, he did find it out,- and that was not very good…. for me to do, with the butter and the breakfast πŸ™„.

It was a couple of more things too, from other stores and the shopping- round,- but I don’t remeber it all anymore. Thats the good thing with our #brain. The brain is, after a while, able “to block” things thats not good or #necessary to #remember any more. So,- when thats said,- its a couple of things I cant remember anymore from this relationship,- and thats good 😊.

It was very important that I did buy the different things from the correct stores too,- not just the correct products, in the wrong stores.

And it was also very important that I made it all in the #correct way too,- and “#with #love”. It was a half a slice of bread with “this, another one with that”. I think it was maybe 6 half slices of bread with different kinds of topping on, and the jam needed to be on the right bread too, eggs cooked on time, cold and hot drinks, and something sweet to the end, like a special chocolate or a piece of cake.

I did made me a list so I shouldn’t #forget anything, or forget how to #prepare the breakfast.

Then it was this “weekend- breakfast- #session” in bed. Im not use to and was not use to eat breakfast in bed every weekend, both Saturday and Sunday. Im just use to do this on #special “#happenings” like birthday or mother’s day, or if I was really sick, or if me and my partner ( earlier partner miles away in the #past) wanted to be a bit #romantic and do something #nice and #cozy for each other.

Breakfast in bed is for me #connected to something #special. So it was a bit #change for me this new breakfast- sessions. But okay,- I did think it could be a new, nice #experience.

He wanted us to have regular days to made the breakfast. For example I did make the breakfast at every Saturdays and him every Sundays. I was not agree with that one. What if I was tired and wanted to sleep a bit longer on “my” Saturday or Sunday? I couldn’t know that infront, so it became every second day insted. If I did prepared the breakfast on the Saturday, he did take the Sunday,- and otherwise.

But,- there was a “limit” here as well. It was not just the “shopping- round”.

The breakfast should be starting to be prepared between 08.00 and 09.00,- and with love” ,- nja… start #preparing at 09.00 was in general a bit too late, it did actually took a bit time to prepare his breakfast,- and we should also preferably stay in bed until about 12.00 πŸ™„. For me it felt like I did loose a lots of my day,- to just be in bed and eat the breakfast (my breakfast was not so big and complicated, and I didnt need to use hours to eat it πŸ˜…), listen to music and read. Well,- I did at least had the time to read a couple of books in this breakfast- periode,- thats for sure 😊. For him it was the newspaper, fresh picked up from the mailbox 😊.

But you know,- I didn’t always knew if I was to tired to start this breakfast- preparing at 08.00, but if it was “my day” it was my day, thats the way it was,- then it was just to do the breakfast. So, to be honest, I could be a bit tired when I did made the breakfast, and maybe I also forgot how long the eggs has been cooking πŸ™„. ( a egg-cooker- machine popped up at the kitchen one day,- so that one shouldn’t happen again . The eggs had a time too πŸ˜…).

Anyway,- I did started to dislike this “breakfast- rutine” more and more, and I was tired too,- and I in general probably forgot to prepare the breakfast “with love”,- I just #made the breakfast. Actually I did prepared the breakfast the way I normally did,- but not always with a big smile in my face at 08.00 a Saturday or Sunday morning. Like I already have mention,- it did took a bit time to prepare his breakfast too,- it was so much with a “little bit of this and that”. (And the breakfast in bed was not a choice- it was a “must”).

So then when I didn’t made the breakfast “with love” because I didn’t jump out of bed with a big smile and joy for making breakfast to him at 08.00 on a Saturday or Sunday morning ,- then his breakfast ended up in the trash. He actually did thrown the breakfast “made by me, but without love,- without a big smile in my face and joy” in the trash, and he did made a new one for himself. Because he did #deserved a breakfast made with love,- and if I couldn’t do that “only” thing to show him my love,- he could make it himself.

Even now,- when I m reading through what I have been writing Im thinking ,- “was it all?” “was it me ?” “Why didn’t I just run away and did gave a shit in the breakfast?” But I m also thinking “Do I really don’t understand the “consept” relationship, love and give with love?” Was it to much for me to even or just do the breakfast the way he did preferred it for just to show the love ?

Maybe nothing of this “breakfast- deal” was or is so difficult as I did made it too? Was it a big deal? Maybe this is a story and experience I shouldn’t have been affected by? I don’t know,- but it did affected me,- to be honest 😊. The, this meal- consept.

Its still days where I think I m stupid and have not a clue about #relationship and love ,- and maybe its just very normal to prepare breakfast for each other in a relationship this way? What do I know? Im not use to it from my parents, or boyfriends from my past or even my ex-husband. But as I was told,- I didn’t know very much about love and relationship rather.

And,- the question I have got many times the last years when I have told this story to my closets friends are “Why did you do this ?” “Why did you accept it?” “Why didnt you just walked away?”

I have been thinking the same many times during the last years,- but its very different to be #directly in the #situation and looking at it from the #sideline. And I didn’t told or talked very much to anyone about the relationship when I was in it,- because I did think I was the stupid one. The one who didn’t know anything about love and relationship, give and take, and important breakfasts. I did heard that a lot during this time with him. And then you starting to belive what your being told.

Anyway,- it did something with me when it comes to make breakfast to others,- and food in general. Sometimes I m just sitting and waiting for my guestes to throw the food I have made to them away,- before I take the chance to start eating πŸ˜…. Just kidding,- its not like that anymore,- but I still dont like to make breakfast to others.

Its actually not many years since I started to belive in my self again when it comes to cooking and baking.

I have actually been a teacher in “Bakery and food” at a school for students in the age between 16 and 20,- it was one if my first jobs as a teacher. I have also been working with food for over 3 years- with making cold tables, cuts and canapΓ©s. A job I did like,- normally I do like to make food 😊

And I m back in business again when it comes to make and give away my homemade cakes and invite people over to dinners, or a small snacks meal 😊. And now Im even sharing my #recipes with you too,- and all are “spiced up with love” just so you know πŸ˜‰.

But,- step by step,- you know 😊.

Well,- that was a tiny long #travel into a weekend-breakfasts #habit from my past 😊.

I hope you all are #enjoying your breakfasts,- around the table or in the bed,- made with a smile and love,- or just made because you actually #need to #eat 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are πŸ’›. Thank you so much for dropping by today too,- and for reading my blog πŸ’›.

See you soon 😊

#Homemade #afternoon- #tea #made by #me and made with #love 😊. I actually do like to made and #prepare different #meals for my #friends and #family 😊. What more to say? Its has just not always been like that for a periode in my life,- but I m back 😊.