A lovely walk, but with mixed feelings πŸ• πŸ’™

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you during this days,weeks and months we all are going through, – together 🧑

Today I did have my first real walk outside since 14. March. Actually a walk, a closely 30 minutes walking trip, outside, in our area, along the sidewalk. With exemption for my weekly food shopping trips, this is my first real walk outside…today 😊. The “shopping- trips” are just more and less to my car, in my car, out of my car, stand in line outside the store, then walk into the store, shop the food I need, go back to my car, and maybe run a very few couple of other errands when Im “on the run”. It’s not very much of a walk, to be honest 😊. It’s more and less a tiny trip with a bit of “rush” for just to do what I need to do, and not very much for enjoying. With a tiny exception,- I try to shop food in turtle speed 🐒.

But today I did have my first walking trip for 4, 5 weeks, and it was lovely πŸ₯°, and a bit difficult to explain actually. I felt in a way a bit “free” in a strange way, and at the same time it was a trip with very mixed feelings. Because,- my oldest son are at the hospital, and because he is at the hospital I’m allowed to walk his dog outside to “the toilet” πŸ•. So it was a walk with mixed feelings. I really enjoyed the trip with his dog, at the same time my mammi heart is worried for my child, my son πŸ’™.

I did told you this Autumn that one of my children was at the hospital, and I did told you I had an “illegal” trip to my daughter’s apartment for picking up some of my son’s medicines for just some weeks ago.

My son has two bumps in the left side of the groin, and today, this morning, he was going to a check and control at the hospital. But,- it didn’t went quite the way we did imagine. There has been an infection in one bump, and the doctors wanted him back at the hospital already this afternoon. He was allowed to return home after the investigation this morning, but was told to return back this afternoon for further control and possible emergency surgery.

So,- that’s why I was so lucky to be able to have a nice walk this afternoon, and I really did enjoy the trip and the walk with his dog for all it was worth,- I even double my 15 minutes walk ( so I actually had a 30 minutes walk instead of 15 minutes) πŸ•,- at the same time it was a walk with very mixed feelings, and a list of thoughts in my mind. I’m thinking about my son, how he is, what is going to happen, will he come back home this evening/ night, or are they going to take a surgery at him this evening or night ? Is the bullet “just” infected or is it more? πŸ˜”

He had have more pain during this weekend than “normal”, and he has been very tired too. I’m very grateful for that he is at the hospital now, because I know he will get the help he needs πŸ’™. At the same time,- I should really wish I could be there together with him πŸ’™. But it is not so easy when it is quarantine and curfew. Luckily his friend was allowed to be together with my son as his assistance because they have the same address.

Well,- they are living with me at my adress at the moment, they haven’t been able or allowed to move into their own home and adress yet, it’s just the same adresse on the paper at the moment 😊. But,- I know he, my son, is not alone there at the hospital and his friend is very good to update me too, (tell me about the different testes they are taking like x-ra, blood ect.) ,– but I’m the mammi, and I m just a mammi, and he is my child, – no matter how I turns it- even he is a young adult man and in just bit more then a week he will be 26 years old,- he is still my child, and my heart is still a mammi heart for him πŸ’™ ❀.

In case you wonder, – my son and his friend are just friends. Very good friends. My sons friend has a Spanish girlfriend, and my son have a “fling” or something like that going on with a girl from South America, but she is living in Spain.

This young people haven’t been able to see each other since 13. March, and are probably not going to be able to see each other before after 10. May. But,- there’s a lots of texting going on πŸ˜…. How and where they manage to meet this two girls I have no idea,- but they did manage it in between work, and after my sons break up with his fiance and, maybe lucky for them, before the quarantine and curfew in Spain 😊.

Well,- I’m not sure what will happen during this night,- I think my son is going to be at the hospital during this night. And I think I’m not going to sleep very well,- just because I’m his mammi and just because I’m waiting for some more information about what’s happening and going on with my son at the hospital πŸ’™. Maybe I will bake a cake? Just so I have something to do when I’m waiting 😊. My feelings in my stomach and heart tells me that all will be fine with my son, and I really hope that feelings are correct πŸ’™.

So,- that was just a tiny “up-date” from our life here in Spain, the quarantine and curfew, and a really lovely walk with very mixed feelings ,- the life 🧑. Because that’s actually possible, – to enjoy something at the same time there’s mixed feelings 🧑. And I did allowed myself to enjoy the walk with my son’s dog this afternoon πŸ•,- a walk I maybe need to do around 03.00 this night too 😳. Not because I want to take a walk in the middle of the night,- but because my son’s dog does live after my son’s “daily routine” , or maybe I should say “nightly routine” πŸ˜…. Like I told you, my son work afternoon, evenings and nights,- and he take his dog for a trip before he goes to bed around 03.00 in the night πŸŒ™. I can promise you I’m not going to enjoy that night walk as much as I did enjoy this afternoon walk πŸ˜…. But that’s the way it is 😊. The dog is my responsibility at the moment, and I did promise my son to take care of his dog when he was at the hospital πŸ’™. A promise I’m going to keep πŸ’™ πŸ•.

Im sending you a lots of good thoughts 🧑. I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧑 Thank you so much for dropping by my blog today too 🧑.

See you soon 😊

Zorro, – my oldest son’s dog πŸ’™

This afternoon I did have a lovely walk with my son’s dog, Zorro πŸ•. A walk I did allowed myself to enjoy, at the same time it was a walk with very mixed feelings, and different thoughts in my mind πŸ’™. My first real walk for closely 4,5 week πŸ’š.

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