Hi β£ It’s so nice to see you,- like always π I hope all is fine with you π§‘
I’m living alone …. again. All my 3 babyducks has moved out… again…and it’s seems that it’s going to be like this for a while now π. But I never know, I don’t know what next week or month will brings, but I assume that “this is it” now π.
My oldest son are living in the mountains and is very happy with his life. His friend has also moved back to the mountains, so my mammi- heart is a bit more relaxed now when I know it’s not just him and his dog, Zorro, alone “up there” fare away from people π. My oldest son enjoy his work, and he/ they have also extended the contract of the home they are renting. So it looks like they’ll be living there for a while π‘.
My son in the middle are living in Norway, and he is soon ready to finish the driving licence, and then he is “on the road on his own”, literally π. I think he really is going to enjoy to have his own driving licence π. He have also got permanent employment contract, and I’m very, very happy for him π. So he is not going to be back in Spain for a while, except from hopefully for a holiday and two π₯°. But when? I don’t know, I just know I miss him a lot, but as long as I know he is happy in his life, my mammi- heart is happy too π.
And my daughter, she is enjoying her life in Malaga sourrende by her friends, living in an apartment she likes to live in, and she have a job she really enjoys and also an permanent employment contract π§‘. She is very good to “update” me about her life with sending me Snapchats, something I’m very grateful for π§‘.
And then it’s me π. Been on my own for a week (again). But it feels different this time, at least I think so? All my three children are happy in their life, something that makes me incredibly happy for them all β€. But I’m not sure where in my life I’m at the moment π€. I’m fine, and I’m okay, and probably in it’s own way I’m in a way happy too, but I have been thinking a lot about “my life” this last week. But I have no “solutions” for my own life yet π. It takes a bit more then a week to find my “new” place in my life π. But of course I’m thinking a bit about the future, my future, and what and where and so on. But one day at the time π
I don’t feel lonesome, but I’m alone and I’m lonely, and that’s find. At the moment it’s my choice to have it like this. I need it π. At the same time I’m a little restless inside me without knowing why, and I’m not completely calm in my new life- situation yet ….. but it’s only been a week- I’m a little impatient.Β I have to learn to be patient with myself π. But I feel like I’m in a “no – man’s country” at the moment π³.
I’m not going to do a lots of changes in my life to fast, the different changes are coming “crawling” anyway π. And I don’t think there will bring me any good with to many changes to fast in my life either π.
My work- situation as a costumer service agent on the phone is not going to change for some months. Something I’m very happy for π. I got this message last week. A very nice surprise, and it makes it a bit easier for me to take “the turns” in my life I need to take a bit more in my own tempo. With that means, – I’m still going to work from my home for some more months and for the same department as well π. Phu! ,- I’m very happy I don’t need to do any changes there for a while π. I’m actually happy it’s not to many changes at the same time, to be honest π.
I know I need to create some new plans, routines and a kind of dynamic in my life, both daily, weekly and monthly. With good plans and routines it’s also a bit better to reach different goals π. It hasn’t been easy to “keep up” my plans “for running” in a stable way for a longer period when people moving in and out in my home,- but I think there will be a break from that for a while now, something that will hopefully and probably be easier for me to have plans and special be able to doing my plans for more then maybe 6 or 8 weeks at the time, and then have a 3 months “break” π.
I want to create a good plan for workout and exercises, and I want to have a better plan for my online freelance work too. I want to use time on painting, knitting and writing- do some better and more work in my blog, and I need to create my own study plan for language. But one step at the time π. And I want to have time to my family and friends as well. And I actually think I will manage “it all” as long as I’m not “rushing” “it all”, but give myself the time that I feel I need and is correct for me π.
And yes,- for some reason some of my friends really want me to start dating again π€. Some are trying to arrange different kinds of dates for me, but the thing is,- at the moment I’m not ready for any dating. Im actually not very interesting in dating now at days. It’s a bit more important for me to spend time to “meet this me” without the “mammi- me” just “the me”, then find/ meet a boyfriend at the moment π. I don’t miss a boyfriend or to be in a relationship now at days. A “friend with benefit” could be nice to have, but it is what it is at the moment, and it’s fine for me π. But of course I presage my friends good thoughts, I’m not just “there” in my life now π. When, or if, I’m ready for this dating thing again I can create a “position vacant/ available” in my blog instead and see how that goes π€π .
It’s good to be alone, but it’s a bit silent in my home π. I miss my children, to just have them around me, but I don’t miss to be a “service station” for my kids, or to live together with them on permanent basis any more π. I like to have just my own mess, and I like to be able to just listen to my music, the music I like, and not just different music in the different floors π΅πΆ. It’s less clothes than needs to be washed, less dish wash and less mess, no socks in the sofa and I don’t need to nag, and I can be moody totally alone,- that’s good too π.
Anyway,- my first week alone has “contained” just me, my work as a costumer service agent, my freelance work, some necessary stuffs like shopping food, washing clothes and the dishes, eat, sleep- oh my- I have been so incredibly tired π΄,- and a lots of thinking π. I’m not able to share all of my thoughts with you yet, because I haven’t managed to “organize” them in a good and structured way in my head yet π ,- they are at the moment just different thoughts “tumbling” a bit around up there on the top until they find their “places” π.
And I’m going to continue to share as best as I can in my blog about both my thoughts, my “new” life and other small and big “happenings” in my life π.
I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are π§‘ Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today π§‘
See you soon π

My first week “on my own” has been actually that,- on my own alone, doing my jobs, thinking a lot π. But I have no “solutions” for my own life yet π. It takes a bit more then a week to find my “new” place in my life π. But of course I’m thinking a bit about the future, my future, and what, how and where and so on. But one day at the time π
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