Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡
The best is to try to focus on the good moments and memories, even when you “crashing” out of one month, or a happening in your life and “crashing” straight into a new one 😳. But easy? No. But possible? Yes 😊.
We are already closely a week into September, but I actually did “crashing” out of August and just continue “crashing” into September. So I needed a couple of days to just sort out a couple of things before I was ready to write, to say Goodbye to August, and Hello to September 🥀.
At the moment I’m not quite ready to “welcoming” September, but I probably will be there, little by little, but I can at least say Hello September 😊.
August was a very warm month, “touched” up with some great moments worth keep in my mind and soul with happiness and a smile 😊.
I started in a new job, and I’m very grateful for having a job 🧡. I’m back in my home office, something I’m also very grateful for 💻🎧☎️. Pleasant guests has dropped by during August, and I even managed to do some baking too 🥨. I have try to enjoyed the sun as best as I can, but I need to admit it was a bit difficult under a sun with 43 +++ degree ( Celsius) 🌞. Then it’s good to live so close to the beach and ocean 🏖. And Natasja did dropped by too, it was so nice to see her again 🥰.
But August wasn’t just joy and happiness. I did find out that a person who I thought was a very good and trustworthy person was not that at all. I thought this person was a good friend I could trust, but it was just a person who used a friendship for it’s owns benefits.
I need to admit that to find out this was not to good, but at the same time it’s better to know then not know. But I have used a bit time to “get over it”. Get over that this person is not worth my time, energies or tears, but yes, I have used both times, energies and tears on this person, or more correctly, on the way this person did “treated” me. I know it is not worth it, but still it wasn’t so easy to control my tears or my disappointment.
I have choose to not use to much more time on “why”, or this person, or what happen. I have already use to much time, so I just leave it to that. Must of us has been there,- had people in our life that wasn’t the friends or people we thought they was. It’s not the first time for me either to meet a person like this, but hopefully I will meet less and less.
Then my bank account became closed again and I didn’t have any access to my money. Of course this happen on a Friday too, just in case. So I couldn’t reach the bank or any other office before after the weekend. And also I needed to get permission from my job to go to the bank as well.
And just in case,- this time when I went to the bank they couldn’t open it. I need help from some a bit “higher” up in the “system” 😳. Something that’s not to easy to do when “all and everyone” = all kind of office are open when I’m at work. But after a week with no access to my bank account, and actually no money either then, except from the money in my bank account that was “locked” and I couldn’t use, I was “allowed” to get money to pay the different expenses and buy some food. But that’s it.
Just in case I also got my period that week I hadn’t any money, and of course I didn’t have any tampons or something like that in my home either. Because my plan was to buy all this stuff that Friday my bank account was closed. And also just in case I was empty for shower soap too 🧽🧼. Fun? No, not at all.
Lucky for me I was at least working from my home so I didn’t need to go any office in my “condition”.
Solution for my period, – well I used toalett papir, but that wasn’t quite the best. Then I used washcloths,- not to comfortable, but better then the toalett papir or nothing at all. And I had shampoo, so I washed my body as best as I could with shampoo, and my hair too. And of course I manage to bleed during a couple of clothes too. Still very happy I was working from my home 😅.
My bank account is still not up and running as it should be, but I have got some days off from my job in the end of September to fix different kinds of things. Go to the different offices and a that kind of stuff.
As some of you know I was exposed to financial crime / financial fraud in Norway in 2012. Something that I’m probably going to struggle with for the rest of my life,- obviously no matter how hard I’m working to get back in my feet again 👣.
And of course I’m the one who get the “punishment” even it wasn’t me that did the economic fraud. The people who did it will probably never get any punishment if not karma kick their as one day.
It’s not any kind of financial crime that’s happen in my bank account at the moment,- that’s what my bank actually trying to avoid. That’s why even I haven’t any access,- but to get the access I need to visit offices and lawyers- phuha! That will be fun 😳. At least it will be fun, I hope, when I can use my bank account and my bank card normal again. But it’s a process that will take s bit of time and energy. And it has already took a lots of time and energy. Not just this last week, but the economic fraud has taken many years of my thoughts, feelings and energies. And I probably just need to start to accept the facts that this will probably following me and affect my life for the rest of my life.
All here Im telling you are very short version of what actually happened. It’s takes a bit of time to take the long version 😊. And it did took a big more then just a couple of days to been “through” this different things. The last week in August and the first one in September has been a bit challenging to be honest. I feel I crashed out of August and straight into September with out any control over my life, my time, my money.
But in the beginning of September I was able to pay my bills and buy some food, soap, and of course some tampons too, but then my period was over 😅.
And just in case,- when I feel I have a bit more then enough with my own things and stuffs in my life to sort out and fix, my oldest son is knocking on my door and need a place to sleep in between apartments 😳. And it was not just him, but of course his dog, Zorro and his friend too.
And just to “top it all”,- this French man I meet some years ago is back in Spain again 😅. As some of you know, – he was in Spain in the middle of my moving process this June, and now his back again and texting and texting and want to meet up. Well,- I’m not exactly “there” now at days to meet up for a “date”- and I also know what kind of “date” he wants to have. I don’t want to have that kind of date at the moment. It has been to much for me during the lasts weeks.
And yes, I have been praying and crying a lot, and asked for solutions, and at the same time tried to be grateful for everything that’s good in my life too 🧡. I need to admit I was very close to just give up all and everything a couple of days ( not suicidal- I’m not there anymore). But then I became a bit more “No, what the fuck- I’m not going to let this break me, I’m going to find solutions and do all the best I can with my “situation” and my life”.
I could have told you all this with a bit more dramatic, the real dramatic I have felt and experienced during the last 2 weeks, but it would take to much time,- and it’s probably not to much of interest for you either 😊. But that’s why I have been a bit “silent” on my blog and not quite ready to “Thanks August” or wish September welcome- because I felt more like a ” big crash” than something I wanted to say “Thank you for” or wish welcome to. I know I have a lots of things to be Thankful for during August, and I think I will have a lots of good things to welcome in September too. But at the moment I’m really not sure what it is. In that “place” I’m now I just see a lots of challenges and then not good challenges. But of course that can, and hopefully, will change 😊.
I don’t want to much drama in my life, or negative challenges. I just want my life to be nice, peaceful and quiet. Hopefully it will be like that too, soon 😊.
I’m sending you a lots of good thoughts and hope the life is good to you 🧡.
I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡
See you soon 😊
The best is to try to focus on the good moments and memories, even when you “crashing” out one situation in your life and “crashing” straight into a new one 😳. Easy? No. Possible? Yes 😊. We are already closely a week into September, but I actually did “crashing” out of August and just continue “crashing” into September. So I needed a couple of days to sort things out a bit before I could both say Goodbye and Hello 😊.
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