Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡
I’m not sure if dating is something for me, or maybe it’s not the “correct” time in my life to date? Or maybe it is that I haven’t met the “correct” one to date? Someone I want to date and use, spend and share my time together with?
Or can it be I have met a couple of men that was not good for me? So I have a mental barrier when it comes to men and dating? Or I do “meet” and chat with to many a bit , sorry for my expression, stupid men, in my freelance online chat job? Or maybe it something else? Or maybe I have just become too old, critical and demanding? 😅
I think maybe it is a combination of all, because I’m not very stressed out about the dating and I don’t feel of any kind of miss when it comes to the dating either, or miss a man in my lifet. I’m perfectly fine with my “civil” situation, status and life at the moment. I don’t want to date. I don’t want to have a boyfriend, and a lots of different commitments and demand I need to try to do my best to follow.
But of course all “this” can change one day, and suddenly I’m both want to date and feel more ready for dating too. You never know 😊. But at the moment I’m not in a rush for any dating or get a boyfriend or be in a relationship,- I’m perfectly fine where I’m in my life 😊.
But obviously other, special men I meet, are a bit “busy” with my civil status= single life. I’m not sure why- but it seems to bother some manly souls that Im single by my own choice 😅. Some of them try really hard to convince me that I actually need a date, a man I my life. And as more they try to convince me, as less interest I get. And some are even telling my both how and what I both need and need to feel, and how and what will be the best for me to use my time on. Then my intressert gets not even on zero, but on a minus interest for men like that.
I did “hang out” a bit together with my “old” neighbour for a “short second” last Autumn, before my daughter moved back home. I told him I thought maybe she was going to move back home too, because I knew she was not in a healthy relationship.
I haven’t heard very much from him/ my old neighbour after that. After my daughter moved back home.
I did suggest that we could “date” or meet up for a coffee or something like that on a cafe. I also gave him a couple of dates we could meet. But I haven’t heard anything more from him. And I’m actually fine with that.
I don’t feel sad that I haven’t heard very much more from him. He is a nice and pleasant man, attractive man too, but I don’t feel any intim or sexual attractive to him anymore. To be honest I “lost” that kind of attraction already after our first intim and sexual meeting this Autumn. Because “something” was changed- and my experiences was- not to the better, that’s for sure.
But I did meet him a couple of times more. I did try my very best “to find” my intim and sexual attraction for him, the sexual attraction I had before- but it’s gone. And of course that can be a reason why I haven’t heard very much more from him. Maybe, or actually probably, he did “recognize” my “losing sexual attraction” for him.
To be honest,- he did recognize it. I know exactly what happened. And what I’m going to tell you now some will feel I’m given to much intim information, and some will be affected of it- but okay,- that’s the way it is. I’m going to tell you what or why I “lost” my intim and sexual attraction for him as nice and smoothy as I can.
But he had actually “stashed” up his penis with 5 piercings since last time we was sexually together 😳. And that was not very comfortable to get or have inside me. One of the piercings he could remove, and he actually needed to do that. But the 4 other ones was 4 small metal ball under his skin.
Inserted from the root in a row …. under the skin. The first was a ring, which I mentioned, attached to the skin of the tip, that is, the foreskin. So that was easy to remove “under the intim act”, but the 4 metal balls needed to be removed during some kind of surgery.
It was not a very comfortable experience, to be honest. I did try my very best to enjoy it, but, unfortunately, this piercings was a big turn off for me. And I didn’t even like “the look” at his penis with this piercings,- for me it looks more like a kind of sneak or a sea worm or a dragon or something like that 🐍🐉.
And he actually did ask me if I liked it- and I had some challenges to find the correct words to not hurt him, because obviously he was a bit proud over this piercings.
But what to say? And do you say to or tell someone that “the sex with you are not the best sex I have had”? Isn’t that a bit rude? But I did struggle to find the correct words, and of course he did recognize that. Special because I didn’t find the correct words to say 😳😅.
What have you done? Or said in a situation like this?
Of course someone else, some other women, can really like and enjoy piercings like this,- but it was nothing for me- that’s for sure. And I know that him and me can’t just be friends and hang around together like friends- then it’s better this way. And it’s also something called “out of sight, out of mind”. So since we are not neighbours anymore, and don’t see each other on not daily, weekly or monthly basis, the thoughts of him will smoothly fly away with the wind. And probably also in the opposite direction too- his thoughts for me will disappear too 😊.
Well,- that was the closest in the “dating- area” I was last year,- and that’s fine 😊. Maybe there will be some changes in “the dating6 area” during this year? I have not a clue 😅😊.
I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡
See you soon 😊
I’m not very much into this dating things. And it doesn’t bother me 😊. Maybe dating isn’t very much for me? Or I just haven’t met “the special one” I will and want to use and share my time together with? At the moment I’m perfectly fine in my situation and doesn’t stress very much about dating or men at all. Maybe it will change one day? Or maybe not? Or maybe I’m just become too old, critical and demanding? 😅
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