It was Easter, but not quite a holiday πŸ˜ŠπŸ£

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧑

The Easter is soon history for this year, and it was Easter in our home, but not quite a holiday πŸ–. But the weather have the last days really became more and more like summer holiday weather 🌞.

I’m very happy my first day in the Easter was a relaxing day, because the next days felt a bit chaotic πŸ˜…. And of course it’s reason for that,- my daughter is leaving in just two days, and different papers needed to be in order, friends and some family needed to say Goodbye and things and stuffs needed to be packed and organized….and the kilos for the baggage have been weighed a couple of times too πŸ˜…βš–. But now I think Mathilde is ready for her big travel and some exacting and new adventures in her life,- to Bali in Indonesia πŸ–

I’m in also in one way ready for her to travel, at the same time I have had a bit mixed feelings in my stomach and heart the last days. Bali is fare away 🌏 It’s not like she’s moving “just around the corner” or four train stations away 😳.

I’m looking forward to be just me for a while now, at the same time as I know it will be very empty in the home. The first days, maybe even the first weeks will feels empty. Empty, at the same time a bit nice and quiet too. And I know I’m going to miss her so much πŸ˜”, it feels like I miss her already, and she haven’t even travel yet. At the same time as I’m incredibly happy for my daughter and this incredible opportunity she have in her life and in her working- situation πŸ’›.

Mathilde and my today 😊. Not the best photo- but absolutely better then nothing πŸ₯°

I have been through this before,- my children are moving out….I go through different phases I my life like miss them a lot, cry a bit, think about all the things I should done better as a mammi for them , go through some regrets as a bad mammi. I’m restless, I’m dont sure how to organize my days even I have a plan and more then enough to keep myself busy and so on and so on……Parents that has been through this know what I mean ….And then when I feel I’m starting to have a bit control and overwive over my life without living together with my children they are moving back home again πŸ˜….

When I have started to find my rhythm and routines in my dailylife , a life that’s just mainly contains my stuff and things, plans and how to organize different things in the home as well as the days and my life, I need to turn this a bit around,- and of course my children needs to do that too, but not in the same way. Because they are moving back in to their mammi.

Then it’s back to the “old routines”,- and they are not so easy to find back to either not for me, not for my children,- because I have my new one, my kids have their own ,- so when they are moving back home it’s a mixture of my new routines, my kids routines and lifestyle ……and also a kind of expectations that the “old” routines in our home are still the same as they was before my kids moved out- at the same time as they bring with them their new lifestyle. It’s not easy,- not for me and not for my children,- but I’m probably the biggest “challenge” in this situation 😳.

You should think I was starting to be a bit good to handle this “out of the nest- situation” now, and not at least use to it. But I’m not. It’s more and more challenging when they are moving back home, but it’s actually also more and more challenging when they are moving out again too 😳. I’m not sure why it is like that,- but it is.

I get so, so tired when I live together with my children because I’m actually a bit finish with that part of my life and that kind of responsibility. At the same time as I really enjoy and love to spend time together with them πŸ₯°.

I have a couple of times welcoming my new area in life. When my children have moved out of the nest. I’m not going to do that this time πŸ˜…. I’m not sure what my new area in life is…..yet. And I also know that when Mathilde move back to Spain again she probably move back into my home for a tiny while when she’s looking for her own apartment. And I’m fine with that. I’m prepared for that.

So the Easter is over, the summer is coming and my daughter’s suitcases are packed and ready for a great travel to Bali πŸ–. I’m ready too,- even with my very mixed feelings in my heart, soul and stomach. I’m ready to live just for myself for a while 😊. Maybe it’s a kind of travel that too,- I just don’t know it yet? 😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧑 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧑

See you soon 😊

My daughter’s suitcase is beginning to be ready πŸ˜ŠπŸ‘πŸ›

The Easter is over, and a new daily life is just “around the corner” for both my daughter and me πŸ–. We are both going to have some new experiences in our life, and also some new adventures- but in very different ways 😊🧑.

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