And then it happened again…..10 years later πŸ’ΈπŸ˜³πŸ˜”

Hi ❣It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧑

I’m not fine today,- what happens to me 10 years ago,- more and less at the same time as now, but still in a different way,- happen to me again yesterday. I was scammed or exposed to fraud. At the moment I’m not sure what’s the difference, or what word that’s correct,- I know probably that in a couple of days when my head is a bit more clear than today. And hopefully I’m a bit more calm down- I hope I will be more calm down.

And just so you know,- this is a bit long text….

I did never thought I should be in a situation like this again,- I’m so careful. I don’t use my credit card very much,- in general I like to use cash. And Ido very few online shopping as well.. And also I’m always sure I have enough money on my account to pay for the regular expenses before anything else. I don’t even go out for a coffee together with friends before I actually know I can effort it a with good conscience. I did promise my self that I was not going to get in the same situation as 10 years ago……but I didn’t manage to keep that promise. Here I’m.

I have considered a lot if I should tell you this or not,- special because of the judgment from other people- everyone who believes that everything that happens to everyone else can not happen to them. In a very strange way there’s many souls that are “protected” from a lots of different kinds of things, happenings and stuffs in life, and “nothing” can happen to them.

And I can’t actually handle that kind of judgement today. I can’t handle any “poor you” comments either.

I can’t handle to hear or read from someone else how stupid I’m, “blue eyed”, naive, gullible and so on and so on either. Believe me,- I have had many turns around myself today and really thought about what I could done different yesterday so my bank account wasn’t emptied. Yes,- you read correct- I have 7 euro left from closely 2000 euro. Saved up during the last six months. My salary, my savings from glassbottles sales and painting sales, savings from trying to be economic- and save up enough money to be able to pay for the moving of our things and stuffs from Norway. I was half way there,- but now I’m back to start again.

Maybe and hopefully I will get the money back because I did recognize that something wasn’t quite correct early in the process, but still I did recognize it a bit to late. After my bank account just contained 7 euro. The bank and the police don’t know if I will get my money back. And the police are actually not sure if they can help very much either,- something I can understand. Economic scamming are complicated and in general done by a big and complex network. Like I was exposed for today.

I know many people are in a much worse situation then I’m,- but still my situation doesn’t feel very good for me. And I know there are so many people in the same situation as I’m in today,- and that’s not because they are stupid or “blue eyed”, or “simple souls”, or without to much knowledge or gullible. And that’s why I did choose to tell you my story today,- because this can actually happen to everyone. And also,- last time, 10 years ago I didn’t tell anyone. Actually that’s not true,- I did try to tell some very few, but they turned their back to me. And I became a suicide candidate as well. Filled up with Shame and quilt. Short version why I turned to a suicide candidate 10 years ago: I had no idea to handle a fraud and a not very good partner at the same time, and I didn’t have anyone to talk to. The best solution seemed at that time to stop being in this world…..the challenge was- my kids- I’m still here because I couldn’t manage to leave them at the same time as I didn’t felt very much for living anymore either.

This time I’m not there,- I feel for living, but I’m not in the best place at the moment. And this time I don’t feel on shame, but despair. It has taken me a lots and offer of time to be able to save up this money- and in just a couple of hours when I was working they was gone.

So what did happen? How did I be exposed for a fraud yesterday? I’m going to try my very best to explain. And I do apologise if I forget something, I’m not myself today.

As some of you know our things and stuffs was delivered on my door this Monday. A bit unexpected, and a bit earlier then planned,- but okay. I had saved up half of the payment. Then I thought I should be effective and just “turn around” and sell the big things so I hopefully manage to save in a bit more for the moving transport. Actually more and less the rest what I’m missing.

I took photos and posted in a couple of sales online pages, and wow- it was a crazy response. I was so happy and a bit overwhelmed too. And I did felt a bit lucky as well. It actually seemed to go my way and I was going to be able to at least sell for around 1000 euro- instead I lots the twice.

There was 3 people in 3 different places in Spain that couldn’t pick up the things them self,- but wanted to organize “pick up” with FedEx, GLS and also something called Milanuncios. This last one is a buy and selling page in Spain. I didn’t knew they also delivered, but I don’t know all and everything in and about Spain. And I haven’t put my things for sale on this page either yet.

It showed also up a fourth delivery company too, and a fourth buyer- but at that time I had recognized that something was wrong. Maybe this fourth is a real thing, but I don’t know. It’s called Nacex Group. I haven’t checked it up.

4 people in 4 different places in Spain using 4 different delivery systems,- that’s possible, isn’t it? I know FedEx deliver from door to door, and I know GLS do too. But the thing is,- it was probably not the real deal of FedEx and GLS.

I have never used anything like this before so I don’t know how it works. But I got an explanation on email from 3 of them. Not quite similar actually, but still they needed my account and some of my credit card information to be able to transfer the money for the sale into my bank account. And my phone number and of course address as well for picking up the things. I also got a confirmation on email about date and time for picking up the things I had sold.

I gave the information about my bank account- two different accounts. I shouldn’t done that. And I did my job on my costumer service agent on the phone, and felt quite good actually. Some of the things was going to be picked up at 17. And some around 18.30. This was FedEx and GLS. This Milanuncios I did just gave up my address and phone number too, I felt I needed to find out if it was correct that this online selling and buying net page actually did delivered for people. But I couldn’t do that before after my job was finish.

I got different emails and texts on What’s up from Fedex and GLS, and the costumer as well, and tried my best to handle them inbetween my job. In the meantime the account with most of my money was tapped for money.

I have delivered it all to the police and the bank. I contacted them as soon as I registered that something wasn’t correct.

This person that “used” Fedex as a delivery company asked me to update him or her, I’m actually not sure if it was a he or she, when I had got the money into my account and the things was picked up around 17.00. This costumer I haven’t heard anything more from, but this FedEx are texting me a lot, and I can’t block them either because the police want to know what they are texting me.

And then it’s something they called simulation payment and wanted me to do a simulation payment so they new it was my account and me the money went to. Like a kind of verification. I don’t know what I simulation payment is- but the police could confirm that some companies use this kind of payment. For real, the bank confirmed it as well. But still I’m not sure what it is. It’s a kind of verification for to know that the seller is the credit card owner.

And this GLS was a lady in Sevilla, she texted me a lot. I have blocked her now.

In FedEx the sales was for around 500 euro and in GLS actually 630 euro.

But in some way they both suddenly told me that I was going to get 880 euro into my bank account. Two different persons, two different delivery companies, the same amount- I knew that was not correct.

When I did recognized that my bank account was empty and not with more money I asked FedEx, what did happen? And then it was this simulation payment, but I was going to get my money back,- 880 euro. They have empty my account for a bit more then 880 euro.

The lady wrote to me, wanted me to hurry up with different kinds of confirmation about the delivery and also wrote to me that I was going to get 880 euro into my account. That was not correct. And at time I was also starting to try to minimize the economic damage and situation, and was in contact with both the bank and the police.

I know FedEx deliver and pick up, but I don’t know how it is in function the payment from the costumer, or the payment to the costumer. You can call me stupid and “blue eyed”, gullible or a “simple soul”,- but don’t tell it to me. Tell it to yourself in your head. I have more than enough to handle myself now at days then also some other peoples judgement about that “I should knew better”. And I’m actually not sure how I could knew this better either. I have never used FedEx, I have not sold anything online in Spain before and I know it’s necessary to give my account information if I want to have money into it- but unfortunately that kind of information also can put you in a totally different and opposite situation as well- like I’m in now at days.

I know that 2000 euro maybe aren’t a lots of money for some people,- but for me it’s a bit actually. And it has been a lots of work for me to even get then, save them up.

There are so many different ways to pay for things in today’s society and to be honest I’m not familiar with most of them. And as more everything becomes more and more technical and more and more safe and secure, and even “easier” to use with all the different codes and things- for me it all seems and feels more and more unsecured and unsafe.

I have tried my very best to tell you what happen. I’m not in a very good place now at days- I don’t know what to do. And I’m really asking you to not write any comments to this text- I’m not in a place where I can handle negative comments at the moment.

And to be honest,- I feel it’s a kind of curse that lies over me when it comes to money and me and being exposed to fraud .I feel destroyed. I don’t know why this happens to me. I admit I feel like the worst person that in some or another way need to get this kind of treatment. Maybe I do deserve this? But I’m not sure why I do- but obviously I do. I feel I can work and work and work and try to save up. I’m not sure what wrong I have done in my life,- but today it feels like I have done something very wrong and need to get the punishment I deserve. I feel like a not very good human og person because this things happen- it’s probably a reason.

It will be a while until I’m writing in my blog again now- I’m not in a good place and need to try my very best to put myself together in one or another way. I’m not a suicide candidate this time- but I’m not in a very good place either. All my work, all my savings are gone. And I need to try to pick myself up again in one or another way- but at the moment I don’t know how.

It is not so easy to distinguish what is false and real In this online and technical world we live in.

I tell you my story because it so easy to be scammed and be exposed for fraud in today’s society- but still there are so many people who are judges and looks down on people who are exposed to this. I know there will probably be more then enough people who want to tell me “why, how, you should have done this and that and ect instead”. At least I did contact the police as soon as I understood something wasn’t correct, and the same with my bank.

I tell you my story, but I don’t like to tell it- sometimes it’s just necessary to tell things that’s happen in life, but aren’t good.

And ps- when I was writing my story I got a new sale- but this one needed to use DHL for delivery. I don’t know if this is a real sale- probably not.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧑 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧑

See you when I’m in a bit better place in my life πŸ€žπŸ™

All my small savings in a “just in case” box in my kitchen- and this one will be good to have now at days.

I’m not sure what to say,- but I’m not in a very good place now at days. The today’s society with all kinds of different payments possibilities and all the different security systems- that should make our life easier also makes it so much easier to be exposed for different kinds of frauds. Like I was yesterday. And then it all makes it all so much more difficult then easy,- that’s for sure.

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