It has been a bit difficult to be a bit “mammi” for my daughter lately 😳 💊🧪

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I haven’t seen my daughter for a while, – and it’s a reason for that 😳. Last time she and her boyfriend, Caprino, visit me was 8. July, and she was not quite “tipp- topp” that day, but I thought she maybe just was a bit tired 😴. And of course I did hug her that day, a lot too 😳….but after some days I was not so sure how smart that hugging was? 🤔

Just a few days after they had visited me she became sick, and texted me about the symptoms and how to contact the doctor and so on. This is just not typical her. In general she actually try to do her best to go or do her work even when she doesn’t feel very well, and she try to avoid the doctors as best as she can too. So she must felt very bad 😔.

I actually asked her if she wanted to come to me and stay in my home for some days and get some “mammi-love and care” when she was sick. I wanted to take a bit care of her, cut up apples into small pieces for her the way she likes so much to get when she is sick 🍏🍎. But she didn’t had the energy to come, and lucky for me actually, – and she also have a love and caring boyfriend, so he have taken care of her as best as he can during the last two weeks 🥰. And the best thing, at the same time strange thing,- her boyfriend hasn’t been as sick as my daughter so he could actually take good care of her too 🧡.

But I’m just a mammi, and I was suddenly in a “situation” where I actually wasn’t quite sure what to do. Should I visit her or not? Special because I wasn’t either sure why she was sick…..and what kind of sickness it was? Maybe she had got something “grumpy stuff” that I could get too if I was to close to her? 🤔

Should I visit my daughter or not? I was not sure what to do or how to handle the “situation” 😔.

In general my daughter answer my textes when I’m sending her a text on Messenger, What’s up or on Snapchat. But during this two last weeks she has been incredibly slow with the answering, and then the mammi heart gets a bit worried, special because I knew she didn’t felt very well 😳. At the same time,- she is a young adult woman, she lives on her own, well not totally, – she lives together with her boyfriend and their two cats 🐱, and have no reason to “update” the mammi “all the time”, not even answer me if it’s not a concrete question I’m sending to her. But we have the contact we have,’ so I’m actually used to answers from her, even on texts without any specific questions.

I did call her on the phone too, but she didn’t answer, just texted me “What?” back instead 😳. Oh my,- I knew something was wrong or she was really sick 😳. But what to do? Send her “all my love and heart and thinkg of you” at least 🧡.

She had been to the doctor several times, and today her doctor called me up on my phone 😳. I got the heart up in my throat 😳. But he just wanted to tell me it was incredible important that my daughter went to the hospital today as soon as possible, so then she did….and phu,- she was with me on the phone too 🙂.

She send my an video Snapchat where she also texted me “It’s never a good sign when you are put in the waiting room totally alone” 😳. And of course it’s not a good sign,- but at least she got the answer from the different testes she have been through,- and of course a version of the coronavirus just needed to drop by into my family too 😔.

A part of over “conversation” today, – but in Norwegian.

Actually I knew it could be something like this,- and that’s why I was so unsure what to do? Visit her or not? Taking care of her or not? And get the virus myself too 🤔? Nope, I didn’t want that either.

The result from my daughter’s test at the hospital today.

So it has been a bit difficult to be a bit mammi for my daughter thise two last weeks,- or that’s not totally true,- I’m always her mammi and it’s not difficult either 😅 , but this time I had no possibility to take care of her in any other way then text her and call her when she was sick and also needed a bit of the “mammi care and love” just because she was sick 🌹.

But that’s the way it is now at days when some or another version of the coronavirus are “tumbling around the corners” 😳.

To avoid more infection of the virus and spread it’s just to keep distance as best as we can, even when our young adults children are sick and you actually just want to visit them, hug them a bit and take care of them ❤. But the best was not to do that this time, in this situation, even I didn’t like it very much, and try my best to avoid any infection or spreading the virus in some or another way.

I really hope you do your best to avoid infection and spread the virus in some or another way. I know it’s not easy now at days, but to do our best is still better then nothing. Remember to keep distance, remember the mask ( I don’t like the mask- but Im still following the restrictions), and remember to wash your hands. And also try as best as you can to have as few “close contacts” as possible,- it’s actually helps a big that too. But yes I need to admit I do hug my contacts- my children, my friends,- even I know I can get and I can give the coronavirus by a hug.

Take as good care as you can, – that’s actually “all” we can do during this corona- situation. It is what it is, and we need to try to do our best in the situation we all are in 🧡. The best is always better then nothing 🌹.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon😊

My daughter, Mathilde and her boyfriend, Caprino, the last time they visited me before she got sick 🧡

I’m just a mammi, and I was suddenly  in a “situation” where I actually wasn’t quite sure what to do 🤔 ? Visit my daughter or not? Taking care of her or not 🤔? Lucky for me she have someone special in her life that takes care of her 🧡. Special because I actually just don’t want this “grumpy stuff” that’s are “around the corners ” now at days 😳.

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Just enjoying my first holiday in my holiday week 🏖🌞

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today is my first holiday in this holiday week and … yes, in this holiday home too 😅. I’m living in a holiday home and I actually have holiday too at the moment 😍. Perfect 😁.

I’m going to start in a new job in the beginning of August, and in that case I needed to “take out” one holiday week before I’m starting in the new job,- and then it became this upcoming week 🌞.

Enjoying my first holiday in my holiday week and my holiday home as well 🌞

And my first holiday I have just enjoyed. First no wake- up call, just slept to my body obviously was finish sleeping. A lovely feeling to wake up when I was ready to wake up 😊. And then a nice breakfast outside in the sun on my roof terrace, and then actually some freelance work when there was a bit “speed” in my internet (yes, I know- dont work when it’s holiday… 😅but this is some work I need to do and don’t mind to do if I should manage to reach some of my goals 😊 …. so it doesn’t quite feels like work 😊).

I have prepared a nice meal/ meat for some barbecue too, and I have spent some hours on the beach as well 😊.

The meat getting ready for some barbecue later today, with some fresh herbs from my “garden” 🌞.
It takes me just some very few minutes to go to this lovely beach 🏖.

Reading, relaxing and listen to music. I can’t read with sunglasses anymore, I actually need to use glasses 🤓. But with my eyes and nose in the book and the sun on my back it’s “in function”. That’s the way it is when I’m getting older 😅. I know I can get glasses with sunglass- function, but at the moment it’s not necessary. That day will probably come soon enough 😊🤓.

My book, my glasses and some music on the ear too 🎶🎵
The meat getting ready on the barbecue 🍗

It’s a first time for everything,- and this weekend was actually the first time I have barbecue on my own, just for me and myself. I have barbecue a lot, but never to just myself. It was not to bad to just be me, but of course it’s a bit nicer with good company 😊.

But this “just me”, or actually do different kinds of things on my own, alone without my children, is something I’m going to “learn” now. It’s a bit scary, but I have already manage a couple of things, so I will probably manage a bit more too. I don’t know what “all and everything” I need to learn to do on my own are yet, but I will probably soon enough find out 😊.

I have learn to shop food without my “babyducks” following me in the food store. I have been at the beach several times on my own, and I have moved to a new place,- just me 😊. I have even travel to Madrid, without any kind of “company”.

I know for some people this things I have “learned” to do without my children around me sounds very strange, but I have actually had from one to three of my children around me more and less “all the time” for 27 years. So for me it’s actually a bit strange to not “share” or “do” normal things without one or two or three of my kids around me 😊.

I remember I told my son in the middle that there was days I really was looking forward to live alone and didn’t need to pick up socks or towels in the sofa, or go on glasses and plates “hunting” in my children’s rooms, but I forgot that when the socks, towels, glasses, plates and so one was “gone”, my children was gone too 😅.

This is a so normal situation for mostly every parents when their children are moving out. It’s a situation we are sometimes really looking forward to, but we aren’t always “prepared” on how it will be after the children are “out of the nest” 😊.

Anyway,- I’m going to do the best of this holiday week I have in front of me 😊. The first day was not to bad at all 😊🌞🏖.

I’m going to use some days on “just me” now because I actually need it, and there’s not to many plans for this week either. And that feels great 😊. I have a couple of things I need to do, but I can choose when I want to do them, and I’m going to invite some friends over too, for maybe some barbecue or maybe just some snacks, but great conversations will it be anyway 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A tasty homemade barbecue meal together with a cold glass of Tinto de Verano 🍷

I’m have enjoyed my first holiday in my holiday home in my holiday week 😊🏖. Breakfast outside under the sun, some hours at the beach, even some barbecue in the evening too 🍗🍷. And of course some thoughts about “living on my own”, having young adults children that’s living their own lifes now, and I need to learn to live just my life now 😊.

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One month with the beach 🏖😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It’s around one month since I moved to the beach, or more correctly in a holiday home very close to the beach 🏖. A holiday home that’s going to be my home for the next around 9 months 😊.

I have been here already a month. The time is “flying”, at the same time I have actually manage to “squeeze” in a bit of “this and that” this month too 😊. Moved to a new place, and also starting to get things in a kind of “order” in my new place too 😊. I have cleaned and organized the old place and given the keys back to the owner. I have done my jobs as best as I can, even dropped by my blog a bit more often as well 😊. And also had some guests in my new home too, and even baked a bit 😊. I have finished and delivered glassbottles, and visit my friend and her newborn baby at the hospital as well 😊. I have also been at the beach a couple of times, even stolen some sand from the beach to have in my plants and in the umbrella “foot” so that one shouldn’t fly away with the wind 😊.

But I feel I have just “been” here during the last month, not lived. It’s just lately I feel I’m starting to live here. But obviously I have in a way “lived” if I take a look around me and think about what I actually have done during the last more and less, 4 weeks 😊.

For me it’s a different between “be” and “live” 😊. And now I feel I’m slowly starting to live in this home, get some of my daily and weekly “routines” “back in business” again,- and in a bit I probably also will be more ready to work for my “bigger plans in my life” too 😊. I haven’t them “all” figured out yet,- but I think that’s normal and natural 😊. They will “find” their place little by little 😊.

It’s the first time in my adult life I actually organize and facilitate a life, an everyday life with only myself in and no children in it 😊. It feels very, very strange, and even sometimes I feel I do something “wrong” to make plans or something like that without my children or at least telling my children, or “included” them in some or another way 😅.

I need to learn that, that now my life is a bit more about me, and I don’t have any special duty to report to anyone and everyone about what I do or do not do. ( ….except from the fact that I’m actually writing a blog about “my daily life” and share that ome with everyone 😅).

Sometimes it is a bit scary this new era in my life, this “just me- era”, because I’m not always sure what to do with it,- even it can seems like I’m, and that I have “a lots” of “big plans” and “it all figured out”,- but I haven’t, and inbetween I’m actually “losing” it a bit too 😳 😅. And menopause and getting older scares me a bit too, but what to do?

And like I mention a while ago, when I was “packing down” 7 years of our life in the other home,- who to create new memories together with? Who to make plans with? Create new experiences in life with? Share memories with? And share plans and experiences with? My readers? 😊 Of course I’m going to do that- share with my readers, but…. it could and would be nice and great to have someone else too, to share things and stuffs in my life together with 😊. At the same time as I know I’m not ready for a relationship either. But I have some great friends around me, and my kids are here too, just not in the same way as before 😊.

I feel a bit lost without my children, but it’s nice too, to just be me. I’m probably more lost without them, then they are without me,- natural enough 😊. And I’m know I’m going to learn to live my life without them around me on daily basis as it was before they became young adults and moved into their own homes 😊. I just don’t think it’s “learned” to do during some weeks or just a couple of months 😊. It will take a bit more time 😊.

I feel more ready now to start enjoying my life close to the beach, sort things out and start to find a kind of new “road” to walk. I just need to be patient, and remember that “all and everything” takes time 😊.

And it’s incredibly nice to listen to the waves before I go to sleep in the night as well as waking up to in the morning 🌊😊. And I like to live so close to the beach too, and have the possibility to enjoy the beach when I want, but it could be a bit less people around me,- but we can’t get it all at the same time, can we? 😅😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It’s a fantastic view from my roof terrace 😊

It’s already a month since I moved into the holiday home close to the beach 🏖. I have been here a month, but it’s just lately I’m started to feel I’m living here too, not just being here 😊. It takes a bit time to learn to live with a new lifesituation, like for example not living together with my children anymore 😊.

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A new tiny “mystery” to solve 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been working with my freelance work today, and my internet has been soooooo incredible slow 😳. Slow internet gives me more working hours then I actually had in mind. Instead of answering 30 messages in 45 minutes I manage maybe 10 messages in 45 minutes, if Im really lucky, because I wait and wait and wait 😳. And I get impatient, resigned, a little stressed and actually a little bit moody too 🙄.

My oldest son has been very engaged in my internet today and tried to help me out as best as he could from the mountains. He actually managed to speed it up a bit too. Half speed is a bit better then closely no speed 😊. But it still takes time, and we have also used a lots of time to just speed the internet up a bit today 🚤.

And then I needed a break inbetween my work, special because of my mood 😅. And on my way up to the roof terrace for taking a break I “jumped” into a tiny little “mystery” 🤔.

Tired and moody, and not to creative when it comes to photos or write a text today I chose to actually use video instead of writing to much. That’s actually something I feel a bit more comfortable to do after sending in a video application, I also have shared with “all and everyone” online 🎥😊.

Hmmm…..? What’s under this? The biggest question is actually how did this come here? 🤔
This is not an advertisement, therefore including a cross over the “object”.

So let me take you with me on a tiny little video “round” – so I actually can show you why this became a tiny little “mystery” 😊

Just me….on my way to take a break on my roof terrace 😊
Then the tiny “mystery” “shows up” 😳
….and my “conclusion” on the “mystery” 😊

I think someone has been sitting in one of the windows in one of the apartments in the apartment building close to my home with a cigarette,- and probably the cigarette packaging did fly away from the window and down in my “stairs room”. That sounds at least most logical in my mind. What do you think?

I have mention this before, and I’m mention it again,- we create our days, and if we take a tiny look we can create something “exciting” out of something not very big now and then too 😊. My children has actually teach me this,- special my oldest,- he could create a fairy tale from closely nothing when he was a child 😊.

My moody day became a bit more fun and exciting just because of this tiny package on my stairs 😅. I could probably create a bit more about or around this too, but I leave it to this today 😊. I have some other work I need to do as well ….and as you know with a half speeded up internet too 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊

The Roof close to my stairs and my roof terrace,- but I don’t think anyone has been walking over this today. It doesn’t look very safe, and also a bit complicated and to much work for “throughing” a tiny package on my stairs 😊

We create our days, and sometimes we even can create a tiny little “mystery” in or out from our day 😊. Like I did today 😅. If you are a bit curious what my “mystery” was, you are very welcome to read my text 😊 … or actually watch my text today. It’s more video today then written words 😊.

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Starting packing down a bit🏡 🧰

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have actually started a bit to “clean up” the house and pack down things and stuffs a bit 🧰. I know I’m not going to move before around the 17. June, but I like to have it a bit organized around me, and it’s a bit off things and stuffs that has sampled up during 7 years too and with 2- 3 children in the home as well 😊. And it’s also easier to clean the house when it’s empty.

I don’t have my own car at the moment either so I need a bit help from my children, friends and a moving company too, to move as well. Then it’s good to have it “all” as ready and organized as possible. Also because I need to do my jobs inbetween too. Both my customer service agent job, my teaching job and my freelance work as well. And to be honest,- I do my work best in a organized and tidy area, environment and atmosphere 📝. So I want to have it tidy and organized around me in this soon old home too until I’m moving 😊.

I’m in way not going to “move in” into the new home even I’m moving into a new home. This new home is more for a period for maybe 6 or 12 months, and I just need my clothes, toiletries, my jobs and my hobbies available in my new home.  Everything else is already there. So my own “everything” I can just keep in boxes and bags for a while.

My new home it’s not a place where I’m going to “settle down”. It’s a place where I’m going to live and stay for a while, and maybe take a better look behind this new door that’s open up in my life?

Then it’s good to just pack down the things and stuff I don’t need for a while, and organize the things I’m going to use and need to use in my daily life for the next weeks and months 😊.

I also need to think my jobs in the moving process because I’m working from home at the moment, and I’m probably going to work from my home until the end of July. So my work need to be organized in the moving process in a way that makes it possible for me to do my work too in between the old home and the new home, and without losing to many working days in my freelance online job and my teaching job 😊. In my customer service agent job I will get two paid moving days, so I’m not to worried about that one 😊.

It’s a bit sad to pack down 7 years of ower life, my children and my life. It’s like I’m literally packing down a period in my life that’s over now, and it won’t come back ever again either 😔.

But it’s a lots of good and funny memories too, at the same time it’s just a bit sad too at the moment, because I don’t have any one to share the memories together with when I’m packing. No one to smile to and laugh together with over “old memories”, because my children aren’t here to share them with me. It’s just me. And most of the “memories” I’m packing down it’s memories between my children and me. But this is a part of the process I’m going through. This is a part of the life. A part of the midlife.

But I need to admit it has made me think a bit about this “dating” and relationship I have “put on hold” for a while. It’s actually nice to have someone to create and share memories together with …. but at this point I just leave it to that. Now I need to focus jobs and packing, and maybe, but just maybe I take a look at my “dating” decision, and maybe reconsider it….but just maybe.

I have thrown away a bit things, and some of the things I’m going to let just stay in this home, and some stuff I have started to give away to friends that want or need some of the things I don’t need anymore.

I’m actually half way to “cleaning up” and “packing down” this home, our life, so I feel I can relax a bit for some weeks now, and continue focus on my jobs and my hobbies until the “real deal” moving day 😊.

I feel more relaxed at the moment then I have felt the last 2, maybe 3 weeks. And it is because I know where I’m going to stay for a while, and because I have it a bit organized around me again, and because I know it’s not to much left to do when it comes to the next “step” in the moving next month 😊.

I know myself so well that I knew this was something I needed to do, even it’s a month until I’m actually moving 😊. Now the atmosphere around me is tidy and organized in a way that makes me do my jobs in a good way, and I feel more comfortable in this, maybe a bit “stand by” period in my life 😊.

It’s a process, and it’s okay, and it’s good to feel and think about this new “door” in my life, as well as it is a bit sad to slowly close a “old door” in my life too. Mixed feelings. Mixed thoughts.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Some of our things are already ready for moving when the moving day arrives 😊

I have started to pack down some of my children and my things and stuffs 🧰. It feels a bit sad, and it was a bit strange too not have anyone around me to share different memories that “showed up” under the packaging 🥀. It’s around one month to I’m going to leave this “old” home now 🏡.

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