Just enjoying my first holiday in my holiday week 🏖🌞

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today is my first holiday in this holiday week and … yes, in this holiday home too 😅. I’m living in a holiday home and I actually have holiday too at the moment 😍. Perfect 😁.

I’m going to start in a new job in the beginning of August, and in that case I needed to “take out” one holiday week before I’m starting in the new job,- and then it became this upcoming week 🌞.

Enjoying my first holiday in my holiday week and my holiday home as well 🌞

And my first holiday I have just enjoyed. First no wake- up call, just slept to my body obviously was finish sleeping. A lovely feeling to wake up when I was ready to wake up 😊. And then a nice breakfast outside in the sun on my roof terrace, and then actually some freelance work when there was a bit “speed” in my internet (yes, I know- dont work when it’s holiday… 😅but this is some work I need to do and don’t mind to do if I should manage to reach some of my goals 😊 …. so it doesn’t quite feels like work 😊).

I have prepared a nice meal/ meat for some barbecue too, and I have spent some hours on the beach as well 😊.

The meat getting ready for some barbecue later today, with some fresh herbs from my “garden” 🌞.
It takes me just some very few minutes to go to this lovely beach 🏖.

Reading, relaxing and listen to music. I can’t read with sunglasses anymore, I actually need to use glasses 🤓. But with my eyes and nose in the book and the sun on my back it’s “in function”. That’s the way it is when I’m getting older 😅. I know I can get glasses with sunglass- function, but at the moment it’s not necessary. That day will probably come soon enough 😊🤓.

My book, my glasses and some music on the ear too 🎶🎵
The meat getting ready on the barbecue 🍗

It’s a first time for everything,- and this weekend was actually the first time I have barbecue on my own, just for me and myself. I have barbecue a lot, but never to just myself. It was not to bad to just be me, but of course it’s a bit nicer with good company 😊.

But this “just me”, or actually do different kinds of things on my own, alone without my children, is something I’m going to “learn” now. It’s a bit scary, but I have already manage a couple of things, so I will probably manage a bit more too. I don’t know what “all and everything” I need to learn to do on my own are yet, but I will probably soon enough find out 😊.

I have learn to shop food without my “babyducks” following me in the food store. I have been at the beach several times on my own, and I have moved to a new place,- just me 😊. I have even travel to Madrid, without any kind of “company”.

I know for some people this things I have “learned” to do without my children around me sounds very strange, but I have actually had from one to three of my children around me more and less “all the time” for 27 years. So for me it’s actually a bit strange to not “share” or “do” normal things without one or two or three of my kids around me 😊.

I remember I told my son in the middle that there was days I really was looking forward to live alone and didn’t need to pick up socks or towels in the sofa, or go on glasses and plates “hunting” in my children’s rooms, but I forgot that when the socks, towels, glasses, plates and so one was “gone”, my children was gone too 😅.

This is a so normal situation for mostly every parents when their children are moving out. It’s a situation we are sometimes really looking forward to, but we aren’t always “prepared” on how it will be after the children are “out of the nest” 😊.

Anyway,- I’m going to do the best of this holiday week I have in front of me 😊. The first day was not to bad at all 😊🌞🏖.

I’m going to use some days on “just me” now because I actually need it, and there’s not to many plans for this week either. And that feels great 😊. I have a couple of things I need to do, but I can choose when I want to do them, and I’m going to invite some friends over too, for maybe some barbecue or maybe just some snacks, but great conversations will it be anyway 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A tasty homemade barbecue meal together with a cold glass of Tinto de Verano 🍷

I’m have enjoyed my first holiday in my holiday home in my holiday week 😊🏖. Breakfast outside under the sun, some hours at the beach, even some barbecue in the evening too 🍗🍷. And of course some thoughts about “living on my own”, having young adults children that’s living their own lifes now, and I need to learn to live just my life now 😊.

#children #movingout #mammi #raisingup #growingup #gettingolder #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #thougths #holiday #holidyahome #beach #sun #enjoyinglife #barbecue

I have actually said yes to a date 🥀😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

My plan was actually not to date for a while, and it has also been a very long time since I have been on a date too. But I did say yes to a date this weekend. I still don’t feel very “ready” for dating, but I have known this man for seven years, and I know we have different things to talk about too, something that’s good to have when you are on a date. And we, in our own way, did “date” for around three years before we stopped dating four years ago.

So that’s one of the reason why I said “Yes, I want to go out on a date with you”. Because I know him, we can talk together and have different things to talk about too. And the other reason,- well,- to be honest, it could be nice to be hugged and cuddled a bit with, and get some nice and positive attention too 😊. And dress myself up a bit as well. And at least I know “what I get” from him, this date, both in the positive directions as well as the bit less positive directions too 😊.

And yes,- it’s my “old” neighbour, the Spanish policeman who asked me out for a date 😊. He is actually not “old”,- I think he is maybe 6 or 7 years younger then me to be honest. So I’m the “old” one here 😅.

He is, as I mention, a policeman, and in his job he is in contact with a lots of different people ….. people with and without the coronavirus too 😳. And he has got thise two “magical” vaccines related to the coronavirus and Covid19 as well, just because of his job, but still he needed to cancel our date this weekend and be in 10 days of quarantine because of the contact with a person who had the coronavirus 😳.

He did tested negative on the first Covid19/ corona test, but positive on the second one, just two days after. So now it’s 10 days home alone together with his two cats for him instead of being on a nice and cozy date together with me 😅. …(…but I actually don’t understand the vaccine “concept” if it’s this way it’s in “function “?🤔)

So here I’m standing dressed up and ready for a cancelled date 😳. A date I actually was looking forward to. What to do then? 🤔 Send a online “request” “all over the world” and ask if someone else wants to date me a bit this weekend?😅😊

I’m just kidding,- he did let me know about the quarantine long before I did dressed up and got ready for dating 😊. I’m actually just dressed up for some shopping and fixing internet a bit, nothing more, nothing less 😊. It’s judt nice to dress up now and then even for some shopping too, and hopefully I can “charm” the internet guy so much that my internet speeds up a bit as well 😊.

So instead of dating this weekend I’m just going to work a bit with my freelance work, and enjoy the sun, the beach, the sand, the ocean, and my roof terrace as well, a lot 🌞🍷. Just relax and taking care of myself 🧡. Easy peacy 😘.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I like to dress up a bit, maybe even more now then before 😊 Getting ready for a date… or just shopping 😉

So here I’m standing dressed up and ready for a date 😳….a cancelled date because of a positive corona test,- but it was not my test. What to do then? 🤔 I’m just going to relax and taking care of myself instead 🧡. Easy peacy 😘.

#date #dressedup #Covid19 #lifeis #cancellation #thecoronasituation #dating #coronavirus #quarantine #lifeischanging #protection #weekend #relaxing #enjoyinglife #vaccine

One month with the beach 🏖😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It’s around one month since I moved to the beach, or more correctly in a holiday home very close to the beach 🏖. A holiday home that’s going to be my home for the next around 9 months 😊.

I have been here already a month. The time is “flying”, at the same time I have actually manage to “squeeze” in a bit of “this and that” this month too 😊. Moved to a new place, and also starting to get things in a kind of “order” in my new place too 😊. I have cleaned and organized the old place and given the keys back to the owner. I have done my jobs as best as I can, even dropped by my blog a bit more often as well 😊. And also had some guests in my new home too, and even baked a bit 😊. I have finished and delivered glassbottles, and visit my friend and her newborn baby at the hospital as well 😊. I have also been at the beach a couple of times, even stolen some sand from the beach to have in my plants and in the umbrella “foot” so that one shouldn’t fly away with the wind 😊.

But I feel I have just “been” here during the last month, not lived. It’s just lately I feel I’m starting to live here. But obviously I have in a way “lived” if I take a look around me and think about what I actually have done during the last more and less, 4 weeks 😊.

For me it’s a different between “be” and “live” 😊. And now I feel I’m slowly starting to live in this home, get some of my daily and weekly “routines” “back in business” again,- and in a bit I probably also will be more ready to work for my “bigger plans in my life” too 😊. I haven’t them “all” figured out yet,- but I think that’s normal and natural 😊. They will “find” their place little by little 😊.

It’s the first time in my adult life I actually organize and facilitate a life, an everyday life with only myself in and no children in it 😊. It feels very, very strange, and even sometimes I feel I do something “wrong” to make plans or something like that without my children or at least telling my children, or “included” them in some or another way 😅.

I need to learn that, that now my life is a bit more about me, and I don’t have any special duty to report to anyone and everyone about what I do or do not do. ( ….except from the fact that I’m actually writing a blog about “my daily life” and share that ome with everyone 😅).

Sometimes it is a bit scary this new era in my life, this “just me- era”, because I’m not always sure what to do with it,- even it can seems like I’m, and that I have “a lots” of “big plans” and “it all figured out”,- but I haven’t, and inbetween I’m actually “losing” it a bit too 😳 😅. And menopause and getting older scares me a bit too, but what to do?

And like I mention a while ago, when I was “packing down” 7 years of our life in the other home,- who to create new memories together with? Who to make plans with? Create new experiences in life with? Share memories with? And share plans and experiences with? My readers? 😊 Of course I’m going to do that- share with my readers, but…. it could and would be nice and great to have someone else too, to share things and stuffs in my life together with 😊. At the same time as I know I’m not ready for a relationship either. But I have some great friends around me, and my kids are here too, just not in the same way as before 😊.

I feel a bit lost without my children, but it’s nice too, to just be me. I’m probably more lost without them, then they are without me,- natural enough 😊. And I’m know I’m going to learn to live my life without them around me on daily basis as it was before they became young adults and moved into their own homes 😊. I just don’t think it’s “learned” to do during some weeks or just a couple of months 😊. It will take a bit more time 😊.

I feel more ready now to start enjoying my life close to the beach, sort things out and start to find a kind of new “road” to walk. I just need to be patient, and remember that “all and everything” takes time 😊.

And it’s incredibly nice to listen to the waves before I go to sleep in the night as well as waking up to in the morning 🌊😊. And I like to live so close to the beach too, and have the possibility to enjoy the beach when I want, but it could be a bit less people around me,- but we can’t get it all at the same time, can we? 😅😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It’s a fantastic view from my roof terrace 😊

It’s already a month since I moved into the holiday home close to the beach 🏖. I have been here a month, but it’s just lately I’m started to feel I’m living here too, not just being here 😊. It takes a bit time to learn to live with a new lifesituation, like for example not living together with my children anymore 😊.

#living #newhome #being #aholidayhome #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #lifesituation #midlife #beach #lifeis #thelife #thougths #thedailylife

Do I have a plan? 🤔😊🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have got this question- “Do you have a plan?” a bit more then just a couple of times now after my children moved out from my home.

I’m not sure why I get this question ? 🤔 Don’t we all have one or another kind of a plan or three, maybe even more in and for our life? I had a plan before I became a mammi, some other plans in my life when I raised up my children, and some new plans now. But, yes, my different plans has changed a bit during both the years as well as when different things has happen in my life, as well as in our society. I think that’s normal? This changing in our plans? And it’s not even always we are changing our plans either, but things around us happens so the plans just changes a bit “on their own”.

So yes I had a plan, and I have a kind of a new plan too. Actually more then just one 😊. I just don’t like this question ” Do you have a plan?” to much, but that’s probably because I have got it a lot during the lasts months. And I can’t give any other good questions either, then just “Yes, I do- I do have plans, I just need to sort out a couple of things first”. But sometimes this can be a bit irritating question to get 🙄.

My plans at the moment goes a bit from day to day and not very much longer then one week at the time. Because the plan I had was not included any kind of moving this year, but obviously “someone” else had that plan for me.

So at the moment I feel I need to find a new “foothold” in a way in my life before I can start to work with to many and to “big” plans in my life. I felt I lost my “foothold”, the kind of “foothold” I had both when my children moved out as well as when I needed to move from one place to another too. It’s not there anymore, the “foothold” I had, but my “plans” are, my dreams, goals and wishes too. I just need to find a new and other way to try to “reach” them as well as work for them.

I hope that’s normal, and I hope that’s also okay that I don’t have “all and everything” in my new life and lifesituation “sorted out” at the moment?

I have plans,- a lots of plans too, in different forms and shapes and sizes and also area in my life 😊. But at the moment I choose to get my breath a bit back before I “get to work” with to much and to big plans 😊. Is that okay?

I have even created my own vision board some years ago with different goals, dreams, plans and wishes I do my best to reach in one or another way 🎨🤞🙏. And now and then I need to change something there, the plan, the goal or the way to reach what I want to reach 😊. But that’s fine, that’s okay, that’s the way it is. Then I try to create a new plan for my dreams, goals and wishes 😊.

Do you get this question a lot “Do you have any plans?” If you do,- do you tell “all and everyone” your different plans? Or do you just say “Yes, I do” or “No, I don’t”? And do you like to get this question? I’m fine with the question in general, but for some reason I have got it a lot the last months, so I’m a bit tired of it, special when my plans are in their own way are changing a bit too without to much help from me 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My vision board – filled up with plans, goals and wishes I do my best to reach little by little, step by step 😊

I have different plans in my life, dreams, goals and wishes, but sometimes they are changing a bit to yo another direction then I had in my mind 😊. Then it’s just to try to “follow up” as best as I can 😊. I have even my own vision board so I can work as consciously I manage to reach my goals, plans, wishes and dreams 😊.

#visionboard #dreams #plans #wishes #goals #gettingolder #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #positivefocus #differences #imagenation

Cheers and Congratulations to the 17 candidates and finalists 😊🍾🍇🍷

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today I want to say cheers and Congratulations to the 17 finalists and candidates who have been selected for the interviews at Murphy Goode Winery in California 🍾🎉.  Well done, and so deserved 🍷🍇. And no,- I’m not one of this 17 finalists and candidates,- and that’s fine 😊. But I was one of the over 5000 that’s applied for the job 😊🍷.

Of course I really should wish I was one of the finalists 😊, – but wow🎉 ,- when I have seen what the different finalists can offer and their creative and incredibly good video applications I understand why exactly those was chosen 😊🍾. So Congratulations and all the best wishes for the interviews 🧡. They have some very exacting days and weeks in front of them 😊. And one of them even a more exacting year 🍾🍇🍷.

The painted white wine bottle with red wine grapes I used in my video application 🍷🍇.

But it was fun for me to create a imagination, illusion and dream around this job,- and I did actually learn a couple of things about myself under the process too 😊. And it was exacting to be a tiny part of the process even it was a very tiny part 😊.

I’m not so “worried” anymore to take video of myself and share it online. And I also know I just need to keep up my dreams, wishes and hopes and work as best as I can to reach them 😊.

One of my dreams is to create, see a result, progression and product of my work. In one way I’m already doing that when I’m teaching, because I in general see progress in my students. But I’m not sure for how long I want to continue teaching. I’m more in the create and creative “corner” in my life now, – a “corner” where I have a tiny little wish for something else I can’t explain….but it’s a feeling “inside” me ….. that I want to do and work with something else now, something new and different then before. But maybe this is just the menopause “talking” too? 😳 ( ….because this menopause has a bad habit to confuse me a bit now and then….🙄😳). I don’t know, but I will probably find out one day 😊.

I did also see progress, not always of course, when I was working in the home nursery, but to be honest, after being a costumer service agent on the phone for around 1,5 years for elderly ladies now…….. rude, very rude elderly ladies, I’m not very tempted to go back to the home nursery job again 🙄. Sorry, but that’s true. We can talk about young people’s not always to good behaviour, but there’s many elderly people who can’t behave very well either 😳.

My first plan now is to find peace in my new home, and slowly find out who am I when it’s just me in my life and no children to take care of anymore. I have some months in front of me now to “sort things out”,- and that feels actually very good too 😊. I’m relaxed, and in it’s own way a bit relieved too. It has been some hectic months, but now I can get my breath a bit back again 😊.

I thought and hoped that I maybe could be a wine- maker of any kind in California 🍇🍷, but obviously the destiny have something different and else for me somewhere there in the future 😊. At least I choose to believe so 😊.

Maybe it’s painting colourful and creative “one of a kind” winebottles instead of tasty wine making?😊🍇🎨

Anyway,- Congratulations to the 17 finalist at Murphy Goode Winery 🍾🍇. Good luck to them all 🍷🧡. And I,- I take one step at the time, or maybe even two know and then, and then the “road” in front of me will probably and hopefully be open, little by little 😊🛣.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

This winebottle is a gift to someone in Norway,- and its soon ready for a “travel” to Norway and the one I painted it too 😊🍷🍇. I just needed to borrowed it for my application 😊.

The 17 finalists and candidates for this great fine wine job in California are know chosen 🍾🍇. And I’m not one off them, but in it’s own way this has been a very nice experience for me, both to apply, and the process before the application as well as after 😊. So Congratulations to the 17 finalists, and Good luck with the interviews 🧡🍾.

#inspiration #imagenation #interview #application #job #dreams #congratulations #goodluck #process #experiences