The keys to some new “adventures” and experiences 🗝😊🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have got the keys to my new place I’m going to have as a my home for awhile 🗝. And it feels actually a bit like a kind of a freedom to get the key, even I can’t explain why I feel it like that, like freedom.

And I feel I’m standing to a kind of start to some new adventures in my life too, but I have no idea what kind of adventures it is 😊. But I’m a bit excited, I need to admit that 😀. And I’m very tired- heard that one before?😅 And there will be some new experiences for me too, and I can “spoil” myself a bit as well. Spoil my self with just time to use to what ever I want and not just work in income for be able to pay for the next expenses that’s “waits around the corner ” 😊.

An adventure can at the moment closely be anything for me 😅. My days and weeks has mainly been working, sleeping, eating, packing and painting- I need to have a kind of timeout inbetween here 🎨. And wow, I’m surprised over how much I have manage to paint too 😳😀. It’s like the paint brushes has just “flying over” some different glass bottles when I’m “timing out”. I will show you when I’m a bit orginazed in my new home 😊.

An adventure for me at the moment don’t need to be any “big things”. This moving- process is just a new adventure in my life in it’s own way. And at the moment it can also be to read a book under the sun at the beach or the terrace. Or enjoy a glass of wine together with some friends. Last time I did that was in the end of March I think 😳. Or just visit some friends, or just enjoying my writing time in my blog…..or maybe even send an application for a job to the other side of the world? Or maybe get a visit and two from my neighbour from the area I’m living in at the moment?😊 Or something else I don’t know about yet.

I don’t need any big adventures in my life at the moment, just a bit different daily life and routines then I have had for more and less the last months 😊.

And here you can get a tiny tast from the terrace and the beach where I’m going to live very soon 😊

It will be a very new experience for me to move without having any of my children with me. I have never done that before. Well,- at least not after I became a mammi.

I haven’t had the best time to really “feel” about this “living without my children”- situation lately, but I need to admit that it was a bit hard and empty when my last baby duck moved out. But I didn’t get a very much time to feel about that one or this “start line in menopause” lately either before things changed in my life and my plans needed to change too😅. But maybe that’s a good thing? To not have to much time to “feel” to much on this empty feelings to live without my children anymore?

I have paid the first rent for my new home, as well as the last rent for my old home 😊. And it feels great 😊. It felt probably most great to pay the first rent for my new home. Not just because it is to my new home, but also because it was to Natasja, and not someone I don’t know 😊. And it’s so much easier to turn around the key to the door to my new home when the rent is paid. So during this weekend I’m going to move bags and boxes, because my oldest son’s girlfriend is so nice that she has borrowed her car to me so I can move a couple of things during the next days, and don’t need to use a moving car for two trips, just one trip 😊.

It’s strang how much and how many things and stuffs there are in wardrobe, cabinets and drawers 😳. It was a period I thought this house never should be empty from our things and stuffs, but now I see an “ending”,- and more and less everything are packed. It’s just some necessary things left now.

And I’m so so ready to move now, and so so tired of working and working and working 😴. But soon, in just a week or two things hopefully will changing a bit and I can use my time to a bit more exciting things then just work 😊.

This was just a tiny “drop in” from me today. I’m still here, but, unfortunately, not as much as I want to be at the moment 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😘

The key to my new home 🧡🏡

I have got the key to my new home, and maybe the key to some new adventures too? 🗝 Most of our things are packed and I’m ready for some new adventures and experiences in my life 😊. At least I hope I’m ready …. but I can not be sure yet. I was not ready for this new turn and a bit unexpected “moving- process ” in my life when that one “showed up” a couple of months ago 😅 – but now I’m more then ready 😊.

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Starting packing down a bit🏡 🧰

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have actually started a bit to “clean up” the house and pack down things and stuffs a bit 🧰. I know I’m not going to move before around the 17. June, but I like to have it a bit organized around me, and it’s a bit off things and stuffs that has sampled up during 7 years too and with 2- 3 children in the home as well 😊. And it’s also easier to clean the house when it’s empty.

I don’t have my own car at the moment either so I need a bit help from my children, friends and a moving company too, to move as well. Then it’s good to have it “all” as ready and organized as possible. Also because I need to do my jobs inbetween too. Both my customer service agent job, my teaching job and my freelance work as well. And to be honest,- I do my work best in a organized and tidy area, environment and atmosphere 📝. So I want to have it tidy and organized around me in this soon old home too until I’m moving 😊.

I’m in way not going to “move in” into the new home even I’m moving into a new home. This new home is more for a period for maybe 6 or 12 months, and I just need my clothes, toiletries, my jobs and my hobbies available in my new home.  Everything else is already there. So my own “everything” I can just keep in boxes and bags for a while.

My new home it’s not a place where I’m going to “settle down”. It’s a place where I’m going to live and stay for a while, and maybe take a better look behind this new door that’s open up in my life?

Then it’s good to just pack down the things and stuff I don’t need for a while, and organize the things I’m going to use and need to use in my daily life for the next weeks and months 😊.

I also need to think my jobs in the moving process because I’m working from home at the moment, and I’m probably going to work from my home until the end of July. So my work need to be organized in the moving process in a way that makes it possible for me to do my work too in between the old home and the new home, and without losing to many working days in my freelance online job and my teaching job 😊. In my customer service agent job I will get two paid moving days, so I’m not to worried about that one 😊.

It’s a bit sad to pack down 7 years of ower life, my children and my life. It’s like I’m literally packing down a period in my life that’s over now, and it won’t come back ever again either 😔.

But it’s a lots of good and funny memories too, at the same time it’s just a bit sad too at the moment, because I don’t have any one to share the memories together with when I’m packing. No one to smile to and laugh together with over “old memories”, because my children aren’t here to share them with me. It’s just me. And most of the “memories” I’m packing down it’s memories between my children and me. But this is a part of the process I’m going through. This is a part of the life. A part of the midlife.

But I need to admit it has made me think a bit about this “dating” and relationship I have “put on hold” for a while. It’s actually nice to have someone to create and share memories together with …. but at this point I just leave it to that. Now I need to focus jobs and packing, and maybe, but just maybe I take a look at my “dating” decision, and maybe reconsider it….but just maybe.

I have thrown away a bit things, and some of the things I’m going to let just stay in this home, and some stuff I have started to give away to friends that want or need some of the things I don’t need anymore.

I’m actually half way to “cleaning up” and “packing down” this home, our life, so I feel I can relax a bit for some weeks now, and continue focus on my jobs and my hobbies until the “real deal” moving day 😊.

I feel more relaxed at the moment then I have felt the last 2, maybe 3 weeks. And it is because I know where I’m going to stay for a while, and because I have it a bit organized around me again, and because I know it’s not to much left to do when it comes to the next “step” in the moving next month 😊.

I know myself so well that I knew this was something I needed to do, even it’s a month until I’m actually moving 😊. Now the atmosphere around me is tidy and organized in a way that makes me do my jobs in a good way, and I feel more comfortable in this, maybe a bit “stand by” period in my life 😊.

It’s a process, and it’s okay, and it’s good to feel and think about this new “door” in my life, as well as it is a bit sad to slowly close a “old door” in my life too. Mixed feelings. Mixed thoughts.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Some of our things are already ready for moving when the moving day arrives 😊

I have started to pack down some of my children and my things and stuffs 🧰. It feels a bit sad, and it was a bit strange too not have anyone around me to share different memories that “showed up” under the packaging 🥀. It’s around one month to I’m going to leave this “old” home now 🏡.

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I’m ready for new “adventures” in my life 🌏😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I got my new passport some days before Easter, and it was an incredible good feeling 😊. It felt in a way like a kind of freedom to get my new passport, get rid of the 10 last years, and get ready for some exacting 10 new years 🥰.

Please, misunderstand my correctly,- I have had so many incredible, amazing and fantastic experiences and “adventures” during the last 10 years I will carry around in my heart like precious treasures 👑. I have got friends for life during different experiences during this last 10 years. And of course I would never been without those and them 🧡. But…..there is a “but”, I should wish it wasn’t, but it is…..and that’s life.

Maybe it sounds strange, but I felt like I in a strange way got a part of me back, just me with this new passport 😊. There’s no one else “connected” to this passport then just me, my life, my new adventures in my life, my new travels in my life, – both physical and mental.  Trips that I have to take in both thoughts, soul and mind, and also bodily journeys.  And maybe even eventually some physics travel to other destinations as well 🌏.

Maybe one day I will be standing between magnificent vines in California 🍇, and hopefully there will be trips to Norway so I can hug my middle son 💙. And also meet familie and friends in Norway too. I don’t know at the moment where my different physical travels will be,- it’s just to wait and see what’s happen in the future 😊

This is my adventure in my life. I will meet people who will join for a while for teach me something in life. And I will meet people who will join me for longer period as well as people who will be in their own way with me in one or an other way during the different “travels” I’m going through “from the beginning to the end” 🥰.

But there will also be travels and adventures I need to take and do on my own. Like some of this mental travels for my mind, thoughts and soul.

My body is slowly changing because I’m standing on the start line into that “age”,- this menopause, and I know I need to start with some serious workouts and exercises to keep my body and mind as healthy as possible during the age- process. And the body is slowly changing to even I like it or not,- and just that is a “travel and process” I need to learn how to “handle” 🤸‍♀️😊.

And when my body is slowly changing something also happens in my mind, eith my thoughts and in my soul too 💛.

An adventure in life can be so many different things, and be done in so many different ways 🛍.

What I do know is that I have some interesting and incredible, knowledge and wise, fun and fantastic adventures and travels in front of me without knowing exactly what they are 😊.

And my new passport became a very symbolic part of this “new start” and new adventures I have in front of me. As well as a very symbolic part of what’s behind me.

I needed to renew my passport around the same time as my last child moved out from my home. I’m also standing on the starts line straight into menopause,- both “things” are a kind of “life- changing” process in life,- if I can call it that 😊. And in this process new things in life are dropping up and by in different ways and directions, – like a kind of adventure and travels in my life 🤸‍♀️. And,- it’s actually 10 years since I dropped into a seriously “big bump” in my life. A “bump” I’m incredibly happy to not have I my life anymore, – but if course, and unfortunately it has affected me and my life.

In general most people are not to happy with their passport photo, and I need to admit I haven’t liked my passport photos either before 😊. But this time I really like my new passport photo😊.

I was not allowed to smile or show my teeth, and needed to remove as much hair as possible from my face. I have been sleeping for over two hours on the train to Madrid, and I walked from the train station in Madrid to the Norwegian ambassador in “drumsticks” speed to reach my schedule passport appointment. It took me around 30 minutes to walk, but I haven’t a clue where to walk or not quite sure how long the walk would take,- still I manage it (with a good help from Google maps 😅). I was tired and so hot/ warm 🌡,- but still we made it in one shot this passport photo too 😅.

I like my passport photo. It’s me, a mature woman ready for some new “adventures” and “travels” in my life,- both literally, mentally, emotionally and physically 😊. I don’t know what kinds of travels or adventures I will meet yet, but that’s fine 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I’m ready for some new travels and adventures in my life 🥰

I got my new passport, and in it’s own way this passport became also a symbolic “passport” for me 😊. Im ready to do and start on some interesting and incredible, knowledge and wise, fun and fantastic adventures and travels in my life, without knowing exactly what they are 😊.

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A nice glass of wine, good memories and great conversations 🍷😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m trying to enjoy my life in between my work and work,- and did spent a really nice afternoon together with a good Norwegian friend of my, over a tasty glass of white wine 🥂.

A tasty glass of white wine together with a friend 😊

It has been a while since we have been meeting up, but that’s because of something called coronavirus, restrictions and actually also this “age- process”. This “age- process”, also called menopause, does now and then, something with the “need” of socialisation- but we can drop by that subject an other time 😊.

We both have been single mams for our children for many years. She have two kids- a girl and a boy, and they are at the same ages as my two youngest.

Our children went to the same school, and also spent some of their time off from school together. Her son and my daughter was actually young sweethearts together too 🥰. I know her children and she knows all my 3 children, so it feels a bit familiar too. And our daughters are working together now at the same company as well 😊.

So we have a bit to talk about, both good memories and in so many ways the same experiences too, and of course the life in general…..and well, we did drop by the menopause too 😅. Maybe natural enough since we are both “tumbling” around in this strange and new “age- process”. I’m in the early beginning and she is slowly reaching a kind the “end” of menopause. I think she is around 10 years older then me,- and I’m grateful for having the possibility to ask her different questions about this “getting older process” 😊. But I’m more grateful for just spending time together with her, have a glass of wine and nice conversations.

It was a really nice afternoon over a glass of white wine together with a good friend, good conversations and some good memories too 😊.

I did walk down to the centre and I had a nice walk home as well. I actually did what my kids did teach me when we was for a walk, trip or travel. They did teach my to enjoy the moment, take a look around and just create something out of the walk, trip or travel- like a tiny small adventure in the moment, – if you understand what I mean? 😊.

You know how kids can ask different questions, – like what, when, where, why and so on. It can actually be a bit irritating to be honest 😅,- but when I started to just “enjoy” my kids curiosity, their joy over small “experiences” on the trip, and just looking around me, the trip can contain many small, nice and on its own way exciting details.  Details my kids taught me to look at and enjoy with their various questions and curiosity 😊.

And I had a walk like that on my way back home this afternoon after a glass of wine together with my friend 😊. I actually made a choice to try to have a walk like this on my way home, a walk like a tiny, tiny adventure 😊.

I enjoyed the flowers, and I enjoyed the view over the tivoli and the colours over the sunset. I meet actually a a peacock too on my way home, and I did drop by the food store and bought me a pizza ….with pineapple 🍍. Because suddenly it dropped my mind that I can eat my pizza with pineapple now when I’m living on my own and don’t need to share the pizza together with my daughter ( who not like pineapple on the pizza) 😊.

So yes,- I had a really exciting and nice afternoon,- met up with a good friend, had some good conversations, and in my own way I actually was on a tiny “exploring walk” on my way back home 😊.

Like I have mention before, it’s not the “big things” that’s actually “create” the day, or even the good memories,- it can just be the tasty glass of wine together with a friend, or the nice flowers in the road, or be able to enjoy pineapple on the pizza 🍕

It’s just to try to take a look around, but I also know it’s not always easy to “just” take this look around, see or realise the or those good moments in the day. I don’t think that myself either, but I’m trying my best, because it gives me a bit more good and positive feelings 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Look what I manage to “explore” and enjoy on my 20 minutes walk home 😊. I’m enjoying my life as best as I can 🧡

I’m enjoying my life as best as I can 😊. I’m enjoying the flowers in the road as well as the tasty glass of wine together with my friend 🥀. It’s not always easy to see the tiny small details that actually can create the day 😊. And some of this “possibility” to enjoy the details in a day did my kids teach me with all their curious questions when they was children,- and now I’m trying to the the same in my own way 🦋😊.

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My first week on my own 😊 … again 😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m living alone …. again. All my 3 babyducks has moved out… again…and it’s seems that it’s going to be like this for a while now 😊. But I never know, I don’t know what next week or month will brings, but I assume that “this is it” now 😊.

My oldest son are living in the mountains and is very happy with his life. His friend has also moved back to the mountains, so my mammi- heart is a bit more relaxed now when I know it’s not just him and his dog, Zorro, alone “up there” fare away from people 💙. My oldest son enjoy his work, and he/ they have also extended the contract of the home they are renting. So it looks like they’ll be living there for a while 🏡.

My son in the middle are living in Norway, and he is soon ready to finish the driving licence, and then he is “on the road on his own”, literally 🚙. I think he really is going to enjoy to have his own driving licence 😊. He have also got permanent employment contract, and I’m very, very happy for him 💙. So he is not going to be back in Spain for a while, except from hopefully for a holiday and two 🥰. But when? I don’t know, I just know I miss him a lot, but as long as I know he is happy in his life, my mammi- heart is happy too 💙.

And my daughter, she is enjoying her life in Malaga sourrende by her friends, living in an apartment she likes to live in, and she have a job she really enjoys and also an permanent employment contract 🧡. She is very good to “update” me about her life with sending me Snapchats, something I’m very grateful for 🧡.

And then it’s me 😊. Been on my own for a week (again). But it feels different this time, at least I think so? All my three children are happy in their life, something that makes me incredibly happy for them all ❤. But I’m not sure where in my life I’m at the moment 🤔. I’m fine, and I’m okay, and probably in it’s own way I’m in a way happy too, but I have been thinking a lot about “my life” this last week. But I have no “solutions” for my own life yet 😊. It takes a bit more then a week to find my “new” place in my life 😊. But of course I’m thinking a bit about the future, my future, and what and where and so on. But one day at the time 😊

I don’t feel lonesome, but I’m alone and I’m lonely, and that’s find. At the moment it’s my choice to have it like this. I need it 😊. At the same time I’m a little restless inside me without knowing why, and I’m not completely calm in my new life- situation yet ….. but it’s only been a week- I’m a little impatient.  I have to learn to be patient with myself 😊. But I feel like I’m in a “no – man’s country” at the moment 😳.

I’m not going to do a lots of changes in my life to fast, the different changes are coming “crawling” anyway 😊. And I don’t think there will bring me any good with to many changes to fast in my life either 😊.

My work- situation as a costumer service agent on the phone is not going to change for some months. Something I’m very happy for 😊. I got this message last week. A very nice surprise, and it makes it a bit easier for me to take “the turns” in my life I need to take a bit more in my own tempo. With that means, – I’m still going to work from my home for some more months and for the same department as well 😊. Phu! ,- I’m very happy I don’t need to do any changes there for a while 😊. I’m actually happy it’s not to many changes at the same time, to be honest 😊.

I know I need to create some new plans, routines and a kind of dynamic in my life, both daily, weekly and monthly. With good plans and routines it’s also a bit better to reach different goals 😊. It hasn’t been easy to “keep up” my plans “for running” in a stable way for a longer period when people moving in and out in my home,- but I think there will be a break from that for a while now, something that will hopefully and probably be easier for me to have plans and special be able to doing my plans for more then maybe 6 or 8 weeks at the time, and then have a 3 months “break” 😊.

I want to create a good plan for workout and exercises, and I want to have a better plan for my online freelance work too. I want to use time on painting, knitting and writing- do some better and more work in my blog, and I need to create my own study plan for language. But one step at the time 😊. And I want to have time to my family and friends as well. And I actually think I will manage “it all” as long as I’m not “rushing” “it all”, but give myself the time that I feel I need and is correct for me 😊.

And yes,- for some reason some of my friends really want me to start dating again 🤭. Some are trying to arrange different kinds of dates for me, but the thing is,- at the moment I’m not ready for any dating. Im actually not very interesting in dating now at days. It’s a bit more important for me to spend time to “meet this me” without the “mammi- me” just “the me”, then find/ meet a boyfriend at the moment 😊. I don’t miss a boyfriend or to be in a relationship now at days. A “friend with benefit” could be nice to have, but it is what it is at the moment, and it’s fine for me 😊. But of course I presage my friends good thoughts, I’m not just “there” in my life now 😊. When, or if, I’m ready for this dating thing again I can create a “position vacant/ available” in my blog instead and see how that goes 🤭😅.

It’s good to be alone, but it’s a bit silent in my home 😊. I miss my children, to just have them around me, but I don’t miss to be a “service station” for my kids, or to live together with them on permanent basis any more 😊. I like to have just my own mess, and I like to be able to just listen to my music, the music I like, and not just different music in the different floors 🎵🎶. It’s less clothes than needs to be washed, less dish wash and less mess, no socks in the sofa and I don’t need to nag, and I can be moody totally alone,- that’s good too 😊.

Anyway,- my first week alone has “contained” just me, my work as a costumer service agent, my freelance work, some necessary stuffs like shopping food, washing clothes and the dishes, eat, sleep- oh my- I have been so incredibly tired 😴,- and a lots of thinking 😊. I’m not able to share all of my thoughts with you yet, because I haven’t managed to “organize” them in a good and structured way in my head yet 😅,- they are at the moment just different thoughts “tumbling” a bit around up there on the top until they find their “places” 😊.

And I’m going to continue to share as best as I can in my blog about both my thoughts, my “new” life and other small and big “happenings” in my life 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Just me, – Laila, thinking a lot and trying to “sort” out my “new” life 😊

My first week “on my own” has been actually that,- on my own alone, doing my jobs, thinking a lot 😊. But I have no “solutions” for my own life yet 😊. It takes a bit more then a week to find my “new” place in my life 😊. But of course I’m thinking a bit about the future, my future, and what, how and where and so on. But one day at the time 😊

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