Someone “has” “Friday the 13th”, I think I “had” “Monday the 13th” 😳

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

First of all I need to say I had a really great time together with my friend from Norway 🥰. It was good to see her again and “chat up” after so long time 🥰. And I hope I will get some more guests from Norway during the summer, but first of all I need to sort out some private challenges and issues.

For some people Friday the 13th is a kind of unlucky day,- but for me I think it’s Monday the 13th. Or maybe not unlucky, but challenges. In Spain it’s Tuesday the 13th, or some say also Monday the 13th, that is the “famous unlucky day”- so I’m actually not sure what’s correct. For me it feels more like it’s Monday the 13th that is a day that have this “touch” of this unlucky stuff.

Anyway,- I need to admit this day haven’t quite been my favourite day today. Actually it has been a day with different uncomfortable feelings. So I do feel it has been a bit like a “unlucky the 13th….Monday “.

My private computer collapsed, there’s no life in it no matter what I’m trying to do. That’s not to good, because I do my freelance work on that one,- a job I’m a bit financially dependent on having a while ahead. And I can’t buy a new one at the moment either because…..

…..also today all our things and stuffs suddenly was delivered on my door. I was not prepared for that one, and not my wallet either 😳. And I was really not prepared for the mental and emotional reaction either- that one was really hard. It was hard to “get” our life in Norway after so long time “delivered” on my door. Our past, memories- a lots of great and good memories,- but it’s because of bad memories and experiences all our things are here now. And I was not prepared it was so much things and stuffs either.

I’m very grateful my oldest son is “just around the corner”- because it became a bit to much for me to handle alone today- emotions, thoughts, feelings and worries, tears, so many tears,- and how to manage pay for this? I had a plan- but that one did work out. I haven’t payed for it yet- and that doesn’t feel very good either. It shouldn’t come yet,- and now I feel a bit like I have stolen my own things and stuffs, and past. Not a very good feeling that one either. Hopefully that feeling will past- and solutions showing and coming up too. And hopefully a solution will come very soon. I’m really trying to find a solution.

Luckily there’s different things we can sell- but how fast will it be possible to sell them?

I should also pay for the water to day, but that wasn’t easy to do. A old house with a old payment system, and they couldn’t find my home or the water bill in the system- that one felt very uncomfortable too. Will they turn off the water now? I really don’t hope so.

And then it’s also a strike in my job today at the customer service senter. Strike for higher salaries. I’m very agree that we need to get a bit better / higher salary,- but still it feels a bit like I have done that one illegal today- to not log me on the phone and do my job. I can’t say I felt it was like a great day off from work- more like a day where “all and everything” just “happen”, things I didn’t wanted or wished for to happen. I don’t like to be away from my job when it’s not because of holiday or illness or a legal approved appointment I have and have the right to be away from my job. I didn’t enjoy this day off from work at all for. It feels like i’ve skipped my job today, something I don’t like. So hopefully at least the salary will be higher- but I don’t know.

If it’s something that really stressing me out it’s when I don’t have the overview over the economy. I thought I slowly was getting there now- but with this computer crash, not be able to pay the water bill and also for our things and stuffs- phu- it’s stressing me a bit. And no- at the moment I have no overview over the situation at all.

In one way of course this day also was a good day just because of the reason that our things and stuffs from Norway actually are here now after so many, many years in Norway. And I know that,- but I need to admit that today I have a tiny challenge to see that and feel that. Feel happy and grateful- I feel most sad. Really , really sad, and I do cry too.

At the same time I also was “off from my job” today because of the strike when suddenly all our things was “standing” there. If I have been working I haven’t been able to take them. So maybe something with this day have a kind of meaning, I just don’t see it all yet 😊.

When I have got a bit more control and economic overview it will be better. It will feels better,- but today I’m not ready for any nice and great holiday guests from Norway- but I will be- I just need a tiny bit of time to sort things out a bit first 😊. The economic situation and when I don’t have the control and overview and don’t see the solutions- I don’t like that, it’s stressing me. Even I know it’s not “the end of the world”- it feels a bit like that for me.

And of course I know for many people my day, my unlucky Monday the 13th, and this different experiences and challenges doesn’t feel so much and so big and so challenged- and I understand that- but for me it feels like a tiny mountain with (money) challenges around me today.

And then just to “top it a bit more” my television stopped loading, the chrome caster didn’t wanted to cast, and I suddenly didn’t have any access to my blog either 😅. But both of that ones are fixed now. But of course then even tiny little small things that goes wrong can feel like a tiny mountain to move, and to get things correct again.

And I needed to write this today,- not for complaining- even I know I’m doing that- but in a way write a kind of distance to the things that’s feels a bit challenging and difficult today. And to be honest,- I do feel a bit more calm down then for just a tiny while ago- even I still not have any solutions or overview. I’m actually grateful for the strike today so I was able to take our things and stuffs into my home. And of course I’m grateful for that the things actually are here. And hopefully solutions will come for my private computer, the water bill and the payment for our things too.

Thank you so much for just letting me “squeeze a bit out” on “the paper” today- it helped a bit to be honest 🧡

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😊

I’m trying to smile as best as I can- but I do feel a bit chaotic inside me today 😊

For some Friday the 13th is a unlucky day, for me it felt a bit like Monday the 13th was a bit uncomfortable day, with a touch of some lucky stuffs. But at the same time touched with some things, happenings, feelings, thoughts and emotions I was not prepared for- lucky ones at the same time as it feels a bit challenging too.

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A tiny blue toast for new adventures 🥂😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

My daughter has moved out from my/ our home, again, and this time we both are pretty sure it will like this for a time, that we will have our separate homes in the future, but still be in each other’s life 🏡.

It feels good to be “on my own” , at the same time as I need to admit it felt a bit empty without her 😊. But this is the way it is and will be, and it’s fine for both her and me 😊.

We had a tiny little blue toast before she moved out. A blue toast for new adventures in both our lifes, probably very different adventures, but still adventures for us both. Adventures we both are looking forward to experiencing even we have no idea what kind of adventures that are in front of us 😊. But I think it will be some good adventures 💛.

A blue toast for new adventures 🥂

I can say we choose the blue toast because of the symbolic for the blue colour 🎨, but that’s not totally true . It became blue because I need some more glassbottles to paint on, and this one was the cheapest and had also the lowest alcohol level 😊.

Non of us had any need for a lots of “bubbles in our blood” 😊. She was going to move the day after and a bit early in the morning as well, and I was going to work. And this toast also was more a symbolic toast for us A toast for the time we had spent together as well as for the time we have in front of us 😊.

My daughter has this time arranged everything on her own. No help from mammi. She had found the apartment on her own, and arranged the moving with a separate moving car too. I don’t have a car at the moment, but she did find a solution on her own 😊. She has also packed and organized her things on her own, without interference from me. I’m just a mammi so it’s sometimes a bit to difficult to not interference, but I manage to “keep calm” 😅.

2/3 of my daughter’s things and stuff- organize without any interference from me 😊

We was both a bit tired of living together now. I think probably because we knew it was closer and closer to “the moving day”, and also because we are different. We arrange our home and life differently, something that’s also very natural, even we are mammi and daughter. But we are anyway in different stages in life.

It’s small things that can irritate us. Like for example what is mess in my eyes it’s not mess in her eyes. But all in all I need to say,- this living together period has went incredibly well. No fighting or yelling, just a bit “grumping” now and then 😊. And some of this “grumpiness” it’s my “mistake”. It’s this “menopause” and things that can irritate me for actually no reason 😳. I haven’t been like that before 🙄. But to be honest,- I think I have manage to “deal” with my grumpiness in a okay way, and my daughter too 😅. ( It’s going to be good to be grumpy totally alone now, no need for “put my self together” when I’m grumpy 😅).

Plants I have growing up for my daughter 🌱🍀

When my sons moved out their first time they got a basket each filled up with food and soft drinks for around 50 euro each. Food and soft drinks like juice, pasta, different sauces, snacks, ect.

When my daughter moved out her first time she didn’t get anything from me because we knew she was going to move back home for a while 6 months after. But when she moved out again the Autumn 2020 she (and her now ex-boyfriend) got 2 cava and the plan was also to give her (they) some plants I had been growing up for them. But because of the different restrictions I didn’t manage to give the plants to her before she suddenly was back home to my home again. But this time she got the plants with her in the moving car 😊.

To have some plants in the home create the home a bit more homely, and plants creates also a different and good atmosphere 🌳. At least I think so 😊. And plants in their own way represented “growing” 🌞.

I did gave my daughter something else too, as “a moving out gift”, a bit like a kind of a basket filled up with food, but instead of a basket filled up with food she actually got a “food box” where I have put away 5 euro for every week we has been living together this time ( it became 13 weeks) , and I also put a notebook and a pen into the box📝.

As a single mammi I have in general needed to think economic, and one of my economic priorities has been how I shop food. In general I shop food once a week, and I actually have a “food box” in my kitchen with the weekly amount I/ we in general need for food. And then I write down on a shopping list what’s necessary to buy for the next week of food and drinks.

In general this has function very well, except from the last 18 months when I have had a lots of “moving in and out” traffic in my home 😊. It’s not easy to “balance” the food, drinks and money to use when there are different types of people living in my home 😊. But this is actually a good way, at least for me, to have a bit control over the economy.

And I have tried to learn my children this tiny little “trick” of saving money too 😊.

My daughter’s new “food box” to have in her kitchen and keep the weekly amount of “food money” and a pen and a note book to write down what she need to buy for the next week. And 2 sweet chocolate bars too and a matchbox is always good to have 😊 And 7 plants as well to her new apartment 😊.

I’m not rich on money, but I’m creative 😊. And my daughter was very happy and grateful for this “Congratulations with your new home” gift from me 😊.

Ps 1- my first days “on my own” has not yet been on my own 😊. My oldest son, his friend and my son’s dog dropped by, and then a friend of me dropped by after they had left 😊. And Ps 2- I’m really looking forward to get a bit control over my own “food box” in my kitchen again, as well as be able to save a bit on both the electricity and water too now- it is what it is to live together with someone else, but I’m looking forward to get a bit more control over my own economy again 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My daughter’s “food box” to her new kitchen 😊📝

Me and my daughter had a symbolic toast together the evening before she moved out 🥂. A blue toast for new adventures 😊. And she also got some tiny “Congratulations with your new home” gifts from me, maybe symbolic in their own way? 😊📝🌳 Plants for “growing” and a “food box” for economy ? 😊.

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