Am I without traditions and culture? 🇧🇻

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

This week was the Norwegian Constitution day 🇧🇻, and I used this day as a day off from “all and everything” for a tiny little while 😊. I could have celebrate together with some friends in Benalmadena as well as some friends in Fuengirola, but I did choose to just rest this day, in the sun,- and it was not to bad at all 🥰.

I’m still a bit low on energy, but slowly the energy is coming back now,- and that’s feels so great 🥰.

Marius, my oldest did work, Ruben did celebrate in Norway together with his friends, and Mathilde did her work together with a tiny celebration in Bali 🇧🇻. It’s make me happy to see my kids still do a bit of some of our traditions and Norwegian celebrations 🥰.

In a way I have “lost” many of this kind of Norwegian and family traditional and cultures celebrations during the last years. Some of the “losing” actually started before I moved to Spain. They started when I was in the relationship that wasn’t to healthy for my mind and soul up there in Norway. And, unfortunately, I haven’t managed to keep up with to many of my Norwegian traditions and the traditions I did grow up with after I/ we moved to Spain. I have tried, but slowly it’s a bit like the time, the daily life in a “new” country and the life on it’s own has in its own way slightly “erased” my/ our traditions.

I feel a bit “naken” , or more correctly, I feel my life is a bit “naken” without the traditions and cultures celebrations I did grew up with. At the same time I’m in a place in my life now where I need to find a kind of new rhythm when it comes to the traditions and cultures celebrations I had in Norway, because I’m not in Norway anymore.

I’m was perfectly fine in the sun during the Norwegian Constitution day this week 🌞. But of course I also did gave this traditions and cultures celebrations a thought and two. Am I without any specific traditions and cultures celebrations now? 🤔

If I have been in Norway I had maybe celebrate the Norwegian Constitution day,- I think, but I’m not sure- because who to celebrate the day together with in Norway? Everyone have their own to celebrate together with,- family and friends, and of course Ruben was and also had been together with his friends this day,- natural enough 💙.

And that’s also an other reason why our traditions and culture celebration are the way they are at the moment,- because we all four ( me and my three lovely children) are in different places in our life at the moment,- and also have been during the lasts years. We are trying to find our way in each of our lives, while walking a little next to each other as well ❤💙💙❤.

At the same time as we actually have created and made a kind of celebration during the Christmas- time as well as the Norwegian Constitution day, and my children’s birthdays too, and some few others traditions from our Norwegian culture. Not in the same way as we did when we did live in Norway,- but a kind of celebration in our own tiny, but nice and cozy way 🥰.

My birthday is many years since I did celebrate,- the exception was this year 🥰. Ruben did visit me/ us here in Spain the week I had birthday,- and we did celebrate my birthday together with just be together, order food delivered to the door ( a luxury on it’s own for me 😊) and we did watch a good movie together,- a cozy and in it’s own way,- perfect birthday, with the most amazing birthday present ever,- a surprise visit from Ruben 🎁❤.

In one way I do miss to celebrate our culture traditions the way we did in Norway when we did live in Norway. I miss family birthday parties, and other family “events”,- at the same time as I’m actually not sure I do “fit” in “there” anymore.

Some weeks ago two teenagers in Norway that I’m an aunt too, celebrated their baptism. I need to admit I did send them a lots of good thoughts for their day. And I also wondered how it had been to be there together with them, celebrate together with them and the family. At the same time as I think I don’t fit in “there” anymore. I have been away from “it all” a long time. I think I have felt very uncomfortable to be there, to be honest. They live their lives, I live my. And I feel different from them, a bit like an “outsider”.

At the same time as I do miss the different “old family culture traditions and celebrations” I don’t miss it, because we are not in Norway anymore,- and we need to try to find our own way to celebrate at the same time as we keep some of our “old” celebrations and create our new traditions and celebration “touched” with our culture in a new area in our life. Like make and create something that suits us as the family we are now, with something old and new traditions together in a way that’s best for us 😊.

I know my children have the tradition they did grew up with in their heart, mind and soul, and I have them too. Something Im very grateful for ❤ . They are just “resting” a bit, this traditions and cultures celebrations, and I think,- slowly when all four of us have found more our new places in our life we will get our new traditions and celebration together with some of the old one 🥰. I’m not worried about that,- this is a part of the life,- the different changes in life 🧡. But of course I at the same time will say I do miss now and then what was,- long time ago up there in Norway 🤗. What I’m incredibly grateful for that I and we have a lots of amazing memories together from different cultures and traditions celebrations in Norway 🥰. And good memories are gold worthy,- and really something to build something new on when the time is there 😊🤗. I have probably not missed the culture and traditions celebrations from Norway if they wasn’t some fantastic memories 🧡.

I like culture and traditions celebrations,- if not I have probably not miss them or given them to many thoughts. It’s like I also like the regular routines in the daily life 😊.

So no,- I’m not without traditions and cultures celebrations,- they are still there inside me, just “resting” a bit,- and slowly I’m, together with my children, are going to create our culture and traditions celebrations up again, build from something old and something new 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Me ,- the photo is taken on the Norwegian Constitution day this week,- after a lovely rest in the sun. And I’m without any kind of makeup,- it’s in its own way represented like I sometimes feel my life is a bit “naked” without traditions and cultures celebrations.

I’m not without traditions and cultures celebrations even it feels like that sometimes 🇧🇻. They are there inside me, in my heart, mind and soul, they are just “resting” a bit until we find our own and new way to celebrate the different traditions and cultures event with something new together with something old 😊.

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Very much for very little ❤📦 😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

In February my sweety pie of a daughter was on holiday in Norway. She visited friends and family before her travel went to Bali 🏖. But before Bali she had a ” longer stop” in my home again for some more weeks 😊.

Unfortunately, or maybe I should write, typical 😅? But Mathilde manage to forget her wallet in Norway. And in there was her cash, her Spanish bank card, her train ticket and her Norwegian bank card as well 😳. So she did travel from Norway to Spain without any kind of money, but luckily for her she managed to let me know 🙏. Thank you so much for internet and mobile and different social media channels we can chat on 🙏.

My plan was actually not to pick her up at the airport, because the train goes directly from the airport to our home, but without any kind of money, what else could I do ? 🧡 And parents do a lots for their children,- I know because I do as much as I’m available to do for mine three sweethearts 💙💙❤. As I for example did for my daughter today as well 😊. And my parents also did for me,- I know they did a lot for me ❤.

Her best friend in Norway did send the wallet to her in the mail addressed to Spain….and it was sent in the middle of February. And Mathilde did wait and wait and wait for her wallet to come in the mail to her here in Spain. And it did…..for just a couple of days ago 😅. And just in case it was sent to a post office in the centre of Malaga, around a 30 minutes train trip from our home, and a tiny walk for 15- 20 minutes from the train station too (and of course 15- 20 minutes back to the train station as well) 🚂. But before I went to the post office I needed to go the her work office in Malaga and pick up this “pick up note” to get out the wallet from the post office. And then back to her work office and deliver the wallet there 👛. Because one of her colleagues is going to Bali in June and visit the office “down there”,- and then he also can bring the wallet back to Mathilde 👛.

So it has been a bit running from one place to another place and back again today 😅. And when I had the chance I also brought with me some summer dresses he can take with him to Bali and Mathilde……it’s the summer dresses that doesn’t fit me anymore 😳👗.

But this tiny little wallet I did buy in the store for 3 euro to Mathilde in January this year, has now cost a bit more to both get it “down” to Spain as well as out of the post office 😅. Okay,- one of the card in the wallet is also an ID card to Mathilde, so that one I can understand it’s of a bit value for Mathilde,- but the two other ones are already replaced with new ones 😊. And the cash,- well she can’t use euro in Bali anyway. But obviously this wallet, this tiny little “piece” have a bit more “value” then 3 euro for Mathilde. Maybe because she got it from me?🥰 ( …at least I can believe so 😅). So of course I did what I could for her today so her wallet will be back in her hands around closely 5 months after she “lost” it 🧡.

Look at this tiny little wallet- that was forgotten in Norway and then went on a 3- 4 months travel to Spain before it hopefully will be in Mathilde’s hands again in the middle of June ,- but then in Bali 🙏🤞

But like I mention, this tiny little wallet did I pay 3 euro for, but to get it “back” in the correct hands again has been a bit bigger cost and challenge, to be honest😳.

Mathilde’s friend in Norway payd 50 euro for the post sending, something we of course transferred back to her account. And then I needed to pay 35 euro to get the wallet out from the post office today 😳. I knew it was around 35 euro cash in the wallet, but that did help me very much 😅. Because I needed to pay them before I could get the wallet. And just in case the post office only accepted cash, no card, so I needed to find a ATM and then go back again to the post office and try again.

I had also my passport, my NIE, a copy of Mathilde’s passport and NIE, and just in case her birth certificate too 🙏. The post office was most interested in my passport and her’s birth certificate. The rest they didn’t use one second on 😅. Mathilde had also written an email to the post office,- a kind of confirmation that I was going to pick it up this mail for her. That one was not necessary, they have probably not read it yet either,- but okay,- its better to be safe than sorry 😊.

So like I told Mathilde today,- it has been a bit of work and costs to manage to get “back” her tiny little wallet, and it’s still not in her hand. Cross fingers for that her colleague remember to bring it with him to Bali in June now🤞. Then, when, or maybe if it comes to Mathilde in June, this tiny little wallet has been on one of a trip as well as “the value” is a bit higher then 3 euro now,- it has cost a bit more then that, so Mathilde should get it back 😊🧡. And hopefully she doesn’t loose or forget to much, like wallets or mobiles, in the future. Hopefully a lesson and two has been learned? 🤞🙏

And yes,- of course I did this for her today,- I’m still not sure why this wallet have the kind of value it has for her,- I didn’t ask,- but I think one of the reasons is her ID, even she already have one kind of ID, and then I also can create my self my own imagenation that’s it’s because she got it from me 🥰😅. But as a mammi, and daddy and parents, we do a lots of small and big things, and sometimes very much for very little for our children ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Look how tiny this wallet is,- is closely at the same size as my hand 😅.

As parents we do a lots of different kinds of things for our children 🧡. And sometimes we do very much for very little,- like I did “run” around in Malaga after a tiny little wallet that has use 3-4 months from Norway to Spain,- so my sweety pie of a daughter hopefully can get it back in her hand in June,- but then in Bali 😅🤞.

#mammi #raisingup #growingup #gettingolder #challenges #movingout #dailylife #emotions #feelings #beingamammi #outofthenest #mydaugther #unconditionallove #wallet #parents #travel

Something strange has happened to my clothes 😳

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Yes,- it’s true- something very strange has happened to my clothes lately 😳. Many of my clothes doesn’t fit me anymore. They are actually to small 😳. How did that happen without me notice it? 🤔

Or….maybe it’s me, and not my clothes something strange has happened too?

I know it is a kind of joke to say the wardrobe shrunk the clothes. But you should not ignore the fact that something like this actually happens when you reach a certain age. The wardrobe act strange too during menopause. That’s for sure,- even my do.

One of ny favourite shorts for the Spring and summer,- and last summer I needed to use a belt in this. This summer I can’t even button it together.

I have noticed during the last months that some of my winter clothes was started to be a bit thigh “here and there”. But to be honest I thought maybe it was because I had wash them a bit to much, or in to to high temperature or something like that. And new washed and clean clothes also sometimes have the habit to be a bit to thigh in the beginning. But it’s not my clothes that has changed- it’s my body.

I found my clothes for the summer and….wow….there was at least half of them that was to small, to thigh. Didn’t fit my body at all and anymore. I can’t actually not use them. I can’t actually not get some of them on my body even when I’m trying, and if I get them on I had big challenge to get them of me, it felt like they was glued into my body 😳. It’s shorts and dresses, tops and trousers, even blouses and skirts. Phu! I was seriously not prepared for this.

And one of my favourite skirts,- I didn’t even manage to “move” it over my hips,- and last time I used this was in October 2021.

I know it is natural that the body is changing and also to put on some weight when we comes to a certain age,- but I was not quite yet prepared for this 😅. Like I mention I’m in the pre perimenopause, not menopause, and thought maybe this body changes came in the menopause, or after. But obviously not.

Last time I was on my bathroom weight I was a place between 56- 58 kilos, and I think that was maybe in December or January. I don’t remember, but it’s a while ago. And today I’m 63, 5 kilos. Where did they come from? I know it’s not much, but for my body it’s actually is. I have been over 60 kilos only 3 times in my life,- and that was during my pregnancies.

I’m not crying (yet) to put on weight. I was just a bit surprised over my thighs and hips, stomach and breasts, even my arms have increased in size without me even noticing it. And it all are a bit “rounder” in the “fashion” too. Even my ass has changed.  Or maybe it’s the hips?

I do take a look at my self in the mirror closely every day, as well as I see myself in photos too….but I haven’t notice this changes very much. But I can promise you I notice the changes when I was trying to find some summer clothes to put on my body……and couldn’t even manage to button them together. Or get them of my body when I had really squeezed my body into them.

I’m fine with this changes at the moment. But this is a bit new for me, the body, the weight, even to have clothes in my wardrobe that doesn’t fit me. So I need to get a bit use to this body changes,- and also for seriously start to work out. Not just mornings walks, and steps walks to the train station,- but now it is for real “back to business” to my earlier work out and exercises I did before.

Since my body “spreads out” a bit “here and there”, and my clothes shrink, I had to stop by a pharmacy today to check that I have not shrunk in height, that that one also had changed,- fortunately I am still 170 cm, and then I think 63,  5 kilos divided by the number of centimeters is perfectly ok.  Although there are obviously a few extra pounds over my thighs, hips, stomach and breasts.

I’m not sad over this body changes, actually the opposite,- because I have for so many years struggling with my weight and have to little kilos on my body. But I’m a bit sad over all the clothes that doesn’t fit me anymore. To get a new “summer wardrobe” is actually really not on my budget this summer. And I was not prepared for this body changes yet. But okay,- it is what it is 😊. I’m growing up to be a grown up and mature woman,- and I’m actually happy with my “new” body. I know it is not for all women during menopause to be happy for the extra pounds/ kilos that “shows up”,- but I allowed me to be happy for mine 😊.

I know some maybe think I shouldn’t be- but at the moment I need to admit that I do like this changes and like this kilos,- but I don’t need to put on to much more. It is “heavier” to “carry”,- I also notice that, so my body needs to be stronger now 😊. And luckily it is different second hand clothes stores in the area , so I can visit and see if I can find some new summer clothes for my summer wardrobe 🌞.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Yes,- the dress looks nice, button be honest, I actually can’t even walk or move in it- and to get it off,- phu! Seriously stress.

I need to admit that something very strange has happened to my wardrobe during the last months 😳. And obviously my body “spreads” a bit “here and there” too. Hips are changing, stomach too. Or maybe it is actually the clothes and not me ? 👗

#preperimenopause #perimenopause #menopause #gettingolder #growingup #maturewoman #puttingonweight #challenges #changes #thougths #feelings #wardrobe #clothes #weight #pounds #newkilos #happy #feelinggrateful #feelingfine

Midlife crisis and job opportunities? 🤔📝🎧

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Both men and women goes through menopause,- but differently. And both can also deal with a kind of midlife crisis too, but also differently. And it’s not all and everyone that have a midlife crisis when they go through menopause. Some have midlife problems, issues and thoughts instead.

I’m probably there in that “area” where I have different thoughts about my life, my midlife. I don’t feel I have any kind of personal crisis . I think I had my personal or life crisis from I was around 39/ 40 years old, and probably until a year ago. Because it was long before menopause, my personal crisis was. I think the best word for what I went through during those years is a personal or life crisis, not midlife crisis. At least it felt like that for me. Like a personal crisis, like a stone in my stomach and a claw in my heart and soul. Not constantly, but very often. Closely every day. And of course that’s also exhausting.

A very short summary and version of my personal / life crisis: My economy was to just cry of, something I also did now and then too. I was in a very bad relationship for me, lucky that one actually ended, but not because I manage to end it. I was to confused and had to little believe in my self at that point to end it. I think the desteny took care of that for me, to help me “out” from something I was “blocked” into.

I was in a new country. I was so unsure and had so little confidence and believe in my self. Our Prairie in Norway was “long gone”. I didn’t have any money to move back to Norway even if I wanted too, and I didn’t knew what I wanted to work with either, and felt very miserable in my teaching job in Norway ( not because of the job, because of my life), and later my customer service agent on the phone job in Spain (it’s not the same job/ product I’m working with now). But I needed the salary so badly. And in a way I also did “lost” someone close to me in Norway during this time. Something I did struggle with for many years- and now and then I still feel on pain, but I have more accepted the situation.

It took me closely 10 years to get distance, to accept the situation as well as be able to find myself again, the person I did like before I met this man in Norway that in his own way “created” me to a person I didn’t like, didn’t knew and was to uncomfortable in the situation to be able to do something with it.

Now I’m not there anymore,- slowly, very slowly during the last 10 years I’m in an other inner place in my mind and soul,- special when it comes to my self and my own comfortably with my self, and the believe and trust in my self.

When this personal crisis, or life crisis, if you will, finally let go, I felt free inside me. A very reliving feeling.

So I don’t feel on any kind of midlife crisis now at days- I think that one is over for me, but I have some midlife thoughts. And most of them are about my future, my job, where to live. (Nope,- still no boyfriend thoughts about my future- 😅) What to do when I’m going to continue now? And I don’t know yet,- to be honest, and I think it will take a bit of time before I know, but hopefully not 10 years this time 😅🤞🙏.

At the moment I have a okay job as customer service agent on the phone and the online freelance job. The costumer service agent on the phone job is stable, the salary is stable and my working hours are stable too. I’m also working from my home,- something I prefer, and the tasks and costumers are not to bad at all. But do I want to work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life? I don’t know. There’s no possibility to “grow” in the job or get knew knowledge, or new working challenges. It is what it is,- a costumer service agent job on the phone,- nothing more and nothing less.

And then it is this pension. I’m not getting any younger. And how will the pension question be for me if I’m moving to another country and starting working there? In Norway I know how it is as well as here in Spain,- but in Norway I’m going to have big economic challenges- and how will I manage to go through something like that again? And like I mention,- I’m not getting any younger.

And because I’m not getting any younger I’m also more and more invisible in the work market. Not so attractive at all. In Norway I could probably get a job in a store for the same company I’m working as a costumer service agent on the phone. And that’s okay,- but again- my economy in Norway is at this point a very lost case. So at the point to move to Norway for me will be challenging, special because of my Norwegian economic situation. ( something I can “thank” the stupid, stupid ex boyfriend in Norway for). But yes,- I do still actually consider Norway as a potential to stay “for the rest of my life”. But I need to find a couple more “solutions” on that one, that’s for sure.

Can I move back to the place in Norway where I’m actually born in and from? Or will I be lonely there?

I have also considered Ireland and Canada as well, or just continue stay in Spain. But Canada is very fare away,- so I think I let that one “go”. Ireland? I need to do more research then. Or just stay in Spain, have and do my job and,- until I die one day? Because that’s what’s going to happen to the end,- but what will I do in the meantime? What will I fill my life up with before I’m 101 years old?

Of course my dream is to be able to have my paintings as my main job,- and I do try to find a way to manage that. But as we all know,- a job as a artist is in general not a very good income economic job. It’s hard, hard work to manage success and also survive economic. And maybe even harder for me because of my age.

So at the moment and probably some years forward I’m going to be thinking about this,- my job, economy, where to live and be old. And how to live inbetween. And try to find a solution that suits me.

I’m also of course thinking about my children. I have one son in Norway, one son in Spain and a daughter in Bali. I want to live a place where it’s easy for me to be able to see and meet all three of them as much as possible. And then I’m thinking as least it will be possible to travel and visit them now and then during a year. I don’t think Canada is the best solution for that,- that’s for sure 😊.

I’m very happy and grateful for my living situation and the home I’m living in now. I enjoy to stay here, and I think I can stay here for a while too, if I understood Natasja correctly? But that’s also something that can’t last “forever”, one day I need to move out,- and I don’t like to move and move and move,- so after a while I need to find a home I can stay in for a long, long time. Hopefully to the day my children are sending me to the sky.

So no,- I’m not in any midlife crisis, but I do think a lot about what I want and where to go in my future. The good thing is,- I’m not stressing about to find a solution for it “all” now,- but hopefully I have some solutions when I’m maybe at age 55? (I have some few years to think and find a solution and two,- – I’m still “just” 49 😊).

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

What to do? Work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life?🎧 Or be creative and do something I really enjoy to do,- paint?🎨 (the photo is like this on purpose 😅)

I’m not in a midlife crisis, even the menopause is “knocking on my door”. I think I went through my kind of personal crisis instead in a period for closely 10 years 😳. But I have some midlife thoughts, and I do think a bit about them. Actually a lot. Norway? Spain? Costumer service agent job on the phone? Or maybe painting? Or something else, somewhere else? I don’t know yet.

#midlife #midlifecrise #midlifethoughts #changes #challenges #work #workingsituation #thougths #feelings #choices #menopause #mylife #gettingolder

Menopause,- “the new Spring in life” ? 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I did read somewhere that menopause was like “the new Spring in life”,- but I’m not so sure about that one yet 😳. Sometimes it feels a bit more like a cold winter storm, to be honest ❄. But just sometimes 😊. In general I’m still fine during this new “process” in my life, and body. But I don’t know how this menopause process later will be for me.

Menopause,- the new Spring in life? 🌱 I don’t know about that,- but things are changing like the Spring changes the nature from the cold winter time ❄. So maybe it’s something in it?

Some women are open about and talk about menopause, others do not say very much, and some even “deny” that they are there or have been there.  Why this is so I’m not sure.  Shame about getting older?  Fear of a new and unknown phase in life?  Or too big challenges in this phase for them to be able to talk about menopause? Probably a bit of it all.

We women don’t experiences menopause in the same way. Like we didn’t have the same experiences during the puberty. Some women can have a very hard menopause, and other more “sails” through it.

I did start to “research” about menopause before I was in the menopause, and I’m still not “in the menopause” yet, at the same time as I know this phase in life starts a bit before it has been a year since the last period. I wanted to know a bit about this new phase and period in my life, and what I could “expect” as well, as also maybe get some advice how to handle different kinds of challenges if they get to hard. Be a bit prepared for this new changes as well as challenges.

Menopause is in a way “official” when it has been more then one year since the last period, but it start some years before that. And it last some years after that too.

Like I mention, I’m still not “official” in menopause, but in a phase which in the technical language is called pre- perimenopause , but of course I notice different changes both in my body and mind.

I’m not ashamed over getting older, but if I like it? To be honest,- I’m not sure. It’s like I haven’t had the time to think or fell to much about it/ this yet,- if I like it or not, because so fare in this “period” in my life I haven’t been to much alone and be able to think or feel to much about this “new life experience” I’m going to go through.

As you know my children have been moving in and out during the last two- three years. And that’s a part I feel I’m very finish with,- live together with my children, or anyone else. My children can be my neighbours instead 😊. That I would actually loved 🥰.

I not worried to talk about menopause either, at the same time there’s “things” that’s happens in my mind I can’t explain very well. Special this “moody and emotional moments”. What I do know is that I need to be and live alone now so I can “sort” this out, find my own way to “deal” with “this”, handle it and learn to live with it- this “getting older and the different changes”, and now and then, challenges too.

I can’t at this point say I feel I’m going through a new Spring in my life 😅🌱,- but I can understand why some call menopause and the time after for a new Spring in life. Maybe special the time after, when this suddenly mood and emotion storms are a bit more “calm down”, and you in your own way have found “the new way” in life?

I know some feel and thinks their life is “over” when they go through menopause. And some also goes through a kind of “middle life crisis” during this process.

One part or epoch in life is over,- what will the next one brings? What should I do now? For many the children also are moving out during this period in life, and they feel a kind of “useless”, the empty nest syndrome are in a way “knocking on the door”. I need to admit I really like to live alone, so the empty nest syndrome haven’t knocking on my door 😊. Well at least the time I have tried to live alone so fare 😅. Let me put it this way,- I liked it so much to live alone I want to try it for a bit longer period then 2- 3 months 😊. I miss my children, I love my children, I enjoy spending time together with them- but I’m very finish to live together with them. And I’m not ashamed over being that, or feel like that- like I mention in an other post,- it’s feels like my freedom to be able to live alone now 💛.

An other thing during this “getting older” ,- you can get this feeling of being not very “attractive” any more. Maybe special when it comes to the work situation, and maybe also when it comes to dating?

In general I don’t think to much that my life is over because I’m getting older, I’m in my life and very happy and grateful for that 🧡. I’m fine with the fact that my children are out of the nest, and I’m fine in my job. I’m not stressing with this dating either. I have some others thing I want to try to do and “find out” before I’m going to date again,- and it’s not even sure I want to date again, or have a boyfriend. My experience when it comes to dating, men and relationships is that there are a lot of hassles, whining, nagging and unfavorable requirements from men/ boyfriend. I want to have peace in my life, and not hassles, whining, nagging and unfavourable requirements.

But,– when those emotional waves are coming, just running and rumbling through my soul, thoughts and mind I’m not so comfortable in my life. I can get a bit “bunch” of negative thoughts and feelings about closely “all and everything” to be honest. But still actually not about relationship, dating or men. My negative thoughts goes more to “what am I going to do with my life?” Move to a new place? Back to Norway? To another country? What about work? Do I want to work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life? And in my mind “the rest of my life” are a couple of years to be honest. And I also struggling with thoughts that I have been not the best mammi for my children. So this are mainly my negative waves, or “boble”. Sounds maybe like a nice and “easy” boble- but it’s not. I’m very “phu hu poor me” when this “waves” are “dropping by”.

And yes,- there’s one more emotional wave,- this tears that’s dropping up sometimes from no where. And the fuse that has become even shorter than it was before.  Things that have not annoyed me that much before can be incredibly annoying now.

But still in general I feel more and less like me. Without to many challenges, or “emotional waves” 🌊. But the thing is,- I’m not prepared for this “waves” when they “drops by”. I have actually no idea when they are dropping by 😳 They don’t give to many “hands up” or “warnings” like “we are going to mess a bit with your mind today” before they in a way are just “rolling over” me 😳.

Lucky for me they don’t last to long,- a day or two, and then I have some days, maybe even a couple of weeks without. But when they are “tumbling and rumbling” in my body- I really don’t feel I’m going through a new Spring in life- that’s for sure. And an other thing,- I really prefer to be alone during those “emotional waves moments” .

Unfortunately people in general doesn’t understand this, this “suddenly waves”, this need to be alone, be able to find your own way to handle them. The exception is, someone who actually are going through the same, or have bee thought menopause. They understand very well. Because it’s just not to “put your self together”. It’s actually not so easy. Not with this.

So yes,- I do really understand why some women in the 50’s, during this menopause, are a bit “trolly”. I’m a bit “trolly” my self,- even I don’t want to be “trolly”.

And I do understand this “colour up” with makeup and nail polish, clothes and accessories,- we don’t want to feel useless or invisible,- special not in work situations, and I can also understand the dating situation too,- even I’m not there.

We are some women with a lots of knowledge, in general even a good working moral,- something I can’t say many younger have. And,- we have so much to offer. Maybe I should write a bit more about my thoughts about the work situation and this feeling of being invisible in different work situations when you have turned 45 and on top of that is a woman in another post? Because I have some thoughts about that too,- more then I hade before 😊.

Anyway,- the new Spring in life? Yes in one way I can see and understand the “metaphor”, in other ways not at all. I think it depends where you are in the menopause as well as how “hard” and challeng the menopause is. This can, natural enough, be various from woman to woman 🧡. It’s can feel like a bit chaotic Spring now and then 😊😳😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The new Spring in life? Something happens, some changes, with both the mind and body during menopause,- and it could be like a kind of Spring?

I did read somewhere that menopause was like the “new Spring” in life. In one way I can understand the “metaphor”. But sometimes I need to admit that it feels like a very ” cold and stormy” Spring 😳😅🌱.

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