Hi ❣ I hope all is fine with you 🧡
First of all I want to say THANK YOU SO MUCH for different kinds of help during the last 2 weeks 🌹❤. It means a lot-more then I think you can imagen ❤,- and I hope I can Thank you all and everyone in a proper way one day ❤. I really presage all the help I have got,- mentally, physical and also the economic help ❤. I’m overwhelmed ❤. Really overwhelmed ❤.
I need to admit I’m not very good to ask for help or accept help. I’m afraid I can not give the same help back, and that worries me. I also do not want to bother others with my challenges or use / abuse others’ time. So I try to ask about help as little as possible, and try to find solutions on my own.
So yes,- I’m incredibly grateful for the help and overwhelmed- I don’t have any big enough or good enough word at the moment to explain and tell you, everyone, how much every kind of help I have got during the last two weeks means to me ❤. Hugs, a message, a text, a heart, economic, words, lifting things and stuffs for me, and more ❤
And when it comes to my text “And then it happened again…..10 years later 💸😳😔” I didn’t write that text to ask for help. I did write it because it happen, I needed to tell it- this fraud 10 years ago has been my “walk of shame” for so many years, and then it happens again- something I really didn’t had in my imagination could happen one more time in my life 😳. And I wrote that text as a reminder,- because most of the things that happens to other people can also happen to you. Please don’t forget that, and be careful with the judgments. Suddenly things you didn’t had in mind can happen to you. And the last reason why I did share my story was because it seems like as more different kinds of security situation and system we have as easier it seems to break through them. And that’s a scary thing.
So when Mathilde, my daughter, really wanted to help me in the way she could on the other side of the world, I said yes. She did ask me ,- “Now it’s time for some foundation help, mam?”. At that point I said yes,- I couldn’t think clear, feel clear, I felt so small, so weak, so useless to all and everything. My head felt like it was under the water, and me feet didn’t felt like touching the ground at all.
And I understand that she felt and feels helpless being on Bali when her mammi’s world feels like collapsing. And of course I’m incredibly grateful for the help she have organized, more grateful then I have any words for ❤- but I also asked her to not “promote” the foundation help anymore. Not because I’m not grateful for the help,- I really presage it all so much- both hers help as well as you other people- my, at this point- secret friends I didn’t knew I had- because i don’t know who have helped me yet ❤. But at the same time,- I feel incredibly stupid too,- there are so many people around in the world that needs so much more help then me. And to be honest,- I don’t know how to handle this kind of hjelp- but I’m going to thank you all one in a proper way. Just let me “put myself a bit more together” again first 🙏.
Because I will manage this too,- I just need a bit time to turn me around.
Mathilde did write in her “foundation text” that I did help her. And I did,- but I didn’t had any saved funds to help her with. I needed to help her in a bit other and different way.
I moved her back to my home so she could live and rest for free, sleep, relax, get a overview over herself. I did take care of her, cleaned her clothes, picked up her things, made food to her, did the shopping and I did work as shit. I had 3 jobs last Autumn. And I saved up money for my daughter. I didn’t manage to save up all she lost, but at least so much as she could breathe again and feel she could live a bit more independent again.
And I’m going do the same again, but for myself this time, during this summe. I have my costumer service agent on the phone job, I have my freelance online job as a creative writer, and I have got a job as a dishwasher every second weekend in a cafe (Casa Barella in La Cala ) for the next three months.
There will not be very much time off, but at least I will feel better to manage to fix this, fix the lost that the the fraudsters – the scammers did. Be able to pay, and be able to live and breathe again.
A friend of me told me that she thought I was the most unlucky person she have met. And maybe I’m? But it’s not something I want to be “best” in, or have most of in my life- to be unlucky.
And when I look around I have incredibly much to be grateful for and lucky for ❤. And my focus needs to be there- be grateful for all and everything I have ❤.
I have some amazing children that have done their best to keep my head over the water during the last two weeks ❤. I don’t have any words- they have helped me so much❤. Each one in their own way ❤. Thank you so much my three diamonds- you are the world for me ❤
I have some fantastic friends around me- I feel so incredibly lucky ❤. Thank you so much ❤.
I have some secret friends too,- I didn’t knew that- and at the moment they are still secret friends- but wow- you all are some fantastic people ❤. Thank you so so much ❤.
I have the possibility to work, and work extra too- I’m grateful for that as well ❤.
I have a so nice and cozy home I can relax in- something I’m incredibly grateful for as well ❤.
I have so much to be grateful for- and it feels incredibly amazing to feel that when I at the same time still haven’t quite get my head totally over the water yet- but I’m on my way. Thanks to you❤.
So Thank you- Thank you all so so much ❤.
When the world around you collapses a little- and things can feel a little hopeless to both get through and to solve- I just want to say Thank you ❤- Thank you so much for the help and support- I am overwhelmed and incredibly grateful for the people I have in my life- I have even some secret friends I didn’t knew about ❤.
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