Goodbye May 🌹and Hello to you June 🌞

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Then also May is history,- and I’m pleased and grateful for the different things I did experiences in May ❤.

I was on a short trip to Malaga for picking up Mathilde’s tiny little pocket. And I have both been in the theater and using the bus here in Spain for the first time 🎭.

I have delivered a basket with painted glassbottles, and also finished a bigger painting order. At least bigger order for me 🎨.

I have even “built” a tiny bamboo roof over my terrace,- and so fare so good,’ it haven’t blown away 😊🌞.

And I also have been into a tiny “trip” during this perimenopause,- and even it’s says it is a “new Spring in life”,- I need to admit I’m struggling a bit. Not because of wrinkles or my hair, not even that my body, or the fact that my clothes are changing,- but this f..@,, jumping jackflash hormones 😳. To be honest,- this mood- thing during the perimenopause it’s not so easy to handle- phu!! So one thing is for sure,- after my friend have travel back to Norway I’m going on regular basis on “the treadmill”- read regular workout and exercises 🤸‍♀️. And that’s going to be a very valuable time for me,- because I know it will help me. Help at least the thoughts, feelings, mood and mind to calm down a bit 💚.

I feel I have a lots of different kinds of things to be grateful for during May,- even this “new Spring in life”,( even that Im not so sure if I like to much) – because it’s actually in its own way “forcing” me to start up with regular workout and exercises again 💚🤸‍♀️😊.

I’m also incredibly grateful for what’s happen in my children’s life during May 💙💙❤. Marius started in a new job, and he really like his new job 😊. Ruben have got his first own car, and also managed to buy his first own apartment 🏡. And I’m so proud of him 🥰. And Mathilde enjoying her new life in Bali with many new experiences and knowledge in her life, as well as about her self ❤.

I’m not sure what June will bring me of happiness and joy, and maybe sone new experiences and knowledge too ❤- but I’m looking forward to meet June and the things I at least know a tiny bit about 💚. Like for example my friend from Norway and her visit, my jobs, my paintings and the workout and exercising- plan 🤸‍♀️. And also a barbecue evening together with Marius and Irene at my roof terrace 😊🧡. The rest? I’m hoping and wishing for it will be a nice and smooth month without to many negative thoughts, feelings, moods, experiences, changes and challenges 💚🤞🙏. I need to get a better balance inside me, a better peaceful mind and soul 🙏💚. (I know it’s perimenopause that’s challenging me a lot- but hopefully it will be better with some regular workout and exercises 🤸‍♀️🙏🤞).

So Thank you so much May,- it was a experience and two and a joy to “meet” you ❤. I wish June very welcome 💚.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊 ( ps- I’m probably coming back to write in my blog in a week or so, because I’m going to use my time on my work and together with my friend the nexts days 😊)

Even my tiny little backyard art cafe is ready for the summer- (also a tiny summesale of canvas and glassbottles if someone should be interested 😊🎨)

I have different things and even some new experiences to be grateful for during May ❤. I’m not sure what June will bring,- but I do know I’m really looking forward to get a cozy visit from a very good friend from Norway 💚.

#may #june #newflowringinlife #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #newexperience #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #perimenopause #gettingolder

Maybe there is something with these colors and clothes? 😅 🎨👗

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Like some of you know I was in the theater this weekend, and I did dressed up a bit too 👗.

And an other thing some of you also maybe know,- I’m getting older and something strange has happened to my clothes (or my body….) 😳. Many of my clothes doesn’t fit me anymore, they are actually and very suddenly become to small for me,- thigh and uncomfortable 😳 Something that means I haven’t so much to choose between in my wardrobe anymore either 😅. But I did try my very best to dress up with something that wasn’t to small, and didn’t felt to uncomfortable to use, and in a way didn’t look to bad either 😊.

I’m dressed up and ready to got to the theater 👗🎭

Before I was going to meet up with Natasja, I did dropped by Marius and Irene to pick up a key to my home 🔑. Because I’m actually going to get a holiday guest this week and then it’s good for the guest to have to possibility to lock her self in and out to my home when it’s suits her.

Both Marius and Irene thought I looked nice 😍. But there’s always a possibility to “upgrade” 😅,- and that’s was exactly what Irene asked me if she could do,- “upgrade” me, and my dress a tiny bit, make me a tiny bit “fresher” 😊. I agree with that one,- even I was not sure that was possible 😅. But obviously it was 😳.

She found a blue dress in her wardrobe, more correctly, I think the colour is called king blue, or clear blue? 👗 I didn’t even new that that kind of colour did suit me,- but obviously it did, and does 😊.

And then my oldest son, Marius, told me that I looked so nice and freshed up in the new colour and dress,- and he even told me that I should start to use a bit more colours on my clothes,- so I looked fresher 😳 😅. I did try to “defend” myself a tiny bit that I’m actually using clothes with colours,- because I do. The dress I did showed up in was blue that one too, just a bit more dark soft blue. But Marius, and Irene as well, thought I should start to use a bit more clothing with a little more clear and fresh colors, Rather diffuse, dark and some bright colors I’m normally using.

So are there actually something about this colours and clothes and menopause and getting older ? A real thing? 🤔 I do not really need to be so visible in the way of clothes.  I thought it was and is perfectly fine to be invisible in my clothes.  But I must admit that I felt a little more well and nice and stylish and fresher too in the blue dress Irene gave/ borrowed me 😊. So maybe I should give more colours in my clothes a tiny little try? A chance? I need to buy some new clothes anyway,- so why not try and go for a bit more colours 🎨 ?

And maybe I need to start to use lipstick too? 💄

A couple of things are for sure,- I like colours and I like to dress up, feel well, nice and pretty, but I still don’t have the biggest need to be “visible”. I’m getting older, and I’m not always “the best friend” with menopause- mood,- but by using some colourful clothes I in my own way try to give a tiny shit in the bad menopause days. In a way embracing something that can be a bit difficult to embrace some days. Because menopause mood days are not very much to yell “Hipp Hurra” for,- but for some reason this days feels a bit better when I use a bit colours. It’s like my mind get a bit fresher and a bit more coloured up too. So maybe that’s why women in and around my age starting using more colours “here and there”? On the nails and lips and eyes and clothes? I think maybe that can actually be a thing 😊. So I’m not to strange anymore to “colour up” myself a bit 🎨😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Not the best photo,- but still you get a fresher imagination around me 😊😅.

I mention in a post that many women during the menopause starting to use more colours “here and there”,- something I at that point didn’t quite understood 🤔🎨. But after Irene did “dress” me up this weekend in a bit fresher colour then I showed up in,- I can start to understand why colours can be very effective on “the not to good menopause mood” days 😊🎨💄.

#colors #dressingup #menopause #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #gettingolder #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #feelingpretty #mood #feelings #thougths

Very much for very little ❤📦 😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

In February my sweety pie of a daughter was on holiday in Norway. She visited friends and family before her travel went to Bali 🏖. But before Bali she had a ” longer stop” in my home again for some more weeks 😊.

Unfortunately, or maybe I should write, typical 😅? But Mathilde manage to forget her wallet in Norway. And in there was her cash, her Spanish bank card, her train ticket and her Norwegian bank card as well 😳. So she did travel from Norway to Spain without any kind of money, but luckily for her she managed to let me know 🙏. Thank you so much for internet and mobile and different social media channels we can chat on 🙏.

My plan was actually not to pick her up at the airport, because the train goes directly from the airport to our home, but without any kind of money, what else could I do ? 🧡 And parents do a lots for their children,- I know because I do as much as I’m available to do for mine three sweethearts 💙💙❤. As I for example did for my daughter today as well 😊. And my parents also did for me,- I know they did a lot for me ❤.

Her best friend in Norway did send the wallet to her in the mail addressed to Spain….and it was sent in the middle of February. And Mathilde did wait and wait and wait for her wallet to come in the mail to her here in Spain. And it did…..for just a couple of days ago 😅. And just in case it was sent to a post office in the centre of Malaga, around a 30 minutes train trip from our home, and a tiny walk for 15- 20 minutes from the train station too (and of course 15- 20 minutes back to the train station as well) 🚂. But before I went to the post office I needed to go the her work office in Malaga and pick up this “pick up note” to get out the wallet from the post office. And then back to her work office and deliver the wallet there 👛. Because one of her colleagues is going to Bali in June and visit the office “down there”,- and then he also can bring the wallet back to Mathilde 👛.

So it has been a bit running from one place to another place and back again today 😅. And when I had the chance I also brought with me some summer dresses he can take with him to Bali and Mathilde……it’s the summer dresses that doesn’t fit me anymore 😳👗.

But this tiny little wallet I did buy in the store for 3 euro to Mathilde in January this year, has now cost a bit more to both get it “down” to Spain as well as out of the post office 😅. Okay,- one of the card in the wallet is also an ID card to Mathilde, so that one I can understand it’s of a bit value for Mathilde,- but the two other ones are already replaced with new ones 😊. And the cash,- well she can’t use euro in Bali anyway. But obviously this wallet, this tiny little “piece” have a bit more “value” then 3 euro for Mathilde. Maybe because she got it from me?🥰 ( …at least I can believe so 😅). So of course I did what I could for her today so her wallet will be back in her hands around closely 5 months after she “lost” it 🧡.

Look at this tiny little wallet- that was forgotten in Norway and then went on a 3- 4 months travel to Spain before it hopefully will be in Mathilde’s hands again in the middle of June ,- but then in Bali 🙏🤞

But like I mention, this tiny little wallet did I pay 3 euro for, but to get it “back” in the correct hands again has been a bit bigger cost and challenge, to be honest😳.

Mathilde’s friend in Norway payd 50 euro for the post sending, something we of course transferred back to her account. And then I needed to pay 35 euro to get the wallet out from the post office today 😳. I knew it was around 35 euro cash in the wallet, but that did help me very much 😅. Because I needed to pay them before I could get the wallet. And just in case the post office only accepted cash, no card, so I needed to find a ATM and then go back again to the post office and try again.

I had also my passport, my NIE, a copy of Mathilde’s passport and NIE, and just in case her birth certificate too 🙏. The post office was most interested in my passport and her’s birth certificate. The rest they didn’t use one second on 😅. Mathilde had also written an email to the post office,- a kind of confirmation that I was going to pick it up this mail for her. That one was not necessary, they have probably not read it yet either,- but okay,- its better to be safe than sorry 😊.

So like I told Mathilde today,- it has been a bit of work and costs to manage to get “back” her tiny little wallet, and it’s still not in her hand. Cross fingers for that her colleague remember to bring it with him to Bali in June now🤞. Then, when, or maybe if it comes to Mathilde in June, this tiny little wallet has been on one of a trip as well as “the value” is a bit higher then 3 euro now,- it has cost a bit more then that, so Mathilde should get it back 😊🧡. And hopefully she doesn’t loose or forget to much, like wallets or mobiles, in the future. Hopefully a lesson and two has been learned? 🤞🙏

And yes,- of course I did this for her today,- I’m still not sure why this wallet have the kind of value it has for her,- I didn’t ask,- but I think one of the reasons is her ID, even she already have one kind of ID, and then I also can create my self my own imagenation that’s it’s because she got it from me 🥰😅. But as a mammi, and daddy and parents, we do a lots of small and big things, and sometimes very much for very little for our children ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Look how tiny this wallet is,- is closely at the same size as my hand 😅.

As parents we do a lots of different kinds of things for our children 🧡. And sometimes we do very much for very little,- like I did “run” around in Malaga after a tiny little wallet that has use 3-4 months from Norway to Spain,- so my sweety pie of a daughter hopefully can get it back in her hand in June,- but then in Bali 😅🤞.

#mammi #raisingup #growingup #gettingolder #challenges #movingout #dailylife #emotions #feelings #beingamammi #outofthenest #mydaugther #unconditionallove #wallet #parents #travel

But there’s some “issues” too during this “new Spring” in life 😳🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days too. I don’t have the biggest challenges during this pre perimenopause, but there’s some issues, or tiny challenges that’s dropping by. And I don’t know what this period in my life can or will bring me later, so I at least choose to enjoy the changes I do like at the moment,- like for example my body changes 😊.

But I still need to “deal” with some few other issues, or rainy and stormy days, if you want. It’s not to much to complain about, in general this issues are not difficult to deal with, and don’t last very long either. But when they “shows up” it’s quite fine to be alone, and “deal” with them in my own way 😊. Another thing,- in general I don’t know when the “issues” are dropping by. Because that’s exactly what they are doing,- dropping by exactly when it suits them, and not me. It’s nothing I can choose or control.

In short periods I have had water in my body, causing the hormone changes. And also one of the reasons why it didn’t dropped my mind that I could have put on weight when my winter clothes felt a bit thigh.

It has mainly been in my feet, ankles to be more correct, and sometimes in my hands too. It’s not often, and not to bad, but it is uncomfortable. And I have never had any kind of water like that in my body before. I think the closest “water in my body” was the water in my stomach under my pregnancies 💧.

And I’m still not “leaking” (thank so much for that 🙏),– and I really hope I can avoid that too, even I know it is natural for a woman to have or get some “water leakage” in a certain age. I’m really doing my “exercises” ,- “pinch and hold and pinch a little more”. Hopefully that will help forever to avoid any kind of water leakage 🤞.

And my stomach,- also that one can be a bit “troubling” now and then. It can feels like it is a marble in there 😳. But it’s not, and of course the marble also “disappear”, but not always when I want. I just need to give it a bit of time and maybe a prune and two 😅. But of course this marble in my stomach also has been a reason for why I didn’t offer weight increase and small clothes so many thoughts.

When I’m in this “body” area I can also mention cellulite. I have some of them too, mainly on my thighs. They don’t bother me. They are a part of this “process” as well, I think. And as long as they don’t bother me I don’t give them to many thoughts.

But there’s a challenge I do struggling a bit with when this one shows up,- and that’s challenges with the sleep. For some reasons I don’t know, I can have a night and two or three where I’m not sleeping very well without knowing why, or the reason. And phu,- the days after some nights without a good sleep feels like I have been on a party with a few glasses of too much wine 😴🍷 . I’m so, so tired and feel so uncomfortable the day after a sleepless night 😴. It’s more then enough to just do my customer service agent job on the phone then, and not very much more then that.

I’m not use to that,- in general I do sleep very well and also fast when I’m putting down my head on ny pillow 😴.

An other thing,- I actually want to go to bed at 21.00 in the evening 😅. But Im trying my very best to be awake until around 23.00. And in general I do manage that one 😊. And I get my 7- 8 hours with beauty sleep 🥰.

Off,- and yes,- this mind and soul and thoughts and feelings things- more correctly “moody button”. That one is not very fun at all. I know I did mention that one in my other “new Spring in life post”. That one feels seriously not like any kind of Spring. More like a very stormy and cold winter day with out any kind of control ❄😳. And so, so hard to explain.

And like I mention in an earlier text,- I don’t have any midlife crisis, but I have different midlife thoughts, and some days I think more about my midlife thoughts than other days, but I can’t call my thoughts challenging. I’m just trying to find some kind of solutions, but I don’t rush the solutions. I know I need to use time on them.

And yes,- then it’s this “sexual feelings” too. I’m single so what can I say? I don’t have any lover, or friends with benefit. But it seems that “all is still in function”,- because I need to admit a friends with benefit haven’t been to bad to have 😅.

But maybe that’s just fine I’m in my bed alone at the moment? Because for some reason I get this hot flashes in the nights now and them,- and so fare haven’t had anyone during the day yet.

It’s the sleeplessness nights and the grumpy moods that’s bothering me most – then I really really don’t want anyone to bother me or Visa versa- bother them,- special not with my grumpy mood.

I’m also use reading glasses 🤓🧐. I needed to start with that some years ago. I’m using glasses when I working at my computer, when I use my mobile, and when Im reading a book. Still no need for more use for glasses yet, but of course that one can change too. It will probably change when I’m getting older,- and I still have glasses a bit “here and there” because even after a couple of years as a “part time” glass- user I’m still forget to use glasses when I need to read the menu in a restaurant, or my tiny shopping list when I go for shopping food 🧐. It’s nice to know what I’m order from the menu as well as bringing with me home from the store 😅. So I have some painting glasses in my painting – corner, a couple in my work corner, a couple in my handbag and a couple on the table in the livingroom – just in case 🤓.

So,- all in all so fare in this pre perimenopause things aren’t to bad actually 😊. But I need to admit I actually really hope it doesn’t will be or “bring” me more or other “issues” then that I’m “dealing” with at the moment. My “issues” are not to bad, but I don’t need more of them 😊.

And I can understand why ladies in the 50′, or more correctly during the menopause, can be a bit scary and grumpy. Actually trolly. Imagine “water leakage”, water in the body that should be leaking, but don’t, and marble in the stomach, some sleepless nights and hot flashes too 😳. Clothes that suddenly and without any warning are shrinking, and when I’m into this “no warning”- a mind that’s not give any kind of warning for suddenly tears or anger 😳. It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes.

So I think I let the whole menopause “rest” for a tiny while, and use my focus on other things, stuffs and happenings in life for a while instead 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon,- and I’m not going to bother you with any menopause issues for a while (at least it’s not my plan) 😊.

So a tiny cheers for the different changes and challenges,- for the life and that life is what it is 🧡,- and for a “new Spring in life” that I’m not always understand because it doesn’t quite feels like a Spring- but I have heard it’s painful when flowers growing,- it hurts when buds bloom 😊🥀

It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes 😳. During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days as well 🌬. But I have heard that it hurts when buds bloom,- so I choose to believe so 🌱. So a tiny cheers for a “new Spring in life” 🍷😊.

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Something strange has happened to my clothes 😳

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Yes,- it’s true- something very strange has happened to my clothes lately 😳. Many of my clothes doesn’t fit me anymore. They are actually to small 😳. How did that happen without me notice it? 🤔

Or….maybe it’s me, and not my clothes something strange has happened too?

I know it is a kind of joke to say the wardrobe shrunk the clothes. But you should not ignore the fact that something like this actually happens when you reach a certain age. The wardrobe act strange too during menopause. That’s for sure,- even my do.

One of ny favourite shorts for the Spring and summer,- and last summer I needed to use a belt in this. This summer I can’t even button it together.

I have noticed during the last months that some of my winter clothes was started to be a bit thigh “here and there”. But to be honest I thought maybe it was because I had wash them a bit to much, or in to to high temperature or something like that. And new washed and clean clothes also sometimes have the habit to be a bit to thigh in the beginning. But it’s not my clothes that has changed- it’s my body.

I found my clothes for the summer and….wow….there was at least half of them that was to small, to thigh. Didn’t fit my body at all and anymore. I can’t actually not use them. I can’t actually not get some of them on my body even when I’m trying, and if I get them on I had big challenge to get them of me, it felt like they was glued into my body 😳. It’s shorts and dresses, tops and trousers, even blouses and skirts. Phu! I was seriously not prepared for this.

And one of my favourite skirts,- I didn’t even manage to “move” it over my hips,- and last time I used this was in October 2021.

I know it is natural that the body is changing and also to put on some weight when we comes to a certain age,- but I was not quite yet prepared for this 😅. Like I mention I’m in the pre perimenopause, not menopause, and thought maybe this body changes came in the menopause, or after. But obviously not.

Last time I was on my bathroom weight I was a place between 56- 58 kilos, and I think that was maybe in December or January. I don’t remember, but it’s a while ago. And today I’m 63, 5 kilos. Where did they come from? I know it’s not much, but for my body it’s actually is. I have been over 60 kilos only 3 times in my life,- and that was during my pregnancies.

I’m not crying (yet) to put on weight. I was just a bit surprised over my thighs and hips, stomach and breasts, even my arms have increased in size without me even noticing it. And it all are a bit “rounder” in the “fashion” too. Even my ass has changed.  Or maybe it’s the hips?

I do take a look at my self in the mirror closely every day, as well as I see myself in photos too….but I haven’t notice this changes very much. But I can promise you I notice the changes when I was trying to find some summer clothes to put on my body……and couldn’t even manage to button them together. Or get them of my body when I had really squeezed my body into them.

I’m fine with this changes at the moment. But this is a bit new for me, the body, the weight, even to have clothes in my wardrobe that doesn’t fit me. So I need to get a bit use to this body changes,- and also for seriously start to work out. Not just mornings walks, and steps walks to the train station,- but now it is for real “back to business” to my earlier work out and exercises I did before.

Since my body “spreads out” a bit “here and there”, and my clothes shrink, I had to stop by a pharmacy today to check that I have not shrunk in height, that that one also had changed,- fortunately I am still 170 cm, and then I think 63,  5 kilos divided by the number of centimeters is perfectly ok.  Although there are obviously a few extra pounds over my thighs, hips, stomach and breasts.

I’m not sad over this body changes, actually the opposite,- because I have for so many years struggling with my weight and have to little kilos on my body. But I’m a bit sad over all the clothes that doesn’t fit me anymore. To get a new “summer wardrobe” is actually really not on my budget this summer. And I was not prepared for this body changes yet. But okay,- it is what it is 😊. I’m growing up to be a grown up and mature woman,- and I’m actually happy with my “new” body. I know it is not for all women during menopause to be happy for the extra pounds/ kilos that “shows up”,- but I allowed me to be happy for mine 😊.

I know some maybe think I shouldn’t be- but at the moment I need to admit that I do like this changes and like this kilos,- but I don’t need to put on to much more. It is “heavier” to “carry”,- I also notice that, so my body needs to be stronger now 😊. And luckily it is different second hand clothes stores in the area , so I can visit and see if I can find some new summer clothes for my summer wardrobe 🌞.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Yes,- the dress looks nice, button be honest, I actually can’t even walk or move in it- and to get it off,- phu! Seriously stress.

I need to admit that something very strange has happened to my wardrobe during the last months 😳. And obviously my body “spreads” a bit “here and there” too. Hips are changing, stomach too. Or maybe it is actually the clothes and not me ? 👗

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