Starting packing down a bit🏡 🧰

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have actually started a bit to “clean up” the house and pack down things and stuffs a bit 🧰. I know I’m not going to move before around the 17. June, but I like to have it a bit organized around me, and it’s a bit off things and stuffs that has sampled up during 7 years too and with 2- 3 children in the home as well 😊. And it’s also easier to clean the house when it’s empty.

I don’t have my own car at the moment either so I need a bit help from my children, friends and a moving company too, to move as well. Then it’s good to have it “all” as ready and organized as possible. Also because I need to do my jobs inbetween too. Both my customer service agent job, my teaching job and my freelance work as well. And to be honest,- I do my work best in a organized and tidy area, environment and atmosphere 📝. So I want to have it tidy and organized around me in this soon old home too until I’m moving 😊.

I’m in way not going to “move in” into the new home even I’m moving into a new home. This new home is more for a period for maybe 6 or 12 months, and I just need my clothes, toiletries, my jobs and my hobbies available in my new home.  Everything else is already there. So my own “everything” I can just keep in boxes and bags for a while.

My new home it’s not a place where I’m going to “settle down”. It’s a place where I’m going to live and stay for a while, and maybe take a better look behind this new door that’s open up in my life?

Then it’s good to just pack down the things and stuff I don’t need for a while, and organize the things I’m going to use and need to use in my daily life for the next weeks and months 😊.

I also need to think my jobs in the moving process because I’m working from home at the moment, and I’m probably going to work from my home until the end of July. So my work need to be organized in the moving process in a way that makes it possible for me to do my work too in between the old home and the new home, and without losing to many working days in my freelance online job and my teaching job 😊. In my customer service agent job I will get two paid moving days, so I’m not to worried about that one 😊.

It’s a bit sad to pack down 7 years of ower life, my children and my life. It’s like I’m literally packing down a period in my life that’s over now, and it won’t come back ever again either 😔.

But it’s a lots of good and funny memories too, at the same time it’s just a bit sad too at the moment, because I don’t have any one to share the memories together with when I’m packing. No one to smile to and laugh together with over “old memories”, because my children aren’t here to share them with me. It’s just me. And most of the “memories” I’m packing down it’s memories between my children and me. But this is a part of the process I’m going through. This is a part of the life. A part of the midlife.

But I need to admit it has made me think a bit about this “dating” and relationship I have “put on hold” for a while. It’s actually nice to have someone to create and share memories together with …. but at this point I just leave it to that. Now I need to focus jobs and packing, and maybe, but just maybe I take a look at my “dating” decision, and maybe reconsider it….but just maybe.

I have thrown away a bit things, and some of the things I’m going to let just stay in this home, and some stuff I have started to give away to friends that want or need some of the things I don’t need anymore.

I’m actually half way to “cleaning up” and “packing down” this home, our life, so I feel I can relax a bit for some weeks now, and continue focus on my jobs and my hobbies until the “real deal” moving day 😊.

I feel more relaxed at the moment then I have felt the last 2, maybe 3 weeks. And it is because I know where I’m going to stay for a while, and because I have it a bit organized around me again, and because I know it’s not to much left to do when it comes to the next “step” in the moving next month 😊.

I know myself so well that I knew this was something I needed to do, even it’s a month until I’m actually moving 😊. Now the atmosphere around me is tidy and organized in a way that makes me do my jobs in a good way, and I feel more comfortable in this, maybe a bit “stand by” period in my life 😊.

It’s a process, and it’s okay, and it’s good to feel and think about this new “door” in my life, as well as it is a bit sad to slowly close a “old door” in my life too. Mixed feelings. Mixed thoughts.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Some of our things are already ready for moving when the moving day arrives 😊

I have started to pack down some of my children and my things and stuffs 🧰. It feels a bit sad, and it was a bit strange too not have anyone around me to share different memories that “showed up” under the packaging 🥀. It’s around one month to I’m going to leave this “old” home now 🏡.

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A bit luxury today 🚿✂️👒

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it’s felt a bit like a “luxury day” 😊. Yesterday evening I got my shower fixed, and now there’s nice hot water again 🥰. Lovely, just lovely after closely a month without 🚿. ( I have mention before,- things can takes a bit time now and then in Spain 🤭)

I’m really enjoyed the nice, warm water from my shower this morning 🥰

I had a 10 hours working day yesterday, so I was a bit tired when I was finish working and the shower was fixed. But I can promise you I really enjoyed my nice, warm shower this morning after closely a month with cold showers, “spiced up” with some boiled water 😅.

At least I have a shower and water, and also the possibility for boil some water too. Just that is actually a kind of luxury now at days. Many people don’t even have that kind of possibility for this “luxury”. I have and I’m very grateful for that 😊.

I need to admit I was a bit tired now in the end of this cold showers closely every morning, special because it has also been some cold, grey days too, so the house is a bit cold as well 😊. But I have actually a home to stay in and the possibility for a shower and clean water so I haven’t complained. I just needed a bit extra motivation for the cold showers now and then, but I manage to motivate my 😊. I like to be and feel clean, even when I’m actually “sourrende” by just myself most of the time at the moment 😊. And after a “water falls” sleep it’s really good with a shower, but, lucky for me, I haven’t had to many of “hot” nights during this month 😊.

I decided I wanted to “celebrate” a bit today then 🎉. Celebrate the nice, warm water in my shower. Celebrate that I’m actually very lucky with small, but still important “luxury” in the daily life 🥰. Celebrate and be grateful for what I have in my life 🥰.

I did “celebrate” with a visit to the hairdresser as well ✂️ 😊. Actually also a bit of a luxury 😊.

Me with a new haircut- done today ✂️😊

It’s actually 10 months since last time I visited the hairdresser, so it was a bit necessary, at least for my hair 😊. And it felt a bit like luxury to be able to go to the hairdresser too 😊. In my own way I celebrate the “small” things many takes for granted, but at the same there’s so many people who haven’t the possibility for clean water, a warm shower or a visit to the hairdresser.

I’m so lucky, and I feel so grateful for having this “simple”, but still so great necessities in my life 🧡. Unfortunately there is no obvious for all and everyone to have this “small” necessities in their life 😞.

And just to “top it all” an spoil myself a bit more, and I went to the store that sells my favourite ice coffee 🥰.

I don’t drink ice coffee every day anymore. I’m trying to save my money in different “areas” in my household, and one of then is to have an ice coffee or two just on Mondays and Tuesdays now, and not every day ☕. For me that’s the most busy and hard working days in the week. The days I’m most tired. So I “spoil” myself with an ice coffee or two this days then 😊. Except from today 🥰.

I did work 10 hours yesterday, and have in general working between 9 and 10 hours every day this week. And for closely one month I have started my day with a cold shower, not very volunteer, but because my hot water tank was broken. So today I choose to “celebrate” a bit with a new haircut and some ice coffee. Have a tiny “luxury” day in my life, and also feel on gratefulness because I actually have the opportunity for this small daily things in my life, like a warm shower 🥰.

I hope you have the possibility to spoil your self a bit today too 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

My favourite ice coffee- I’m celebrating how lucky and grateful I’m 🥰.

Today it’s a bit “luxury” day for me, and I “celebrate” it with a visit to the hairdresser and bought some of my favourite ice coffee too 🥰. I just celebrate the “luxury” of nice, warm water in my shower 🚿,- as well as just feeling grateful for the “small” things in the daily life 🥰.

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It feels like the time just flies away 💙🎈🎁

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it’s 27 year since I became a mammi for the first time in my life,- to a lovely baby boy. The most fantastic, sweetest and gorgeous baby boy I have ever seen 💙. It was a marvellous moment, and in it’s own way still is 💙.

I still remember that day, 27 years ago, and it’s a day I’m probably going to remember with joy and happiness for the rest of my life 💙. I was so proud, and still is 🥰.

A so proud mammi to my first born child 27 years  ago- a friend of my in Norway did take this photo when she visited us in the hospital 💙

The feeling to hold him in my arms for the first time was fantastic 🥰. I felt so deeply in love with this little baby boy it felt like my heart was going to explode 💖. And this love has not became any less during the years, not at all ❤. Just bigger and stronger for very day 💙.

The love I feel for him is so strong, so unconditional- it’s impossible for me to explain with any words. There’s no words big enough to manage explain my love for him, and how incredibly proud I’m to be his mammi 💙. And how incredibly proud I’m of my son, my oldest son, my first born child 💙.

He is not a baby or child anymore, he is a young adult man. I do forget that sometimes, actually a bit often now and then too. He will probably always be my child, no matter how old he is 💙.

He goes his own ways in life, and that’s so fine 🥰. I see he is happy in his life, he works hard, and he reach the different goals he want to reach. He loves to entertain, something he always has liked to do.

He is helpful, and help out as best as he can if anyone close to him need some help of any kind 😊. And he really love to live close to the nature, and enjoys his life in the mountains 😊.

It’s getting a bit more difficult to find good and useful birthday presents to him as older he get 🎁. He manage to buy what he need on his own now 😊. But I really want to give him something that in it’s own way represent the love I feel for him. The proud. The best wishes for him in his life.

If I could, I have probably given him what ever he wanted and wish for, but I can’t. I can give him my unconditional love, and something that shows my love for him 💙. So this year it became a painted winebottle, but not a empty winebottle. A winebottle with wine inside. A winebottle, one of a kind, just like my oldest son 💙.

It’s the first time I have painted on a winebottle with wine inside. It was a bit different to paint, because the bottle was heavier and the different reflections became different then I’m use to. And I was so worried to loose the bottle when I painted. I really didn’t want it to break.

I have actually looked around in different stores to find a winebottle colour with blue glass, and lucky for me I did manage to fine one after a while 💙.

In case I could not remove the label on the bottle I took a picture of it to be able to show my son what wine is inside the bottle.

I did manage to remove the label, and put it together with his birthday card 😊.

The birthday- card to my oldest son- with the label from the wine too 😊

I have been working with this winebottle for a while, but still I was a bit worried I shouldn’t manage to get finish to my son’s birthday. But I did 😊.

Some few details from the winebottle to my oldest son 💙
The winebottle in different “environment” 😊.

And of course I wanted to try to made the present so “special” as I can and have the possibility to do,- so I found a bit cool winebox to the painted winebottle too 🎁.

Look ,- a bit cool ,- isn’t it? 💙

And of course I made the favourite chocolate cake I always makes to my children’s birthdays 😊🎁

The chocolate cake/ birthday cake and the birthday gift to my oldest son at his 27 years birthday 🎁💙.
And here you can see the winebottle “all around ” 💙

I should actually painted the winebottle in different violet colours, because that’s my oldest son favourite colour 🎨. But since the kids was small I have “created” things and stuffs, like for example clothes in different blue colours to my oldest, in different green colours to my middle son, and my daughter, – she was a bit “luckier” with the colours because I switched a bit between red, pink and violet in different varieties 😊. So then it became blue winebottle to my oldest son 💙.

And my oldest son has got some different knitted things in different violet colours so I think he know I know what’s his favourite colour anyway, and they all three know I have this “habit” to still give them things “touched” with the colours from their childhood 🥰.

So it’s actually and really 27 years since I became a mammi for the first time today 🥰. It feels incredible, – the time just flies away. I feel so incredibly grateful and lucky, and so proud 💙.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It was not easy to put lights inside a not open bottle, so then it became a bit lights around the the bottle instead 💙

Imagen it’s 27 years since I had this tiny little baby boy in my arms and felt so deeply in love 💙. He will probably always in a way be my child no matter how old he is 💙. In my post you will find my birthday gift to him this year, and if you want to take a look, you are welcome to do 🥰.

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It takes a bit time to find the balance again 😊🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been living with some “moving in and out” from my home since the beginning of October 2019. And during this time I have found out it takes a bit time to find my balance in the new “living together” and “living alone” situations that has changed more and less every second or third month 😊.

Things goes okay, of course, but I need to try to find a kind of rhythm, routines and balance together with the people I’m living together with as well as my own rhythm, routines and balance when they has moved out again 😊.

The first month it’s a bit like trying out what’s most functional for the people who are living in my home as well as me. And then slowly during the second month it’s seems and feels like we get a kind of balance together, and things in the daily life goes a bit “smoother” and we in a way manage to create a kind of routine together as well as separate.

And then we turn into the third month and a new “round” of trying to find the balance starting again because someone has moved out, and someone is maybe soon moving in again 😊.

It’s almost a bit like I have to reset myself a little bit every time – whether it’s moving in or moving out.  If you understand what I mean?

In a living together situation it’s a bit important to find a balance more and less where everyone is a bit comfortable with. But it is not easy, because we are all different, we have different habits (good and not to good), and we see things in the daily life differently too.

I need to admit I think this “moving in and out” from my home have got smoother then I first had in mind. Maybe because in general it has been my children and their friends that have moved their suitcases in and out, so it’s people I actually know very well 😊.

Now I’m on my own again and have actually been living alone for around a month. I haven’t got or “found” the balance that’s feels best for me yet, but I’m getting closer 😊.

I need to admit I have felt a bit restless and inactive lately, and it has been a little difficult to create new good routines in my life. I’m not sure why I feel and have felt a bit restless, but probably because the life- and living situation has changed again, and I’m going “in and out” from my routines and balance in my life.

And of course this “getting older” process also is influential cause. But I have not quite managed to find my own peace in my everyday life yet.  And I like to have calm, balance, rhythm and routines in my daily life. And I’m not quite there yet…. Maybe I’m a bit a little impatient with myself? I know things takes a bit time sometimes 😊.

I have learned during this around 18 months with a changing life- situation every second and third month that it takes me around 8 to 10 weeks before I’m “there” I want to be and with the balance in my life I feel comfortable with. It doesn’t matter if it’s a living together situation or living on my own,- I’m actually comfortable and have learned to live with the new life situation after around 8- 10 weeks. So you can say I have been a bit “in and out” myself during this 18 months with a changing life- situation, and trying to find my new balance every second or third month 😅. But okay,- that’s life- and I think this time my living alone situation will last a bit longer then 2 or 3 months so I have the chance to find a very good balance in my life too 😊.

I’m not sure if anyone else has it this way? I don’t think the young adult that has been living in my home has felt this “balance” thing in the daily life at the same way as me. And I also think, well at least it looked like that for me, that this young adults found their balance in the daily life very fast, also when they moved into my home 😊. Of course I’m very happy for that, because then at least they felt like “home” and hopefully a bit relaxed with the living together situation 😊.

But I think as older we get a bit more difficult it is for us to “adopt” us into a new life situation, it’s more difficult because we are older, and it takes a bit longer time to feel comfortable and “balanced” in the new life situation. It’s not sure I’m correct. This is just my thoughts and feelings, and also my experiences during the last 18 months.

I’m doing my things, – my job, my freelance work, I knit and I paint too, and I meet my friends now and then as well. So I’m trying my very best to create a balance, my balance in my life. But I still have this restlessness inside me, and Im actually still very inactive in my life even it maybe doesn’t look like that from “the outside”,- and there’s still a couple of more routines I need to try to get a bit better “control” over in my daily life 😊. I’m actually in general a bit more effective then I have been the last month. Hopefully I will be “there” I want to be with my rhythms and routines in my daily life in the middle of May 😅.

Is it just me that is like this? Have this habit and need for having a kind of balance in my daily life, and a kind of rhythm and routines too? And is it just me that actually use over 2 months to “get” the balance in my life I feel comfortable with after some changes in the daily life balance? I hope not 😊. (Anyway I’m who I’m- like to have a kind of balance “here and there ” in my life 😊).

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I feel I need to resett my self a bit after some months with “moving in and out” from my home 😊.

Is it just me that like to have a kind of balance in the daily life? I feel I need to resett my self a bit every time someone is moving in or out from my home, because I like to have a kind of balance in my daily life,- both when I’m sharing my home as well as living on my own 😊.

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Where does the road go in my life now? 🛤💚

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Like I mention in my last post,- I’m standing on the start line into a new era in my life. At the moment I’m standing and I choose to stand for a tiny little while too, because I just need to do this for myself. I need to feel on my feelings before I start “moving” in one or another direction in my life.

In one way I have some of the same thoughts I had when I was a teenager and was standing on the start line to be a young adult. What to do? Where to go? What can I expect? How do I do this? What do I want? Where do I want “go”? How to “get there”? What will happen there in the future? And so on. Maybe you recognize some of my thoughts from when you was a teenager and on the start line into the young adult life too? 🤔

To be honest,- I think I’m thinking a bit more about this different questions now then I actually did when I was a teenager and on my way to the young adult life. When I was a on my way to be a young adult I lived a bit more in the moment then I’m doing now. And I was also a bit more “what happens happens, it will probably be fun anyway” 😊.

I still think I have a very exciting time in front of me, and I still think I will meet on a lots of joy, fun and happiness,- but I’m probably a bit more conscious of my thoughts, my feelings, and hopefully my choices further too, – than for for example around 30 years ago 😊.

Will I continue be living in Spain? Work as an customer service agent, private teacher and freelance writer? 🎧📝 I have two of my three children here in Spain. At least at the moment,- but I don’t know what they’re plans will be in the future.

Or am I going to move back to Norway? Try to find a job as a teacher or maybe work in the home- nursery or at nursery home? 📚💉 I have one child in Norway, and I really do miss him, at the same time he is living his own life, and I’m not going to be the same part in his life as I was just some few years ago.

Or maybe I’m going to get the opportunity to move to California and squeeze some grapes into wine? 🍇🍷 Or maybe Ireland and visit the leprechaun 🧚‍♂️?

At the moment I don’t know what or where,- and at the moment I actually can’t take any choices either. At the moment I’m in a bit “emotional place” in my life and then it’s not the correct time to make to many and to big choices, elections and decisions in my life and for my future.

What I do know is that I’m going to live in the home I’m living in for a time now. I’m not ready to move anywhere at the moment,- and one of the reasons for that is because it has already been a bit moving in and out from this home during the last 18 months, – even it’s not me that has moved in and out 😊. I just need to have a tiny while of not to much moving “here and there”, just in way to “calm down” 😊.

But I’m actually not sure if I want to continue living in Spain or work as a costumer service agent “for ever”. Or as a private teacher either. But I’m not very tempted to move back to Norway either and work as a teacher or in the home- nursery up there in the North.

At the moment I feel I’m finish with being a teacher and to work in the home nursery, and also as a costumer service agent. But don’t we all have that now and then where you are a bit tired of your job?

And of course,- I’m also a bit “touched” with some emotional feelings because I’m standing on a finish line for one era in my life, as well as a starting line into a new era in my life 😊. So I’m probably not in “the best place” in my life to make any big decisions at the moment either 😊.

I know when we are turning the page on the calendar to August I’m finish working for the department I’m working in. It’s closing down in Norway. But I also know that the company I’m working for have an obligation to try to find an other job to me in the company as long as I have been an employer for more than 6 months,- something I have. But at the same time,- we are living in a corona- situation,- so it’s difficult to tell to much about the future too. I’m can assume what’s in front me until August, but after August I actually have no idea at the moment.

At the moment I have just decided to not do to much of anything, not make to many work- or moving plans or decisions, – just do my work where I’m working, be a private teacher and do my online freelance work, and live in the home I’m living in. Then I see what’s coming up, or what’s happen. I don’t know,- I don’t know if “the road” in the future will be in Spain or Norway or California or maybe another place.

What I do know is that I actually like to work with creative things, and people too,- and I like to see progression in my work too. But my weakness, or strength, is to create, be creative and see a result of my job.  A product.  My dream is really to be able to feed myself on something I make, write, create, paint – or even “squeeze” some grapes into wine? But is something of this actually possible, special because we are living in a corona- situation?

When that’s said,- of course I have seen a lots of great positive progressions in both my work as a teacher as well as in the home nursery 😊. But it’s a different kind of progression.

I want and I like to create, own a product, is a (physical) result of what I do, what I work with.  (ex- paint, knit, write, maybe make wine). But it possible to work and live from something like that? I don’t know.

I do not know what my future will bring me, – but something that contains both joy, happiness and probably a bit new knowledge as well as wisdom, and some changes too.

At the moment I take one tiny step at the time, one from an era that’s over and one into an era that’s started 💚. I need to find my balance in my life before I take to many decisions about my future 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I’m just going to take one step at the time – one from an era in my life that’s over, and one into the new era in my life 😊.

I don’t know what to future will bring me,- and I don’t know what kind of changes, choices or directions I’m going to do or take 😊. At the moment I just take one step from an era in my life that’s over, and one step at the time into a new era in my life 💚

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