Menopause,- “the new Spring in life” ? 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I did read somewhere that menopause was like “the new Spring in life”,- but I’m not so sure about that one yet 😳. Sometimes it feels a bit more like a cold winter storm, to be honest ❄. But just sometimes 😊. In general I’m still fine during this new “process” in my life, and body. But I don’t know how this menopause process later will be for me.

Menopause,- the new Spring in life? 🌱 I don’t know about that,- but things are changing like the Spring changes the nature from the cold winter time ❄. So maybe it’s something in it?

Some women are open about and talk about menopause, others do not say very much, and some even “deny” that they are there or have been there.  Why this is so I’m not sure.  Shame about getting older?  Fear of a new and unknown phase in life?  Or too big challenges in this phase for them to be able to talk about menopause? Probably a bit of it all.

We women don’t experiences menopause in the same way. Like we didn’t have the same experiences during the puberty. Some women can have a very hard menopause, and other more “sails” through it.

I did start to “research” about menopause before I was in the menopause, and I’m still not “in the menopause” yet, at the same time as I know this phase in life starts a bit before it has been a year since the last period. I wanted to know a bit about this new phase and period in my life, and what I could “expect” as well, as also maybe get some advice how to handle different kinds of challenges if they get to hard. Be a bit prepared for this new changes as well as challenges.

Menopause is in a way “official” when it has been more then one year since the last period, but it start some years before that. And it last some years after that too.

Like I mention, I’m still not “official” in menopause, but in a phase which in the technical language is called pre- perimenopause , but of course I notice different changes both in my body and mind.

I’m not ashamed over getting older, but if I like it? To be honest,- I’m not sure. It’s like I haven’t had the time to think or fell to much about it/ this yet,- if I like it or not, because so fare in this “period” in my life I haven’t been to much alone and be able to think or feel to much about this “new life experience” I’m going to go through.

As you know my children have been moving in and out during the last two- three years. And that’s a part I feel I’m very finish with,- live together with my children, or anyone else. My children can be my neighbours instead 😊. That I would actually loved 🥰.

I not worried to talk about menopause either, at the same time there’s “things” that’s happens in my mind I can’t explain very well. Special this “moody and emotional moments”. What I do know is that I need to be and live alone now so I can “sort” this out, find my own way to “deal” with “this”, handle it and learn to live with it- this “getting older and the different changes”, and now and then, challenges too.

I can’t at this point say I feel I’m going through a new Spring in my life 😅🌱,- but I can understand why some call menopause and the time after for a new Spring in life. Maybe special the time after, when this suddenly mood and emotion storms are a bit more “calm down”, and you in your own way have found “the new way” in life?

I know some feel and thinks their life is “over” when they go through menopause. And some also goes through a kind of “middle life crisis” during this process.

One part or epoch in life is over,- what will the next one brings? What should I do now? For many the children also are moving out during this period in life, and they feel a kind of “useless”, the empty nest syndrome are in a way “knocking on the door”. I need to admit I really like to live alone, so the empty nest syndrome haven’t knocking on my door 😊. Well at least the time I have tried to live alone so fare 😅. Let me put it this way,- I liked it so much to live alone I want to try it for a bit longer period then 2- 3 months 😊. I miss my children, I love my children, I enjoy spending time together with them- but I’m very finish to live together with them. And I’m not ashamed over being that, or feel like that- like I mention in an other post,- it’s feels like my freedom to be able to live alone now 💛.

An other thing during this “getting older” ,- you can get this feeling of being not very “attractive” any more. Maybe special when it comes to the work situation, and maybe also when it comes to dating?

In general I don’t think to much that my life is over because I’m getting older, I’m in my life and very happy and grateful for that 🧡. I’m fine with the fact that my children are out of the nest, and I’m fine in my job. I’m not stressing with this dating either. I have some others thing I want to try to do and “find out” before I’m going to date again,- and it’s not even sure I want to date again, or have a boyfriend. My experience when it comes to dating, men and relationships is that there are a lot of hassles, whining, nagging and unfavorable requirements from men/ boyfriend. I want to have peace in my life, and not hassles, whining, nagging and unfavourable requirements.

But,– when those emotional waves are coming, just running and rumbling through my soul, thoughts and mind I’m not so comfortable in my life. I can get a bit “bunch” of negative thoughts and feelings about closely “all and everything” to be honest. But still actually not about relationship, dating or men. My negative thoughts goes more to “what am I going to do with my life?” Move to a new place? Back to Norway? To another country? What about work? Do I want to work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life? And in my mind “the rest of my life” are a couple of years to be honest. And I also struggling with thoughts that I have been not the best mammi for my children. So this are mainly my negative waves, or “boble”. Sounds maybe like a nice and “easy” boble- but it’s not. I’m very “phu hu poor me” when this “waves” are “dropping by”.

And yes,- there’s one more emotional wave,- this tears that’s dropping up sometimes from no where. And the fuse that has become even shorter than it was before.  Things that have not annoyed me that much before can be incredibly annoying now.

But still in general I feel more and less like me. Without to many challenges, or “emotional waves” 🌊. But the thing is,- I’m not prepared for this “waves” when they “drops by”. I have actually no idea when they are dropping by 😳 They don’t give to many “hands up” or “warnings” like “we are going to mess a bit with your mind today” before they in a way are just “rolling over” me 😳.

Lucky for me they don’t last to long,- a day or two, and then I have some days, maybe even a couple of weeks without. But when they are “tumbling and rumbling” in my body- I really don’t feel I’m going through a new Spring in life- that’s for sure. And an other thing,- I really prefer to be alone during those “emotional waves moments” .

Unfortunately people in general doesn’t understand this, this “suddenly waves”, this need to be alone, be able to find your own way to handle them. The exception is, someone who actually are going through the same, or have bee thought menopause. They understand very well. Because it’s just not to “put your self together”. It’s actually not so easy. Not with this.

So yes,- I do really understand why some women in the 50’s, during this menopause, are a bit “trolly”. I’m a bit “trolly” my self,- even I don’t want to be “trolly”.

And I do understand this “colour up” with makeup and nail polish, clothes and accessories,- we don’t want to feel useless or invisible,- special not in work situations, and I can also understand the dating situation too,- even I’m not there.

We are some women with a lots of knowledge, in general even a good working moral,- something I can’t say many younger have. And,- we have so much to offer. Maybe I should write a bit more about my thoughts about the work situation and this feeling of being invisible in different work situations when you have turned 45 and on top of that is a woman in another post? Because I have some thoughts about that too,- more then I hade before 😊.

Anyway,- the new Spring in life? Yes in one way I can see and understand the “metaphor”, in other ways not at all. I think it depends where you are in the menopause as well as how “hard” and challeng the menopause is. This can, natural enough, be various from woman to woman 🧡. It’s can feel like a bit chaotic Spring now and then 😊😳😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The new Spring in life? Something happens, some changes, with both the mind and body during menopause,- and it could be like a kind of Spring?

I did read somewhere that menopause was like the “new Spring” in life. In one way I can understand the “metaphor”. But sometimes I need to admit that it feels like a very ” cold and stormy” Spring 😳😅🌱.

#midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #menopause #mentalhealth #emotions #feelings #thougths #outifthenest #gettingolder #growingup #newspringinlife #lifeis #midlifecrise

Then you have gone too fare ….. 🕰⏳🤨

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m not sure if this is about my age, or things that have happened I my life with me before, my earlier experiences,- but I don’t tolerate anything when someone is “crossing my time- line”, or lines in general,- but special my time- line, my time off from work, and how and what I use my time off to. That’s my business! No one have any kind of rights to put up any kind of questions mark to what I’m using my time to when I’m not at work.

I know this is not just me….this is about many grown up people that have started to value the time, their time much more then before.

They see the value of their time alone as well as together with people they care about. And they see the value of the time as much more pressure and “expensive” then things and materials.

The time is also something you actually don’t or can’t get back. You can’t buy the time for money. When it’s gone it’s gone,- it want come back. It can’t be replaced either.

So when someone ask questions about my time, and even worse actually demand me to tell them what I’m going to use my time to, then they have really crossed the line, my line. A private and personal line. My time that I should and could use to whatever I wanted to do, without any kind of explanations.

It’s actually non of your business to know what someone else is going to or want to use their time too. And in top of that demand an answer to what I’m going to use my time too,- it’s respect less. If I want to tell, I tell, if not just respect that fact that it’s my time, I don’t feel any kind of responsibility to answer that question, and it’s actually non of your business. It’s my choice to tell, not to be demented to tell, or asked questions mark about it.

If I want to tell you,- fine,- but that’s my choice. It’s not your choice to demand or ask questions about what someone else is doing or using their time too,- or personal space what’s that matter. It’s exactly what it is,- personal space.

The time is personal and private,- we can use our time to exactly what we want ( of course as long as we use it in a good way- nothing criminal- if you understand what I mean?) But no one have any rights to tell me, or you, what or how I’m going to use my personal and private time, or personal space.

If I want to spend 3 hours on the sunbed in the sun with a book, on my own,- that’s my choice, that’s my time, that’s my priority, that’s my personal space,- and no one have any kind of rights to tell me that they think, believe or their opinion what else I could and should use that time to.

If I can’t babysit or look after the cat or dog, or what I should use the guestroom to in my own home. If I can’t I cant, if I can I do. If I don’t want I don’t want, if I want I want. It’s actually very easy. It’s became difficult when the questions and demands shows up. I shouldn’t have any needs at all to explain my “no”. It’s my case, not yours.

And if I want to explain my “no” I do that, if not just respect it.

To cross that line with a lots of questions and arguments it’s so untasty and reprehensible.  I’m not doing anything wrong by saying no, without having to give an explanation in addition.

And to tell me how I’m going to use my time in my own home together with demanding and arguments,- then you are a lost case for me,- sorry. I don’t like that at all, and I don’t need people like that in my life either. Been there, done that, and very, very finish with it too.

I’m an adult, I m available to make my own choices when it come to my time off. I know I’m very helpful, I know that I’m in general a good and nice person, I know I m sharing my time with other people as best as I can,- until you cross the line and actually show me non respect for my choices for my own time, and on top of that starts to ask questions about my tim, what Im going to use it to. Then I’m finish. I’m perfectly available to manage my life without people like that in it.

To start to argue and demand an explanation for what I’m going to use my time to, or how Im using the different rooms in my home, for me that’s not a line I do tolerate. It’s unacceptable! Special because I actually know I’m doing my very best to actually share my time with people around me, and help out as best as I can,- but for to be able to do that I also really need to have a refill of just my own time,- without any kind of questions.

I’m probably not the only one that feel it like this when it comes to this exclusive and so value time alone. Unfortunately it seems for some souls that’s that’s unacceptable to be like that, need the time like that, use your own time that’s suits me/ you the best. To do whatever I want to do without any kind of needs to explain.

Now I’m at a point where I’m going to say more no then yes to use my time on someone else, or help them out in a not to good situation,- the exception are my children, close family and close friends, because they actually understand. The people who don’t want do understand, even demand an explanation and want to argue about my time,- I don’t need people ikke that in my life. Then you have gone to fare for me,- I have been there, done that and I’m not going to do it again.

What triggered this reaction in me today is not important for you to know. You still know someone needed and explanation, and not just an explanation, but even demanded a answer for my “no”.  What is important is that my time is so valuable to me that I get furious when I have to explain what I am going to use it for, when I myself have no desire or need to explain it.  And unfortunately, it is not anger that passes quickly.  Normally I am not angry for a long time, but this feels to me like abuse, trampling, lack of respect for both me and my time.

So no,-it didn’t became any menopause post today as my plan was- because I actually feel a so big lack of respect for me as a person and also to be demented to explain what I m going to use my time to, today. And I really don’t like that. Sorry!

So it was more a sigh of relief from me Instead today, – but …..

I still Wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡…. your valuable time 🧡🌹

See you soon 😊

Don’t put any question mark on what or how I’m using my time when I’m not at work,- because that’s actually non of your business!

I don’t think I’m the only one that doesn’t like to explain what Im using my time off from work to. And even get a demanded explanation too. I don’t like that at all. And when someone actually demands me to give an explanation to what I’m going to use my time off from work to, you have gone to fare. For me you have crossed a line you shouldn’t cross.

#mytime #mythoughts #myfeelings #myvaluetime #respect #mychoices #challenges #gettingolder #midlife #lifeexperiences #noneedforexplanation

“Touching” the menopause 😳😊🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

In my last post I did “touch” the “subject” menopause. A bit “scary subject” for some women, and for others not so much. I’m going to “touch” this subject a bit more during my next posts. I’m not in “the middle” of this “menopause- process” yet, …..I think….I actually know 😊…..but in the beginning,- this stadium befor peri- menopause (proper advanced words are there too 😅). I have “learned” lately that obviously I’m in the middle of the menopause process when I have been a year without my period. And I have just been some weeks without my period 😅,- and there’s something in my body that tells me that I will probably get my period again in a couple of weeks 😳.

I have “touched” the menopause subject a couple of times before in my blog, but not to much for different reasons. I’m not quite “there”, at the same time as I’m, and I’m not struggling to much on daily basis with the different changes and challenges menopause can gives. But of course I notice different “things” “here and there”, both mentally and physically when it comes to “getting older”. So I haven’t had to much to write about, at the same time as I maybe have a bit more to write about now then for just a year ago 😊.

I have always thought ladies in the 50’s has been a little bit scary,- and I know I’m not the only one with thoughts like that. Both men, children, young adults and women not in the 50’s have a couple of thoughts about ladies in the 50’s. I have never been a big fan of ladies in the 50’s. I didn’t like them to much when I was younger. They are rude and mean, grumpy and talk load and seems to have no limit to what can come out of their mouths sometimes 😳. And many use a lots of colours in their hair, the clothes, the nail polish and make up, even nickles and ear rings can be big and colourful so we should be pretty sure to notice them both with our eyes and ears 💍💄. They are a bit like very pretty, colourful and scary trolls 😅😊.( ps- I really hope you know I’m exaggerating a bit now 😊)

And then suddenly after some years, some of this ladies became so soft and nice, caring, smell nice and safe, even the colours are tone down a bit down. It’s like you want to be hugged by them because they are so good and gentle 🥀.

And now I’m one of this scary trolly ladies in the 50’s 😳, and suddenly, little by little I’m starting to understand this scary attitude the ladies in the 50’s had and have, and why.

It’s actually not the easiest “changes in life” we are going through,- and like I mention,- I know I don’t have the biggest challenges at all when it comes to menopause, but still,- “wow” it can be a bit of a emotional waves some days 🌊. And to be honest,- I really like to be alone when this emotional waves “shows up” so I don’t need to be to “trolly” with the people around me.

The body is changing, the hair, the skin, the wrinkles, something inside you as well is changing. Sometimes there’s no control over the tears, other times no control over the anger- and you don’t even know where the tears or the anger comes from, or why it just suddenly showed up. And the clothes is changing too. Or maybe that’s because of the body changes ?😅 And it’s difficult to put the correct words on the different things that’s happen with you during this new period in life- this menopause,- special this “jumping Jack flash” moods. It’s like an adult puberty,- really 😳😊.

Some will of course find it interesting to read about my personal “experiences” so fare during this pre peri- menopause period, others not. Natural enough, because we are in different places in our life 😊. But I will try my very best to share with you some of my experiences in this/ my pre peri menopause during my next posts during this week (what a fancy word for maybe a not so “fancy” period in life?)📝😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I’m still not “there” in my life where I find it necessary to use a lots of colours- I prefer this a bit anonymity “style” 😊

I have always thought ladies in the 50’s (the ladies during this “magical” menopause) has been a little bit scary. And “soon” I will be one of this scary trolly ladies in the 50’s myself 😳, Not because I’m 50 yet,- but because this “exacting” phase in my life is starting- this a bit scary (peri) menopause 🥀.

#perimenopause #menopause #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #gettingolder #growingup #scary #trolly #positivefocus

April is over 🐣and May has already started🌹

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

April is already a finish “capital” and May has already started. And like I feel the other months so fare this year went a bit fast, April did too.

In April we, or more correctly, Mathilde had the first roof terrace party in my, or again more correctly at that time, our home. A party thst went very well 🎉😊. But still I’m not going to have a party like that on the terrace.

It was Easter as well in April, and Mathilde did “leave the building” straight after and started on her new adventures in Bali 🏖. And so fare so very well, she is enjoying her new life in a new and very different place from Spain, and Norway too. She is very good to put out different posts both on Instagram as well as Snap chat. And it’s nice, funny and exciting to follow her and in a way be a part of her daily life. A tiny part, but still a part 😊.

I got some painting orders too in April, something I think are both exciting, a funny creative challenge as well as it gives me a bit ” performance anxiety”. Something that’s also good because I get more aware of how I paint and not least the customer’s wishes, as well as do my best to create the performance and illustrations that the customer wants to have painted 🎨. It’s a very new challenge for me, but a challenge I really like, a creative demanding challenge.  Demanding in a positive way 😊.

And my oldest son became 28 years old too during April, and he also got a new job, a job he wanted 💛🙏. I’m incredibly grateful and happy for that 🙏💛.

I have used my time after Mathilde moved to organize the home in a way I like it and want to have it. I have also baked some cakes to have in my fridge for guests that’s dropping by 😊.

I’m in general not bored 😅. A creative soul have in general always something to do 😅.

Last Saturday, that means two days ago, I got a text from one of my colleagues. He needed a place to stay for 3 nights, until we get our salary into our bank accounts. I said yes to that question, but I was also very clear- it’s just then for three nights, because I knew the question would come- to stay here longer when he was “well installed” in the guests room. But that’s not a option for me now, not at all.

I can’t and I don’t want to live together with anyone now. Not even for money. I choose rather to work more hours every day then live together with someone. I really need this time on my own now. To get to know “me”. Some will both think and say I’m selfish,- I actually don’t care very much about that. It’s not correct for me to live together with anyone at the moment. I’m not there in my life now. I need to find my place in my life, and I can just do that when I’m just with my self.

So why did he, this colleague, need a place to stay for just some nights? Because our salary get paid out the 1.every month. And yesterday was both a Sunday and 1. May. So the salary button will not be pressed before today. And then some will have their salary into their bank account today, others tomorrow. I will probably have my salary into my bank account tomorrow.

He is inbetween apartments, but couldn’t move into the other apartment before he have paid for the deposit, and he needed to be out of the other apartment because someone else was going to move in there yesterday, the 1.of the month.

Who is this colleague of mine?  He is a nice young man, about the same age as my eldest son. He is originally from Somalia.  moved to Norway with his siblings and mother when he was 11 years old.  And moved to Spain this Autumn to try some new adventures in life.

And why did I say yes to have a more and less foreign person in my home? My first thought was that as a mother I would have greatly appreciated if someone had helped my child in such a situation.  My second thought was that I myself have received so much help from other people when I have been in a difficult situation. So of course,- if I can help for some few days I do that.

Of course the question did came to rent the guests room, but my answer was and still is no. It’s not going to change. It’s not a option for me now,- then I prefer to work more hours every day. I need this time to just be me, find out who am I when I’m not in the mammi- role, and to be honest,- I need to handle this new period in my life too that’s “knocking on my door” called menopause, without to many people around me.

To setting boundaries and saying no was and is a good and liberated experience for me, and something I will do more in the future, and a word that I will become better at using. It made me actually happy to learn to be able to use “no” without feeling guilty 😊.

I’m very grateful for what April have “teaceh” me,- like it’s possible to have a kind of big party in my home, but that’s nothing for me. My daughter handle her new life in Bali so fare very well,- something I’m incredibly grateful for 💛. My oldest son got a new job he wanted, and Im so happy for that 🙏💛 . I have got some creative challenges, something that’s a new and exciting experience for me, and I know very well that I can’t live together with anyone at the moment, but I can help out for a tiny little while 😊. To be more clear about this last one,- I did say no because that’s correct for me, but it’s very new for me to say no to someone else because it’s actually correct for me to say no. In general I say yes,- even when I don’t want to say yes. I’m actually learning to say no to things I don’t want or can do. Things that is not correct and don’t feel correct for me to do. I’m not use to that- but it feels not to bad at all to actually say no, and do something that’s just for me and myself, and feels good and correct for just me. (Obviously I’m growing up too, and learning to use the word no 😅).

It is my kind of freedom to be able to live alone now. And I have family and friends I want use time together with in my home the way I want to use the time. That’s the way it is for me at the moment 😊.

May is very welcome,- even I don’t know very much what this new month will bring me 😊. I know I have a week holiday next week, and I’m going to use that week, that days to do what suits me best- no one else then me 🥰, just me, except from a couple of days when I’m going to look after Zorro,- my eldest son’s dog, but that will be a nice 😊. To have Zorro will be a nice relaxation in the days, and Zorro does not require much other than food and water in his bowls and some airing 🐕.

I’m going to continue painting in May, and do my work as well when I’m “back” from my holiday. And I’m actually going to deliver a basket with oilpainted glassbottles to Natasja and the Cafe Casa Barella in Mijas- glassbottles for sale with solar lights inside, a little more environmentally friendly light in other words than what I use now 💡🌞. And I know I’m going to spend some very nice and cozy time together with family as well as friends 💛. So yes,- I’m looking forward to meet, explore and experience May 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

May is already started with sunrise and nice and warm days- the summer is here 🌞

I’m grateful for the different experiences April gave me 💛. They was nice and gentle 😊,- and I learned to use the word “no” more for myself and more consciously than ever before.  A very liberated experience for me 💛.  May has already started, and I know I looking forward with pleasure to meet what May has to offer 💛🌹 .

#newmonth #april #may #mammi #raisingup #growingup #gettingolder #challenges #changes #thougths #no #settinglimits #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #experiences #differences #experiencesinlife

I will be careful with “replacement” 🥀🎁

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m on my own and are going to be living alone for a while now, (at least as fare I know- but you never know when it come to my kids 😅) , and this weekend I have used to pack down Mathilde’s things and stuffs in boxes 🎁. So now my home is really ready for a big house cleaning 😅🧹🧼. The big Spring cleaning next weekend 🌞🥀.

It’s not so dirty, but it’s get a bit dusty here and there, special when you are packing, and it’s easier to keep the house and home in “order” when “all and everything” are clean and in order and…kremt ….organized 😊. I like to have things organized, and that one is easier to keep up and follow up when it’s just me 😊.

I know many get a kind of “replacement” when the kids are “out of the nest”, something I actually really can understand. It gets a bit empty around you, and also this,- you are actually use to both have company and to take care of someone else. And in general not just for a while, but for many years. It’s a kind of a lifestyle, to be a mammi and parents, if I can use that word. Lifestyle. And to turn around to a new lifestyle in a bit it’s not the easiest thing to do, and not just done in a bit either.

And when I say “replacement” I hope you understand that I don’t mean anything or anyone can replace the young adult children. My children, your’s children. But some people in a way find a other living creature to take care of and keep them with company when the children are out of the nest.

Some get a dog, other a cat or maybe a other kind of animal to keep them with company and to take care of. Some even get a new child- and it’s nothing wrong with that. Some also maybe get into a new relationship, get a boyfriend or girlfriend. I’m not going to do anything of those things,- I’m going to be very careful with any kind of “replacement” after Mathilde (and also my sons) have moved out now. Special when it comes to something that needs to be taken care of in some or another way,- except from my self 😊. I don’t want to have that kind of responsibility either,- for a dog, or cat, or turtle or baby or boyfriend or some thing like that. I think I have enough with the responsibility for just myself for a while now 😊.

I’m in a place in my life now where I mainly want to just have the responsibility for just me for a while 😊.

For some people a kind of “replacement” feels natural after the kids are out of the nest, and for others is not. For me it doesn’t feel natural to find something that “replace” my children now. At the same time as I know my self very well . I have lived with my self for a couple of years now,- so I know a bit about my self. And I’m a person who in a why like to “take care of” in one or another way. As a mammi, as a friend, as a girlfriend, as a teacher, as a costumer service agent on the phone, as a assistant nurse, take care of guests and so on.

And I know I’m going to be a bit restless in a couple of weeks, I know that too,- “been there, done that” a couple of times now 😅, and I know I can in a “weak” moment make the wrong “replacement” decision.

That’s actually one of the positive things with all the moving in and out process to my children have done 🧡. I get more and more conscious about what’s happen with me during this getting use to “the empty nest” situation 🐣.

But I’m a bit tired now,- and need to be careful to not make the wrong “taking care of” replacement and decisions now. Because,- when all comes to all,- I actually need a break from it. I’m tired, my whole body is tired. I need to be honest with myself and focus on my job, myself, my plans. And not to much more then that for a tiny little while. I’m not ready for to much yet,- but I will be there in a bit 😊.

But I’m still going “replace” 😅. Just not with a dog, or a cat, or a new baby, or a boyfriend,- but instead use my time to maybe focus a bit more serious on my plans for my paintings, exercising and in a couple of weeks hopefully start to study too…Spanish 📚. And of course also use time together with family and friends. I just need to get my “breath” a bit back first 😊.

And by the way,- I already have a “living creature” to take care of. I have “replaced” Mathilde with a paprika/ pepper plant 🌶😅. Mathilde like peppers very much, so before she moved to Bali I sowed seeds from both red and green peppers.  And they are beginning to grow and grow.  For me at the moment, it’s enough to take care of them, give them so water and have a cozy chat during the day- and yes,- that’s correct, I do have a tiny chat with the pepper plants 🌶😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The green and the red pepper is growing. My “living taking care of replacement” and responsibility after my kids are out of the best for a while 🌶😊.

I’m in a place in my life now where I need a tiny little break from to much responsibility and to much “taking care of” for “living creatures” 😊🐕🐱. I’m not going to “replace” Mathilde, or my sons, with a dog or a cat- I did “replace” her/ they with some pepper plants instead 🌶😅. I think that’s enough responsibility for me for a while 😅😊.

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