I’m getting there 😊🎨

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Some weeks ago, closely a mont ago, to more correctly, I got some painting orders. Five glassbottles and six canvas 🎨. A creative challenge I have and still do enjoy to work with,- but of course and unfortunately, it takes a bit longer time to paint and finish a order like this when I’m painting in between my ordinary job 😊. And inbetween the painting I have also felt on this performance anxiety. What if my customer don’t like the finish product? 😳

I do like the results more and more, and better and better as closer I’m getting to the end of this painting project. But that doesn’t mean my customer will like it.

When I’m finish with both the canvas as well as the glassbottles I’m going to show you the results,- but my customer will get a tiny little peek first of all 😊. And I’m going to be finish during this week- something I’m actually looking forward too 😊.

If the painting was my ordinary job I haven’t use so much time on a order like this as I have used now. And it’s also this sudden summer heat that “showed up” makes the oilpanting dry a bit slower, and then it’s a bit difficult to finish with not dry painting 🌞. But I did find a tiny solution on that one,- fan 🌬. So during the last days the painting has been easier to do, because the painting is “working” a bit better and smoother together with me, and dry a bit faste when I’m using the fan 😊🎨.

I need to admit that I’m dreaming of, and have some small wishes and thoughts that my mainly and ordinary job actually could be to just paint 🎨. I’m trying to find some solutions to maybe manage that, this dream and wish can be and will be true, but it’s not easy 😊. And one thing I know,- even I really enjoy painting I also like to have food on the table 🍲🥤, And to be an artist it’s not necessarily the same as to get in enough money for covering the daily and monthly expenses. And one thing I’m sure of,- I’m not going down that road again where I’m struggling my ass off to be able to cover and pay for the different expenses 💰.

During this last weeks I have also prepared a basket with different painted glassbottles that will be for sale in Case Barella/ La Cala/ Mijas 🎨🧺. I’m going to deliver the basket with the painted glassbottles tomorrow,- and need to admit I’m a bit excited about that, and how the salsa will go 😊.

So that’s what I have been doing the last days and week,- my ordinary job and finish some different of painted glassbottles and some canvas as well 🎨😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Some of the products from the order I’m working on now at days,- not quite finish,- but very soon 😊

I have been working a bit with some painted orders during the last days and week,- and soon “I getting there”- getting finished oilpainted products I can deliver to some customers 😊. But the heat slowed the painting process a bit down, until I found a fan 🌬😊. And the “windy air” dry the painting a bit faster then the sun 🌬🌞.

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Thank you February 🥀Welcome March 🌱🍃(2022)

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

A nice and peaceful February is over,- peaceful in our home and life at least. Busy with work,- for both Mathilde and me- but still February was a peaceful month in it’s own way 🥀.

Not to much and many different things have happen, but I like it that way😊.

I have some goals I want to try my best to reach- but for be able to reach goals it’s necessary to put in some effort like time and work- something I’m going to do my very best to continue doing the next months too. But of course also use some time to be social together with friends and family 🧡

In the beginning of February I got information about some of our things that are still in Norway, actually still is in Norway- and that made me very happy. I thought it was lots and gone. And today I got the information that it all will be picked up in a couple of days and be ready to be sent to Spain with a big car in June this year 🚚.

I know it’s “just” things- but it’s what’s left from a time in my life I really do miss. The time it was just me and my there kids on our Prairie ❤. That time is over, I know that, and I also know I can’t live in the past or get the past back- but for me to get this things to Spain will be in a way to “clean up” in the past, go through things and stuffs, accept what is gone is gone- in my way. Not all and every one elses way- but the way that’s best for me 😊. And I’m really looking forward to that 🥰. We all do handle things in life differently and that’s just the way it is 😊.

My nest is not empty either- I did start to write a bit about “the nest” and “the empty nest syndrome ” in the beginning of February- and my daughter and me have found a kind rhythm in our life and home that’s not to bad at all. We live different lives, natural enough, and it’s not always easy to find a kind of balance and rhythm in our life when we live together, and also are in very different areas in our life, work in different times from home and have different things and stuffs we want to do. But things have a habit to find a suitable “solution”, or way to create a kind of rhythm that’s best for us in the living together situation we are in 😊.

February is a short month and in general the last day in February comes a bit surprised on my, also this year. It’s like in my mind I think I have a couple of more days before a new month starts 😊. But not in February 😊.

I’m very grateful for that February have been in it’s own way peaceful without to much ups and downs- just work and normal things – the daily life 😊. I should really wish most people could feel on a nice and peaceful February- unfortunately it’s not like that- so I’m feel I’m extra lucky and have all the reason to be and feel grateful 🧡.

March will also be a lots of work and probably April too- but that’s the way it is if I want to try my very best to manage some of my goals for this year- and one of the goals is the get my children and my things and stuffs from Norway to Spain in June 🚚.

I wish March very welcome 🧡. I’m looking forward to this month even I know I need to and is going to and must do- use some hours in front of my computer. But that’s fine- I want to do what I need to do to get what I want to have 😊. That’s the way it is- to manage something I need to complete something too 😊🚚.

I hope you can look forward to a new month with hope and dreams, happiness and joy 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A rose for hope and love, harmony and peace to all the people who haven’t this in their life 🧡

I’m very grateful for this February- a month with a lots of work- but still a peaceful month in it’s own way in our life 🧡. I should wish most people had day, weeks and months like this in their life 🧡. I’m welcoming March- a month I don’t know to much about yet,- I just know I need to work a bit because I want to do what I need to do for trying my best to reach my dreams and goals 🧡

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“Breaking out in freedom” 🥀🍃

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Will we ever be totally free? Free for the things we regret? The choice and acts we regret we did in our past? I don’t think so, but I still think it’s possible to feel free. And to feel free is also a kind of way to be free. Isn’t it? Feel free and accept that the past is the past- even you should wish something, some choices was made different.

I feel free in my own way now,- but I know there still will come days and periods in my life that will be and feel challenged, also when it come to choices I made in my past. My biggest regret is that I let my children be a part of it, the not to best past, the not to best version of their mammi, the not best choice in my life when it came to a boyfriend and living together partner. Hopefully that one will also change a bit one day. Still be there, but in a easier way to “carry” around and deal with.

I have different and new mental “tools” to use now, different from before. To use to handle my thought, emotions and feelings when they try to go into “a bit darker place” in my mind- and that feels good- so good that I will call it “Breaking out in freedom”:

“Breaking out in freedom”.

And that’s the way it feels,- like my past just broke out and gave me some inner colour peace and freedom 🍃.

Can you see how the flowers in the painting just flying out from the broken the chains and links? Just like they are “popping up” with happiness. That’s the way it feels. Like nice, peaceful colours is filling up my soul and mind with happiness and peace 🍃.

And the colours are also a very conscious decision.

The blue color symbolizes clarity, although I probably have to admit that I do not see everything as clearly yet, but still better than before 🤓.

The green color stands for security.  I feel more confident in myself, but a hundred present confident I am not yet.  I’m not quite sure where I’m going in my life – but I’ll probably find out.  In any case, I am confident that the road will continue, and I will be walking and following it as best as I can- and creat- create my life the way I want it to be- little by little, step by step.

Green stand also for growing, and I’m growing in my own way 🌱.

Yellow is the color of optimism, and I am optimistic.  I have actually always been optimistic – but now I also believe that I can get things in order in my life.  Both physically and mentally, and I work more consciously for that as well. “Clean” up the past and get ready for the day today and all the next days there in the future.

White stands for peace, and I have more peace inside me than I have had in a long time.  It feels peaceful, good, relaxing and not least calm.

And then there is the color purple – it stands for freedom.  And I feel free, free from many bad feelings and thoughts that have plagued me for many years, not least guilt and the view of myself – my self-worth.  I’m basically not that bad – even though I made the wrong choice , decision and struggled a bit mentally with that. I’m still not to bad 😘.

There will still come “down days”,- but not like before 😊.

So yes,- I do feel I’m “breaking out in freedom”- my own freedom in myself 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

“Breaking out in freedom “- it’s not perfect, but still the ways it should be for me 😊

There’s different ways to feel this “breaking out in freedom”. I have felt on different kinds of “breaking out in freedom” in my life,- as probably must of us have 🥀. It’s depends of what kind of situation we are “breaking us out in freedom” from.

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Thank you January for an fantastic suprise 🥰. Welcome unknown February ❄

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

January is soon over and we in some few “minutes” are going to turn the calendar to February ❄.

January was more and less like I expected, at the same time really not 😊. My son in middle, Ruben, surprised me with a very unexpected and amazing visit from Norway 🥰💙.

I’m incredibly grateful for this greatest suprise 🎁🥰. The best birthday present I have got 💙🎁. And I got the possibility to celebrate my birthday together with all my three incredibly children 💙💙❤. Something that’s also was super duper birthday present 🥰. So I got two marvellous “gifts” to my birthday this year,- spend time together with Ruben as well as all my three children together 💙💙❤.

The greatest gifts- my son Ruben amazing surprise visit as well as spend time together with all my three children at the same time 💙💙❤

Except from this unexpected and fantastic suprise in January the month has mostly went to painting, organize my paintings and paintings- plans, be a mammi for Mathilde and of course working, and sent up gifts to my family in Norway 🎧📝🎨.

I have actually a bit different things to be grateful for during January 🥰.

I have a plan to try to do my best to start to “fix” my life and things in my life that needs to be fixed this year, and I have manage to start to fix some few things too in January,- even I was a bit surprised it was “fixed”.

My autonomo, this “work as self employed”, is finally finish- phu. After some years to try to finish it. Unfortunately that one did and does cost me much more then I ever did earn to be an autonomo 😔. So one thing is for sure,- I’m never going to open up any kind of autonomo in Spain again. And I’m very grateful for it’s over now.

I’m incredibly grateful for what January brought me- of course special my Ruben 💙. And of course Marius and Mathilde too 💙❤. But also for my jobs, and special this “self employed” thing that’s over now. And I’m grateful for the job I have done with my paintings so fare,- getting things a bit in “order” and with a bit more structure 🎨😊.

And I’m grateful for the jobs I have both as customer service agent on the phone as well as my freelance writing work 🎧📝. I also got information about some things/ furniture I have in Norway I thought was “a lost case”/ was throughed away- but they are still intact, and Ruben and Mathilde are going to help me remove them to the place where the rest of our over things and stuffs are now when Mathilde is in Norway. And the last, but not at least,- Ruben also got his driving licence in January 🚙💙.

So there are some things and stuffs I’m very grateful for during January 🥰. In one way it feels a bit like January spread a bit sparkling diamonds over me and my life 💎🥰.

I’m not sure what February will bring me of suprices and happenings. February is very unknown at the moment. What I do know is that Mathilde is coming back from Norway, and Irene, Marius’s girlfriend is coming back from UK, and I’m going to continue do my work as well as my freelance work, and painting too 🎨. And yes,- I’m going to start with as regular exercises and workout as possible again 🤸‍♀️. I need to admit I’m not looking forward to do the first “steps” there 😳 , I know it’s going to be so hard 😓- but I know it will do both my body and mind very well 😊.

I’m grateful for January and for the start on 2022 🧡. Im wishing February very welcome, and say so much Thank you to January 💙 . I’m looking forward to meet February even I don’t know very much about what’s going to happen during this month 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My different great experiences during this January feels a bit like sparkling diamonds in my heart and life 🥰❤💎 I feel incredibly grateful and lucky 🥰

I have different things to be grateful during January. It feels a bit like January spread some tiny diamonds in and over my life 🥰💎. I’m not sure what I can expect from February yet, but maybe some nice surprises and maybe even some sparkling diamonds too I can wish welcome? 🥰

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Maybe a nice surprise to some aunts and uncles? 🎨🌹

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

One week before Christmas I did send up some gifts to my family in Norway. Just painted glassbottles, but still something personal to each and one of them 😊. The gifts are still not arrived to Norway yet 😳,- but I did check with the post office today- so I know they are under transport- phu 😊. Just some delayed delivery with the transport- and that was good to know. The gifts will probably be in Norway next week 😊.

So then I took the chance today and sent up something more- but this time to a couple of aunts and uncles in Norway 😊. Painted, personal and one of a kind – and glassbottles of course 😊.

I have actually in a way 8 aunts and 8 uncles. But that’s not quite correct. My mam have 3 sisters and 3 brothers, and my dad have 2 sisters- and they are all married- so then I in one way have 8 aunts and 8 uncles, but some of them are married into the family 👫. And of course I also have some cousins too.

By the way,- one of my “uncles” did past away some years ago, so it’s 7 uncles and 8 aunts now.

I don’t have contact with them all, not all my aunts and uncles, or my cousins either. But there’s a couple of aunts and uncles I have contact with, and they have always ment something special for me, since I was a child, and I wanted to “show” that to them in form of a personal gift 🎁. Maybe they will like it, maybe not. And they don’t know I have sent anything up to Norway to them either,- so I hope it will be a nice surprise for them 🤞. And if the post office gave me the correct information today, my aunts and uncles will receive their gifts in around 2 or 3 weeks 😊.

This is to one of my aunts and her husband,- I have always “looked at” her husband as my uncle.

This glassbottle represents and remind me about one of my aunt and how happy, sparkling and caring she is. Then it became something in happy colours together with some sparkling effects 😊.

The glassbottle “all the way around” 😊
Just some few details from the glassbottle
And the glassbottle with lights inside 💡

My next aunt is also happy and caring as well as with a soft harmony mind. So then it became something with soft harmony- in a colour I have got an impression that she likes 😊.

Pink painted small roses to my aunt number two, and of course her husband too 😊.
And then “the all around show”- with a bit “shaking” start 😊
Some few details
And of course also with some lights inside 💡

And my third aunt is not my real aunt of blood,- she is married together with one of my mam’s brothers, but she have always felt like a real aunt for me 🧡. She is also gentle and kind, caring and in her own way so powerful,- so then it became a glassbottle with some “powerful colours” 😊.

Look at this glassbottle with the different powerful colours 😊
And of course a tiny “all around look” 😊
Some few details as well

What do you think? Do you think this will be s nice surprise from me to some aunts and uncles I have in Norway? 🎁

I feeling lucky and grateful for having this aunts and uncles in my life,- even it’s “ages” since I saw them 🧡.

I’m going to send up a couple of more glassbottles,- but that will not be before probably during February or March- and then it is to some friends in Norway that I think deserve a tiny bit “special” and personal attention from me. But one thing at the time- it takes a bit of time to paint the glassbottles too 😊🎨. And I think I want to ask my friends two questions before I start working on glassbottles to them,- and that’s their favourite colour and favourite image and illustrations 🖼.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

And the last one for today- with lights inside 💡

Today I sent up some more oilpainted glassbottles to Norway. This time it was to some aunts and uncles I care for 🧡. So in a couple of weeks I hope they think they get a nice surprise in the mail box from me 🎨😊. If you want to take a tiny look,- you will find the different glassbottles in my text 😊.

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