No words 😔🇺🇦

Hi ❣ I hope all is fine with you during this day 🕯

It’s a special day today,- but not in a good way.

My thoughts goes to all the people in Ukraine today 🧡. All the families, the small children, the teenagers, the young adults, the adults, the elderly people- girls and boys, women and men in Ukraine 🧡.

There’s no words good or bad enough to explain the situation. But I need to admit I have a “bunch” of bad words to a not very good or charming man….. his name is Vadimir V.P. I don’t like him very much. And I don’t like all the attention he gets- but what to do when he creates the horrible situation he have created?

I could write so much about him or men like him because, unfortunately- he is not the only jackass of a man in this world- but I think I save it to an other day when I can be a bit more calm down with my words….. today my words can be and probably would be not very nice at all, or as objective, neutral or with a distance as they should be.

Instead I turn my focus to all the people in Ukraine- and lights candles for peace and hope, love and harmony to all of them 🧡🕯.

Candles for all the people in Ukraine 🧡🕯

To night I lights up candles for all the people in Ukraine 🇺🇦🕯. Lights for hope and love, peace and harmony 🌱🍃🧡.

#Ukraine #war #thougths #destroying #challenges #love #hope #optimism #peace

Mid age and midlife crisis 🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The midlife crisis is no joke.  It can be a pretty tough mental process for many, especially men.  Unfortunately, it turns out that there is a fairly high suicide rate among men who are going through the midlife crisis.  And the average age, worldwide, is 47, 2 years. 

Unfortunately it’s in general men, all over the world, that’s struggling most during this “status in the life period” in life. But of course women too, but maybe in a different way? And it is not “all and everyone” that goes through a mental crisis in the mid age either.

Often is the reason why some feel the mid age are so hard are feelings like unsuccessful, hopelessness over different dreams that hasn’t come through, wishes that’s feels not fulfilled and they are in the middle of the life,- and get a feeling that the life is over. But the middle of the life is not the end. It is the middle of the life. At the same time I can understand this painful feelings inside many fells during this period in life.

Why do so many feel on this bad feelings and thoughts, and also some choose suicide as a “resort” and “solution”? I don’t know, I don’t have the answers, but I can actually really understand this feeling of unsuccessful in life. The hopelessness when dreams and wishes feels like they are not fulfilled, and the feeling of lost youth, and  thoughts  about  a frightening and unknown old age can scares “anyone”, the feeling of not reaching, lack of happiness, depression, emptiness, a feeling of not reaching, and whether one has children – the children who move out, and a home that feels empty. It can be a lots to process at the same time,- as well as there often also are a economic and money “issue”. The economy is not in the direction that is was wishes for in this age.

It’s a kind of feeling that the life is over, and it’s not possible to reach any dreams, wishes and goals anymore, or have any hopes. But it is 😊. Just think about what you actually have manage to do during your 45- 50 years of living? Then it should be possible to “squeeze” in a bit more during the at least next 30- 40 years of your life? Maybe in a bit slower tempo,- but so? 😊

I think I have had my “midlife crisis” in my life, already. This crisis where you actually think you can’t manage anymore, not a tiny little challenge more, at the same time as you feel failed in the economic and material field.  This, unfortunately, is one of the reasons why many, special men choose suicide as a solution instead of the feeling of unsuccessful.

I’m not a man,-, but when I was around 39- 40 I was in “this place” in my life. This incredible painful feeling of being unsuccessful in so many area in my life. It felt more heavy that I could manage. I even planned how and where to do it,- three different times. To try to end this   incredible painful feeling inside me.

The reason why I didn’t manage it was the thoughts of my children. I couldn’t just leave them either, in away alone in the world, and I also knew that my children would never understood why I had left them like that, because of economy, money and material issues. The incredibly painful feeling of unsuccessful. But it was hard, and I can really understand this feeling of being unsuccessful and actually not be able to “see the light in the tunnel”. But “the light  is there”, I know it’s there. So fight as best as you can during  this  hard part of the midlife crisis 💛.

So yes, I know. I know how it feels to not manage life anymore. To not see solutions. To feel useless and unsuccessful. To feel not worthy a shit. But,- still, – I can now say,- life feels good, – even with “the baggage” I have,- but now I slowly try to let go, step by step, trying to leave one heavy part down in the road and let it be there.

Hopefully that was my midlife crisis, and hopefully I will not be in that place in my life again. I actually don’t think so,- I will be in a place like that again,- but I can’t know.

I’m still not successful in the general term of success and successfulness, and m not rich on material things or have a lots of money in my bank account, – but it doesn’t matter anymore 😊. I’m fine,- I have what I need and still do my best to reach my different goals, wishes and dreams in my life. And I know I work hard to keep it going.

I can also imagine that to be in the midlife crisis during an pandemi must be even harder than without an pandemi. So many people has lost their homes, jobs, safety net and different things in life that’s in a way did defined their successes in their life.

I think it’s difficult to have dreams, wishes and goals to work for now at days,- and now and then I’m also “losing” it a bit,- but I try my best to focus on the positive things and try my best to keep the hope alive inside me 😊.

An other part of the midlife crisis is for many women when their children are moving out, and the home feels incredibly empty, silent and the “mammi routines” aren’t there anymore. It’s like “What to do now?”🤔

I don’t have unfortunately, any wise advice to give when someone are goes through a heavy midlife crisis and struggling with keeping things, lifes, their self together, in on or another way. I’m very sorry for that. The only advice I have is,- don’t give up. Look for the small, nice and positive things in a day. It doesn’t need to be so much,- but if you sample the small things they will be much together 💛. And life is always changing, it’s ups and downs, and I know some downs can be pretty hard too 😔. But after a down, there will come an ups,- if not the downs hasn’t been there. I know it’s not easy, I really know that- but it’s worth to at least try and give yourself some time too. It takes time to get out of the cold dark midlife crisis. But it’s possible 😊.

Like I mention earlier in my text,- I’m thinking about what I actually have manage to “squeezed” into my 48 years long life so fare. And it’s actually a bit 😊. Then I think I will probably manage to “squeeze” in a bit more,- even I at the moment are not sure what I want to “squeeze” in. But I will find that if I give myself a bit of time 😊.

Some will also probably think I’m not successful in life,- but in my life I’m in my own way successful, – so that’s fine and good enough for me 😊. It’s my life, and it’s me that needs to be and feel successful in my life,- I don’t need to be that for someone else 😊.

It was actually a bit difficult to explain and write about the midlife crisis, but I hope you got “the essence” of what I wanted to write about and tell? 🥀

I know midlife crisis can be challenging, and I haven’t the best solutions for how to “survive” it,- my best advice is to talk with someone, get some help to sort out your feelings and thoughts,- because you are actually not alone at all to go through a midlife crisis 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Roses from my patio- a kind of reminder that I’m in a new flowering in my life- and not like a “fallen” flower eith mo future anymore 🌹

Many people all around the world goes through a midlife crisis, and it can be a pretty hard personal crisis too for some 😔. I have been there my self,- some years ago. But now I choose to look at this new period in my life as a new flowering in my life 🌹.

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A small glass bottle exhibit 🎨😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m finish with 4 different glassbottles to a very good friend of my, Natasja. I’m not sure when I will be able to give them to her, because she lives and work in another town then me and the border between the cities are closed at the moment. The borders are not closed in emergency situations or if someone need to go to work between the cities borders, but except from that they are bit closed for the rest of us.

I have already shared the videos and photos of the glassbottles with Natasja 😊. So she knows what she gets before I share it with you 😊. I think that was the most correct thing to do 😊.

The first one I was finish with- and eith lights in the bottle.
The bottle without lights

So today there will be less text and more videos to share with you from me 😊. But now you can see some of my leisure activities with oil painting on glassbottles. It takes a bit time, it’s a bit of a process, but I’m really enjoying this way to paint 😊.

Nr 2 – tiny small glassbottles with lights inside
Nr 2 without lights inside

I started to paint on all the bottles in the middle of December 2020, but they was not finish at the same time. It’s depends on the size of the bottle s well as the image or illustrations I’m painting. And oil painting also take a bit time to dry.

The third glass bottle without lights inside
The third glass bottle with lights inside.

It’s not always I wait to the painting is dry before I continue painting. It’s depends a bit what I have in mind with the colours, the mix of colours and the different illustrations on the glass bottle.

The third glassbottle became a bit different, from the rest. But difference is a bit cool I think. Because we all are different, but still so colourful in our own way 😊.

The fourth and last one without any lights inside
The fourth and last one with lights inside

The fourth glassbottle took a bit longer time to finish even it actually was not a big bottle. It was the flowers that took a bit time to paint. To get the correct structure and colours I wanted them to have. But now all four glassbottles are finish and ready for a new home, Natasja’s home, as soon as the city borders open up again 😊.

Natasja has actually now 5 glassbottles painted by me, and all are feeled up with a lots of love, joy, happiness and good thoughts from me to her. I filled the bottles with this when I painted them all 🥰. Like I general do when I paint something to someone 😊. Because I’m enjoy painting and I in general like the people I’m painting to it’s very easy to paint with joy and happiness and fill it all up in the bottle 😊.

Here are the four glassbottles sample together in a photo 😊 The fifth is in Natasja’s home already. I gave it to her last summer 🌞

You probably need to be “prepared” that there will come more postes and textes like this with my art 😊. A tiny art exhibition now and then of different kinds, both glassbottles and canvas 🎨. I have more under process and production, – actually 12 more glassbottles at the moment 😅. So I’m really not bored that’s for sure 😊. And it’s a perfect time for doing this painting too, because we live like we do at the moment because of the corona- situation. And I’m really enjoying painting 🎨. It gives me joy and happiness in its own way 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

All four glassbottles together- around and around so you can get a better impression of them 😊.

4 oil painted glassbottles are now finish, filled up with love and joy, happiness and a lots of good thoughts to one of my best friends 🥰. And they are ready for delivery as soon as the city borders open up again in our area 😊. And you are very welcome to take a look, visit a tiny little art/ glassbottles exhibition in my post today 😊.

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