I’m getting there 😊🎨

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Some weeks ago, closely a mont ago, to more correctly, I got some painting orders. Five glassbottles and six canvas 🎨. A creative challenge I have and still do enjoy to work with,- but of course and unfortunately, it takes a bit longer time to paint and finish a order like this when I’m painting in between my ordinary job 😊. And inbetween the painting I have also felt on this performance anxiety. What if my customer don’t like the finish product? 😳

I do like the results more and more, and better and better as closer I’m getting to the end of this painting project. But that doesn’t mean my customer will like it.

When I’m finish with both the canvas as well as the glassbottles I’m going to show you the results,- but my customer will get a tiny little peek first of all 😊. And I’m going to be finish during this week- something I’m actually looking forward too 😊.

If the painting was my ordinary job I haven’t use so much time on a order like this as I have used now. And it’s also this sudden summer heat that “showed up” makes the oilpanting dry a bit slower, and then it’s a bit difficult to finish with not dry painting 🌞. But I did find a tiny solution on that one,- fan 🌬. So during the last days the painting has been easier to do, because the painting is “working” a bit better and smoother together with me, and dry a bit faste when I’m using the fan 😊🎨.

I need to admit that I’m dreaming of, and have some small wishes and thoughts that my mainly and ordinary job actually could be to just paint 🎨. I’m trying to find some solutions to maybe manage that, this dream and wish can be and will be true, but it’s not easy 😊. And one thing I know,- even I really enjoy painting I also like to have food on the table 🍲🥤, And to be an artist it’s not necessarily the same as to get in enough money for covering the daily and monthly expenses. And one thing I’m sure of,- I’m not going down that road again where I’m struggling my ass off to be able to cover and pay for the different expenses 💰.

During this last weeks I have also prepared a basket with different painted glassbottles that will be for sale in Case Barella/ La Cala/ Mijas 🎨🧺. I’m going to deliver the basket with the painted glassbottles tomorrow,- and need to admit I’m a bit excited about that, and how the salsa will go 😊.

So that’s what I have been doing the last days and week,- my ordinary job and finish some different of painted glassbottles and some canvas as well 🎨😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Some of the products from the order I’m working on now at days,- not quite finish,- but very soon 😊

I have been working a bit with some painted orders during the last days and week,- and soon “I getting there”- getting finished oilpainted products I can deliver to some customers 😊. But the heat slowed the painting process a bit down, until I found a fan 🌬😊. And the “windy air” dry the painting a bit faster then the sun 🌬🌞.

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I get a little “performance anxiety” 🎨😌

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have got some few orders on both canvas as well as painted glassbottles, and I need to admit I get a tiny little bit “performance anxiety” 😅. One thing is to paint what’s “jump into my mind”, another thing when people tell me what they want me to paint for them…. and on top of that it’s also a paying order 😳. Then the painted product really need to be as perfect as possible.

A couple of weeks ago a friend of Mathilde order two painted glassbottles, and she just gave me some few keywords to work with and paint from.

The first painted glassbottle she wanted the “theme” spontaneity, and the colours orange and brown.

Hmmm? How to solve that? Paint it? 🤔 I needed a couple of days to think about that one before I started, but the results was not to bad at all 😊. And Mathilde’s friend was very pleased with the glassbottle, something that was the most important thing 😊. What do you think about the painted result?

Spontaneity coloured in orange and brown 🎨
And without lights inside,- pretty cool glassbottles 😊

I thought it was so cool so I actually painted one similar to my self as well. They are not identical,- because I don’t manage to do that. Just more and less similar. So you can say all my painted glassbottles are one of a kind and unique in their own way. Personal, decorative art, even “handmade”, or at least hand painted 😀.

The next glassbottle she gave me the “theme” sweet indiflowers and the colours pink and violet. Indiflowers are not the most difficult to paint, but sweet? 🤔

I did try “to solve” that one too as best as I could ,- and lucky for me “the new owner” of the glassbottle was very pleased with the results on that glassbottle too 😊.

Sweet indiflowers in pink and violet painted on order to a friend of Mathilde 😊.
And the glassbottle without lights inside 💡

The owner is happy then I’m happy too. And to be honest,- I’m actually a bit proud how I “solved” to paint something from just a few keywords. I was nervous and I had “performance anxiety,- but it became a couple of not to bad oil painted glassbottles at all 🥰. At the same time as I like this kind of creative challenge to paint on order,- it gives me a nervous, but very sharped mind to made a perfect and personal product for my costumer as possible 💛.

Last weekend I got some new oil painting order,- and this is a bit bigger and a bit more “challenging” then the last one,- but I believe I will manage to paint more and less what my “customers” have order 🤞.

It’s actually not one single order, it’s three orders to three different women. One order for 3 painted winebottles, of course with different colours, and different illustrations as well. The next order is two middle size glassbottles, one with blue and green colours, and one with a kind of pink colour, and some green too. The third order is oilpainted canvas, 4 or 6 in size 20×20 cm, and 20×50 cm. I have got some “signal” about what kind of illustrations they want, at the same time I need to use my creativity 💡🎨.

I will probably manage to “solve” all this painting orders too, but I have used some days to think a bit about how and what, and also felt about on this “performance anxiety”. But I did start the painting process yesterday,- and I’m looking forward to create something hopefully my customers will be very, very happy and pleased for 🤞🥰. I like this kind of creative challenge, but of course I do feel a bit much about this “performance anxiety” as well, and that I want to do my best so they will be happy….but I don’t know that before I’m finish with the painting job 🎨.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I actually got so inspired by Mathilde’s friend “Spontaneity with orange and brown- so I painted one for my self as well,- as canvas as well as at a glassbottle 🎨

Sometimes there dropping by an order and two for glassbottles and canvas,- and then the customer have some more and less specific wishes for what they want me to paint 🎨😊. I like that,- it gives me a creative challenge, at the same time as I get both nervous and a bit of a kind of “performance anxiety”. Because what if the costumer doesn’t like or are pleased with the what I have painted for them?😳🎨 At the same time,- it’s really fun to paint like this 😊🎨.

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Oh,- this is so cool and different 😊🎨

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I find it very liberating to paint, and I’m getting braver and bolder when it comes to painting new things.  Try something new – such as something very abstract and maybe even a touch of Picasso? Just let my pencil and brushes really play with the different colours on the canvas 🎨. Like I did with this painting:

It’s so cool,- and different from my other paintings 🎨 And is fun to paint 😁 Can you see the lady that’s dancing?💃

Oh,- it became so cool and so different then from other things I have painted. And it gave me a new liberating feeling when I did paint it. It’s fun to try something new,- and it doesn’t “scare” me anymore either. It’s like I’m getting braver and braver with my paintings 🎨. It’s a bit like I’m exploring my painting abilities, and I really like it 🥰.

I like this painting,- very much,- and it’s actually a bit funny too. I didn’t paint it in the direction did I show you in my first photo. But it felt more “correct” for me to have it in that direction, but it’s not sure for others. I can see a lady that’s dancing . Can you?

I painted on the canvas in this direction:

I did paint this painting in this direction- and there can be different kinds of images or illustrations in this direction too 😊 In this direction I can see a moose face. Can you? Or maybe the month to a crocodile? Or a wolf?

In a painting we see different things and different images and illustrations. Maybe you see something I don’t see?

The painting can also be in this direction,- if you prefer that 😊 Maybe the lady are swimming when I have the painting this way?

I did paint it on impulse,- very impulse,- if I can say it that way? I didn’t have any special kind of imagination or illustrations in my mind or head when I started to paint, not even when I was finish. I just painted, and suddenly it was a funny, cool and colourful result that I’m very pleased with 😊.

Maybe some prefer the painting like this? Maybe there’s the face of an elephant here? Or a fox? Or dog?

I prefer to have the painting like I showed you in my first photo,- but it’s not sure that’s correct for someone else. And that’s one of the great things with this painting,- there’s nothing wrong or correct, and there can be different imagination and illustrations, it’s just depends how you look at it.

What do you think? Maybe a bit confusing painting? And a bit happy too?

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The painting in “correct” direction for me,- and the title? “Just on impulse” 🎨😊

I’m getting braver and bolder when it comes to my painting- process 🎨. I’m not afraid to try something “new”, and on my first impulse it became this cool, funny, colourful and happy abstract painting “Just on impulse” 😊. Can you see what the illustrations are?🧐😊

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It’s small for a reason 🎨😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have shown you three different “mental health processing ” paintings during the last days,- but I didn’t use three days or three weeks or three months to paint those paintings. I started on the paintings in the Easter 2021. And the Easter last year was in the end of March/ beginning of April- so it’s a couple of months ago, and I was finish with the paintings in the beginning of February this year 😊.

It took a bit of time to manage finish the paintings because it also have been a mental processes progress for me, a process and progress that not always was easy to be in or work through,- but when I was ready to finish the paintings I was finish with so much more than just the paintings 😊.

Three “mental health” paintings- the mental health in positive progress and process 🧡

As you can see the dark painting is the smallest one, and it’s a reason for that. I didn’t want to put to much “attention” on the part that was in it’s own way, painful- but still I needed to “work myself through it”, and put the feelings, thoughts and emotions on the canvas instead of carrying them around with me. In a way “get rid of them” in my own way. But I didn’t think it was worth to much space and place either- but still it needed to be done 🍂.

The blue one, with the broken blue glassbottle, is a bit bigger, and that’s because I made space for the more good feelings, thoughts and emotions- I broke the bad ones, let them be free and made space for the good ones 🧡. I’m more ready for letting something new and good in my life and let other, old, not to good things “be free”, fly away, not be kept inside the glassbottle, or inside me. If you understand what I mean?

And the yellow one- “Breaking out in freedom”- of course that one need to be bigger, take more space and room, get more attention- because that’s also what I want to take more space and place in my life, give more attention too 😊.

I can’t and shouldn’t complain to much over the ten last years in my life, know I have done that now and then, -but it hasn’t been sunshine and a dance on roses. At the same time I have got a lost of different and new experiences then from Norway, and some very good friendship too 🧡.

It has been hard work, and just try to do the best of it😊. Hard work mentally because there have been so many things I didn’t understood and needed to work through as well as just learn to accept the situation, to let go. Learn to let go, and also a lots of hard economic work,- because I was “left” in a not very good economic situation after the relationship I was in in Norway.

That one is also starting to be better, my economic situation- but it doesn’t come “for free”- it’s a lots of hours with work behind me, and it will be a lots of more hours with work in front of me too. But I don’t mind when I see and feel and get the experiences that my hard work “gives fruits” 🍎. But I’m in the more economic correct way then I also have been during the last ten years- also that is a kind of big freedom for me, freedom to feel I’m on “the road” I want to be, and want to continue 🥰. And I’m in a more correct direction in my life when it comes to let go of what I can’t do anything with- like the past 🍂🍃.

So the black painful, “chains painting” is small for a reason- I want it to be small, I don’t want it to take more time, space and place in my life, thoughts, mind and emotions then just like a tiny black memorie behind there in the past 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

On the way in the correct direction 😊

The size of my paintings is a conscious choice too- not just the colour and illustrations. I want the good in life to take up a lot of space, and the less good in life to take up less, as little space as possible 🧡😊.

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“Breaking out in freedom” 🥀🍃

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Will we ever be totally free? Free for the things we regret? The choice and acts we regret we did in our past? I don’t think so, but I still think it’s possible to feel free. And to feel free is also a kind of way to be free. Isn’t it? Feel free and accept that the past is the past- even you should wish something, some choices was made different.

I feel free in my own way now,- but I know there still will come days and periods in my life that will be and feel challenged, also when it come to choices I made in my past. My biggest regret is that I let my children be a part of it, the not to best past, the not to best version of their mammi, the not best choice in my life when it came to a boyfriend and living together partner. Hopefully that one will also change a bit one day. Still be there, but in a easier way to “carry” around and deal with.

I have different and new mental “tools” to use now, different from before. To use to handle my thought, emotions and feelings when they try to go into “a bit darker place” in my mind- and that feels good- so good that I will call it “Breaking out in freedom”:

“Breaking out in freedom”.

And that’s the way it feels,- like my past just broke out and gave me some inner colour peace and freedom 🍃.

Can you see how the flowers in the painting just flying out from the broken the chains and links? Just like they are “popping up” with happiness. That’s the way it feels. Like nice, peaceful colours is filling up my soul and mind with happiness and peace 🍃.

And the colours are also a very conscious decision.

The blue color symbolizes clarity, although I probably have to admit that I do not see everything as clearly yet, but still better than before 🤓.

The green color stands for security.  I feel more confident in myself, but a hundred present confident I am not yet.  I’m not quite sure where I’m going in my life – but I’ll probably find out.  In any case, I am confident that the road will continue, and I will be walking and following it as best as I can- and creat- create my life the way I want it to be- little by little, step by step.

Green stand also for growing, and I’m growing in my own way 🌱.

Yellow is the color of optimism, and I am optimistic.  I have actually always been optimistic – but now I also believe that I can get things in order in my life.  Both physically and mentally, and I work more consciously for that as well. “Clean” up the past and get ready for the day today and all the next days there in the future.

White stands for peace, and I have more peace inside me than I have had in a long time.  It feels peaceful, good, relaxing and not least calm.

And then there is the color purple – it stands for freedom.  And I feel free, free from many bad feelings and thoughts that have plagued me for many years, not least guilt and the view of myself – my self-worth.  I’m basically not that bad – even though I made the wrong choice , decision and struggled a bit mentally with that. I’m still not to bad 😘.

There will still come “down days”,- but not like before 😊.

So yes,- I do feel I’m “breaking out in freedom”- my own freedom in myself 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

“Breaking out in freedom “- it’s not perfect, but still the ways it should be for me 😊

There’s different ways to feel this “breaking out in freedom”. I have felt on different kinds of “breaking out in freedom” in my life,- as probably must of us have 🥀. It’s depends of what kind of situation we are “breaking us out in freedom” from.

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