I feel on a kind of sadness 💙💙❤

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I feel on a kind of sadness inside me. Not sadness over new wrinkles or lighter hair, or hormones balance that’s changing. But a kind of sadness that an era in my life is over. The era to be a fulltime mammi. This is over.

I’m still my children’s mammi, I’m always going to be that, but not in the same way I have been for closely 27 years.

I’m actually not sad over the fact that my children are young adults and live on they own either,- but because an era in my life is over, and this time will never come back.

Maybe it sounds strange to feel on sadness, but at the same time still not be sad? Or feel in a kind of grief while not being grieving? But that’s still the way I feel inside me,- because I’m a mammi and because an era in my life is over for always.

I think it’s just someone who have been in the same situation as me that actually will understand what I mean- when it comes to feel on sadness and grief, but not be sad or grieving, because of a era in life is over.

It’s not like I go around and cry all the time, or want my children to move back home again. I’m good in that way,- this is something I feel inside me, in my heart, soul and thoughts, and it’s actually difficult to explain. And I allow myself to feel this without too much interference and influence from outsiders too.

I’m very grateful for all the time, the years, the memories my children and me have together ❤. And I know we will create new memories together too, but in a different way then before 😊.

The sadness is over a time that’s over. An incredible fantastic time together, but also an incredible busy and hard days as a single mammi. I don’t miss the business, at the same time I’m very happy I know I tried my very best to follow up and raise all my three children in different eras in their life ❤.

I hope, think, believe and actually see my children has got a lots of good things and stuffs in their “bagback” from growing up together with me 😊. But of course I also think about all the things I could and should done differently when they was children and growing up. As well as when they was teenagers and on their way to be young adults.

It’s many things I should wish I could done differently, at the same time as I can’t go back to the past and change anything. And I can’t bother myself with thoughts like that either- then I’m going to be “nuts” in my head.

What I can do is to be grateful for being their mammi and for the marvellous young adults they all three are become ❤. And I’m, as I mention, incredibly grateful for all our time and memories together ❤. But I’m also going to allow myself to feel on this sadness and a kind of grief I have inside me for an era in my life that’s over, and use the time I need to use on “this” feelings.

I know this sadness and feeling of grief will change and be different, but I’m using the time I need to “go through” this feeling of sadness and grief inside me in my own way. And like I mention, – it’s difficult to explain how, why and what I’m feeling, it’s just feelings inside me and an era in my life that’s are over together with my children, an era who will never come back, – and that’s the way it is, and that’s the way the life is too 💚.

And now I stand on the starts line to an new era in my life, and at the moment I choose to just stand there a bit too, on the starts line, and feel a bit over emotions and thoughts in relation to a time that is over, before I choose to find any new directions in my life, and start on a new era in my life 💚.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A photo from a photo- so not the best photo,- but still from one of many best memories in my life as a mammi and together with my three children ❤. (I think this is around 12- 13 years ago) 😊

I stand on the starts line to an new era in my life, and at the moment I choose to just stand there a bit, on the starts line, and feel a bit over emotions and thoughts in relation to a time that is over, before I choose to find any new directions in my life, and start on a new era in my life 💚.

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I have painted too 🎨🍾

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Of course I have painted winebottles during the Easter too 🎨. Actually I have painted at some canvas as well, but they are not finish yet.

Some years ago I painted a painting on canvas, more and less like a almond tree in bloom 🌸. My daughter’s best friend in Norway “fall in love” with the painting already before it was finished 😊. So, of course, when I was finish with the painting I sent it to Norway to her 😊.

Unfortunately I haven’t any photos from the painting when it was finished, but I still remember “the touch” this painting had, and hopefully still have 🥰. A soft touch of the Spring, and a touch of happiness and joy. I did like the painting very much myself 😊.

“The Almond Tree in Bloom”- under process 🎨

And I wanted to try to “catch” the more and less similar “touch” on a painted winebottle 🎨. So then I did try 😊.

The painted winebottle it’s not quite similar the canvas- but still I need to say I liked it 😊

At the canvas there’s the moon and at the winebottle is the sun. But still its almond flowers, – because it’s this time of the year the beautiful almond flowers are in bloom 🌸.

I’m going to sent this bottle to Norway too, to my daughter’s best friend up there in the north 💛. I’m not sure when it will be posted, and maybe my daughter can bring it to her as well when she is travelling to Norway for holiday next month? Anyway,- a solution will drop by in one or another way 😊.

Here you can see the whole motive all around the winebottle 😊

It was not the easiest bottle I have painted, but it was very fun to do. So maybe there will come some more bottles like this?😊

Some few details in the painted winebottle 🎨

And of course there’s lights in this bottle too. But it looks so much better in “the real life” then with my to not good mobile camera 😊.

The winebottle with lights inside – so much better “live” then on this photos 💡

I need to admit that I like this bottle as well as to paint in a bit different way and direction then many of my others glassbottles I have painted and created 🎨. That’s one of many fun things with create and paint, – I can play with colours and illustrations as I want. Create my own image and imagenation the way I want and suits me “there and then”. And there’s no “correct or wrong” when it comes to art. That feels good too 😊.

I hope my daughter’s friend will have the same joy with this bottle as I had when I painted it, but if course still a joy in two different ways 😊💛.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you 🧡 Thsnk you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

Look at this colorful bottle with a touch of the Spring of almond flowers in bloom 🌸

The Spring time is the time when the beautiful almond flowers are blooming. And I have try to “catch” the soft Spring- feelings the almond flowers gives with their soft colours on a winebottle 🌸.

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A fairytale blue flowers forest 🧚‍♀️🌲🧚‍♂️

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m finish with another glassbottle and this one is actually not painted to any special or specific one. No friends or no family 😊. I just painted it in between my other glassbottles when I was waiting for the paint to dry a bit 🎨.

I have been thinking a bit about maybe paint some glassbottles for sale too, not just to give away as present to people I care about 😊. And even give the different bottles a name or title?

I have remember to number most of the different glassbottles I have painted and give away. In case I became “rich and famous” on day 🤭. I have even a book I’m writing down the numbers and the name to whom has got the different bottles from me 😊. But I need to admit I was a bit lazy with this “kind of work” and numbers at my first glassbottles because I didn’t knew I was going to enjoy the painting at glassbottles as much as I do. And I had no imagination that I should been painting so many as I have done so fare 😊.

I have also been thinking about create a bit more different and a bit more creative photos to my glassbottles then I have done so fare. At the same time as I like to try to show how the bottles looks like in the light and also with lights inside 💡. The colours and design, the motives and illustrations. But it could be a bit boring to just use the white background all the time, at the same time as the white background gives in general the more “correct” colours. But today I did try out a bit other background with the glass bottle I’m calling “A fairytale blue flowers forest” 🧚‍♂️. It looks good, doesn’t it?

“A fairytale blue flowers forest”- size 25 cm high and 24 round 😊. Nr. LS AB 022

I think the name suits this winebottle perfectly 😊. In my imagination it looks like a fairytale blue flowers forest 🌲🥀. And I did really enjoy to paint it to 🎨.

Some few details from the winebottle 🎨

I like to try to paint different illustrations and images on my glassbottles as well as canvas. But often I’m “ending up” with flowers of any kind, or heart in different ways, settings , “shapes” and forms 🧡. I’m actually not sure why, and I’m actually not stressing to find any “why” either 😊. It is what it is,- and I have a great time when I’m painting 🎨. It’s relaxing and it makes my mind fly away, and it’s a kind of timeout for me too.

The winebottle around and around and around,- so you get a better imagination how it looks like 😊

Look how different at the same time “similar” the bottle is in different lights and “settings”. Pretty cool? 😊

The bottle with anx without sun, as well as with and without lights inside 💡

I actually really like my “A fairytale blue flowers forest”. It makes me smile and takes me to a nice and cozy fairytale where things are just relaxed and peaceful. What do you think? Does my winebottle looks like “A fairytale blue flowers forest” for you? Or does it create some other imaginations in your mind? 😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

“A fairytale blue flowers forest” in the dark evening and with lights inside- nice?😊

I like my “A fairytale blue flowers forest”. It makes me smile and takes me to a nice and cozy fairytale where things are just relaxed and peaceful. What do you think? Does my winebottle looks like “A fairytale blue flowers forest” for you? Or does it create some other imaginations in your mind? 😊 (ps- it’s more photos inside my text 😊)

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“She is like a little sister for me” 👨‍👦🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m finish with my first glassbottle painted with neon colours. It didn’t became exactly the way I had in mind, but I think it is because I don’t have any neon lights? 🤔 Anyway,- I still think it became a bit cool 😊. And this glassbottle is to my oldest son’s friend 🧡.

My first glassbottle with just neon colours 😊 A gift to my oldest son’s friend 🎁

He lived in my home for 3 months last year at this time, and then it actually was the second time he has been living here together with my oldest son and me and my daughters well. Both the young boys lived here for a tiny while when they moved to Spain some years ago and was looking for to find their own apartment 😊.

And he had been a bit in and out of my home since that, visiting me together with my oldest son 😊. Both are now living together at the mountains ⛰. I’m actually a bit happy my son and his dog, Zorro, don’t live alone at the mountains anymore 😊. It’s a bit fare away from people to be honest,- after a mammi’s heart and opinion 😅. But maybe that’s why they’re enjoying living there so much?

When my daughter needed help in December 2020 to move all her things back home my oldest son’s friend helped her together with her oldest brother. Both of the young men picked up all here things in a very good and calm way. I was actually very impressed how they handled the situation 🧡.

And of course I did Thank him a lot because he chose to use his time, even take of his working- hours to help her. Then he told me “Of course, she is like a little sister for me”🧡. And as a mammi that touched my heart a lot. Imagine he looked at my daughter as a little sister 🧡. His little sister 🥀.

The glassbottle “all around: but without any lights inside 💡

But maybe it is in away a bit natural too? It’s 10 years between them, and they have spend a lots of time together here in Spain. My daughter has spent some evenings together with them looking at movies or watching her big brother when he was streaming different kinds of online games when they lived a bit closer.

I also knit a hat, scarf and elf- socks to him,- just because he deserves it 😊. And it can still be s bit cold up there in the mountains even the Spring is slowly coming ❄

It’s also my daughter that has been looking after his two cats when he has travelled to Norway and visiting his family and friends.

And last Spring when Spain “closed down” for 3 months, and put us all into curfew, one of his cats actually moved into my daughter and lived there for 3 months 🐱.

Some details from the glassbottle with neon colours 🔎

So in so many ways I can actually understand why he looks at my daughter as his little sister, also because I myself think about him as a part of my and our family. But it still touched my heart very much when he actually told me this, and even more because he used the words “of course” 🧡.

So I want to give him something that shows him how much I presage him as a the person he is, the part of my and our family he has become, as well as the care he had shown my daughter, and still do 🧡. And then it became some knit and some painted, both one of a kind, and made just for him 💙.

And PS- a big Thank you to the blogger #zoewiezoe that actually gave my the idea to try to paint with neon colours 🎨 🥀 I m going to continue try to paint with neon colours as well as oil colours, and also some acrylic painting too, in between 😊🎨.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The neon painted glassbottle with lights inside 💡

I was, and still is, very touched by my oldest son’s friend’s words when he was helping my daughter moving back home to me in December 2020 💙. And I wanted to give him something “special” made just for him because of this- just to try to show him how much I presage him and also his help 💙.

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Farewell short February 🐦,- and Welcome you unknown March🥀 🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

February is already over and finish, and we have turned the calendar into March. February month went very fast 😳. And the strangest thing is that I feel not to much didn’t even happen in February 😊. At the same time small things happen mostly every day if we take a tiny look at each and every day. I said small things, the things that maybe in it’s own way actually “make and create the day, and the life” 😊. But it’s not always we are to good to look after this daily small things in our life. I’m not very good to look after the small things in a day.

But even February went fast we did manage to do “something” in the month. If there has been changes, challenges, knowledge and wisdom? Probably.

I have knit a lot, both to people and a couple of dogs 🧶🐕. And I have been painting a lot too. Me and my daughter has spent a bit time togethe. Because we do still live together as well as because of the different restrictions we needed to live by. So our social life has been what it has been. Not to many people, mostly judg me and my daughter, and now and then a couple of friends 😊.

Some restrictions are loosens up a bit now. Something means we can “live” a bit more outside our home as well as cross the city borders again.

Me and my daughter got a new “hobby”- in the beginning of February- “food- haunting”. We both like this so much, so we are probably going to continue buy food during the app “ToGoodToGo”. Maybe not together anymore, because my daughter is going to move out in a couple of weeks. But we both see the value of buying food during “ToGoodToGo” as well as we get a nice walk during the day when we are on “food- haunting” 😊.

We got some second hand clothes In February. Really nice and fun, and something we both are very grateful for 🧦👗. A new wardrobe isin general very welcome 😊.

I also got an job- offer in Ireland, but I chose to stay in Spain for a while more. It’s not the best time to move during an pandemi.

February was a kind of a silent month, nice and short. But I’m not sure if I’m ready to meet March yet. But I haven’t any choice 😊. I’m not sure what March will give or bring, but at the same time I know it will be a very busy month.

So what I will say is “Thank you February for being a bit silent and quiet month 🥀”. I felt I needed it 🥀. And I probably needed it for getting a bit ready to meet March too 💛.

The first day this month has been busy, and I know the next days will be too. Actually the nexts weeks.

I need to travel to Madrid this month and my daughter is moving out this month. My oldest son is going to have a surgery again, and I have different things I both need to reorganize as well as organize, both In my life as well as i my home. I’m also maybe going to change my work situation and start working in a new project too. But here is also can come some changes, so I see what’s happen 😊.

I don’t know how the different things will be during March, but it will probably be fine when all comes to all 😊. And there will probably “show up” some unexpected things and happenings too, hopefully some good ones 🧡.

I didn’t felt to ready to “leave” February, and I don’t feel to ready to start on March either 😊. But it is what it is. The best is probably to try my very best to embrace what comes up with a positive focus and attitude 🧡.

So fare so good, it has been a good day today, busy, but good 😊. Hopefully a tiny “draw” how the rest of the month can be 💚.

I hope you had a nice start on this new month too, and that you are looking forward to the unexpected March eith a positive attitude and focus 💛. Hopefully the days, weeks and month can and will bring something really nice into your life in some or another way 💛.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Me,- very updated- actually taken today 😊

February is over, and we have already started on March 🥀. I will Thank February for being a bit relaxed- I needed that 💛,- and maybe February also in it’s own way probably prepared me a bit for a busy March 😊. I also know there will be some unexpected things and happenings to look forward as well not just busy days, but I just don’t know what it is yet 💚.

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