Thank you May 🌹Welcome unknown June 🏖

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

May is already soon over, and this month went even faster then the other ones this year 😳 😊.

My “life” in May has mainly contained four things : sleep, eat, work, pack down our life in this home I’m living in at the moment, and have been living in during closely 7 year.

And yes I’m very tired, but that’s the way it is. Soon it will be a bit more time to “fill” up with a bit more “exciting” and different things in my life like painting ( I have actually been painting in May too, some kind of “timeout” has been necessary 🎨), spend time with my friends and family, be in the sun and at the beach, read a book, write in my blog, watch some TV, do some work out, and hopefully a bit more too 😊.

Oh, I need to admit I miss this “things”, this part of my life, things that in a way are my life a bit more then my job and jobs are.

May started a bit “stressful” for me with trying to find a new home, and without knowing if I had a job to go to after 31. July too 😳.

But so fare, so lucky 🥰. I got a new home for at least the next 6 months, and I’m moving in 17. June 🏡. This- Thanks to my incredible good friend Natasja and her husband 🧡. And I also got the news that I will start in a other department 1. August,- so I still will have a job to go too 💻.

So ,- May,- I can be Thankful for fantastic friendship, the possibility for living in a new home and for my “new” job, and my online jobs too that “helps” me do some extra work to earn some extra money 🧡🌹.

But I need to admit it’s a bit hard to work between 9 to 11 hours 5 days a week, and between 6 to 8 hours in the weekends 😴. It’s not a complain, I’m incredibly grateful for having this opportunity, but the fact is, it is still hard 😊.

I’m earning between 6 to 8 euro pr hour in both the costumer service agent job and my online work. So to manage the different expenses I will have in June during this moving process it’s actually necessary for me to work as much as I do at the moment. But okay,- everything goes for a period, doesn’t it? 😊 And I actually have jobs. That’s not for all and everyone to have now at days 🥀.

I’m really looking forward to “meet” June now. I don’t know “all and everything” that will “shows up” during June. But I do know I’m going to pick up the key to the new home, and Im going to see Natasja too 🥰. And I’m going to move- something I’m really looking forward to do now😊. I’m very ready for saying Goodbye to this home now,- and the owner of this home “helped” me to even make it easier to say Goodbye and be ready for this moving- process 😊. They became actually mad because I can’t effort their new rent. So it feels a bit uncomfortable to live and stay here at the moment.

And I know I have a holiday week in June too, to just enjoy. The week after I have moved I have one week off from work 🥰. Just the thought of that feels a bit amazing 😊.

So I don’t have very much to tell you or write about at the moment. It’s not to much exciting things that has happen during the last 2- 3 weeks,- except from sleeping, eating, working, packing down a life. Or actually I have a bit to write about, but I need to “save it all” to days I have a bit more time to just enjoying writing in my blog instead 😊.

Today I just want to say Thank you so much May ( and Natasja 🌹) , for the incredible solutions that “showed up” in a time when I didn’t see so many solutions at all 🥰. I feel incredibly Grateful, lucky and happy for that 🥰.

And Welcome so much to you June, – I’m looking forward to “meet” you even I don’t know very much about you yet 🏖☀️.

And to you my dear readers, – I’m going to “drop by” my blog as much as I can, have the possibility and have the energy too during the nexts weeks. The time, my time will be a bit better and different in a couple of weeks when I’m “placed” close to the beach in a new home, and then you will “hear/ read” a bit more from me, that’s for sure 🏖😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😘

A bit tired Laila S- doing as best as I can at the moment 😊

I just want to say Thank you so much May for the solutions that showed up this month when I didn’t see so many solutions on my own 🌹. And Welcome June,- I don’t know very much about you, but I do know Im looking forward to meet you🌹, and I’m looking forward to move too 🏡

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It feels like the time just flies away 💙🎈🎁

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it’s 27 year since I became a mammi for the first time in my life,- to a lovely baby boy. The most fantastic, sweetest and gorgeous baby boy I have ever seen 💙. It was a marvellous moment, and in it’s own way still is 💙.

I still remember that day, 27 years ago, and it’s a day I’m probably going to remember with joy and happiness for the rest of my life 💙. I was so proud, and still is 🥰.

A so proud mammi to my first born child 27 years  ago- a friend of my in Norway did take this photo when she visited us in the hospital 💙

The feeling to hold him in my arms for the first time was fantastic 🥰. I felt so deeply in love with this little baby boy it felt like my heart was going to explode 💖. And this love has not became any less during the years, not at all ❤. Just bigger and stronger for very day 💙.

The love I feel for him is so strong, so unconditional- it’s impossible for me to explain with any words. There’s no words big enough to manage explain my love for him, and how incredibly proud I’m to be his mammi 💙. And how incredibly proud I’m of my son, my oldest son, my first born child 💙.

He is not a baby or child anymore, he is a young adult man. I do forget that sometimes, actually a bit often now and then too. He will probably always be my child, no matter how old he is 💙.

He goes his own ways in life, and that’s so fine 🥰. I see he is happy in his life, he works hard, and he reach the different goals he want to reach. He loves to entertain, something he always has liked to do.

He is helpful, and help out as best as he can if anyone close to him need some help of any kind 😊. And he really love to live close to the nature, and enjoys his life in the mountains 😊.

It’s getting a bit more difficult to find good and useful birthday presents to him as older he get 🎁. He manage to buy what he need on his own now 😊. But I really want to give him something that in it’s own way represent the love I feel for him. The proud. The best wishes for him in his life.

If I could, I have probably given him what ever he wanted and wish for, but I can’t. I can give him my unconditional love, and something that shows my love for him 💙. So this year it became a painted winebottle, but not a empty winebottle. A winebottle with wine inside. A winebottle, one of a kind, just like my oldest son 💙.

It’s the first time I have painted on a winebottle with wine inside. It was a bit different to paint, because the bottle was heavier and the different reflections became different then I’m use to. And I was so worried to loose the bottle when I painted. I really didn’t want it to break.

I have actually looked around in different stores to find a winebottle colour with blue glass, and lucky for me I did manage to fine one after a while 💙.

In case I could not remove the label on the bottle I took a picture of it to be able to show my son what wine is inside the bottle.

I did manage to remove the label, and put it together with his birthday card 😊.

The birthday- card to my oldest son- with the label from the wine too 😊

I have been working with this winebottle for a while, but still I was a bit worried I shouldn’t manage to get finish to my son’s birthday. But I did 😊.

Some few details from the winebottle to my oldest son 💙
The winebottle in different “environment” 😊.

And of course I wanted to try to made the present so “special” as I can and have the possibility to do,- so I found a bit cool winebox to the painted winebottle too 🎁.

Look ,- a bit cool ,- isn’t it? 💙

And of course I made the favourite chocolate cake I always makes to my children’s birthdays 😊🎁

The chocolate cake/ birthday cake and the birthday gift to my oldest son at his 27 years birthday 🎁💙.
And here you can see the winebottle “all around ” 💙

I should actually painted the winebottle in different violet colours, because that’s my oldest son favourite colour 🎨. But since the kids was small I have “created” things and stuffs, like for example clothes in different blue colours to my oldest, in different green colours to my middle son, and my daughter, – she was a bit “luckier” with the colours because I switched a bit between red, pink and violet in different varieties 😊. So then it became blue winebottle to my oldest son 💙.

And my oldest son has got some different knitted things in different violet colours so I think he know I know what’s his favourite colour anyway, and they all three know I have this “habit” to still give them things “touched” with the colours from their childhood 🥰.

So it’s actually and really 27 years since I became a mammi for the first time today 🥰. It feels incredible, – the time just flies away. I feel so incredibly grateful and lucky, and so proud 💙.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It was not easy to put lights inside a not open bottle, so then it became a bit lights around the the bottle instead 💙

Imagen it’s 27 years since I had this tiny little baby boy in my arms and felt so deeply in love 💙. He will probably always in a way be my child no matter how old he is 💙. In my post you will find my birthday gift to him this year, and if you want to take a look, you are welcome to do 🥰.

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It takes a bit time to find the balance again 😊🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been living with some “moving in and out” from my home since the beginning of October 2019. And during this time I have found out it takes a bit time to find my balance in the new “living together” and “living alone” situations that has changed more and less every second or third month 😊.

Things goes okay, of course, but I need to try to find a kind of rhythm, routines and balance together with the people I’m living together with as well as my own rhythm, routines and balance when they has moved out again 😊.

The first month it’s a bit like trying out what’s most functional for the people who are living in my home as well as me. And then slowly during the second month it’s seems and feels like we get a kind of balance together, and things in the daily life goes a bit “smoother” and we in a way manage to create a kind of routine together as well as separate.

And then we turn into the third month and a new “round” of trying to find the balance starting again because someone has moved out, and someone is maybe soon moving in again 😊.

It’s almost a bit like I have to reset myself a little bit every time – whether it’s moving in or moving out.  If you understand what I mean?

In a living together situation it’s a bit important to find a balance more and less where everyone is a bit comfortable with. But it is not easy, because we are all different, we have different habits (good and not to good), and we see things in the daily life differently too.

I need to admit I think this “moving in and out” from my home have got smoother then I first had in mind. Maybe because in general it has been my children and their friends that have moved their suitcases in and out, so it’s people I actually know very well 😊.

Now I’m on my own again and have actually been living alone for around a month. I haven’t got or “found” the balance that’s feels best for me yet, but I’m getting closer 😊.

I need to admit I have felt a bit restless and inactive lately, and it has been a little difficult to create new good routines in my life. I’m not sure why I feel and have felt a bit restless, but probably because the life- and living situation has changed again, and I’m going “in and out” from my routines and balance in my life.

And of course this “getting older” process also is influential cause. But I have not quite managed to find my own peace in my everyday life yet.  And I like to have calm, balance, rhythm and routines in my daily life. And I’m not quite there yet…. Maybe I’m a bit a little impatient with myself? I know things takes a bit time sometimes 😊.

I have learned during this around 18 months with a changing life- situation every second and third month that it takes me around 8 to 10 weeks before I’m “there” I want to be and with the balance in my life I feel comfortable with. It doesn’t matter if it’s a living together situation or living on my own,- I’m actually comfortable and have learned to live with the new life situation after around 8- 10 weeks. So you can say I have been a bit “in and out” myself during this 18 months with a changing life- situation, and trying to find my new balance every second or third month 😅. But okay,- that’s life- and I think this time my living alone situation will last a bit longer then 2 or 3 months so I have the chance to find a very good balance in my life too 😊.

I’m not sure if anyone else has it this way? I don’t think the young adult that has been living in my home has felt this “balance” thing in the daily life at the same way as me. And I also think, well at least it looked like that for me, that this young adults found their balance in the daily life very fast, also when they moved into my home 😊. Of course I’m very happy for that, because then at least they felt like “home” and hopefully a bit relaxed with the living together situation 😊.

But I think as older we get a bit more difficult it is for us to “adopt” us into a new life situation, it’s more difficult because we are older, and it takes a bit longer time to feel comfortable and “balanced” in the new life situation. It’s not sure I’m correct. This is just my thoughts and feelings, and also my experiences during the last 18 months.

I’m doing my things, – my job, my freelance work, I knit and I paint too, and I meet my friends now and then as well. So I’m trying my very best to create a balance, my balance in my life. But I still have this restlessness inside me, and Im actually still very inactive in my life even it maybe doesn’t look like that from “the outside”,- and there’s still a couple of more routines I need to try to get a bit better “control” over in my daily life 😊. I’m actually in general a bit more effective then I have been the last month. Hopefully I will be “there” I want to be with my rhythms and routines in my daily life in the middle of May 😅.

Is it just me that is like this? Have this habit and need for having a kind of balance in my daily life, and a kind of rhythm and routines too? And is it just me that actually use over 2 months to “get” the balance in my life I feel comfortable with after some changes in the daily life balance? I hope not 😊. (Anyway I’m who I’m- like to have a kind of balance “here and there ” in my life 😊).

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I feel I need to resett my self a bit after some months with “moving in and out” from my home 😊.

Is it just me that like to have a kind of balance in the daily life? I feel I need to resett my self a bit every time someone is moving in or out from my home, because I like to have a kind of balance in my daily life,- both when I’m sharing my home as well as living on my own 😊.

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A new flowering in life 🌹🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

This will probably be my last post for a tiny while that’s contains the subject “menopause” in one or another way 😊. At the same time as there of course will drop up post related to “getting older”,- because that’s actually a part of my life- to get and hopefully be older 😊.

I don’t have to much more to write about at the moment when it comes to the different physical changes and challenges during the menopause.

One thing is that I’m just on the start line into menopause myself, another thing the menopause doesn’t affect me more then I have already been written and told you about. It’s a tiny bit challenging when I feel I’m going to “fall apart” at my walks and actually need to sit down before I can continue my walk. At the same time it’s not happen all the time, it has just happen a few times 😊. And of course it’s a bit uncomfortable to wake up after a “water fall” during the nights. But except from that I can’t complain, or have to much more “exacting” to write about or around when it comes to the physical changes around menopause 😊.

It’s not sure the menopause will be a big challenge with to many changes for me either. I don’t know that yet. But if I remember correctly my puberty was not to bad for me, it felt very “normal”. But I think my parents thought it was a bit difficult now and then 😅. I’m their first child too, and their first teenagers,- so they probably didn’t know what to expect either 😊.

My pregnancies hasn’t been to hard either. So the hormones changing I have been through in my life so fare haven’t been the most difficult and challenging time in my life. But of course there was some challenges as well as changes. But not any big ones. Nothing to “brag” about 😊.

The menopause is also different from woman to woman. Like a pregnancy or giving birth can be.

Some of my friends that’s also going through this “period” ( menopause) in life have some thoughts around “life and dead”, as well as “this is the road to the end,- station” in life. Thoughts about a scary old age, the end in life and about dying 😐.

I haven’t actually thought very much about things like that. Maybe I will get thoughts about “life and dead” and “the end station” in life? I don’t know. At the moment I’m just choose to believe and think that I’m actually starting on a new flowering in my life 🌹🥀. That sounds so much nicer and happier, so much greater and so much more fun to look forward to 😊.

I have also been thinking about how much different experiences, knowledge and adventures in life I have manage to get and different experiences during my 48 year in my life. So why shouldn’t I have the possibility to “squeeze” in a bit more too during the next 20- 30, maybe even 40 years? Okay, – maybe in a bit slower motion and tempo then before, because I’m actually getting older and a bit slower 😅.

But I don’t understand why it should be impossible? 🤔 (in my mind it’s not 😊)

I actually don’t want to stop living now,- I want to do some more out of my life, get some more knowledge in different areas in life as well as get more experiencs too, and hopefully get a bit wiser as well? 😊

I’m meet my new era in my life with the idea that this is a new flowering in my life,- and I really like to look at the “getting older” process like that 🥀🌹.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I meet my new era in my life with the imagination that it is a new period of flowering in my life 🌹🥀

I know some people in my age think that now the “flower withers” 😌. I choose to believe and look at this “getting older” process with an imagination that I’m meeting a new flowering in my life instead 🌹🥀.

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I feel on a kind of sadness 💙💙❤

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I feel on a kind of sadness inside me. Not sadness over new wrinkles or lighter hair, or hormones balance that’s changing. But a kind of sadness that an era in my life is over. The era to be a fulltime mammi. This is over.

I’m still my children’s mammi, I’m always going to be that, but not in the same way I have been for closely 27 years.

I’m actually not sad over the fact that my children are young adults and live on they own either,- but because an era in my life is over, and this time will never come back.

Maybe it sounds strange to feel on sadness, but at the same time still not be sad? Or feel in a kind of grief while not being grieving? But that’s still the way I feel inside me,- because I’m a mammi and because an era in my life is over for always.

I think it’s just someone who have been in the same situation as me that actually will understand what I mean- when it comes to feel on sadness and grief, but not be sad or grieving, because of a era in life is over.

It’s not like I go around and cry all the time, or want my children to move back home again. I’m good in that way,- this is something I feel inside me, in my heart, soul and thoughts, and it’s actually difficult to explain. And I allow myself to feel this without too much interference and influence from outsiders too.

I’m very grateful for all the time, the years, the memories my children and me have together ❤. And I know we will create new memories together too, but in a different way then before 😊.

The sadness is over a time that’s over. An incredible fantastic time together, but also an incredible busy and hard days as a single mammi. I don’t miss the business, at the same time I’m very happy I know I tried my very best to follow up and raise all my three children in different eras in their life ❤.

I hope, think, believe and actually see my children has got a lots of good things and stuffs in their “bagback” from growing up together with me 😊. But of course I also think about all the things I could and should done differently when they was children and growing up. As well as when they was teenagers and on their way to be young adults.

It’s many things I should wish I could done differently, at the same time as I can’t go back to the past and change anything. And I can’t bother myself with thoughts like that either- then I’m going to be “nuts” in my head.

What I can do is to be grateful for being their mammi and for the marvellous young adults they all three are become ❤. And I’m, as I mention, incredibly grateful for all our time and memories together ❤. But I’m also going to allow myself to feel on this sadness and a kind of grief I have inside me for an era in my life that’s over, and use the time I need to use on “this” feelings.

I know this sadness and feeling of grief will change and be different, but I’m using the time I need to “go through” this feeling of sadness and grief inside me in my own way. And like I mention, – it’s difficult to explain how, why and what I’m feeling, it’s just feelings inside me and an era in my life that’s are over together with my children, an era who will never come back, – and that’s the way it is, and that’s the way the life is too 💚.

And now I stand on the starts line to an new era in my life, and at the moment I choose to just stand there a bit too, on the starts line, and feel a bit over emotions and thoughts in relation to a time that is over, before I choose to find any new directions in my life, and start on a new era in my life 💚.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A photo from a photo- so not the best photo,- but still from one of many best memories in my life as a mammi and together with my three children ❤. (I think this is around 12- 13 years ago) 😊

I stand on the starts line to an new era in my life, and at the moment I choose to just stand there a bit, on the starts line, and feel a bit over emotions and thoughts in relation to a time that is over, before I choose to find any new directions in my life, and start on a new era in my life 💚.

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