It has been a bit difficult to be a bit “mammi” for my daughter lately 😳 💊🧪

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I haven’t seen my daughter for a while, – and it’s a reason for that 😳. Last time she and her boyfriend, Caprino, visit me was 8. July, and she was not quite “tipp- topp” that day, but I thought she maybe just was a bit tired 😴. And of course I did hug her that day, a lot too 😳….but after some days I was not so sure how smart that hugging was? 🤔

Just a few days after they had visited me she became sick, and texted me about the symptoms and how to contact the doctor and so on. This is just not typical her. In general she actually try to do her best to go or do her work even when she doesn’t feel very well, and she try to avoid the doctors as best as she can too. So she must felt very bad 😔.

I actually asked her if she wanted to come to me and stay in my home for some days and get some “mammi-love and care” when she was sick. I wanted to take a bit care of her, cut up apples into small pieces for her the way she likes so much to get when she is sick 🍏🍎. But she didn’t had the energy to come, and lucky for me actually, – and she also have a love and caring boyfriend, so he have taken care of her as best as he can during the last two weeks 🥰. And the best thing, at the same time strange thing,- her boyfriend hasn’t been as sick as my daughter so he could actually take good care of her too 🧡.

But I’m just a mammi, and I was suddenly in a “situation” where I actually wasn’t quite sure what to do. Should I visit her or not? Special because I wasn’t either sure why she was sick…..and what kind of sickness it was? Maybe she had got something “grumpy stuff” that I could get too if I was to close to her? 🤔

Should I visit my daughter or not? I was not sure what to do or how to handle the “situation” 😔.

In general my daughter answer my textes when I’m sending her a text on Messenger, What’s up or on Snapchat. But during this two last weeks she has been incredibly slow with the answering, and then the mammi heart gets a bit worried, special because I knew she didn’t felt very well 😳. At the same time,- she is a young adult woman, she lives on her own, well not totally, – she lives together with her boyfriend and their two cats 🐱, and have no reason to “update” the mammi “all the time”, not even answer me if it’s not a concrete question I’m sending to her. But we have the contact we have,’ so I’m actually used to answers from her, even on texts without any specific questions.

I did call her on the phone too, but she didn’t answer, just texted me “What?” back instead 😳. Oh my,- I knew something was wrong or she was really sick 😳. But what to do? Send her “all my love and heart and thinkg of you” at least 🧡.

She had been to the doctor several times, and today her doctor called me up on my phone 😳. I got the heart up in my throat 😳. But he just wanted to tell me it was incredible important that my daughter went to the hospital today as soon as possible, so then she did….and phu,- she was with me on the phone too 🙂.

She send my an video Snapchat where she also texted me “It’s never a good sign when you are put in the waiting room totally alone” 😳. And of course it’s not a good sign,- but at least she got the answer from the different testes she have been through,- and of course a version of the coronavirus just needed to drop by into my family too 😔.

A part of over “conversation” today, – but in Norwegian.

Actually I knew it could be something like this,- and that’s why I was so unsure what to do? Visit her or not? Taking care of her or not? And get the virus myself too 🤔? Nope, I didn’t want that either.

The result from my daughter’s test at the hospital today.

So it has been a bit difficult to be a bit mammi for my daughter thise two last weeks,- or that’s not totally true,- I’m always her mammi and it’s not difficult either 😅 , but this time I had no possibility to take care of her in any other way then text her and call her when she was sick and also needed a bit of the “mammi care and love” just because she was sick 🌹.

But that’s the way it is now at days when some or another version of the coronavirus are “tumbling around the corners” 😳.

To avoid more infection of the virus and spread it’s just to keep distance as best as we can, even when our young adults children are sick and you actually just want to visit them, hug them a bit and take care of them ❤. But the best was not to do that this time, in this situation, even I didn’t like it very much, and try my best to avoid any infection or spreading the virus in some or another way.

I really hope you do your best to avoid infection and spread the virus in some or another way. I know it’s not easy now at days, but to do our best is still better then nothing. Remember to keep distance, remember the mask ( I don’t like the mask- but Im still following the restrictions), and remember to wash your hands. And also try as best as you can to have as few “close contacts” as possible,- it’s actually helps a big that too. But yes I need to admit I do hug my contacts- my children, my friends,- even I know I can get and I can give the coronavirus by a hug.

Take as good care as you can, – that’s actually “all” we can do during this corona- situation. It is what it is, and we need to try to do our best in the situation we all are in 🧡. The best is always better then nothing 🌹.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon😊

My daughter, Mathilde and her boyfriend, Caprino, the last time they visited me before she got sick 🧡

I’m just a mammi, and I was suddenly  in a “situation” where I actually wasn’t quite sure what to do 🤔 ? Visit my daughter or not? Taking care of her or not 🤔? Lucky for me she have someone special in her life that takes care of her 🧡. Special because I actually just don’t want this “grumpy stuff” that’s are “around the corners ” now at days 😳.

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I have actually said yes to a date 🥀😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

My plan was actually not to date for a while, and it has also been a very long time since I have been on a date too. But I did say yes to a date this weekend. I still don’t feel very “ready” for dating, but I have known this man for seven years, and I know we have different things to talk about too, something that’s good to have when you are on a date. And we, in our own way, did “date” for around three years before we stopped dating four years ago.

So that’s one of the reason why I said “Yes, I want to go out on a date with you”. Because I know him, we can talk together and have different things to talk about too. And the other reason,- well,- to be honest, it could be nice to be hugged and cuddled a bit with, and get some nice and positive attention too 😊. And dress myself up a bit as well. And at least I know “what I get” from him, this date, both in the positive directions as well as the bit less positive directions too 😊.

And yes,- it’s my “old” neighbour, the Spanish policeman who asked me out for a date 😊. He is actually not “old”,- I think he is maybe 6 or 7 years younger then me to be honest. So I’m the “old” one here 😅.

He is, as I mention, a policeman, and in his job he is in contact with a lots of different people ….. people with and without the coronavirus too 😳. And he has got thise two “magical” vaccines related to the coronavirus and Covid19 as well, just because of his job, but still he needed to cancel our date this weekend and be in 10 days of quarantine because of the contact with a person who had the coronavirus 😳.

He did tested negative on the first Covid19/ corona test, but positive on the second one, just two days after. So now it’s 10 days home alone together with his two cats for him instead of being on a nice and cozy date together with me 😅. …(…but I actually don’t understand the vaccine “concept” if it’s this way it’s in “function “?🤔)

So here I’m standing dressed up and ready for a cancelled date 😳. A date I actually was looking forward to. What to do then? 🤔 Send a online “request” “all over the world” and ask if someone else wants to date me a bit this weekend?😅😊

I’m just kidding,- he did let me know about the quarantine long before I did dressed up and got ready for dating 😊. I’m actually just dressed up for some shopping and fixing internet a bit, nothing more, nothing less 😊. It’s judt nice to dress up now and then even for some shopping too, and hopefully I can “charm” the internet guy so much that my internet speeds up a bit as well 😊.

So instead of dating this weekend I’m just going to work a bit with my freelance work, and enjoy the sun, the beach, the sand, the ocean, and my roof terrace as well, a lot 🌞🍷. Just relax and taking care of myself 🧡. Easy peacy 😘.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I like to dress up a bit, maybe even more now then before 😊 Getting ready for a date… or just shopping 😉

So here I’m standing dressed up and ready for a date 😳….a cancelled date because of a positive corona test,- but it was not my test. What to do then? 🤔 I’m just going to relax and taking care of myself instead 🧡. Easy peacy 😘.

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One month with the beach 🏖😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It’s around one month since I moved to the beach, or more correctly in a holiday home very close to the beach 🏖. A holiday home that’s going to be my home for the next around 9 months 😊.

I have been here already a month. The time is “flying”, at the same time I have actually manage to “squeeze” in a bit of “this and that” this month too 😊. Moved to a new place, and also starting to get things in a kind of “order” in my new place too 😊. I have cleaned and organized the old place and given the keys back to the owner. I have done my jobs as best as I can, even dropped by my blog a bit more often as well 😊. And also had some guests in my new home too, and even baked a bit 😊. I have finished and delivered glassbottles, and visit my friend and her newborn baby at the hospital as well 😊. I have also been at the beach a couple of times, even stolen some sand from the beach to have in my plants and in the umbrella “foot” so that one shouldn’t fly away with the wind 😊.

But I feel I have just “been” here during the last month, not lived. It’s just lately I feel I’m starting to live here. But obviously I have in a way “lived” if I take a look around me and think about what I actually have done during the last more and less, 4 weeks 😊.

For me it’s a different between “be” and “live” 😊. And now I feel I’m slowly starting to live in this home, get some of my daily and weekly “routines” “back in business” again,- and in a bit I probably also will be more ready to work for my “bigger plans in my life” too 😊. I haven’t them “all” figured out yet,- but I think that’s normal and natural 😊. They will “find” their place little by little 😊.

It’s the first time in my adult life I actually organize and facilitate a life, an everyday life with only myself in and no children in it 😊. It feels very, very strange, and even sometimes I feel I do something “wrong” to make plans or something like that without my children or at least telling my children, or “included” them in some or another way 😅.

I need to learn that, that now my life is a bit more about me, and I don’t have any special duty to report to anyone and everyone about what I do or do not do. ( ….except from the fact that I’m actually writing a blog about “my daily life” and share that ome with everyone 😅).

Sometimes it is a bit scary this new era in my life, this “just me- era”, because I’m not always sure what to do with it,- even it can seems like I’m, and that I have “a lots” of “big plans” and “it all figured out”,- but I haven’t, and inbetween I’m actually “losing” it a bit too 😳 😅. And menopause and getting older scares me a bit too, but what to do?

And like I mention a while ago, when I was “packing down” 7 years of our life in the other home,- who to create new memories together with? Who to make plans with? Create new experiences in life with? Share memories with? And share plans and experiences with? My readers? 😊 Of course I’m going to do that- share with my readers, but…. it could and would be nice and great to have someone else too, to share things and stuffs in my life together with 😊. At the same time as I know I’m not ready for a relationship either. But I have some great friends around me, and my kids are here too, just not in the same way as before 😊.

I feel a bit lost without my children, but it’s nice too, to just be me. I’m probably more lost without them, then they are without me,- natural enough 😊. And I’m know I’m going to learn to live my life without them around me on daily basis as it was before they became young adults and moved into their own homes 😊. I just don’t think it’s “learned” to do during some weeks or just a couple of months 😊. It will take a bit more time 😊.

I feel more ready now to start enjoying my life close to the beach, sort things out and start to find a kind of new “road” to walk. I just need to be patient, and remember that “all and everything” takes time 😊.

And it’s incredibly nice to listen to the waves before I go to sleep in the night as well as waking up to in the morning 🌊😊. And I like to live so close to the beach too, and have the possibility to enjoy the beach when I want, but it could be a bit less people around me,- but we can’t get it all at the same time, can we? 😅😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It’s a fantastic view from my roof terrace 😊

It’s already a month since I moved into the holiday home close to the beach 🏖. I have been here a month, but it’s just lately I’m started to feel I’m living here too, not just being here 😊. It takes a bit time to learn to live with a new lifesituation, like for example not living together with my children anymore 😊.

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A new tiny “mystery” to solve 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been working with my freelance work today, and my internet has been soooooo incredible slow 😳. Slow internet gives me more working hours then I actually had in mind. Instead of answering 30 messages in 45 minutes I manage maybe 10 messages in 45 minutes, if Im really lucky, because I wait and wait and wait 😳. And I get impatient, resigned, a little stressed and actually a little bit moody too 🙄.

My oldest son has been very engaged in my internet today and tried to help me out as best as he could from the mountains. He actually managed to speed it up a bit too. Half speed is a bit better then closely no speed 😊. But it still takes time, and we have also used a lots of time to just speed the internet up a bit today 🚤.

And then I needed a break inbetween my work, special because of my mood 😅. And on my way up to the roof terrace for taking a break I “jumped” into a tiny little “mystery” 🤔.

Tired and moody, and not to creative when it comes to photos or write a text today I chose to actually use video instead of writing to much. That’s actually something I feel a bit more comfortable to do after sending in a video application, I also have shared with “all and everyone” online 🎥😊.

Hmmm…..? What’s under this? The biggest question is actually how did this come here? 🤔
This is not an advertisement, therefore including a cross over the “object”.

So let me take you with me on a tiny little video “round” – so I actually can show you why this became a tiny little “mystery” 😊

Just me….on my way to take a break on my roof terrace 😊
Then the tiny “mystery” “shows up” 😳
….and my “conclusion” on the “mystery” 😊

I think someone has been sitting in one of the windows in one of the apartments in the apartment building close to my home with a cigarette,- and probably the cigarette packaging did fly away from the window and down in my “stairs room”. That sounds at least most logical in my mind. What do you think?

I have mention this before, and I’m mention it again,- we create our days, and if we take a tiny look we can create something “exciting” out of something not very big now and then too 😊. My children has actually teach me this,- special my oldest,- he could create a fairy tale from closely nothing when he was a child 😊.

My moody day became a bit more fun and exciting just because of this tiny package on my stairs 😅. I could probably create a bit more about or around this too, but I leave it to this today 😊. I have some other work I need to do as well ….and as you know with a half speeded up internet too 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊

The Roof close to my stairs and my roof terrace,- but I don’t think anyone has been walking over this today. It doesn’t look very safe, and also a bit complicated and to much work for “throughing” a tiny package on my stairs 😊

We create our days, and sometimes we even can create a tiny little “mystery” in or out from our day 😊. Like I did today 😅. If you are a bit curious what my “mystery” was, you are very welcome to read my text 😊 … or actually watch my text today. It’s more video today then written words 😊.

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It’s a little exciting these days 🍇🍷

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I got an email today about this job I did send my application to in California. Fine wine at Murphy Goode Winery 🍷🍇.

The email contained information about the withdrawals to which of over 5000 applicants who have advanced to the next withdrawal round.  And there are 17 persons that have been taken out, – but ….

….they will let out the information about who this 17 person are, little by little 😊. And they started today with the 6 first names and videos, and if I understood it all correctly, they will continue tomorrow with some new names, and then on Monday the last names will be published.

I’m a positive realist, so I need to admit I will probably be a tiny bit disappointed if I’m not on the list. At the same time as I know that my chance are really, really low and small when it comes to this job. And after I have watched the first videos application from this 6 first person I actually in a way know I’m not going to be on the list……even I really, really hope so 😊.

The videos was amazing, creative and funny, and I do really understand why they are on the finalists list 😊.

But still it’s a bit exciting, and I have actually some small butterflies in my stomach too. Butterflies with a wish that hopefully one of those next names on this list will be me 😊.

But I live in Europe, I can’t anything about making wine or grow up grapes threes 🍇. I’m 48 years old, and I haven’t exercised enough to carry 20 kilos either, just lift them 😅. And I think maybe it could be a boomer with this two different videos as well. And I did send in my application just one week before the deadline, and this job offer has actually been online since March 2021.

I needed to use a bit time to think and feel if this was something I really wanted to do, special because of my children and because when it come to this job I have no knowledge about it at all. I needed to think this so good through that I could before I did send in my application. It’s a bit stupid to send in an application to a job like this and then not be sure if you want it.

So,- this is actually just an information about how the “process” is going 😊. And of course I will let you know how it goes for me,- even I think I already know the answer on that one 😊. But yes, I still feel a bit excited anyway, and I can’t explain why 😊. And when it all comes to all,- I actually did took both the chance to apply as well as share it online. Just that is actually not to bad st all 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Maybe, maybe not- I know in just one day or two 😊🍇🍷.

In one day or two I will actually get the answer if I’m one of the lucky ones that are in the finalists round to the job I did send my application to in California 🍇🍷. I need to admit I’m actually a bit excited, even I also in a way already know the answer 😊. But still I cross my fingers a bit 🤞.

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