Am I without traditions and culture? 🇧🇻

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

This week was the Norwegian Constitution day 🇧🇻, and I used this day as a day off from “all and everything” for a tiny little while 😊. I could have celebrate together with some friends in Benalmadena as well as some friends in Fuengirola, but I did choose to just rest this day, in the sun,- and it was not to bad at all 🥰.

I’m still a bit low on energy, but slowly the energy is coming back now,- and that’s feels so great 🥰.

Marius, my oldest did work, Ruben did celebrate in Norway together with his friends, and Mathilde did her work together with a tiny celebration in Bali 🇧🇻. It’s make me happy to see my kids still do a bit of some of our traditions and Norwegian celebrations 🥰.

In a way I have “lost” many of this kind of Norwegian and family traditional and cultures celebrations during the last years. Some of the “losing” actually started before I moved to Spain. They started when I was in the relationship that wasn’t to healthy for my mind and soul up there in Norway. And, unfortunately, I haven’t managed to keep up with to many of my Norwegian traditions and the traditions I did grow up with after I/ we moved to Spain. I have tried, but slowly it’s a bit like the time, the daily life in a “new” country and the life on it’s own has in its own way slightly “erased” my/ our traditions.

I feel a bit “naken” , or more correctly, I feel my life is a bit “naken” without the traditions and cultures celebrations I did grew up with. At the same time I’m in a place in my life now where I need to find a kind of new rhythm when it comes to the traditions and cultures celebrations I had in Norway, because I’m not in Norway anymore.

I’m was perfectly fine in the sun during the Norwegian Constitution day this week 🌞. But of course I also did gave this traditions and cultures celebrations a thought and two. Am I without any specific traditions and cultures celebrations now? 🤔

If I have been in Norway I had maybe celebrate the Norwegian Constitution day,- I think, but I’m not sure- because who to celebrate the day together with in Norway? Everyone have their own to celebrate together with,- family and friends, and of course Ruben was and also had been together with his friends this day,- natural enough 💙.

And that’s also an other reason why our traditions and culture celebration are the way they are at the moment,- because we all four ( me and my three lovely children) are in different places in our life at the moment,- and also have been during the lasts years. We are trying to find our way in each of our lives, while walking a little next to each other as well ❤💙💙❤.

At the same time as we actually have created and made a kind of celebration during the Christmas- time as well as the Norwegian Constitution day, and my children’s birthdays too, and some few others traditions from our Norwegian culture. Not in the same way as we did when we did live in Norway,- but a kind of celebration in our own tiny, but nice and cozy way 🥰.

My birthday is many years since I did celebrate,- the exception was this year 🥰. Ruben did visit me/ us here in Spain the week I had birthday,- and we did celebrate my birthday together with just be together, order food delivered to the door ( a luxury on it’s own for me 😊) and we did watch a good movie together,- a cozy and in it’s own way,- perfect birthday, with the most amazing birthday present ever,- a surprise visit from Ruben 🎁❤.

In one way I do miss to celebrate our culture traditions the way we did in Norway when we did live in Norway. I miss family birthday parties, and other family “events”,- at the same time as I’m actually not sure I do “fit” in “there” anymore.

Some weeks ago two teenagers in Norway that I’m an aunt too, celebrated their baptism. I need to admit I did send them a lots of good thoughts for their day. And I also wondered how it had been to be there together with them, celebrate together with them and the family. At the same time as I think I don’t fit in “there” anymore. I have been away from “it all” a long time. I think I have felt very uncomfortable to be there, to be honest. They live their lives, I live my. And I feel different from them, a bit like an “outsider”.

At the same time as I do miss the different “old family culture traditions and celebrations” I don’t miss it, because we are not in Norway anymore,- and we need to try to find our own way to celebrate at the same time as we keep some of our “old” celebrations and create our new traditions and celebration “touched” with our culture in a new area in our life. Like make and create something that suits us as the family we are now, with something old and new traditions together in a way that’s best for us 😊.

I know my children have the tradition they did grew up with in their heart, mind and soul, and I have them too. Something Im very grateful for ❤ . They are just “resting” a bit, this traditions and cultures celebrations, and I think,- slowly when all four of us have found more our new places in our life we will get our new traditions and celebration together with some of the old one 🥰. I’m not worried about that,- this is a part of the life,- the different changes in life 🧡. But of course I at the same time will say I do miss now and then what was,- long time ago up there in Norway 🤗. What I’m incredibly grateful for that I and we have a lots of amazing memories together from different cultures and traditions celebrations in Norway 🥰. And good memories are gold worthy,- and really something to build something new on when the time is there 😊🤗. I have probably not missed the culture and traditions celebrations from Norway if they wasn’t some fantastic memories 🧡.

I like culture and traditions celebrations,- if not I have probably not miss them or given them to many thoughts. It’s like I also like the regular routines in the daily life 😊.

So no,- I’m not without traditions and cultures celebrations,- they are still there inside me, just “resting” a bit,- and slowly I’m, together with my children, are going to create our culture and traditions celebrations up again, build from something old and something new 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Me ,- the photo is taken on the Norwegian Constitution day this week,- after a lovely rest in the sun. And I’m without any kind of makeup,- it’s in its own way represented like I sometimes feel my life is a bit “naked” without traditions and cultures celebrations.

I’m not without traditions and cultures celebrations even it feels like that sometimes 🇧🇻. They are there inside me, in my heart, mind and soul, they are just “resting” a bit until we find our own and new way to celebrate the different traditions and cultures event with something new together with something old 😊.

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But there’s some “issues” too during this “new Spring” in life 😳🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days too. I don’t have the biggest challenges during this pre perimenopause, but there’s some issues, or tiny challenges that’s dropping by. And I don’t know what this period in my life can or will bring me later, so I at least choose to enjoy the changes I do like at the moment,- like for example my body changes 😊.

But I still need to “deal” with some few other issues, or rainy and stormy days, if you want. It’s not to much to complain about, in general this issues are not difficult to deal with, and don’t last very long either. But when they “shows up” it’s quite fine to be alone, and “deal” with them in my own way 😊. Another thing,- in general I don’t know when the “issues” are dropping by. Because that’s exactly what they are doing,- dropping by exactly when it suits them, and not me. It’s nothing I can choose or control.

In short periods I have had water in my body, causing the hormone changes. And also one of the reasons why it didn’t dropped my mind that I could have put on weight when my winter clothes felt a bit thigh.

It has mainly been in my feet, ankles to be more correct, and sometimes in my hands too. It’s not often, and not to bad, but it is uncomfortable. And I have never had any kind of water like that in my body before. I think the closest “water in my body” was the water in my stomach under my pregnancies 💧.

And I’m still not “leaking” (thank so much for that 🙏),– and I really hope I can avoid that too, even I know it is natural for a woman to have or get some “water leakage” in a certain age. I’m really doing my “exercises” ,- “pinch and hold and pinch a little more”. Hopefully that will help forever to avoid any kind of water leakage 🤞.

And my stomach,- also that one can be a bit “troubling” now and then. It can feels like it is a marble in there 😳. But it’s not, and of course the marble also “disappear”, but not always when I want. I just need to give it a bit of time and maybe a prune and two 😅. But of course this marble in my stomach also has been a reason for why I didn’t offer weight increase and small clothes so many thoughts.

When I’m in this “body” area I can also mention cellulite. I have some of them too, mainly on my thighs. They don’t bother me. They are a part of this “process” as well, I think. And as long as they don’t bother me I don’t give them to many thoughts.

But there’s a challenge I do struggling a bit with when this one shows up,- and that’s challenges with the sleep. For some reasons I don’t know, I can have a night and two or three where I’m not sleeping very well without knowing why, or the reason. And phu,- the days after some nights without a good sleep feels like I have been on a party with a few glasses of too much wine 😴🍷 . I’m so, so tired and feel so uncomfortable the day after a sleepless night 😴. It’s more then enough to just do my customer service agent job on the phone then, and not very much more then that.

I’m not use to that,- in general I do sleep very well and also fast when I’m putting down my head on ny pillow 😴.

An other thing,- I actually want to go to bed at 21.00 in the evening 😅. But Im trying my very best to be awake until around 23.00. And in general I do manage that one 😊. And I get my 7- 8 hours with beauty sleep 🥰.

Off,- and yes,- this mind and soul and thoughts and feelings things- more correctly “moody button”. That one is not very fun at all. I know I did mention that one in my other “new Spring in life post”. That one feels seriously not like any kind of Spring. More like a very stormy and cold winter day with out any kind of control ❄😳. And so, so hard to explain.

And like I mention in an earlier text,- I don’t have any midlife crisis, but I have different midlife thoughts, and some days I think more about my midlife thoughts than other days, but I can’t call my thoughts challenging. I’m just trying to find some kind of solutions, but I don’t rush the solutions. I know I need to use time on them.

And yes,- then it’s this “sexual feelings” too. I’m single so what can I say? I don’t have any lover, or friends with benefit. But it seems that “all is still in function”,- because I need to admit a friends with benefit haven’t been to bad to have 😅.

But maybe that’s just fine I’m in my bed alone at the moment? Because for some reason I get this hot flashes in the nights now and them,- and so fare haven’t had anyone during the day yet.

It’s the sleeplessness nights and the grumpy moods that’s bothering me most – then I really really don’t want anyone to bother me or Visa versa- bother them,- special not with my grumpy mood.

I’m also use reading glasses 🤓🧐. I needed to start with that some years ago. I’m using glasses when I working at my computer, when I use my mobile, and when Im reading a book. Still no need for more use for glasses yet, but of course that one can change too. It will probably change when I’m getting older,- and I still have glasses a bit “here and there” because even after a couple of years as a “part time” glass- user I’m still forget to use glasses when I need to read the menu in a restaurant, or my tiny shopping list when I go for shopping food 🧐. It’s nice to know what I’m order from the menu as well as bringing with me home from the store 😅. So I have some painting glasses in my painting – corner, a couple in my work corner, a couple in my handbag and a couple on the table in the livingroom – just in case 🤓.

So,- all in all so fare in this pre perimenopause things aren’t to bad actually 😊. But I need to admit I actually really hope it doesn’t will be or “bring” me more or other “issues” then that I’m “dealing” with at the moment. My “issues” are not to bad, but I don’t need more of them 😊.

And I can understand why ladies in the 50′, or more correctly during the menopause, can be a bit scary and grumpy. Actually trolly. Imagine “water leakage”, water in the body that should be leaking, but don’t, and marble in the stomach, some sleepless nights and hot flashes too 😳. Clothes that suddenly and without any warning are shrinking, and when I’m into this “no warning”- a mind that’s not give any kind of warning for suddenly tears or anger 😳. It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes.

So I think I let the whole menopause “rest” for a tiny while, and use my focus on other things, stuffs and happenings in life for a while instead 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon,- and I’m not going to bother you with any menopause issues for a while (at least it’s not my plan) 😊.

So a tiny cheers for the different changes and challenges,- for the life and that life is what it is 🧡,- and for a “new Spring in life” that I’m not always understand because it doesn’t quite feels like a Spring- but I have heard it’s painful when flowers growing,- it hurts when buds bloom 😊🥀

It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes 😳. During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days as well 🌬. But I have heard that it hurts when buds bloom,- so I choose to believe so 🌱. So a tiny cheers for a “new Spring in life” 🍷😊.

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Wrinkles, you said?😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

After the hair on our top, we have our beautiful faces 😊,- and as we gets older there is a tiny habit that some fine lines and wrinkles are “showing up”. To be honest I don’t think my wrinkles are to bad, but what can happen in some years? I don’t know,- but I admit I do my very best to have the wrinkles and fine lines I have a bit under “control” 😅.

They are not so wrinkled and whining yet. But I never know what the age can bring me 😊.

Wrinkles, you say? 😊 Im stretching them out as best as I can as you can see 😅

But I need to admit that when I wake up and a little while afterwards there can be a bit more extra wrinkles. My skin is like a little extra “curly”, – trolly, trolly- and yes I think I can scare a soul and two with my morning trolly wrinkle face 😅. At least until the wrinkles has taken their morning stretches and calm down bit. You know like we stretch our body when we wake up, it’s also like my face need a bit time for “stretching” here and there after a good night sleep to let the wrinkles fall in the correct places, the correct nice places where they look a bit better 😅. But my morning wrinkles need to be stretched a bit out, maybe a kind of face morning exercise before they look “good”🤸‍♀️. Is it like that for you too? That this morning wrinkles have a habit to show up very much in the morning, a kind of a bit “trolly, trolly”, and then they in a way “calm down” a bit during the day?

And also when I’m very, very tired, ( or angry 😳),- uff, then I feel it’s wrinkles “everywhere” in my face and even on my throat too 😳. Not very charming,- but okay,- it it what it is 😳. I can be charming in other “settings” instead 😅.

And yes, there are a few more smile wrinkles and lines when I’m smiling now at days than for some few years ago, – but I take that as a good sign, – it means that I have smiled a lot and have a lot to be happy about. And that’s true too 😊🧡. I feel I have very much in my life to be grateful and happy for, and smile for 😊🧡

My happy, morning face from one of my morning walks at the beach 😊. Smiley wrinkles,- of course 😊 I have a lots to be happy for, grateful for and smile for 😊

Like I mention earlier in my post I do a couple of things to “slow down” the wrinkle process” in my face. I use honey and almond scrub a couple of times during the week, and I also “squeeze” some aloe vera in my face every day. Both honey, almond and the aloe vera are “fresh”. Well,- not quite the honey- that one is from a box in the store, and the almond too. But the aleo vera I have a big plant I’m using the leaves from. And I also “eat”, or drink is more correctly, collagen from Norway 😊. My youngest sister and her husband have their own collagen company and they makes and sells collagen,- and it’s perfect for the skin and also the health in general 😊. Except from this I also try my best to get 7- 8 hours sleep, try to eat healthy, and is very moderate with alcohol and I always use suncream in my face when I’m in the sun. Factor 30 or 50, it depends a bit.

I’m not sure if this “things” I’m doing can be a factor that my wrinkles are not to bad. Well,- at least I don’t think my wrinkles are to bad,- it doesn’t matter so much what other thinks. But if I believe it helps it’s good enough for me 😊. So I’m still not there where I think or feel I need to “lift” something in my face, yet, or fill up a bit here and there. But I don’t know how I will feel about that in a couple of years. Maybe thing will be different, maybe not- maybe I will still like my happy wrinkles and grateful for the fact that I actually still have them, and even maybe a couple of more 😊. Or maybe I will feel more confident and comfortable with my self if I Iift and fill a bit “here and there”? I don’t know. At the moment I’m fine with the way my wrinkles in my face are, I feel confident and comfortable like it is 😊.

I know some women feel for “lifting” and “filling up” here and there in their face,- and I can understand their choices, even I don’t want to do something like that, at least not yet. I don’t know what I will feel in a couple of years. But it’s about feeling confident and comfortable with your self and your age, so if some face lifting helps in the age of 50 or more,- why not? It’s all about feeling confident and comfortable with your self 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

This are more and less what I’m using for my skin in my face, and also aloe vera cream or suncream,- it depends.

Of course I have a bit more fine lines and wrinkles now at days then for just some years ago, I’m getting older,- and that’s a part of getting older 😊. But I choose to believe they are happy smiley wrinkles 😊.

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I can continue “on the top” 🦱🧢😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Since I’m “touching” this menopause now at days in my blog I can continue a bit “on the top” of the body. Or that’s maybe not quite correct, because I have already wrote a bit what’s happen inside “the top” now and then during this new “phase” in life. The “magical” menopause, or more correctly for me,- perimenopause (a bit of a fancy word for a not always so fancy “situation”)💫.

The brain lives it’s own lifes now and then, and don’t even give a tiny “hands up” before is messing around with the thoughts and feelings, tears and anger, and frustration,- and just in case,- I’m not always sure why this is happening either 😳. But okay,- I’m not the only one 😊.

And of course there’s some thoughts about my future too, up there in my top,- like I told you in my last post 😊.

But there’s also hair “on the top”, and the hair have a habit to change colour as well when “everything” else is changing in the body, and also for many during the menopause. I have actually looked after grey hair for maybe two or three years already😅, but luckily I haven’t found very much yet 😅. I stopped colouring my hair for maybe one or one and a half year ago, and it was different reasons for that 😊.

It was of course easier to look for grey hair when I had my natural hair colour, and I was a bit curious what my natural hair colour actually is. I think I have more and less colour my hair since I was around 15- 16 years old. So maybe it’s time for the natural colour look now? 😊

And I also thought it will be just easier for myself if or when my hair colour turn naturally grey to just let it be that way. So fare there’s not to much grey hair, and I need to admit I’m a bit happy for that. They comes when they comes, and if not, that’s fine too. But at least now it will gets it’s own natural hair colour “touch” when it’s starting to be grey for real 😊.

An other reason why I stopped colouring my hair is because it’s actually a bit stress to do this every fourth or sixth week. Now I don’t need to, and to be honest it feels a bit relieved. If I one day colouring my hair again,- I don’t know. But so fare it feels actually quite nice to just accept the “hair colour situation” the way it is, and don’t stress with this hair colouring every fourth to sixth week 😊.

I don’t have very thick hair, so I have used hair extensions now and then to feel more comfortable with my hair, and of course also with myself. Special because I didn’t feel very comfortable with my thin hair. I have now also dropped hair extensions. I haven’t use that either for over a year, or probably more. My hair is still thin, but okay,- I’m actually a bit fine with that one too. But I need to admit I do “eat” tablets to get thicker hair 😅. Something calls “Medebiotin” and “Relafit Capils”, but maybe I also should start to try some seaweed,- just in case? Even some of this tablets actually should contain some seaweed.

This tablets I did take for 3 months and then 3 months without, and if necessary 3 new months. And I think I’m going to “go” for 3 new months. So fare not to much have happen in the “be thicker hair” area, and it can’t do any harm anyway to eat a bit more of this tiny pills 😅, and it’s not so stressful to remember a tiny little hair pill every morning either 🦱😅.

My natural hair colour,- I’m actually not sure what kind of colour that is, because it’s still a bit mix of added hair color, some bleaching from the sun and then my own, – down there in the bottom.  But it is what it is – and I actually feel quite okay with my hair color as it is …..for now. Maybe I try to color my hair again one day, maybe not. But at the moment I prefer it “all” the way it is 😊.

So maybe as you probably understand I’m actually not “struggling” with my “hair situation” during this pre perimenopause process, something I’m very happy for 😊. Because I know some women do struggling with that too,- on top of all other kinds of “issues” menopause brings.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My “hair situation” during this pre perimenopause is not to bad,- a tiny mix of different colours,- but I’m actually fine with it 😊. It is what it is 🦱😊

One thing is what’s happen inside the mind and brain during the perimenopause ( and menopause as well), but for some also something happens with what’s “outside” like for example the hair colour. I did stop colouring my hair for over a year ago for different reasons,- and I’m fine with the natural colours that’s “shows up” so fare 😊🦱.

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Menopause,- “the new Spring in life” ? 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I did read somewhere that menopause was like “the new Spring in life”,- but I’m not so sure about that one yet 😳. Sometimes it feels a bit more like a cold winter storm, to be honest ❄. But just sometimes 😊. In general I’m still fine during this new “process” in my life, and body. But I don’t know how this menopause process later will be for me.

Menopause,- the new Spring in life? 🌱 I don’t know about that,- but things are changing like the Spring changes the nature from the cold winter time ❄. So maybe it’s something in it?

Some women are open about and talk about menopause, others do not say very much, and some even “deny” that they are there or have been there.  Why this is so I’m not sure.  Shame about getting older?  Fear of a new and unknown phase in life?  Or too big challenges in this phase for them to be able to talk about menopause? Probably a bit of it all.

We women don’t experiences menopause in the same way. Like we didn’t have the same experiences during the puberty. Some women can have a very hard menopause, and other more “sails” through it.

I did start to “research” about menopause before I was in the menopause, and I’m still not “in the menopause” yet, at the same time as I know this phase in life starts a bit before it has been a year since the last period. I wanted to know a bit about this new phase and period in my life, and what I could “expect” as well, as also maybe get some advice how to handle different kinds of challenges if they get to hard. Be a bit prepared for this new changes as well as challenges.

Menopause is in a way “official” when it has been more then one year since the last period, but it start some years before that. And it last some years after that too.

Like I mention, I’m still not “official” in menopause, but in a phase which in the technical language is called pre- perimenopause , but of course I notice different changes both in my body and mind.

I’m not ashamed over getting older, but if I like it? To be honest,- I’m not sure. It’s like I haven’t had the time to think or fell to much about it/ this yet,- if I like it or not, because so fare in this “period” in my life I haven’t been to much alone and be able to think or feel to much about this “new life experience” I’m going to go through.

As you know my children have been moving in and out during the last two- three years. And that’s a part I feel I’m very finish with,- live together with my children, or anyone else. My children can be my neighbours instead 😊. That I would actually loved 🥰.

I not worried to talk about menopause either, at the same time there’s “things” that’s happens in my mind I can’t explain very well. Special this “moody and emotional moments”. What I do know is that I need to be and live alone now so I can “sort” this out, find my own way to “deal” with “this”, handle it and learn to live with it- this “getting older and the different changes”, and now and then, challenges too.

I can’t at this point say I feel I’m going through a new Spring in my life 😅🌱,- but I can understand why some call menopause and the time after for a new Spring in life. Maybe special the time after, when this suddenly mood and emotion storms are a bit more “calm down”, and you in your own way have found “the new way” in life?

I know some feel and thinks their life is “over” when they go through menopause. And some also goes through a kind of “middle life crisis” during this process.

One part or epoch in life is over,- what will the next one brings? What should I do now? For many the children also are moving out during this period in life, and they feel a kind of “useless”, the empty nest syndrome are in a way “knocking on the door”. I need to admit I really like to live alone, so the empty nest syndrome haven’t knocking on my door 😊. Well at least the time I have tried to live alone so fare 😅. Let me put it this way,- I liked it so much to live alone I want to try it for a bit longer period then 2- 3 months 😊. I miss my children, I love my children, I enjoy spending time together with them- but I’m very finish to live together with them. And I’m not ashamed over being that, or feel like that- like I mention in an other post,- it’s feels like my freedom to be able to live alone now 💛.

An other thing during this “getting older” ,- you can get this feeling of being not very “attractive” any more. Maybe special when it comes to the work situation, and maybe also when it comes to dating?

In general I don’t think to much that my life is over because I’m getting older, I’m in my life and very happy and grateful for that 🧡. I’m fine with the fact that my children are out of the nest, and I’m fine in my job. I’m not stressing with this dating either. I have some others thing I want to try to do and “find out” before I’m going to date again,- and it’s not even sure I want to date again, or have a boyfriend. My experience when it comes to dating, men and relationships is that there are a lot of hassles, whining, nagging and unfavorable requirements from men/ boyfriend. I want to have peace in my life, and not hassles, whining, nagging and unfavourable requirements.

But,– when those emotional waves are coming, just running and rumbling through my soul, thoughts and mind I’m not so comfortable in my life. I can get a bit “bunch” of negative thoughts and feelings about closely “all and everything” to be honest. But still actually not about relationship, dating or men. My negative thoughts goes more to “what am I going to do with my life?” Move to a new place? Back to Norway? To another country? What about work? Do I want to work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life? And in my mind “the rest of my life” are a couple of years to be honest. And I also struggling with thoughts that I have been not the best mammi for my children. So this are mainly my negative waves, or “boble”. Sounds maybe like a nice and “easy” boble- but it’s not. I’m very “phu hu poor me” when this “waves” are “dropping by”.

And yes,- there’s one more emotional wave,- this tears that’s dropping up sometimes from no where. And the fuse that has become even shorter than it was before.  Things that have not annoyed me that much before can be incredibly annoying now.

But still in general I feel more and less like me. Without to many challenges, or “emotional waves” 🌊. But the thing is,- I’m not prepared for this “waves” when they “drops by”. I have actually no idea when they are dropping by 😳 They don’t give to many “hands up” or “warnings” like “we are going to mess a bit with your mind today” before they in a way are just “rolling over” me 😳.

Lucky for me they don’t last to long,- a day or two, and then I have some days, maybe even a couple of weeks without. But when they are “tumbling and rumbling” in my body- I really don’t feel I’m going through a new Spring in life- that’s for sure. And an other thing,- I really prefer to be alone during those “emotional waves moments” .

Unfortunately people in general doesn’t understand this, this “suddenly waves”, this need to be alone, be able to find your own way to handle them. The exception is, someone who actually are going through the same, or have bee thought menopause. They understand very well. Because it’s just not to “put your self together”. It’s actually not so easy. Not with this.

So yes,- I do really understand why some women in the 50’s, during this menopause, are a bit “trolly”. I’m a bit “trolly” my self,- even I don’t want to be “trolly”.

And I do understand this “colour up” with makeup and nail polish, clothes and accessories,- we don’t want to feel useless or invisible,- special not in work situations, and I can also understand the dating situation too,- even I’m not there.

We are some women with a lots of knowledge, in general even a good working moral,- something I can’t say many younger have. And,- we have so much to offer. Maybe I should write a bit more about my thoughts about the work situation and this feeling of being invisible in different work situations when you have turned 45 and on top of that is a woman in another post? Because I have some thoughts about that too,- more then I hade before 😊.

Anyway,- the new Spring in life? Yes in one way I can see and understand the “metaphor”, in other ways not at all. I think it depends where you are in the menopause as well as how “hard” and challeng the menopause is. This can, natural enough, be various from woman to woman 🧡. It’s can feel like a bit chaotic Spring now and then 😊😳😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The new Spring in life? Something happens, some changes, with both the mind and body during menopause,- and it could be like a kind of Spring?

I did read somewhere that menopause was like the “new Spring” in life. In one way I can understand the “metaphor”. But sometimes I need to admit that it feels like a very ” cold and stormy” Spring 😳😅🌱.

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