One month with the beach 🏖😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It’s around one month since I moved to the beach, or more correctly in a holiday home very close to the beach 🏖. A holiday home that’s going to be my home for the next around 9 months 😊.

I have been here already a month. The time is “flying”, at the same time I have actually manage to “squeeze” in a bit of “this and that” this month too 😊. Moved to a new place, and also starting to get things in a kind of “order” in my new place too 😊. I have cleaned and organized the old place and given the keys back to the owner. I have done my jobs as best as I can, even dropped by my blog a bit more often as well 😊. And also had some guests in my new home too, and even baked a bit 😊. I have finished and delivered glassbottles, and visit my friend and her newborn baby at the hospital as well 😊. I have also been at the beach a couple of times, even stolen some sand from the beach to have in my plants and in the umbrella “foot” so that one shouldn’t fly away with the wind 😊.

But I feel I have just “been” here during the last month, not lived. It’s just lately I feel I’m starting to live here. But obviously I have in a way “lived” if I take a look around me and think about what I actually have done during the last more and less, 4 weeks 😊.

For me it’s a different between “be” and “live” 😊. And now I feel I’m slowly starting to live in this home, get some of my daily and weekly “routines” “back in business” again,- and in a bit I probably also will be more ready to work for my “bigger plans in my life” too 😊. I haven’t them “all” figured out yet,- but I think that’s normal and natural 😊. They will “find” their place little by little 😊.

It’s the first time in my adult life I actually organize and facilitate a life, an everyday life with only myself in and no children in it 😊. It feels very, very strange, and even sometimes I feel I do something “wrong” to make plans or something like that without my children or at least telling my children, or “included” them in some or another way 😅.

I need to learn that, that now my life is a bit more about me, and I don’t have any special duty to report to anyone and everyone about what I do or do not do. ( ….except from the fact that I’m actually writing a blog about “my daily life” and share that ome with everyone 😅).

Sometimes it is a bit scary this new era in my life, this “just me- era”, because I’m not always sure what to do with it,- even it can seems like I’m, and that I have “a lots” of “big plans” and “it all figured out”,- but I haven’t, and inbetween I’m actually “losing” it a bit too 😳 😅. And menopause and getting older scares me a bit too, but what to do?

And like I mention a while ago, when I was “packing down” 7 years of our life in the other home,- who to create new memories together with? Who to make plans with? Create new experiences in life with? Share memories with? And share plans and experiences with? My readers? 😊 Of course I’m going to do that- share with my readers, but…. it could and would be nice and great to have someone else too, to share things and stuffs in my life together with 😊. At the same time as I know I’m not ready for a relationship either. But I have some great friends around me, and my kids are here too, just not in the same way as before 😊.

I feel a bit lost without my children, but it’s nice too, to just be me. I’m probably more lost without them, then they are without me,- natural enough 😊. And I’m know I’m going to learn to live my life without them around me on daily basis as it was before they became young adults and moved into their own homes 😊. I just don’t think it’s “learned” to do during some weeks or just a couple of months 😊. It will take a bit more time 😊.

I feel more ready now to start enjoying my life close to the beach, sort things out and start to find a kind of new “road” to walk. I just need to be patient, and remember that “all and everything” takes time 😊.

And it’s incredibly nice to listen to the waves before I go to sleep in the night as well as waking up to in the morning 🌊😊. And I like to live so close to the beach too, and have the possibility to enjoy the beach when I want, but it could be a bit less people around me,- but we can’t get it all at the same time, can we? 😅😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It’s a fantastic view from my roof terrace 😊

It’s already a month since I moved into the holiday home close to the beach 🏖. I have been here a month, but it’s just lately I’m started to feel I’m living here too, not just being here 😊. It takes a bit time to learn to live with a new lifesituation, like for example not living together with my children anymore 😊.

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Goodbye June, you went fast too ☀️, and welcome peaceful July 🌞

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It’s some weeks since I dropped by my blog now, but I haven’t had the time to prioritize my blog or writing during the moving process. I also needed to cancel my lessons with my students, but I manage my customer service agent job and online freelance work, and of course move, clean, get things in order in the new place, as well as get “out of order” from the old place 😊.

There was days in June I felt was a bit “rough at the edges”, but when I think back today I think it was mostly because some days felt a bit more demanding then others, something that’s actually normal 😊. It just didn’t felt “normal” “there and then” 😊. You probably know how some of “those” days can be ?

And yes of course menopause also have “a finger in the game” during some of those days that’s feels a bit “rough at the edges”. That one can really “fuck up” the brain now and then, but I will come back to that subject in an other text.

I’m now “well installed” in my new home. The firsts days in this new place went to cleaning because this place has been empty for over a year. Or that’s actually not true. During this year some mice have been living and frolicking a bit, so there has been a bit of cleaning up after them 🐭. But now all is clean and I’m ready for a new start, and calm down a bit, find a bit peace, and maybe try to make a kind of plan for my future too 😊.

I also needed to make our “old home” in order for the owner, and I delivered the key back to the owner yesterday 🔑. And that felt so good, even my children and me have had a marvellous time and some great years in that house, and many, many good memories, it felt good to actually “close the door”, – if I can say it that way. And it is also incredibly good to not need to have anything more with the owner of the house to do. The home/ house was perfect for me and my children during this years. But the owner…

The owner, – well, that’s a other story, not worth to use to much time to tell about. I’m just happy she did live fare away so I just needed to deal with her once a year. Except from now at days. Just let me put it this way,- There’s just some people that give you a very bad feeling no matter how good you are trying to be.

But June hasn’t just contained “moving, cleaning and work”. In between ther also has been a couple of others “events ” too. Maybe more like daily and small “events” , but isn’t it that in it’s own way create the day and days?

There has been some new cold showers 😅, literally, in this new place too. I don’t understand why cold showers are “dropping by” into my life now at days 🚿, but okay,- yesterday that one was fixed so hopefully it will not be to many cold showers for a while now 😊. To be honest I have checked the hot water a couple of times now, just to be sure it still there 😅.

My pavilion blew off just a few days after it was set up and fastened in my new place 😳🌬. That one made me a bit sad, because I had made a cozy corner outside on the roof terrace, but okay,- what to do? Then it is to try to find an other solution, and I got some very good help for that one yesterday 😊. So now I have an other kind of pavilion and I’m very happy for that 🥰.

Just yesterday was filled up with some small “events” that in it’s own way create the day. I got hot water in the shower 🚿, I got an super solution for the pavilion on the roof terrace 🌞 and I delivered back the key to a finish capital in my life 🧡.

And believe it or not,- there has even been some men “dropping by” in my life in June too 😳. Well,- I actually didn’t let then drop by, but that’s a tiny story for an other day. I can’t tell you all and everything today 😊.

I have swear a lot too in June 😅, and in general I don’t do that. I swore I would not have a car where I live now.  It can sometimes be completely hopeless to find a parking space and place 😳.  I must admit that I have cursed over it a few times lately 🤯- and I swear very rarely🤐. So the once who knows me very well also know that swearing isn’t my thing, but when I do, I’m very serious about it too 😅. And I know swearing doesn’t give me any parking place, but still some few not to nice words dropped out off my lips 😅. And for some strange reason I in a way “have” a car even that wasn’t the plan, my plan 😅.

Irene, my oldest son’s girlfriend, – she borrowed me her car for some few days so I could move some bags and boxes, but for some reason now she just want me to have the car here until she needs it, and I don’t know when that is, but it has been for a couple of weeks now 😅. I’m very grateful for that, but it’s still a challenge to find a parking place 🚗. At the same time I feel very lucky to have the possibility for using her car when I need 🧡.

I have also sent in an application for a new job. A very different job then from other jobs I have done before in my life, and it’s not just a very different job, but it’s a job that is even in an other continent then I’m living in at the moment 😉🍇. Of course I will tell you a bit more about that one too, just not today 😊.

I have also manage to finish a baby blanket to a good friend of my that’s expecting her first baby now at days 🤰🧶. I needed to wait some days with the painting, but I have also touched my paint brushes again the last days 🎨.

So June,- a month I felt now and then was a bit “rough at the edges” wasn’t to bad at all when I’m looking back today 😊. It was a month “touched ” by the daily life, ups and downs, changes and challenges, – that’s for sure 😊. But also a month I have a lots of things to be grateful for. A warm shower, a nice place to stay outdoors, a cozy place to live for a while, great friends and good people around me, work, food on the table and a bit more too 🧡.

And I can very soon welcome July 🧡, I hope it will be a calm and peaceful month without to many feelings of “rough at the edges”, and without to many changes, challenges and feelings of “down” days. Because often it’s actually just a feeling of a down day or happening, it’s not sure it was so bad after all when we get a bit distance to it 😊.

I don’t know what I can expect from July at all. I just know what I can hope, dream and wish for as well as work for. But as most of us know, – thing can change very fast, also the things we are working for. There will probably be some changes in one or another way as well as some challenges, but hopefully not to much and not to big. I feel I need to get my breath back a tiny bit. The two last months has been a bit hard and challenging in it’s own way, and it could be nice with a tiny break from that 😊🌞.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

And now I hopefully can say “See you soon “,- and actually see you a bit sooner then I have done lately 😊.

A cozy corner on my new roof terrace 😊

I have a so much to be Grateful for in June 🧡, even there was a couple of days I felt was a bit “rough at the edges”. I have fantastic friends, family and great people around me 🧡. I have hot water in the shower again 🚿, and a nice and cozy place to live and stay for a while 🧡. I’m not sure what July will bring into my life, but I wish the unknown July very welcome 💛.

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Once a week…. 🖥😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Obviously my work computer wants a walk once a week this month. And not just a walk “anywhere”, but a walk straight to the office 😳 at my back in my backbag.

Maybe it’s miss the office? Or maybe it think I need this walk during my working- hours? Or maybe it just want me to take a tiny look at the IT- guys in the office?

I need to admit there’s a couple of men at the IT- office that’s not to bad to “rest my eyes on” 😍. But since I have decided to not date for a while, it’s actually also just what I do at the moment, – “rest my eyes” 😊. And maybe my eyes need a tiny little rest after the walk too? Because it’s a tiny bit of a walk, special when I actually don’t have the time for it, because it is in my working- hours. If my computer is not working I can’t do my work, then it’s need to be fixed, special in my ordinary working- hours.

It takes around 45 minutes to walk down to the office from my home, and it’s down all the way from my home. It’s a bit heavier on the way back home, because it’s actually up then, up, up, up with my computer on my back 📠. So I use closely one hour back home again.

On my way to the office with my computer in my bag back 📠😊.

The computer is not heavy. I have actually carried much heavier “stuff” (like food and drinks) in my back bag, but when you walk as fast as you can, just to not loose to much working hours, it feels a bit more heavy then it is 😊. I actually feel a bit like my legs and feet walks like drumsticks 😅.

So why does my computer makes a bit of trouble once a week? And why haven’t it done this before? Well,- I think one of the IT- guys found the “solution” today- at least I hope so. Because I’m in general never prepared for this walks, and I actually don’t want to have a new one next week 😅.

Some weeks ago I got fiber optic in my home, but I also have this other internet too. I have all the time had my working computer connected to the other internet, but it seems that it wants to be “connected” to the fiber optic, or maybe be moved to another place in my home 😳. Is it “joules” at the fiber optic? I use that internet to my freelance work 💻.

I got some different cables with me home, and some few tips and tricks how to “deal” with my working computer if it’s starts to make troubles again. And the trouble it has created,- well,- it will actually not be turn on in the morning. The screen became just been nice and blue 😳. So I’m not getting anywhere with my work. Hopefully this is now fixed 😊.

It’s actually a nice walk to the office when I’m mentally prepared for the walk. When I’m not mentally prepared for this walk it’s a bit stressful walk 🚶‍♀️🏃‍♀️.

And this is the last steps up before I’m home after a walk. Good exercises- that’s for sure 😊.

Well,- I’m trying my best to enjoy this drumsticks walking to and back from the office as best as I can, but I really do cross my fingers that this, hopefully, was the last unexpected drumsticks walk to my office 🤞🏃‍♀️. I think “exercises” and I try to take a look around me and enjoying the nature and atmosphere as well, at the same time as I wish inside me that I don’t need to do this walk next week, and also feeling very grateful for actually having a job 🙏 😊. And it’s actually really nice to meet and chatt up a bit with the few colleagues that’s working at the office too 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Lucky for me it’s just this computer box I need to carry with me,- and look at the beautiful flowers at the trees 🦋. It’s Spring in the air 🥀

I like to take a good walk now and then, actually a bit more then that, actually a couple of times during the week 🚶‍♀️. But I like to be mentally prepared for my walks, and during the lasts weeks I have got a walk I was not prepared for 😳. A walk that makes my feet walk like drumsticks too 😅🥁.

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Goodbye January 👋 ,- and Hello to you February 🤗

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

January is over, and to be honest I’m a bit happy for that 😊. In a way I actually feel a bit relieved that we are turning into a new month.

It feels like January was a bit stressful and chaotic month, but at the same time touched with different happy and nice “events” and happenings 😊.

It has been changes and challenges, knowledge and wisdom, and some new experiences too. Not to much of anything actually, at the same time some small “events” that can feel more than big enough when they are more and less coming like “beads on a string” 📿.

And like I just mention,- it’s actually not a very big deal most of the changes and challenges that has touched my life in January. They just feel a bit like that 😊.

To be honest I was not prepared to live together with one of my children again so soon after my last babyduckhad moved out. And my daughter was not prepared to live together with me again so soon after moving out either. That has been a tiny bit changes and challenges for both of us. But probably because it all happened so fast, and under some “unexpected” circumstances. But all in all I actually can say we, both she and me are doing well,- we was not just very hood prepared for changing our life- and living together situation in a sudden turn 😊.

It has been different things that needed to be reorganize in both her and my life. Her rent- contract together with her ex- boyfriend needed to be changed, different last of her things needed to be picked up at the apartment she was living in. We didn’t manage to pick up all in the beginning. And there’s had been a couple of hospital visits too, just to check that the different “damage” in her body was healing the way they should.

And then there has been some few other challenges, not critical at all, but the internet collapsed, the fridge, freezer and oven closely said “bye- bye”. And the television obviously lives it’s own life after a very stormy weekend with both a lots of rain and even snow. Non of this are actually a big deal, but when it feels like it “all” happens at the same time it can feels a tiny bit chaotic together with the rest of the things we need to handle in January.

And then I ( and my colleagues) also got the news that the department we are working for are going to close down in Norway in June this year. That was not the best news to get. I really like the department I’m working for at the moment, so it feels a bit sad that I’m not going to be working there anymore. But the company I’m working for have already organised a new job for all of us to an other department. I’m starting there in the end if March or beginning of April.

I have also sendt my CV to two other jobs, – just in case. I don’t know if I will get one of them, but I need to admit I cross my fingers for that. At the same time as I feel lucky because I will anyway have a new job to go to in a couple months.

My birthday is also in the end of January, and I’m now actually 48 years old 😳 😊. No celebration this year. It’s actually 10 years since I have celebrate or had any kind of marking of my birthday. Last time was to my 38 year birthday so I’m actually use to not have any birthday- celebration or marking of my birthday. No hard feelings for that😊. But of course I have some different thoughts about getting older even I, at the moment, at the same time haven’t had to much time to think about this “getting older process” either. An it can be interesting to be 48 year old, and maybe be richer and wiser? 😅

I haven’t had so much time for my freelance work as I should in January, but on the other hand I have been teaching and I have also been knitting, painting and even baking a bit. And being a mammi 🧡.

It’s a couple of things that’s easier to do when I’m alone then sourrende by someone. And that’s my freelance work, writing my blog and study Spanish. I just need to focus as best as I can on my freelance work and my blog, and focus more on the Spanish language studies later.

And I had also a very nice and cozy visit from friend in January with a movie- evening and a sleepover. We have curfew between 22.00 in the evening to 06.00 in the morning. So then it’s best to choose to have a sleepover visit 😊.

I also needed to reorganize our things and stuffs in Norway from one place to another while we are waiting for those things to be able to be removed from Norway to Spain. Lucky for me my parents and my son in the middle helped us with that one. Something I’m very grateful for 🧡.

So, yes,- I feel January was a bit busy and challenged month, but here we are, turning “the page” over to February 😊.

I do not know what expectations I have for February. I know I need to have a meeting in the bank and stop some payments to a internet company. And I need to go to the post office, and I also need to get a new passport.

Free shiping over 69$

All this offices are just open when I’m at work. But lucky for me, I’m working together with some great colleagues, and I know they can change shifts with me. The challenge will be the passport, because that one I need to do in an other city then I live in, and at the moment the borders between the cities are closed.

I also know I need to start up again with my workout and exercises. Phu,- but I’m getting older and I want to take care of my health, and a part of taking care of my health is to do some regular workout and exercises. And I know I need to try my very best to focus more and harder on my freelance work.

My daughter is still going to live with me during February 😊. And I’m probably going to continue work fulltime from home 😊. I hope I get some positive feedback on one off the CV I have sent out. And maybe I can have a new movie- evening and sleepover together with my friend too? That would actually be very nice 😊.

And maybe we also will get our first part of our things and stuffs from Norway in the end of February too? I don’t know yet.

It’s a couple of things to do in February too, but I still hope February will be a bit more calm then January was 😊. At the moment is just to say,- Hello and welcome Februar. I hope you will be a bit calmer than January was ❄😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊

I became 48 year in January- hopefully that will be an interesting age to be in 😊

Bye- Bye busy January 😊. My birthday month was a bit busy, and it felt actually a bit good to turn “the page” to February now 😊. I don’t know how February will be, or what kind of “suprices” that one can “show up” with. What I do know so fare is that it will probably not be a boring month 😊. There’s “always” things to do 😊.

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