Thank you February 🥀Welcome March 🌱🍃(2022)

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

A nice and peaceful February is over,- peaceful in our home and life at least. Busy with work,- for both Mathilde and me- but still February was a peaceful month in it’s own way 🥀.

Not to much and many different things have happen, but I like it that way😊.

I have some goals I want to try my best to reach- but for be able to reach goals it’s necessary to put in some effort like time and work- something I’m going to do my very best to continue doing the next months too. But of course also use some time to be social together with friends and family 🧡

In the beginning of February I got information about some of our things that are still in Norway, actually still is in Norway- and that made me very happy. I thought it was lots and gone. And today I got the information that it all will be picked up in a couple of days and be ready to be sent to Spain with a big car in June this year 🚚.

I know it’s “just” things- but it’s what’s left from a time in my life I really do miss. The time it was just me and my there kids on our Prairie ❤. That time is over, I know that, and I also know I can’t live in the past or get the past back- but for me to get this things to Spain will be in a way to “clean up” in the past, go through things and stuffs, accept what is gone is gone- in my way. Not all and every one elses way- but the way that’s best for me 😊. And I’m really looking forward to that 🥰. We all do handle things in life differently and that’s just the way it is 😊.

My nest is not empty either- I did start to write a bit about “the nest” and “the empty nest syndrome ” in the beginning of February- and my daughter and me have found a kind rhythm in our life and home that’s not to bad at all. We live different lives, natural enough, and it’s not always easy to find a kind of balance and rhythm in our life when we live together, and also are in very different areas in our life, work in different times from home and have different things and stuffs we want to do. But things have a habit to find a suitable “solution”, or way to create a kind of rhythm that’s best for us in the living together situation we are in 😊.

February is a short month and in general the last day in February comes a bit surprised on my, also this year. It’s like in my mind I think I have a couple of more days before a new month starts 😊. But not in February 😊.

I’m very grateful for that February have been in it’s own way peaceful without to much ups and downs- just work and normal things – the daily life 😊. I should really wish most people could feel on a nice and peaceful February- unfortunately it’s not like that- so I’m feel I’m extra lucky and have all the reason to be and feel grateful 🧡.

March will also be a lots of work and probably April too- but that’s the way it is if I want to try my very best to manage some of my goals for this year- and one of the goals is the get my children and my things and stuffs from Norway to Spain in June 🚚.

I wish March very welcome 🧡. I’m looking forward to this month even I know I need to and is going to and must do- use some hours in front of my computer. But that’s fine- I want to do what I need to do to get what I want to have 😊. That’s the way it is- to manage something I need to complete something too 😊🚚.

I hope you can look forward to a new month with hope and dreams, happiness and joy 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A rose for hope and love, harmony and peace to all the people who haven’t this in their life 🧡

I’m very grateful for this February- a month with a lots of work- but still a peaceful month in it’s own way in our life 🧡. I should wish most people had day, weeks and months like this in their life 🧡. I’m welcoming March- a month I don’t know to much about yet,- I just know I need to work a bit because I want to do what I need to do for trying my best to reach my dreams and goals 🧡

#feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #positivefocus #lifeisgood #thelife #thedailylife #february #march #goals #job #work #lifesituation #happiness

My daughter’s story: But he didn’t manage to steal her dreams and goals 🏖🏝🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

As some of you know this Summer and Autumn has been a bit challenging for my daughter, both with long Covid19 as well as not the best choice of a boyfriend. And like I mention in my post 17. November, at her birthday- she is a young hard working woman, and work hard to reach her goals, special when it comes to her job and her goals and dreams in her job. She easily work 12 hours shift to try to reach her dreams and goals.

When my daughter moved back into my home she told me that she felt her ex boyfriend has stolen her whole life- not just all her money and different things, but her life. But he still didn’t manage to steal her dreams and goals 🧡. And no matter how down she has been both mentally after the different experiences with her ex boyfriend and not felt to well with long Covid19 she have used what she have of energy to still work for her dreams and goals in her job – and manage to reach some of them too 🧡.

You have during the last week got parts of my daughter’s story- it was and is very difficult to manage to explain and tell it all, also in a chronology way. But at least you got the essential in her story. You got her story- this story- we used more and less around a week to share it with you- but the “story’ did last a bit longer in the real life- some more months, closely 6 months to be more exact.

In just some few months my daughter is going to start on a new story in her life, new and totally different. There are some new and exciting adventures and experiences waiting for her “just around the corner” 🏝.

My daughter is going to move to Bali in March 2022, we don’t know the date yet, because of the world situation when it comes to Covid19, but at the moment the plan is that she is moving in March. And I’m so so happy for her ❤, and of course incredibly proud too 🥰. Because this has been one of her dreams since the beginning of 2021. And one year after is seems that this dreams now will get through 😍.

Some of my daughter’s dreams are coming true- she is going to live and work at Bali/ Indonesia for 1 or 2 year 🧡( photo is from over view when we lived in Benalmadena)

The company she is working for have had plans to open a norwegian office in Bali for a while, but because of the corona- situation this plans has been a bit delayed.

My daughter really enjoys her job and the company she is working for, and she is doing a good job too. She has been working for the company for two years now, and have grown with the different tasks and work, and also got more and more responsibilities. She wants to climb, learn, do a good job, grow, get new experiences and knowledge- and she manage to do it all.

She is a strong young woman, even she got this not to good “boyfriend- experiences”. Luckily he didn’t manage her take her dreams and goals from her 🥰. And she have probably even got stronger and wiser to after this experiences as well.

In Bali she is going to have the whole responsibility for the office as well as for some few employees. She is also the contact person for different companies in the main company she is working for, and she have also some administrative tasks too.

She wanted to grow, she wanted to learn, get more knowledge and more experiences, she wanted to have more and different experiences then “just” a costumer service agent on the phone. And she manage it too 🧡.

And this week she also got a new mobile phone,- not the most expensive and fancy one- but it’s at least better then no phone at all, and she can reach me and I can reach her.

She have also managed to get the train ticket to Madrid and the Norwegian Embassy this week, and is going to travel to Madrid next week and get a new passport.

Hopefully we will manage to get a dentist appointment to her soon too,- because she have a bit pain in her teeth now at days 😔.

So hard work helps to reach different goals and dreams in life- my daughter is a good example for this 🥰. One step at the time 👣. Just don’t let anyone steal your dreams and goals from you, and you can reach them too- if you want to and actually really goes for it. But as we all know- in general you need to do an effort and five to get what you want and wish for, to reach your goals and dreams, and it’s not always easy, and in general not “for free” either.

My daughter’s motto is: ” Get up, dress up, show up and never give”- and that’s exactly what she is doing- every day, “spiced” up with a “touch” of her mammi’s motto: ” It all will be fine” 🥰.

My daughter’s motto 🥰

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for dropping by my blog today 🧡

In just some few months the next stop for my daughter will be in Bali for some new and exciting adventures, experiences and knowledge in life. ( The photo is from the beach in Carvajal/ Spain- I haven’t any photos from Bali yet )😊

Even there has been some thought months with not the best experiences in my daughter’s life she still manage to work as best as she could to reach some of her goals and dreams in her working- career 🏝. And in just a couple of months some new adventures in life is waiting for her in another destination then Spain 🛫🥰.

#work #lifesituation #job #caree #positivefocus #lifeis #experiences #challenges #goals #adventurer #knowledge #travelinlife #mydaugther #mydaugthersstory #beingamammi #dontgiveup #destination #dreams

Welcome November 🍃🌹 Thank you October 🌹🍂

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been working a lot in October, mainly because I had some private students who was going to have an big Norwegian exam in October, called Bergenstesten. So I needed to try to do my best to guide them to the exam, make them as ready and prepared I could. And that has taken a bit off time 📚. But also my normal job is a customer service agent on the phone takes time, even that one has just taken the “normal” weekly work time. And my freelance work- I’m using a bit more time on that one know for different reasons at the moment 😊. I have some dreams and wishes I want try out and see if it’s possible to manage 😊.

And just in case, “of course” my teamleder in my customer “service agent on the phone job” wanted to “upgrade” my skills too in October, so I could and can do some more and other tasks in the customer service agent job🎧. But I need to admit I didn’t feel for any more skills or new tasks or training at all at the moment 😅. I’m actually find on the phone like everything is at the moment 😊. Maybe special because I have different tasks I work on in my other job, my freelance work- like reach my own dreams in life 😊😅. And that’s not to be on the phone as a costumer service agent “for ever”. It’s something different. But the customer service agent job is fine- so please don’t misunderstand me. I was not just prepared for a bit more training in that job straight after finishing teaching my students 📚😅. And I have some dreams and wishes I really wants to try and see if its possible for me to actually reach them and manage them. But then I both need to put in some “offer” in both in my time as well as a bit of money.

To have dreams and wishes are free, but to try to reach them cost both time and money, and I want to and need to try to see if its possible for me to reach and manage my dreams 🌠. I don’t know that if I don’t try, and I can’t “put it on hold” for to long know anymore, I have already done that to long. I have set up a timeline to see if I can manage this, my dream. And I will probably know in a two or three years if or if not I manage it 😊.

I will say Thank you to October for the different opportunities my education, knowledge and different work experiences , and last but not at least, my life experiences gives me when it comes to new and exciting possibilities in different job situations – like my freelance work 🙏.

And I’m Thankful for that my students manage the Norwegian exam, Bergenstesten. It was a bit of a stress, but is was worth it 📚.

October has been very much focus on job in one or another way. And then, unfortunately, not so much time together with my friends, but I have manage to squeeze in a date with my Spanish friend at least🥰. And of course time with my children, – on the phone with my middle one in Norway, and the oldest and youngest has dropped by my home now and then. One of them even dropped by with all his/ her things too 😳😅. Jepp,- one has moved back home to the mammi again during October. No comments from me on that one yet 😅.

I wish November very welcome,- this month is also one of my favourite months- because my daughter was born in November 🧡. And in November there will be homemade birthday chocolate cake too 🎂.

I know November will be busy with work in different ways and forms. And also to continue doing and working with my dreams beside ordinary working- hours and days, and yes, be a mammi in my home as well. And try to squeeze in both some dating with my Spanish friend as well as some nice and cozy meetings together with my friends 😊. And in some or another way I really need to start with some regular workout and exercises again too 😅. I’m just not sure how or where to put those hours in my “schedule” 🤸‍♀️. And I also need to try to be better to write and share posts as well 📝.

With some good planning I can manage this- special if I give my self time to accept that things takes time and maybe little by little I will manage to put “all and everything” in a functional schedule that’sworsk for me- but not “all at once”, and also accept that there will be days where I will not manage closely to do anything- like today 😊.

I did started on a 2 weeks holiday today,- and I have actually not done very much- and I just needed this day to not do very much too – just relax 😊. Then I will manage to do a bit more other days 😊.

Thank you October for changing and challenges, knowledge and wisdom 🙏🍂. And Thank you for my jobs and works and different opportunities I get 📚📝. Thank you so much for my patience friends 🧡,- and Thank October for just the possibility to “meet” you with your ups and downs 😊🧡. And Thank you October for some nice and refreshing walks on the beach during some afternoons- it helps to clear my mind 🏖.

Welcome November- my daughter’s birthday month 🧡. And welcome to two lovely weeks of holiday,- where I just need to use the time and days to “feel up my batteries”, to relax, be a bit selfish and take a bit care of just my self for a tiny little while,- in my own way 🧡. Welcome November to a new freelance job- a job I’m looking forward to start in 📝🌠. And Welcome November with your unknown changes and challenges- I will try my very best to handle them as best as I can in a positive, open minded way and with as much joy I can manage to give different challenges in life 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you 🧡 . Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😊

From one of my walks at the beach during an afternoon in October 🍂

Thank you October for changing and challenges, knowledge and wisdom 🙏🍂. Thank you for different works opportunities 📚📝. Thank you so much for my patience friends 🧡. And Thank you October for some nice and refreshing walks on the beach during some afternoons to just clear my mind 🏖. Welcome November with your unknown changes and challenges, opportunities, knowledge and wisdom 🧡🍂.

#changes #challenges #work #lifesituation #job #opportunities #october #newmonth #exam #teaching #knowledge #November #focus #positivefocus #holiday #dreams #goals

I get pocket money by my son 🥰😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it was my “pocket money” day, my “weekly payday” – and I feel so rich 😅. Once a week I’m meeting my oldest son and get my weekly “pocket money ” now at days 💰. So you can say the “pocket money” situation has “turned” a bit around since my kids was children and it was actually me that payed them pocket money every week 😅.

I don’t feel like a child, but I should wish I didn’t needed to ask him for “help” to get my “pocket money” every week. At the same time,- it’s actually a tiny “money saving” situation for me this “pocket money” situation I’m in at the moment 💵.

It’s my “pocket money” pay day today 😜. “Payed by” my oldest son to me. And of course I’m happy- I got both money for the week and see and hug my oldest son 🥰😅

Hopefully I’m soon finish with this weekly pay day done by my son to me 😅. At the same time,- I get to see him, hug him and talk with him every week 🥰.

But why do I get pocket money from my oldest son now at days? Well,- I’m actually waiting for my Visa card that’s haven’t “showed up” in my mailbox or my door yet 📭.

I order the first one in the beginning of August, and then I, or more correctly, we,- my oldest son and me, also did started this “weekly pocket money” day. I transfer money from my account to his, and he take them out from the ATM to me 💳. Lucky for me we are living in Spain and the use of money and cash is still “normal”, and not just “plastic money” a la credit card. If not,- what should I do then? How to pay for the food? Or buy necessary things in the store? With a plastic card I haven’t received yet?

Anyway,- I ordered, like I mention, the first card in the beginning of August and it should arrived to my mailbox or to my door a week after, but never showed up.

Then it was to cancel “the old one” and try again, order a new one, dobbel check the adress and cross fingers 🤞. And in the meantime,- and in the meantime ask my son if he can take out a specific amount for me, and wait until he says yes,- lucky for me he always says yes 😁. Then I transfer to his bank account and meet him to get my weekly pocket money 😅.

For some reasons this second card haven’t “showed up” either 😳. Hopefully a third time will help? And I will have my own, new Visa card in a couple of days? And in the meantime I still will need to get my weekly pocket money “payd” from my son to me 😊💰.

Of course it’s not the most ideal situation for me, or my son, to do it this way,- special if something happens and I really should needed to buy or pay anything from my card. But so fare so good.

On the other hand,- I actually do save money by using no card and get pocket money from my son. I “ask” for a specific amount I know will be more then enough for food and other necessary things during the week, and that’s the money I have to and can use during the week. So I need to think “wisely” about my “shopping”, what I need and what’s necessary.

Of course he would help me and “give” me more pocket money if I need, it’s just for me to transfer to his account, but so fare so good. I have manage the specific amount I have to use.

I think carefully about what I need of food, drink, toiletries, pharmacy goods and other things, and plan my shopping round that. And in general I do the food shopping and other shopping once a week. In general all the different shopping the same day.

Actually, it’s not much more different then the way I in general always has planned the shopping.  The only difference is that I am even more aware now for how and what to use my money on because I just have the cash that I have for the current week. And then it’s not so “easy” to just use a bit extra money “here and there” during the days 😊.

My third card will arrive to my door in just a couple of days, I hope 🤞, and this time I actually think it will come too. Why and what’s happen with the two first one,- I have no idea, but I know no one can have any “joy” of them because it’s only me that can activate the card in a specific way 😊.

So soon my “weekly pocket money day” it’s over and I can use my plastic money again 😊. But I will probably continue to use cash as well. I like to use cash, I feel I have a much better overview of money consumption when I use and pay with cash 💰. I don’t know how about you, but that’s the way it is for me 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A happy me together with my oldest son 😊 ( and my money for the week 😅)

The situation when it comes to “pocket money” in my home is turned a bit around at the moment 💰. Instead of me giving “pocket money” to my children, I now at days get “pocket money” from my oldest son instead 😊. Isn’t that a great situation? 😁

#mychildren #mammi #myoldestson #pocketmoney #cash #money #lifeis #livinginspain #Norwegian #lifesituation #happiness #savingmoney

Goodbye August 👋🌻,- and Hello September 🤞🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The best is to try to focus on the good moments and memories, even when you “crashing” out of one month, or a happening in your life and “crashing” straight into a new one 😳. But easy? No. But possible? Yes 😊.

We are already closely a week into September, but I actually did “crashing” out of August and just continue “crashing” into September. So I needed a couple of days to just sort out a couple of things before I was ready to write, to say Goodbye to August, and Hello to September 🥀.

At the moment I’m not quite ready to “welcoming” September, but I probably will be there, little by little, but I can at least say Hello September 😊.

August was a very warm month, “touched” up with some great moments worth keep in my mind and soul with happiness and a smile 😊.

I started in a new job, and I’m very grateful for having a job 🧡. I’m back in my home office, something I’m also very grateful for 💻🎧☎️. Pleasant guests has dropped by during August, and I even managed to do some baking too 🥨. I have try to enjoyed the sun as best as I can, but I need to admit it was a bit difficult under a sun with 43 +++ degree ( Celsius) 🌞. Then it’s good to live so close to the beach and ocean 🏖. And Natasja did dropped by too, it was so nice to see her again 🥰.

But August wasn’t just joy and happiness. I did find out that a person who I thought was a very good and trustworthy person was not that at all. I thought this person was a good friend I could trust, but it was just a person who used a friendship for it’s owns benefits.

I need to admit that to find out this was not to good, but at the same time it’s better to know then not know. But I have used a bit time to “get over it”. Get over that this person is not worth my time, energies or tears, but yes, I have used both times, energies and tears on this person, or more correctly, on the way this person did “treated” me. I know it is not worth it, but still it wasn’t so easy to control my tears or my disappointment.

I have choose to not use to much more time on “why”, or this person, or what happen. I have already use to much time, so I just leave it to that. Must of us has been there,- had people in our life that wasn’t the friends or people we thought they was. It’s not the first time for me either to meet a person like this, but hopefully I will meet less and less.

Then my bank account became closed again and I didn’t have any access to my money. Of course this happen on a Friday too, just in case. So I couldn’t reach the bank or any other office before after the weekend. And also I needed to get permission from my job to go to the bank as well.

And just in case,- this time when I went to the bank they couldn’t open it. I need help from some a bit “higher” up in the “system” 😳. Something that’s not to easy to do when “all and everyone” = all kind of office are open when I’m at work. But after a week with no access to my bank account, and actually no money either then, except from the money in my bank account that was “locked” and I couldn’t use, I was “allowed” to get money to pay the different expenses and buy some food. But that’s it.

Just in case I also got my period that week I hadn’t any money, and of course I didn’t have any tampons or something like that in my home either. Because my plan was to buy all this stuff that Friday my bank account was closed. And also just in case I was empty for shower soap too 🧽🧼. Fun? No, not at all.

Lucky for me I was at least working from my home so I didn’t need to go any office in my “condition”.

Solution for my period, – well I used toalett papir, but that wasn’t quite the best. Then I used washcloths,- not to comfortable, but better then the toalett papir or nothing at all. And I had shampoo, so I washed my body as best as I could with shampoo, and my hair too. And of course I manage to bleed during a couple of clothes too. Still very happy I was working from my home 😅.

My bank account is still not up and running as it should be, but I have got some days off from my job in the end of September to fix different kinds of things. Go to the different offices and a that kind of stuff.

As some of you know I was exposed to financial crime / financial fraud in Norway in 2012. Something that I’m probably going to struggle with for the rest of my life,- obviously no matter how hard I’m working to get back in my feet again 👣.

And of course I’m the one who get the “punishment” even it wasn’t me that did the economic fraud. The people who did it will probably never get any punishment if not karma kick their as one day.

It’s not any kind of financial crime that’s happen in my bank account at the moment,- that’s what my bank actually trying to avoid. That’s why even I haven’t any access,- but to get the access I need to visit offices and lawyers- phuha! That will be fun 😳. At least it will be fun, I hope, when I can use my bank account and my bank card normal again. But it’s a process that will take s bit of time and energy. And it has already took a lots of time and energy. Not just this last week, but the economic fraud has taken many years of my thoughts, feelings and energies. And I probably just need to start to accept the facts that this will probably following me and affect my life for the rest of my life.

All here Im telling you are very short version of what actually happened. It’s takes a bit of time to take the long version 😊. And it did took a big more then just a couple of days to been “through” this different things. The last week in August and the first one in September has been a bit challenging to be honest. I feel I crashed out of August and straight into September with out any control over my life, my time, my money.

But in the beginning of September I was able to pay my bills and buy some food, soap, and of course some tampons too, but then my period was over 😅.

And just in case,- when I feel I have a bit more then enough with my own things and stuffs in my life to sort out and fix, my oldest son is knocking on my door and need a place to sleep in between apartments 😳. And it was not just him, but of course his dog, Zorro and his friend too.

And just to “top it all”,- this French man I meet some years ago is back in Spain again 😅. As some of you know, – he was in Spain in the middle of my moving process this June, and now his back again and texting and texting and want to meet up. Well,- I’m not exactly “there” now at days to meet up for a “date”- and I also know what kind of “date” he wants to have. I don’t want to have that kind of date at the moment. It has been to much for me during the lasts weeks.

And yes, I have been praying and crying a lot, and asked for solutions, and at the same time tried to be grateful for everything that’s good in my life too 🧡. I need to admit I was very close to just give up all and everything a couple of days ( not suicidal- I’m not there anymore). But then I became a bit more “No, what the fuck- I’m not going to let this break me, I’m going to find solutions and do all the best I can with my “situation” and my life”.

softies home pajamas

I could have told you all this with a bit more dramatic, the real dramatic I have felt and experienced during the last 2 weeks, but it would take to much time,- and it’s probably not to much of interest for you either 😊. But that’s why I have been a bit “silent” on my blog and not quite ready to “Thanks August” or wish September welcome- because I felt more like a ” big crash” than something I wanted to say “Thank you for” or wish welcome to. I know I have a lots of things to be Thankful for during August, and I think I will have a lots of good things to welcome in September too. But at the moment I’m really not sure what it is. In that “place” I’m now I just see a lots of challenges and then not good challenges. But of course that can, and hopefully, will change 😊.

I don’t want to much drama in my life, or negative challenges. I just want my life to be nice, peaceful and quiet. Hopefully it will be like that too, soon 😊.

I’m sending you a lots of good thoughts and hope the life is good to you 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊

I felt and still feel a bit like this- a bit “broken” inside after “crashing” out of August and “crashing” into September.

The best is to try to focus on the good moments and memories, even when you “crashing” out one situation in your life and “crashing” straight into a new one 😳. Easy? No. Possible? Yes 😊. We are already closely a week into September, but I actually did “crashing” out of August and just continue “crashing” into September. So I needed a couple of days to sort things out a bit before I could both say Goodbye and Hello 😊.

#changes #challenges #lifeis #happeningsinlife #economicfraud #lifesituation #solutions #work #positivefocus