I will probably do it again and again… 😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

My three baby ducks are young adults children now and in general also live on their own,- but now and then they still need to live in my home for a period and more. And I’m starting to wonder if that’s a part of my new “era” and epoch in my life? To not live totally “on my own” for to long …. at least not yet 😊.

“My three baby” ducks on their way out in the world,- but now and then they turn back home to their mammi 🥰

I’m on my own again now, my home is “empty” and it’s just me in the house, and I need to admit it’s nice and quiet, just the way I like to have it now at days in my home, in my life. But this time I think I’m not going to “brag” to much over my new epoch and era in my life,- this “part” where I think I’m going to live alone in my home because my children has moved out …. again 😅. I have already done that one a couple of times,- and it wasn’t quite “correct”.

I also need to admit that I’m going to do this over and over and over again,- let my kids live in my home for a while, for a period when ever they need this kind of help from me. No matter how tired I’m or how “needy” I’m with this focus on my self, my life and my time. And my children know that- I’m here and I will be here as long as they need me – no matter how, why, when and what 🧡.

And I know I’m incredibly lucky that have this possibility to help my children in this way,- let them have a bed to sleep in, food on the table now and then when they need it, and need this kind of help from me 🧡.

And I know I’m incredibly lucky that have this three children that obviously feel in their own a kind of safty and comfort with coming back and back and back again to their mammi’s home when they need this kind of help ❤. And I’m incredibly grateful for exactly this,- that my children actually feel in a way safe and comfortable around me, and loved by me- if not I don’t think they have come back home again as they do now and then ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

My three “baby ducks” needs now and then to be back in the home with their mammi- and even I’m finish with all “this” my children will always be welcome to stay in my home whenever they need it ❤.

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I’m not ready for this …. again 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

During the two last years I have had some kind of “moving in and moving out” process mostly every second or third month in my home. Then it has been to reorganize the home as best as possible to get room and space for both the people and their things and stuffs, as well as my own.

This last moving situation was my own, and that’s around 3 months ago.

My plans changes every time in a situation like this, this “moving out and moving in”- situation, and its delays my plans too….. and unfortunately, I use time to “get back in business” again as well, to “find” my routines again. Or even find a new routine. I don’t know if this is “normal” for “all and everyone”,- but for me it takes a bit time to get back in my “normal” routines after a “moving in and moving out” situation.

In general it’s my children that’s move in and out, and now and then some friends of them too. So “here we go again” 😅.

I manage to live “on my own” for around 10 weeks this time before I got a “child” dropping by with bags and boxes, and a dog and a friend too.

And I got 2 weeks “notice” before they just come “rumbling” into my home with all their stuffs.

Some of ny oldest son’s bags stable in the livingroom at the moment

I need to admit a couple of things when it comes to this last “moving in” – situation,- I did actually cry a bit, for myself, alone in my bed, because I wasn’t and I’m not ready for this again- reorganize my home, live inbetween boxes and bags, “put my life” as well as plans “on hold” for a tiny while….again, and Im not ready to live together with anyone at the moment, to be honest, closely not even my children at the moment.

I know it sounds awful, and I feel awful too, because I feel it like this. But unfortunately it’s still the truth.

And I didn’t see it’s coming either, this “moving in”. I actually thought I was more and less finish with this “moving in and out” situation for a very long time. But obviously not.

It’s my oldest son, his dog and a friend of him that “moved” into my home for around 2 weeks ago.

I know that wasn’t their plan either, and it was really not my plan,- that’s for sure. But of course I’m helping my child, my children as best as I can with the possibility I can and have. But I told them they could just stay a couple of weeks this time, and use this weeks to find another “living” solutions.

And my oldest son knows I’m not to happy with this “solution” and situation, at the same time he knows I really, really love him, unconditional ❤. I just don’t want to live together with him any more 😅. And my son knows about this text, it’s not a secret for him that I actually wasn’t overwhelmed  by happiness for living  together with him again 😅- and he is also looking forward to not live together with me,- but it was and is necessary at the moment for him to do this 🧡.

My oldest son and his friend had actually a house they should move into, but suddenly the owner changed his mind. Not to let them rent, he chose to but put up the deposit from 2 months to 3 months 😳. And of course that’s not okay. And expensive too,- and the changes and possibilities for getting the 3 months deposit back when you are moving out is more and less, and unfortunately, a “lost case” here in Spain. And maybe even more now at days in this corona- situation and the economic situation the pandemi has “created”, then it was before.

The house or apartment you are moving out from can be in perfect order, but still the owner will find “something”, some kind if reason to not pay back the deposit. Of course there are rules and rights for this, to get back the deposit,- but it can be a long and struggling way to go.

I don’t say this is the way for all and everyone, but yes, in general when you are renting a place to live here in Spain you can just say “Goodbye” to the deposit you did pay. Like I mention,- there are rules and rights also for the one who is renting,- but the process can be long and difficult,- and yes,- we live in Spain 😉. To have rules and rights and to practice the rules and rights can be two very different things.

Anyway,- my oldest son, his lovely dog, Zorro and his friend are “camping” over in my home now at days, and I’m not to happy with the situation at all. At the same time as I struggling with feelings like being a bad and selfish mammi who want to live her own life now. I feel on guilt because I’m not very happy over this “moving in”, and it’s my child too. But for my children I try to do as best as I can to help them out, even when I’m not to happy for the situation.

I think the “worst” thing this time is that I live together with someone I don’t want to live together with anymore,- my son’s friend. I have lived together with him before, twice…..and it went okay,- and he is an okay guy,- but not “my kind of guy” or my kind of friend or my kind of living together partner.

Short summary,- he doesn’t do very much, but still except to be “served”. And have even a tiny challenge to say “Thank you” when he gets served.

Some people it’s just like they have a straw into your soul and just “drinking” out the energy. I don’t know if you have any experience with that kind of people?

I understand my oldest son and his friend’s friendship, and why they are friends, but still it’s not my kind of friend or friendship. And I actually think this is more “hard and heavy” for me to live together with this friend then to live just with my son and his dog. Maybe things has felt a bit more easier if it was just thise two that moved in? I think so.

Zorro,- my son’s dog is a very happy and easy dog- so he is actually not the biggest “challenge” now at days 😊. Probably I’m the biggest challenge to be honest 😅. A grumpy mammi 😅

They are all three moving out next week . I feel and felt bad for giving them a “time limit” to find another living solution then to stay in my home “forever”. But I have also plans and things I want to do,- kind of life where I m not just a mammi anymore……a life on my own, without any responsibility for someone else.

I need to admit I don’t have the energy for this at the moment, this living together with my children, and even more together with someone I really don’t want to live together with, and I don’t want it like this either. I need a bit of time on my own now, do my things, live my life, be just me, not the mammi- me. “Fille up” with some other kind of energies for awhile so I probably can “handle” a situation like this a bit better next time then I did and do this time.

A colleague of my told me that my children obviously and probably likes to live with me, and enjoys being around me a bit.  And that I am lucky to have children who come home, and home and home again. It’s not for all parents to actually have this kind of “opportunity” to spend this kind of time together with their children, or even be liked so much by their children. And I see and understand what she mean, and of course feel even more bad then, and a bit shameful too,- just because I actually it’s and wasn’t to happy with this “moving in” situation this time.

I’m actually incredibly lucky, I know that ❤. So there has been a lots of mixed feelings around my “living together situation” this time. Guilt, shame, feeling as a bad mammi, feeling selfish at the same time as I also want to help my child and my children ❤.

And this menopause doesn’t make the situation better or easier either to be honest. I really like and want to be alone when that one is “fucking up” with my brain. And I told my son that too. I know he doesn’t understand, but okay,- it is what it is.

I think maybe if you are a parent with grown up children, or young adults children, you know and understand why I feel the way I feel when it comes to this “moving in” again situation? Or is it just me?

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡.

See you soon 😊

A bit stuffs and things here and there,- and the friend need to camp on the sofa. I didn’t had or have any other solutions at the moment. I can’t reorganize “all an everything” either.

I need to admit that I wasn’t ready or to happy for this “moving in” situation a couple of weeks ago, and unfortunately I’m still not. At the same time I feel on guilt and shame and being a bad mammi. At the same time as I of course want to help my child, and i do feel grateful too. So you can say,- it is a bit of mixed feelings at the moment 😳😅.

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A year ago ❤🛫

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it’s a year since my middle son did moved to Norway 🧡. A year since I have hugged him and kissed him.

I’m not the only mammi that haven’t been able to kiss and hug my child, my young adult child, in a year. And that’s because of this corona- situation.

I really miss him. Miss to have him around me, not live together, but just be able to see him now and then, like I did when he was living in Spain. To hug him, kiss him.

I’m very grateful for the possibility to text him, talk with him and see him on “facetime” like WhatsUp and Messenger. And I know all is fine with him up there in Norway ❤.

He have a job, he is soon finish with the driving license, he is training football and exercises, he is spending time together with family and friends, and has even found an apartment he wants to buy 😊.

His plan was to visit me, us, here in Spain during this summer, but it became a bit difficult because of different restrictions during travelling to Spain from Norway. Special Spain. Because Spain has, and in a way still is, a very “red” country for Norway when it’s comes to the corona- situation.

Hopefully he will be able to visit me in Spain during this Autumn, but I don’t know yet, we don’t know yet.

A year goes fast and still so slow, and we do manage to “put in” all kind of different experiences during a year. In one way this year has went fast, in another when it comes to my middle son, I feel it’s like forever since I hugged him ❤.

I’m very grateful all is fine with him, he is healthy and he is enjoying his life, he is a young adult and it’s natural that he lives his own life, but sometimes it’s a bit to fare away. I’m a bit to fare away from him, he is a bit to fare away from me ❤. But this is life, special during this corona- situation.

I miss my middle son, I think of him every day, I text him, and I’m so lucky that I’m able to “see” him and at least give him some “air” – kisses and “air” hugs during Messenger or What’s Up ❤. It’s not for all mammi’s to be able to do that.

And I’m incredibly grateful he is doing well up there in Norway ❤. He is happy in his life, he is enjoying his life ❤. And I’m incredibly proud of him and proud he is my son and proud to be his mammi ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

This photo was taken one year ago at the airport in Malaga/ Spain- my middle son and me ❤ A photo that tells more then any words can say ❤

One year ago my middle son did moved to Norway, and I haven’t been able to see him, hug him or kiss him during this year ❤. I really miss him, but at the same time I’m very grateful he is doing well and is happy in his life❤. And I’m very grateful for things like What’s Up and Messenger too ❤.

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My first holiday guests in my holiday home 😊🏡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Since I moved to Spain I have had holiday guests (family and friends) from Norway every Spring, Summer and Autumn for closely 6 years, except from this two last years. Reason, – the corona- situation. But last weekend I actually got a couple of holiday guests ….”from” Norway, or more correctly, some Norwegian holiday guests 😊. My first holiday guests in my holiday home 🌞.

It was actually “just” my daughter and her boyfriend, Nathaniel Caprino, but still it was a kind of holiday guests, and my daughter really needed a “environment” change and a tiny holiday after being sick for some weeks- and of course she ( and me as well) needed a bit “mammi love and care- time” after the illness, because it was not possible for me to give her that when she was sick 🧡.

My daughter, Mathilde and her boyfriend Nathaniel Caprino on holiday in mammi’s home ❤ So sweet they are 🥰

The plan, my plan, was to have, or “house” them, from Friday to Sunday, but they wanted to come already on the Thursday 😅. Obviously they really wanted to have a holiday close to the beach, and maybe one extra day with me too? 😊

It was of course great to see them both again 🥰. But my daughter is still a bit out off energy after the Covid19 sickness. Hopefully she will recover little by little and get all her energy back again 😊.

In general their holiday weekend went very well, so well that my daughter actually wanted to come back on holiday this weekend too 😅. They are very welcome 🧡, but not every weekend, and not this weekend. I need to be a bit selfish and just take care of myself now and then too now when it’s actually starting to be a bit more “me time” 😊. But of course they are very welcome another weekend when it suits both me and them 😊.

Nyhet - vårsko til dame er i butikk

I did write “in general”,- because it dropped up a couple of unexpected challenges 😅. Well,- challenges have in general a ( bad) habit to drop up a bit unexpected, and of course also in times when it doesn’t “suits” very well to handle different challenges, but they still need to be handled in some or another way 😳.

My plan was to go to the grocery store and shop some food for the weekend after I was finish at work on Friday. But for some reasons my bank card and my bank account wouldn’t be in function 😳. So that one I could forget 😔. Lucky for me, I in general always have some kind of food in my fridge and freezer 😊.

We did barbecue two of the evenings, and I made taco/ nachos mix too, and even a Norwegian dinner called “lapskaus”. It’s a kind of stew, but still a bit different. I also made pancakes and chocolate cake as well, and drinks,- well,- when I did borrowed Irene’ s car I actually bought in a bit big quantum of water, coca cola, water with gas, juice and so on. So no empty stomachs even there was no grocery store shopping for the weekend 😊.

I was in my bank on Monday and Tuesday, and some had actually tried to hack into my bank account 😳, so they had closed everything down. All is fixed now, and I can go to the store again 😊.

But the “biggest” challenge this weekend was probably the toilet 😳🚽. I have been a plumber several times during this weekend because the toilet clogs 😳🚽. It’s clogs even when we didn’t throw any toilet paper into the toilet, but even a bit “poo poo” was enough to clogs it. This was not to fun, and unfortunately I let a bit if my frustration going out over them 😔. But I told them sorry after, because I knew it wasn’t their mistake, but you know how it is sometimes? It’s the closest ones that gets your frustration.

That one need to be fixed, this toilet issue, but we did manage it anyway during the weekend 😅. I’m obviously a pretty good plumber so I plumped the toilet several times, but I’m still not a so good plumber that I can fix it for a permanent time, just temporarily 😊.

Maybe it’s the cockroach I threw in the toilet over the week ago?  It is so grumpy that it now blocks almost all “toilet traffic”? 😳

And yes,- my daughter and her boyfriend are the first one who are trying out my guests room and the guest bed 🛏. And both was very agree that it was the best guest bed they have been sleeping in, even better then the one they have in their own home 😴 😊. That’s good to know, then I at least know my guests will sleep very well here 😊😴.

I know my daughter and her boyfriend had a great holiday weekend, and both are very welcome to take a new holiday weekend or two an other time 🧡. But just not this weekend,- I need a bit time to just be me too, now and then too 😊.

But all in all, – it was a great weekend together with this two young adults children 🥰. And they have really enjoyed the beach, the sand, the sun, the ocean every day during the weekend 🏖. And I have enjoyed their company 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The guests room in my home,- nice and cozy and ready for my first holiday guests 🥰.

My first holiday guests has been visiting me, they didn’t travel very long, but still it was a bit like a holiday for them 🥰🏖. Some few challenges “showed up” during their holiday weekend,- but not worse then it in one way or an other could be handle 😊. And I know now that the guest room is very functional for sleep over guests 🛏😴.

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It has been a bit difficult to be a bit “mammi” for my daughter lately 😳 💊🧪

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I haven’t seen my daughter for a while, – and it’s a reason for that 😳. Last time she and her boyfriend, Caprino, visit me was 8. July, and she was not quite “tipp- topp” that day, but I thought she maybe just was a bit tired 😴. And of course I did hug her that day, a lot too 😳….but after some days I was not so sure how smart that hugging was? 🤔

Just a few days after they had visited me she became sick, and texted me about the symptoms and how to contact the doctor and so on. This is just not typical her. In general she actually try to do her best to go or do her work even when she doesn’t feel very well, and she try to avoid the doctors as best as she can too. So she must felt very bad 😔.

I actually asked her if she wanted to come to me and stay in my home for some days and get some “mammi-love and care” when she was sick. I wanted to take a bit care of her, cut up apples into small pieces for her the way she likes so much to get when she is sick 🍏🍎. But she didn’t had the energy to come, and lucky for me actually, – and she also have a love and caring boyfriend, so he have taken care of her as best as he can during the last two weeks 🥰. And the best thing, at the same time strange thing,- her boyfriend hasn’t been as sick as my daughter so he could actually take good care of her too 🧡.

But I’m just a mammi, and I was suddenly in a “situation” where I actually wasn’t quite sure what to do. Should I visit her or not? Special because I wasn’t either sure why she was sick…..and what kind of sickness it was? Maybe she had got something “grumpy stuff” that I could get too if I was to close to her? 🤔

Should I visit my daughter or not? I was not sure what to do or how to handle the “situation” 😔.

In general my daughter answer my textes when I’m sending her a text on Messenger, What’s up or on Snapchat. But during this two last weeks she has been incredibly slow with the answering, and then the mammi heart gets a bit worried, special because I knew she didn’t felt very well 😳. At the same time,- she is a young adult woman, she lives on her own, well not totally, – she lives together with her boyfriend and their two cats 🐱, and have no reason to “update” the mammi “all the time”, not even answer me if it’s not a concrete question I’m sending to her. But we have the contact we have,’ so I’m actually used to answers from her, even on texts without any specific questions.

I did call her on the phone too, but she didn’t answer, just texted me “What?” back instead 😳. Oh my,- I knew something was wrong or she was really sick 😳. But what to do? Send her “all my love and heart and thinkg of you” at least 🧡.

She had been to the doctor several times, and today her doctor called me up on my phone 😳. I got the heart up in my throat 😳. But he just wanted to tell me it was incredible important that my daughter went to the hospital today as soon as possible, so then she did….and phu,- she was with me on the phone too 🙂.

She send my an video Snapchat where she also texted me “It’s never a good sign when you are put in the waiting room totally alone” 😳. And of course it’s not a good sign,- but at least she got the answer from the different testes she have been through,- and of course a version of the coronavirus just needed to drop by into my family too 😔.

A part of over “conversation” today, – but in Norwegian.

Actually I knew it could be something like this,- and that’s why I was so unsure what to do? Visit her or not? Taking care of her or not? And get the virus myself too 🤔? Nope, I didn’t want that either.

The result from my daughter’s test at the hospital today.

So it has been a bit difficult to be a bit mammi for my daughter thise two last weeks,- or that’s not totally true,- I’m always her mammi and it’s not difficult either 😅 , but this time I had no possibility to take care of her in any other way then text her and call her when she was sick and also needed a bit of the “mammi care and love” just because she was sick 🌹.

But that’s the way it is now at days when some or another version of the coronavirus are “tumbling around the corners” 😳.

To avoid more infection of the virus and spread it’s just to keep distance as best as we can, even when our young adults children are sick and you actually just want to visit them, hug them a bit and take care of them ❤. But the best was not to do that this time, in this situation, even I didn’t like it very much, and try my best to avoid any infection or spreading the virus in some or another way.

I really hope you do your best to avoid infection and spread the virus in some or another way. I know it’s not easy now at days, but to do our best is still better then nothing. Remember to keep distance, remember the mask ( I don’t like the mask- but Im still following the restrictions), and remember to wash your hands. And also try as best as you can to have as few “close contacts” as possible,- it’s actually helps a big that too. But yes I need to admit I do hug my contacts- my children, my friends,- even I know I can get and I can give the coronavirus by a hug.

Take as good care as you can, – that’s actually “all” we can do during this corona- situation. It is what it is, and we need to try to do our best in the situation we all are in 🧡. The best is always better then nothing 🌹.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon😊

My daughter, Mathilde and her boyfriend, Caprino, the last time they visited me before she got sick 🧡

I’m just a mammi, and I was suddenly  in a “situation” where I actually wasn’t quite sure what to do 🤔 ? Visit my daughter or not? Taking care of her or not 🤔? Lucky for me she have someone special in her life that takes care of her 🧡. Special because I actually just don’t want this “grumpy stuff” that’s are “around the corners ” now at days 😳.

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