Goodbye May 🌹and Hello to you June 🌞

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Then also May is history,- and I’m pleased and grateful for the different things I did experiences in May ❤.

I was on a short trip to Malaga for picking up Mathilde’s tiny little pocket. And I have both been in the theater and using the bus here in Spain for the first time 🎭.

I have delivered a basket with painted glassbottles, and also finished a bigger painting order. At least bigger order for me 🎨.

I have even “built” a tiny bamboo roof over my terrace,- and so fare so good,’ it haven’t blown away 😊🌞.

And I also have been into a tiny “trip” during this perimenopause,- and even it’s says it is a “new Spring in life”,- I need to admit I’m struggling a bit. Not because of wrinkles or my hair, not even that my body, or the fact that my clothes are changing,- but this f..@,, jumping jackflash hormones 😳. To be honest,- this mood- thing during the perimenopause it’s not so easy to handle- phu!! So one thing is for sure,- after my friend have travel back to Norway I’m going on regular basis on “the treadmill”- read regular workout and exercises 🤸‍♀️. And that’s going to be a very valuable time for me,- because I know it will help me. Help at least the thoughts, feelings, mood and mind to calm down a bit 💚.

I feel I have a lots of different kinds of things to be grateful for during May,- even this “new Spring in life”,( even that Im not so sure if I like to much) – because it’s actually in its own way “forcing” me to start up with regular workout and exercises again 💚🤸‍♀️😊.

I’m also incredibly grateful for what’s happen in my children’s life during May 💙💙❤. Marius started in a new job, and he really like his new job 😊. Ruben have got his first own car, and also managed to buy his first own apartment 🏡. And I’m so proud of him 🥰. And Mathilde enjoying her new life in Bali with many new experiences and knowledge in her life, as well as about her self ❤.

I’m not sure what June will bring me of happiness and joy, and maybe sone new experiences and knowledge too ❤- but I’m looking forward to meet June and the things I at least know a tiny bit about 💚. Like for example my friend from Norway and her visit, my jobs, my paintings and the workout and exercising- plan 🤸‍♀️. And also a barbecue evening together with Marius and Irene at my roof terrace 😊🧡. The rest? I’m hoping and wishing for it will be a nice and smooth month without to many negative thoughts, feelings, moods, experiences, changes and challenges 💚🤞🙏. I need to get a better balance inside me, a better peaceful mind and soul 🙏💚. (I know it’s perimenopause that’s challenging me a lot- but hopefully it will be better with some regular workout and exercises 🤸‍♀️🙏🤞).

So Thank you so much May,- it was a experience and two and a joy to “meet” you ❤. I wish June very welcome 💚.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊 ( ps- I’m probably coming back to write in my blog in a week or so, because I’m going to use my time on my work and together with my friend the nexts days 😊)

Even my tiny little backyard art cafe is ready for the summer- (also a tiny summesale of canvas and glassbottles if someone should be interested 😊🎨)

I have different things and even some new experiences to be grateful for during May ❤. I’m not sure what June will bring,- but I do know I’m really looking forward to get a cozy visit from a very good friend from Norway 💚.

#may #june #newflowringinlife #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #newexperience #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #perimenopause #gettingolder

April is over 🐣and May has already started🌹

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

April is already a finish “capital” and May has already started. And like I feel the other months so fare this year went a bit fast, April did too.

In April we, or more correctly, Mathilde had the first roof terrace party in my, or again more correctly at that time, our home. A party thst went very well 🎉😊. But still I’m not going to have a party like that on the terrace.

It was Easter as well in April, and Mathilde did “leave the building” straight after and started on her new adventures in Bali 🏖. And so fare so very well, she is enjoying her new life in a new and very different place from Spain, and Norway too. She is very good to put out different posts both on Instagram as well as Snap chat. And it’s nice, funny and exciting to follow her and in a way be a part of her daily life. A tiny part, but still a part 😊.

I got some painting orders too in April, something I think are both exciting, a funny creative challenge as well as it gives me a bit ” performance anxiety”. Something that’s also good because I get more aware of how I paint and not least the customer’s wishes, as well as do my best to create the performance and illustrations that the customer wants to have painted 🎨. It’s a very new challenge for me, but a challenge I really like, a creative demanding challenge.  Demanding in a positive way 😊.

And my oldest son became 28 years old too during April, and he also got a new job, a job he wanted 💛🙏. I’m incredibly grateful and happy for that 🙏💛.

I have used my time after Mathilde moved to organize the home in a way I like it and want to have it. I have also baked some cakes to have in my fridge for guests that’s dropping by 😊.

I’m in general not bored 😅. A creative soul have in general always something to do 😅.

Last Saturday, that means two days ago, I got a text from one of my colleagues. He needed a place to stay for 3 nights, until we get our salary into our bank accounts. I said yes to that question, but I was also very clear- it’s just then for three nights, because I knew the question would come- to stay here longer when he was “well installed” in the guests room. But that’s not a option for me now, not at all.

I can’t and I don’t want to live together with anyone now. Not even for money. I choose rather to work more hours every day then live together with someone. I really need this time on my own now. To get to know “me”. Some will both think and say I’m selfish,- I actually don’t care very much about that. It’s not correct for me to live together with anyone at the moment. I’m not there in my life now. I need to find my place in my life, and I can just do that when I’m just with my self.

So why did he, this colleague, need a place to stay for just some nights? Because our salary get paid out the 1.every month. And yesterday was both a Sunday and 1. May. So the salary button will not be pressed before today. And then some will have their salary into their bank account today, others tomorrow. I will probably have my salary into my bank account tomorrow.

He is inbetween apartments, but couldn’t move into the other apartment before he have paid for the deposit, and he needed to be out of the other apartment because someone else was going to move in there yesterday, the 1.of the month.

Who is this colleague of mine?  He is a nice young man, about the same age as my eldest son. He is originally from Somalia.  moved to Norway with his siblings and mother when he was 11 years old.  And moved to Spain this Autumn to try some new adventures in life.

And why did I say yes to have a more and less foreign person in my home? My first thought was that as a mother I would have greatly appreciated if someone had helped my child in such a situation.  My second thought was that I myself have received so much help from other people when I have been in a difficult situation. So of course,- if I can help for some few days I do that.

Of course the question did came to rent the guests room, but my answer was and still is no. It’s not going to change. It’s not a option for me now,- then I prefer to work more hours every day. I need this time to just be me, find out who am I when I’m not in the mammi- role, and to be honest,- I need to handle this new period in my life too that’s “knocking on my door” called menopause, without to many people around me.

To setting boundaries and saying no was and is a good and liberated experience for me, and something I will do more in the future, and a word that I will become better at using. It made me actually happy to learn to be able to use “no” without feeling guilty 😊.

I’m very grateful for what April have “teaceh” me,- like it’s possible to have a kind of big party in my home, but that’s nothing for me. My daughter handle her new life in Bali so fare very well,- something I’m incredibly grateful for 💛. My oldest son got a new job he wanted, and Im so happy for that 🙏💛 . I have got some creative challenges, something that’s a new and exciting experience for me, and I know very well that I can’t live together with anyone at the moment, but I can help out for a tiny little while 😊. To be more clear about this last one,- I did say no because that’s correct for me, but it’s very new for me to say no to someone else because it’s actually correct for me to say no. In general I say yes,- even when I don’t want to say yes. I’m actually learning to say no to things I don’t want or can do. Things that is not correct and don’t feel correct for me to do. I’m not use to that- but it feels not to bad at all to actually say no, and do something that’s just for me and myself, and feels good and correct for just me. (Obviously I’m growing up too, and learning to use the word no 😅).

It is my kind of freedom to be able to live alone now. And I have family and friends I want use time together with in my home the way I want to use the time. That’s the way it is for me at the moment 😊.

May is very welcome,- even I don’t know very much what this new month will bring me 😊. I know I have a week holiday next week, and I’m going to use that week, that days to do what suits me best- no one else then me 🥰, just me, except from a couple of days when I’m going to look after Zorro,- my eldest son’s dog, but that will be a nice 😊. To have Zorro will be a nice relaxation in the days, and Zorro does not require much other than food and water in his bowls and some airing 🐕.

I’m going to continue painting in May, and do my work as well when I’m “back” from my holiday. And I’m actually going to deliver a basket with oilpainted glassbottles to Natasja and the Cafe Casa Barella in Mijas- glassbottles for sale with solar lights inside, a little more environmentally friendly light in other words than what I use now 💡🌞. And I know I’m going to spend some very nice and cozy time together with family as well as friends 💛. So yes,- I’m looking forward to meet, explore and experience May 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

May is already started with sunrise and nice and warm days- the summer is here 🌞

I’m grateful for the different experiences April gave me 💛. They was nice and gentle 😊,- and I learned to use the word “no” more for myself and more consciously than ever before.  A very liberated experience for me 💛.  May has already started, and I know I looking forward with pleasure to meet what May has to offer 💛🌹 .

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Thank you May 🌹Welcome unknown June 🏖

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

May is already soon over, and this month went even faster then the other ones this year 😳 😊.

My “life” in May has mainly contained four things : sleep, eat, work, pack down our life in this home I’m living in at the moment, and have been living in during closely 7 year.

And yes I’m very tired, but that’s the way it is. Soon it will be a bit more time to “fill” up with a bit more “exciting” and different things in my life like painting ( I have actually been painting in May too, some kind of “timeout” has been necessary 🎨), spend time with my friends and family, be in the sun and at the beach, read a book, write in my blog, watch some TV, do some work out, and hopefully a bit more too 😊.

Oh, I need to admit I miss this “things”, this part of my life, things that in a way are my life a bit more then my job and jobs are.

May started a bit “stressful” for me with trying to find a new home, and without knowing if I had a job to go to after 31. July too 😳.

But so fare, so lucky 🥰. I got a new home for at least the next 6 months, and I’m moving in 17. June 🏡. This- Thanks to my incredible good friend Natasja and her husband 🧡. And I also got the news that I will start in a other department 1. August,- so I still will have a job to go too 💻.

So ,- May,- I can be Thankful for fantastic friendship, the possibility for living in a new home and for my “new” job, and my online jobs too that “helps” me do some extra work to earn some extra money 🧡🌹.

But I need to admit it’s a bit hard to work between 9 to 11 hours 5 days a week, and between 6 to 8 hours in the weekends 😴. It’s not a complain, I’m incredibly grateful for having this opportunity, but the fact is, it is still hard 😊.

I’m earning between 6 to 8 euro pr hour in both the costumer service agent job and my online work. So to manage the different expenses I will have in June during this moving process it’s actually necessary for me to work as much as I do at the moment. But okay,- everything goes for a period, doesn’t it? 😊 And I actually have jobs. That’s not for all and everyone to have now at days 🥀.

I’m really looking forward to “meet” June now. I don’t know “all and everything” that will “shows up” during June. But I do know I’m going to pick up the key to the new home, and Im going to see Natasja too 🥰. And I’m going to move- something I’m really looking forward to do now😊. I’m very ready for saying Goodbye to this home now,- and the owner of this home “helped” me to even make it easier to say Goodbye and be ready for this moving- process 😊. They became actually mad because I can’t effort their new rent. So it feels a bit uncomfortable to live and stay here at the moment.

And I know I have a holiday week in June too, to just enjoy. The week after I have moved I have one week off from work 🥰. Just the thought of that feels a bit amazing 😊.

So I don’t have very much to tell you or write about at the moment. It’s not to much exciting things that has happen during the last 2- 3 weeks,- except from sleeping, eating, working, packing down a life. Or actually I have a bit to write about, but I need to “save it all” to days I have a bit more time to just enjoying writing in my blog instead 😊.

Today I just want to say Thank you so much May ( and Natasja 🌹) , for the incredible solutions that “showed up” in a time when I didn’t see so many solutions at all 🥰. I feel incredibly Grateful, lucky and happy for that 🥰.

And Welcome so much to you June, – I’m looking forward to “meet” you even I don’t know very much about you yet 🏖☀️.

And to you my dear readers, – I’m going to “drop by” my blog as much as I can, have the possibility and have the energy too during the nexts weeks. The time, my time will be a bit better and different in a couple of weeks when I’m “placed” close to the beach in a new home, and then you will “hear/ read” a bit more from me, that’s for sure 🏖😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😘

A bit tired Laila S- doing as best as I can at the moment 😊

I just want to say Thank you so much May for the solutions that showed up this month when I didn’t see so many solutions on my own 🌹. And Welcome June,- I don’t know very much about you, but I do know Im looking forward to meet you🌹, and I’m looking forward to move too 🏡

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Thank you, April 🌹Welcome May 🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

April is soon over and it’s time for me to say Thank you, April for the time “together” and Goodbye 🥀.

It’s not very much that’s happen, at the same it’s a bit “here and there” 😊. The days as an customer service agent on the phone are very busy, and have been busy all month 🎧. The phone is more and less calling “non stop”. So I’m very happy I used the Easter days to relax and sleep as much as I did 😊.

I have baked to my children and knit and painted too 🍪 🎨🧶.

My cold showers become warm again and that was very nice 🚿, and I did dropped by the hairdresser too for a short visit to “refresh” my hair a bit ✂️.

I have been dropping by menopause and the midlife, and that’s not over that’s for sure. So I’m probably going to “drop by” that subject now and then a bit more.

I did change the name at my blog, and at the moment I’m also trying out a “email- concept” to my blog and see how that goes and will working out😊.

My oldest son was born in April, and I could “celebrate” 27 year as a mammi 🧡.

I have also had a short “dropping in” to the dating “subject”. I thought I had more “distance” to my experiences from the past then I obviously have. So dating, and relationship are still put “on hold” for a while. I need to resett my self a bit more when it comes to that. That’s the way it is. And well,- I don’t think the online chatting is “helping” either,- but what to do? I need to earn some money.

April has been in it’s own way nice and gentle 💛, and busy too, but now in the end a couple of not to “good news” showed up, “just in case”. But I will probably manage to handle them too, as well as find solutions that’s best for me. I just need to keep calm, use my the wise and do my best, look for and try to find solutions 😊.

The first “not to good news” is that there has been some unexpected withdrawals to my bank account. Not very much, 9 euro here and 10 euro there. Lucky for me the bank found out what is was and did transfer the money back to my bank account. It was actually some unknown phonenumber I have answer, no one in the other end, but to pick up the phone cost me 9 and 10 euro. So I’m not picking up my phone anymore when a number I don’t know is calling me ☎️. I can’t support scammers, that’s for sure.

But scammers did “dropped up” in my computer too 😳. The internet company I’m using called me and asked me about some streaming I did once a week around midnight 😳. I’m not streaming, and had now idea what they talked about. But that one costed me 20 euro pr week, and they couldn’t pay that money back 😔. But they could at least stop the streaming. Obviously someone has hacked into my internet in some or another way. 20 euro pr week doesn’t sound to much for some, but for me it is a bit of money. Special when it has last for 8 weeks too, and I didn’t know. But hopefully this is over as well.

And them the house- owner asked me if I wanted to continue renting the house, and also told my that they needed to change the rent, but in a good way for both them and me. I actually said yes to rent for a bit longer time, because I need to save up some money to deposit, one month houeserent, fee to an rent agent company and a movingcar for moving to a new place…. before I can move 😐. And I actually believed the house owner when they told me “in a good way for both them and me”. We are, after all, living in a pandemic time, with all the various changes and challenges it entails for most people. So I need to admit I haven’t see a rent rise for 150 euro per month coming 😳. Phu,- that one was really like a cold shower 🚿.

But okay,- I will manage to find a solution for this too,- you know when one door is closing a new one is opening up 🔑. Unfortunately I can’t effort moving at the moment either, because it cost both one month deposit, one month rent and in general also one month to the renting agency too. So it’s just to “fold up my arms” , work and work and save as much as I can during the next months.

And yes,- me and my colleague got an other cold shower too, yesterday. It’s not sure the company we are working for will manage to find an other job for us from August. So we both have felt on a tiny little stone in our stomachs today. So at the moment I know I have the customer service agent job on the phone for 3 more months, after that? I have no idea what will happen.

But I have at least my freelance work, so my focus for the next months is actually work and work and work a bit more to manage this “different unexpected not to good news”, and save, save, save as much as I can. And get as many and much online work projects as possible.

But I will still Thanks April for the nice and gentle moments and time this month has given me 🧡. Hopefully I can say Thank you for the unexpected “not to good news” too one day, but not today. Today I need to sort out a bit thoughts and feelings, things and also change my plans a bit too. But it will be more hours for work and not to many hours for other things for a while, that’s for sure 😊. But,- That’s life, isn’t it? It is what it is, and I just need to try to do my best of it, as well as the “not to good news” too. Maybe there are some nice surprises behind them? 🥀 I really hope so 🙏.

And Welcome May, the month that slowly brings the summer into our days 🌞. I don’t know very much about what I can expect, but I know it will be sunny days, and days with a bit more work then I had in my mind, and hopefully I will find some kind of “solutions” to both of the “not to good news” I got now in the end of April 🥀. And I know my daughter is coming some days to visit me and be on “holiday” in my home for some days, as well as I know my oldest son will drop by too ❤. So there’s something really good to look forward to in May as well 🥰.

Thank you April for nice and gentle days 🥀, and Welcome May 💛- I really hope you are coming with a lots of sunshine, warm and relaxing days in more then just the physical way,- but also mentally as well as with some “sunny” solutions too 🌞.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Thank you, April, and welcome May- with your warmer days 🌞

Thank you April for nice and gentle days 🥀, and Welcome May 💛- I really hope you are coming with a lots of sunshine, warm and relaxing days in more then just the physical way,- but also mentally as well as with some “sunny” solutions too 🌞.

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