A new flowering in life 🌹🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

This will probably be my last post for a tiny while that’s contains the subject “menopause” in one or another way 😊. At the same time as there of course will drop up post related to “getting older”,- because that’s actually a part of my life- to get and hopefully be older 😊.

I don’t have to much more to write about at the moment when it comes to the different physical changes and challenges during the menopause.

One thing is that I’m just on the start line into menopause myself, another thing the menopause doesn’t affect me more then I have already been written and told you about. It’s a tiny bit challenging when I feel I’m going to “fall apart” at my walks and actually need to sit down before I can continue my walk. At the same time it’s not happen all the time, it has just happen a few times 😊. And of course it’s a bit uncomfortable to wake up after a “water fall” during the nights. But except from that I can’t complain, or have to much more “exacting” to write about or around when it comes to the physical changes around menopause 😊.

It’s not sure the menopause will be a big challenge with to many changes for me either. I don’t know that yet. But if I remember correctly my puberty was not to bad for me, it felt very “normal”. But I think my parents thought it was a bit difficult now and then 😅. I’m their first child too, and their first teenagers,- so they probably didn’t know what to expect either 😊.

My pregnancies hasn’t been to hard either. So the hormones changing I have been through in my life so fare haven’t been the most difficult and challenging time in my life. But of course there was some challenges as well as changes. But not any big ones. Nothing to “brag” about 😊.

The menopause is also different from woman to woman. Like a pregnancy or giving birth can be.

Some of my friends that’s also going through this “period” ( menopause) in life have some thoughts around “life and dead”, as well as “this is the road to the end,- station” in life. Thoughts about a scary old age, the end in life and about dying 😐.

I haven’t actually thought very much about things like that. Maybe I will get thoughts about “life and dead” and “the end station” in life? I don’t know. At the moment I’m just choose to believe and think that I’m actually starting on a new flowering in my life 🌹🥀. That sounds so much nicer and happier, so much greater and so much more fun to look forward to 😊.

I have also been thinking about how much different experiences, knowledge and adventures in life I have manage to get and different experiences during my 48 year in my life. So why shouldn’t I have the possibility to “squeeze” in a bit more too during the next 20- 30, maybe even 40 years? Okay, – maybe in a bit slower motion and tempo then before, because I’m actually getting older and a bit slower 😅.

But I don’t understand why it should be impossible? 🤔 (in my mind it’s not 😊)

I actually don’t want to stop living now,- I want to do some more out of my life, get some more knowledge in different areas in life as well as get more experiencs too, and hopefully get a bit wiser as well? 😊

I’m meet my new era in my life with the idea that this is a new flowering in my life,- and I really like to look at the “getting older” process like that 🥀🌹.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I meet my new era in my life with the imagination that it is a new period of flowering in my life 🌹🥀

I know some people in my age think that now the “flower withers” 😌. I choose to believe and look at this “getting older” process with an imagination that I’m meeting a new flowering in my life instead 🌹🥀.

#menopause #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #process #midage #gettingolder #Norwegian #positivefocus #lifeisgood #livinginspain #lifeis #newexperiences #newflowringinlife 🌹

Where does the road go in my life now? 🛤💚

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Like I mention in my last post,- I’m standing on the start line into a new era in my life. At the moment I’m standing and I choose to stand for a tiny little while too, because I just need to do this for myself. I need to feel on my feelings before I start “moving” in one or another direction in my life.

In one way I have some of the same thoughts I had when I was a teenager and was standing on the start line to be a young adult. What to do? Where to go? What can I expect? How do I do this? What do I want? Where do I want “go”? How to “get there”? What will happen there in the future? And so on. Maybe you recognize some of my thoughts from when you was a teenager and on the start line into the young adult life too? 🤔

To be honest,- I think I’m thinking a bit more about this different questions now then I actually did when I was a teenager and on my way to the young adult life. When I was a on my way to be a young adult I lived a bit more in the moment then I’m doing now. And I was also a bit more “what happens happens, it will probably be fun anyway” 😊.

I still think I have a very exciting time in front of me, and I still think I will meet on a lots of joy, fun and happiness,- but I’m probably a bit more conscious of my thoughts, my feelings, and hopefully my choices further too, – than for for example around 30 years ago 😊.

Will I continue be living in Spain? Work as an customer service agent, private teacher and freelance writer? 🎧📝 I have two of my three children here in Spain. At least at the moment,- but I don’t know what they’re plans will be in the future.

Or am I going to move back to Norway? Try to find a job as a teacher or maybe work in the home- nursery or at nursery home? 📚💉 I have one child in Norway, and I really do miss him, at the same time he is living his own life, and I’m not going to be the same part in his life as I was just some few years ago.

Or maybe I’m going to get the opportunity to move to California and squeeze some grapes into wine? 🍇🍷 Or maybe Ireland and visit the leprechaun 🧚‍♂️?

At the moment I don’t know what or where,- and at the moment I actually can’t take any choices either. At the moment I’m in a bit “emotional place” in my life and then it’s not the correct time to make to many and to big choices, elections and decisions in my life and for my future.

What I do know is that I’m going to live in the home I’m living in for a time now. I’m not ready to move anywhere at the moment,- and one of the reasons for that is because it has already been a bit moving in and out from this home during the last 18 months, – even it’s not me that has moved in and out 😊. I just need to have a tiny while of not to much moving “here and there”, just in way to “calm down” 😊.

But I’m actually not sure if I want to continue living in Spain or work as a costumer service agent “for ever”. Or as a private teacher either. But I’m not very tempted to move back to Norway either and work as a teacher or in the home- nursery up there in the North.

At the moment I feel I’m finish with being a teacher and to work in the home nursery, and also as a costumer service agent. But don’t we all have that now and then where you are a bit tired of your job?

And of course,- I’m also a bit “touched” with some emotional feelings because I’m standing on a finish line for one era in my life, as well as a starting line into a new era in my life 😊. So I’m probably not in “the best place” in my life to make any big decisions at the moment either 😊.

I know when we are turning the page on the calendar to August I’m finish working for the department I’m working in. It’s closing down in Norway. But I also know that the company I’m working for have an obligation to try to find an other job to me in the company as long as I have been an employer for more than 6 months,- something I have. But at the same time,- we are living in a corona- situation,- so it’s difficult to tell to much about the future too. I’m can assume what’s in front me until August, but after August I actually have no idea at the moment.

At the moment I have just decided to not do to much of anything, not make to many work- or moving plans or decisions, – just do my work where I’m working, be a private teacher and do my online freelance work, and live in the home I’m living in. Then I see what’s coming up, or what’s happen. I don’t know,- I don’t know if “the road” in the future will be in Spain or Norway or California or maybe another place.

What I do know is that I actually like to work with creative things, and people too,- and I like to see progression in my work too. But my weakness, or strength, is to create, be creative and see a result of my job.  A product.  My dream is really to be able to feed myself on something I make, write, create, paint – or even “squeeze” some grapes into wine? But is something of this actually possible, special because we are living in a corona- situation?

When that’s said,- of course I have seen a lots of great positive progressions in both my work as a teacher as well as in the home nursery 😊. But it’s a different kind of progression.

I want and I like to create, own a product, is a (physical) result of what I do, what I work with.  (ex- paint, knit, write, maybe make wine). But it possible to work and live from something like that? I don’t know.

I do not know what my future will bring me, – but something that contains both joy, happiness and probably a bit new knowledge as well as wisdom, and some changes too.

At the moment I take one tiny step at the time, one from an era that’s over and one into an era that’s started 💚. I need to find my balance in my life before I take to many decisions about my future 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I’m just going to take one step at the time – one from an era in my life that’s over, and one into the new era in my life 😊.

I don’t know what to future will bring me,- and I don’t know what kind of changes, choices or directions I’m going to do or take 😊. At the moment I just take one step from an era in my life that’s over, and one step at the time into a new era in my life 💚

#changes #directions #choices #lifeis #livinginspain #Norwegian #era #gettingolder #menopause #midlife #erainlife #me #future #questions #thelife #thougths #reflections #positivefocus 💚

Mid age and midlife crisis 🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The midlife crisis is no joke.  It can be a pretty tough mental process for many, especially men.  Unfortunately, it turns out that there is a fairly high suicide rate among men who are going through the midlife crisis.  And the average age, worldwide, is 47, 2 years. 

Unfortunately it’s in general men, all over the world, that’s struggling most during this “status in the life period” in life. But of course women too, but maybe in a different way? And it is not “all and everyone” that goes through a mental crisis in the mid age either.

Often is the reason why some feel the mid age are so hard are feelings like unsuccessful, hopelessness over different dreams that hasn’t come through, wishes that’s feels not fulfilled and they are in the middle of the life,- and get a feeling that the life is over. But the middle of the life is not the end. It is the middle of the life. At the same time I can understand this painful feelings inside many fells during this period in life.

Why do so many feel on this bad feelings and thoughts, and also some choose suicide as a “resort” and “solution”? I don’t know, I don’t have the answers, but I can actually really understand this feeling of unsuccessful in life. The hopelessness when dreams and wishes feels like they are not fulfilled, and the feeling of lost youth, and  thoughts  about  a frightening and unknown old age can scares “anyone”, the feeling of not reaching, lack of happiness, depression, emptiness, a feeling of not reaching, and whether one has children – the children who move out, and a home that feels empty. It can be a lots to process at the same time,- as well as there often also are a economic and money “issue”. The economy is not in the direction that is was wishes for in this age.

It’s a kind of feeling that the life is over, and it’s not possible to reach any dreams, wishes and goals anymore, or have any hopes. But it is 😊. Just think about what you actually have manage to do during your 45- 50 years of living? Then it should be possible to “squeeze” in a bit more during the at least next 30- 40 years of your life? Maybe in a bit slower tempo,- but so? 😊

I think I have had my “midlife crisis” in my life, already. This crisis where you actually think you can’t manage anymore, not a tiny little challenge more, at the same time as you feel failed in the economic and material field.  This, unfortunately, is one of the reasons why many, special men choose suicide as a solution instead of the feeling of unsuccessful.

I’m not a man,-, but when I was around 39- 40 I was in “this place” in my life. This incredible painful feeling of being unsuccessful in so many area in my life. It felt more heavy that I could manage. I even planned how and where to do it,- three different times. To try to end this   incredible painful feeling inside me.

The reason why I didn’t manage it was the thoughts of my children. I couldn’t just leave them either, in away alone in the world, and I also knew that my children would never understood why I had left them like that, because of economy, money and material issues. The incredibly painful feeling of unsuccessful. But it was hard, and I can really understand this feeling of being unsuccessful and actually not be able to “see the light in the tunnel”. But “the light  is there”, I know it’s there. So fight as best as you can during  this  hard part of the midlife crisis 💛.

So yes, I know. I know how it feels to not manage life anymore. To not see solutions. To feel useless and unsuccessful. To feel not worthy a shit. But,- still, – I can now say,- life feels good, – even with “the baggage” I have,- but now I slowly try to let go, step by step, trying to leave one heavy part down in the road and let it be there.

Hopefully that was my midlife crisis, and hopefully I will not be in that place in my life again. I actually don’t think so,- I will be in a place like that again,- but I can’t know.

I’m still not successful in the general term of success and successfulness, and m not rich on material things or have a lots of money in my bank account, – but it doesn’t matter anymore 😊. I’m fine,- I have what I need and still do my best to reach my different goals, wishes and dreams in my life. And I know I work hard to keep it going.

I can also imagine that to be in the midlife crisis during an pandemi must be even harder than without an pandemi. So many people has lost their homes, jobs, safety net and different things in life that’s in a way did defined their successes in their life.

I think it’s difficult to have dreams, wishes and goals to work for now at days,- and now and then I’m also “losing” it a bit,- but I try my best to focus on the positive things and try my best to keep the hope alive inside me 😊.

An other part of the midlife crisis is for many women when their children are moving out, and the home feels incredibly empty, silent and the “mammi routines” aren’t there anymore. It’s like “What to do now?”🤔

I don’t have unfortunately, any wise advice to give when someone are goes through a heavy midlife crisis and struggling with keeping things, lifes, their self together, in on or another way. I’m very sorry for that. The only advice I have is,- don’t give up. Look for the small, nice and positive things in a day. It doesn’t need to be so much,- but if you sample the small things they will be much together 💛. And life is always changing, it’s ups and downs, and I know some downs can be pretty hard too 😔. But after a down, there will come an ups,- if not the downs hasn’t been there. I know it’s not easy, I really know that- but it’s worth to at least try and give yourself some time too. It takes time to get out of the cold dark midlife crisis. But it’s possible 😊.

Like I mention earlier in my text,- I’m thinking about what I actually have manage to “squeezed” into my 48 years long life so fare. And it’s actually a bit 😊. Then I think I will probably manage to “squeeze” in a bit more,- even I at the moment are not sure what I want to “squeeze” in. But I will find that if I give myself a bit of time 😊.

Some will also probably think I’m not successful in life,- but in my life I’m in my own way successful, – so that’s fine and good enough for me 😊. It’s my life, and it’s me that needs to be and feel successful in my life,- I don’t need to be that for someone else 😊.

It was actually a bit difficult to explain and write about the midlife crisis, but I hope you got “the essence” of what I wanted to write about and tell? 🥀

I know midlife crisis can be challenging, and I haven’t the best solutions for how to “survive” it,- my best advice is to talk with someone, get some help to sort out your feelings and thoughts,- because you are actually not alone at all to go through a midlife crisis 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Roses from my patio- a kind of reminder that I’m in a new flowering in my life- and not like a “fallen” flower eith mo future anymore 🌹

Many people all around the world goes through a midlife crisis, and it can be a pretty hard personal crisis too for some 😔. I have been there my self,- some years ago. But now I choose to look at this new period in my life as a new flowering in my life 🌹.

#gettingolder #menopause #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #midlifecrise #hardtime #solutions #hope #optimism #lifeis #thelife #experiences #differences #midage #newflowringinlife 🌹

Hormone balance changes 🤯😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The hormone balance changes too in my body, but I need to admit I haven’t struggled very much with that one yet, except from this “hot nights” 😊.

My eggs are a bit more “grumpy”, something that makes me a bit more “grumpy” too, now and then. But to be honest, now when I’m alone, living alone, I don’t feel so much this irritating “grumpiness” inside me. Maybe because there’s no around me to be “grumpy” on? 🤔 So I feel my mood is a bit stable, but it’s not sure it is like that 😅. I have no one around me on daily basis to “check out” my mood,- and maybe that’s a good thing at the moment? 😊

My period is “slowing down” too. I still have my period and it’s still coming regular, but it last just a few days now and I’m don’t bleeding so much either anymore.

I have mixed feelings about losing my period, but I had also very mixed feelings when I got my period. So it’s maybe natural to have some mixed feelings around this?

When I got my period I felt so sad that I needed to have this bleeding and pain in my stomach 5 days every month “forever” 😔. But after a while I got use to it. Now I’m in a way looking forward to don’t have this pain in my stomach and the bleeding too, at the same time I have some thoughts about what changes my body will go through to loose my period, and how this can or will affect my “sexual feelings and needs”?

The estrogen is slowing down and then also the sexual feelings and needs can and will slow down too. I actually don’t like that thought.

But if or when this is or should happen, there’s solutions for “keep up the heat in my vagina”. But,- yes, of course I have some thoughts about this,- maybe special because I’m single?

I also had discharge from my vagina before, but I do not see it that much anymore.  And I’m actually not quite sure when it slowed down.  A year ago?  5 years ago?  I have no idea 🤔.  I have not thought much about it either, until now when I think and write about hormones, and various changes in the body, my body.

And sometimes I get such a “milky feeling” in my breast.  As I often got when I was pregnant and when I was breastfeeding.  Like “chest burst”. But it does not last long, and is not a problem or something to complain about.

My bladder has behaved well, I have not had a urinary infection for a long time. But I also drink a little ginger tea occasionally to cleanse my “internal system”.  And the bladder keeps tight, no leaks. I have read about that “leaks” can be a challenge when you get older,- but so fare so good 😊. I think I’m not “old enough” to get any “leaks”, but at the same time I know some women in my age has some challenges with leaks. Hopefully I will manage to “keep tight” “forever” 😊. At least for many years 😊.

I have also felt incredibly bad a couple of times when I have been at my walks. Actually a kind of sick, but still not sick. This hasn’t happened to many times, but I actually needed to sit down and just “put myself together” a bit before I continue my walks.

I can’t actually explain the feeling, it was just physical bad in all my body. I know this “I feel, bad and sick” feeling can drop by too during menopause. Hopefully it would not drop by to many times, because it was not a very good feeling.

I know that there are different solutions and “treatments” if menopause gets to hard and to bad.  There are several natural / alternative treatments, and there are hormone cures.  I know many women are skeptical of hormone regimens because this can trigger different types of cancer.  At the same time, it is possible to go for regular medical examinations for cancer check-ups.

I feel it’s to early for me in the menopause- process to even think about different kinds of treatments, alternative or hormone cures. But I’m actually not a stranger to trying either alternative treatments or hormone cures, should it become challenging, both physically and mentally in menopause.

So fare it is what it is, and not with the biggest challenge actually,- except from the “water falls” some nights, and that couple of times I actually thought I was going to past out on my walks. Because that one was…phu….not good.

But like I have mention before,- I’m just in the beginning of the menopause, and the different menopause changes and challenges are also different from women to women too 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Just olives as a symbol for “hormones dance” or “hormone balance” and the menopause 🤯😊

I’m just in the beginning of menopause and so fare the hormones are more and less in “balance and stabil” 😊. But if they give me to much troubles I’m not strange of trying different kinds of treatments to get “easier days” 😊.

#menopause #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #gettingolder #Norwegian #livinginspain #lifeis #hormonebalance #treatment #thelife #newflowringinlife 🌹

Wrinkles and hair,- it is what it is 😊👒

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

There has dropped up some wrinkles in my face too 😳. Actually I have recognize them before, but a year ago I really took a good look at them for maybe the first time? And I need to admit at that time I didn’t like what I found and saw in my face 😳.

Some will call wrinkles for “maps over different experiences in life”,- and if I thought about that I liked my wrinkles even less. Because there’s a couple of experiences in my life I should wish I haven’t had, and then I really don’t want to have them in my face too, that’s for sure 😳. Like a daily reminder? I have my own “reminder” inside me, and that’s actually enough.

My wrinkles during the last year have probably changed, but I don’t see them in the same way as a year ago. Well,- except from in the morning,- when I take a look in the mirror and see my sleepy face with some small new sleepy wrinkles as well. Pillow wrinkles 😊. Fortunately, it disappears after a short time and when I start to wake up a little to life 😊.

Maybe I’m getting use to my wrinkles, or maybe I have just been very good to minimize them during the last year with using honey, almonds, aloe vera coconut oil, olive oil and almond cream on the face? Not all at the same time, but as a combination of clean and scrub and lubricate. And maybe the use of collagen and eating my 10 blueberries every morning are helping a bit too?

I actually don’t know,- but at the moment I’m not “struggling” in my mind about my wrinkles in my face like I did a year ago. I’m fine with them like they are, except from in the morning because there are a couple of more wrinkles for a tiny little moment in the morning 😅.

I’m not going to stop using my “face mixture” or stop using collagen or stop eating my blueberries. I don’t take the chance 😅. But I’m fine with the wrinkles I have, but that doesn’t mean I need more 😊.

And then it’s my hair. That has changed both the structure and the colour.

A year ago I actually tried to wash my hair with coca cola to see if I got my natural hair colour back after years with colouring my hair. That didn’t help very much 😅. I just needed to let it grow out and also got a bit help from my hairdresser.

My hair was getting lighter, and my daughter called my natural hair colour for strawberry blond. It’s actually 9 or 10 months since last time I coloured my hair. And to be honest, it feels so great to not use my time to color my hair anymore, or be stressed because the regrowth of hair began to show.

But lately there’s showing some up darker hair again in my hair. I have no idea way, but it’s fine for me. Now my hair is a nice combination of strawberry blond and some darker hair with the hair roots. I just let it be the way it is, because I actually like to not use my time to stressing with colouring my hair 😊.

And the structure of my hair has also changed a bit. I have always has thin hair, but now it’s like a bit “fluffy” too 😳. If I can call it that? I’m not sure what to do about that yet. Maybe try this popular “noo poo= no shampoo”? I don’t know yet. I’m in the thinking- box when it comes to that one, so I see what I do 😊.

My wrinkles and my hair it is what it is a the moment, and I’m just going to leave it to that for awhile too 😊. I m going to continue with my natural “face- treatment” and I’m going to not colouring my hair. And maybe I try this “noo- poo” thing for my hair,- but I’m not sure yet. I like it when my hair smells nice from the good smell of the shampoo too 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Wrinkles and hair,- it is what it is at the moment and I’m fine with that 😊 ( the photo is taken from one of my walks- a selfie – lucky with the light 😊)

Wrinkles and hair,- it is what it is at the moment 😊. I’m not so “stressed out” for my wrinkles or my hair colour at the moment,- like I was a year ago 😊. And it feels actually both good and relaxing to don’t use more time than I need to “stress me up” over that 😊.

#gettingolder #menopause #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #hair #wrinkles #naturprocess #naturaltreatment #lifeis #thelife 💛