But there’s some “issues” too during this “new Spring” in life 😳🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days too. I don’t have the biggest challenges during this pre perimenopause, but there’s some issues, or tiny challenges that’s dropping by. And I don’t know what this period in my life can or will bring me later, so I at least choose to enjoy the changes I do like at the moment,- like for example my body changes 😊.

But I still need to “deal” with some few other issues, or rainy and stormy days, if you want. It’s not to much to complain about, in general this issues are not difficult to deal with, and don’t last very long either. But when they “shows up” it’s quite fine to be alone, and “deal” with them in my own way 😊. Another thing,- in general I don’t know when the “issues” are dropping by. Because that’s exactly what they are doing,- dropping by exactly when it suits them, and not me. It’s nothing I can choose or control.

In short periods I have had water in my body, causing the hormone changes. And also one of the reasons why it didn’t dropped my mind that I could have put on weight when my winter clothes felt a bit thigh.

It has mainly been in my feet, ankles to be more correct, and sometimes in my hands too. It’s not often, and not to bad, but it is uncomfortable. And I have never had any kind of water like that in my body before. I think the closest “water in my body” was the water in my stomach under my pregnancies 💧.

And I’m still not “leaking” (thank so much for that 🙏),– and I really hope I can avoid that too, even I know it is natural for a woman to have or get some “water leakage” in a certain age. I’m really doing my “exercises” ,- “pinch and hold and pinch a little more”. Hopefully that will help forever to avoid any kind of water leakage 🤞.

And my stomach,- also that one can be a bit “troubling” now and then. It can feels like it is a marble in there 😳. But it’s not, and of course the marble also “disappear”, but not always when I want. I just need to give it a bit of time and maybe a prune and two 😅. But of course this marble in my stomach also has been a reason for why I didn’t offer weight increase and small clothes so many thoughts.

When I’m in this “body” area I can also mention cellulite. I have some of them too, mainly on my thighs. They don’t bother me. They are a part of this “process” as well, I think. And as long as they don’t bother me I don’t give them to many thoughts.

But there’s a challenge I do struggling a bit with when this one shows up,- and that’s challenges with the sleep. For some reasons I don’t know, I can have a night and two or three where I’m not sleeping very well without knowing why, or the reason. And phu,- the days after some nights without a good sleep feels like I have been on a party with a few glasses of too much wine 😴🍷 . I’m so, so tired and feel so uncomfortable the day after a sleepless night 😴. It’s more then enough to just do my customer service agent job on the phone then, and not very much more then that.

I’m not use to that,- in general I do sleep very well and also fast when I’m putting down my head on ny pillow 😴.

An other thing,- I actually want to go to bed at 21.00 in the evening 😅. But Im trying my very best to be awake until around 23.00. And in general I do manage that one 😊. And I get my 7- 8 hours with beauty sleep 🥰.

Off,- and yes,- this mind and soul and thoughts and feelings things- more correctly “moody button”. That one is not very fun at all. I know I did mention that one in my other “new Spring in life post”. That one feels seriously not like any kind of Spring. More like a very stormy and cold winter day with out any kind of control ❄😳. And so, so hard to explain.

And like I mention in an earlier text,- I don’t have any midlife crisis, but I have different midlife thoughts, and some days I think more about my midlife thoughts than other days, but I can’t call my thoughts challenging. I’m just trying to find some kind of solutions, but I don’t rush the solutions. I know I need to use time on them.

And yes,- then it’s this “sexual feelings” too. I’m single so what can I say? I don’t have any lover, or friends with benefit. But it seems that “all is still in function”,- because I need to admit a friends with benefit haven’t been to bad to have 😅.

But maybe that’s just fine I’m in my bed alone at the moment? Because for some reason I get this hot flashes in the nights now and them,- and so fare haven’t had anyone during the day yet.

It’s the sleeplessness nights and the grumpy moods that’s bothering me most – then I really really don’t want anyone to bother me or Visa versa- bother them,- special not with my grumpy mood.

I’m also use reading glasses 🤓🧐. I needed to start with that some years ago. I’m using glasses when I working at my computer, when I use my mobile, and when Im reading a book. Still no need for more use for glasses yet, but of course that one can change too. It will probably change when I’m getting older,- and I still have glasses a bit “here and there” because even after a couple of years as a “part time” glass- user I’m still forget to use glasses when I need to read the menu in a restaurant, or my tiny shopping list when I go for shopping food 🧐. It’s nice to know what I’m order from the menu as well as bringing with me home from the store 😅. So I have some painting glasses in my painting – corner, a couple in my work corner, a couple in my handbag and a couple on the table in the livingroom – just in case 🤓.

So,- all in all so fare in this pre perimenopause things aren’t to bad actually 😊. But I need to admit I actually really hope it doesn’t will be or “bring” me more or other “issues” then that I’m “dealing” with at the moment. My “issues” are not to bad, but I don’t need more of them 😊.

And I can understand why ladies in the 50′, or more correctly during the menopause, can be a bit scary and grumpy. Actually trolly. Imagine “water leakage”, water in the body that should be leaking, but don’t, and marble in the stomach, some sleepless nights and hot flashes too 😳. Clothes that suddenly and without any warning are shrinking, and when I’m into this “no warning”- a mind that’s not give any kind of warning for suddenly tears or anger 😳. It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes.

So I think I let the whole menopause “rest” for a tiny while, and use my focus on other things, stuffs and happenings in life for a while instead 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon,- and I’m not going to bother you with any menopause issues for a while (at least it’s not my plan) 😊.

So a tiny cheers for the different changes and challenges,- for the life and that life is what it is 🧡,- and for a “new Spring in life” that I’m not always understand because it doesn’t quite feels like a Spring- but I have heard it’s painful when flowers growing,- it hurts when buds bloom 😊🥀

It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes 😳. During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days as well 🌬. But I have heard that it hurts when buds bloom,- so I choose to believe so 🌱. So a tiny cheers for a “new Spring in life” 🍷😊.

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Wrinkles, you said?😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

After the hair on our top, we have our beautiful faces 😊,- and as we gets older there is a tiny habit that some fine lines and wrinkles are “showing up”. To be honest I don’t think my wrinkles are to bad, but what can happen in some years? I don’t know,- but I admit I do my very best to have the wrinkles and fine lines I have a bit under “control” 😅.

They are not so wrinkled and whining yet. But I never know what the age can bring me 😊.

Wrinkles, you say? 😊 Im stretching them out as best as I can as you can see 😅

But I need to admit that when I wake up and a little while afterwards there can be a bit more extra wrinkles. My skin is like a little extra “curly”, – trolly, trolly- and yes I think I can scare a soul and two with my morning trolly wrinkle face 😅. At least until the wrinkles has taken their morning stretches and calm down bit. You know like we stretch our body when we wake up, it’s also like my face need a bit time for “stretching” here and there after a good night sleep to let the wrinkles fall in the correct places, the correct nice places where they look a bit better 😅. But my morning wrinkles need to be stretched a bit out, maybe a kind of face morning exercise before they look “good”🤸‍♀️. Is it like that for you too? That this morning wrinkles have a habit to show up very much in the morning, a kind of a bit “trolly, trolly”, and then they in a way “calm down” a bit during the day?

And also when I’m very, very tired, ( or angry 😳),- uff, then I feel it’s wrinkles “everywhere” in my face and even on my throat too 😳. Not very charming,- but okay,- it it what it is 😳. I can be charming in other “settings” instead 😅.

And yes, there are a few more smile wrinkles and lines when I’m smiling now at days than for some few years ago, – but I take that as a good sign, – it means that I have smiled a lot and have a lot to be happy about. And that’s true too 😊🧡. I feel I have very much in my life to be grateful and happy for, and smile for 😊🧡

My happy, morning face from one of my morning walks at the beach 😊. Smiley wrinkles,- of course 😊 I have a lots to be happy for, grateful for and smile for 😊

Like I mention earlier in my post I do a couple of things to “slow down” the wrinkle process” in my face. I use honey and almond scrub a couple of times during the week, and I also “squeeze” some aloe vera in my face every day. Both honey, almond and the aloe vera are “fresh”. Well,- not quite the honey- that one is from a box in the store, and the almond too. But the aleo vera I have a big plant I’m using the leaves from. And I also “eat”, or drink is more correctly, collagen from Norway 😊. My youngest sister and her husband have their own collagen company and they makes and sells collagen,- and it’s perfect for the skin and also the health in general 😊. Except from this I also try my best to get 7- 8 hours sleep, try to eat healthy, and is very moderate with alcohol and I always use suncream in my face when I’m in the sun. Factor 30 or 50, it depends a bit.

I’m not sure if this “things” I’m doing can be a factor that my wrinkles are not to bad. Well,- at least I don’t think my wrinkles are to bad,- it doesn’t matter so much what other thinks. But if I believe it helps it’s good enough for me 😊. So I’m still not there where I think or feel I need to “lift” something in my face, yet, or fill up a bit here and there. But I don’t know how I will feel about that in a couple of years. Maybe thing will be different, maybe not- maybe I will still like my happy wrinkles and grateful for the fact that I actually still have them, and even maybe a couple of more 😊. Or maybe I will feel more confident and comfortable with my self if I Iift and fill a bit “here and there”? I don’t know. At the moment I’m fine with the way my wrinkles in my face are, I feel confident and comfortable like it is 😊.

I know some women feel for “lifting” and “filling up” here and there in their face,- and I can understand their choices, even I don’t want to do something like that, at least not yet. I don’t know what I will feel in a couple of years. But it’s about feeling confident and comfortable with your self and your age, so if some face lifting helps in the age of 50 or more,- why not? It’s all about feeling confident and comfortable with your self 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

This are more and less what I’m using for my skin in my face, and also aloe vera cream or suncream,- it depends.

Of course I have a bit more fine lines and wrinkles now at days then for just some years ago, I’m getting older,- and that’s a part of getting older 😊. But I choose to believe they are happy smiley wrinkles 😊.

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I can continue “on the top” 🦱🧢😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Since I’m “touching” this menopause now at days in my blog I can continue a bit “on the top” of the body. Or that’s maybe not quite correct, because I have already wrote a bit what’s happen inside “the top” now and then during this new “phase” in life. The “magical” menopause, or more correctly for me,- perimenopause (a bit of a fancy word for a not always so fancy “situation”)💫.

The brain lives it’s own lifes now and then, and don’t even give a tiny “hands up” before is messing around with the thoughts and feelings, tears and anger, and frustration,- and just in case,- I’m not always sure why this is happening either 😳. But okay,- I’m not the only one 😊.

And of course there’s some thoughts about my future too, up there in my top,- like I told you in my last post 😊.

But there’s also hair “on the top”, and the hair have a habit to change colour as well when “everything” else is changing in the body, and also for many during the menopause. I have actually looked after grey hair for maybe two or three years already😅, but luckily I haven’t found very much yet 😅. I stopped colouring my hair for maybe one or one and a half year ago, and it was different reasons for that 😊.

It was of course easier to look for grey hair when I had my natural hair colour, and I was a bit curious what my natural hair colour actually is. I think I have more and less colour my hair since I was around 15- 16 years old. So maybe it’s time for the natural colour look now? 😊

And I also thought it will be just easier for myself if or when my hair colour turn naturally grey to just let it be that way. So fare there’s not to much grey hair, and I need to admit I’m a bit happy for that. They comes when they comes, and if not, that’s fine too. But at least now it will gets it’s own natural hair colour “touch” when it’s starting to be grey for real 😊.

An other reason why I stopped colouring my hair is because it’s actually a bit stress to do this every fourth or sixth week. Now I don’t need to, and to be honest it feels a bit relieved. If I one day colouring my hair again,- I don’t know. But so fare it feels actually quite nice to just accept the “hair colour situation” the way it is, and don’t stress with this hair colouring every fourth to sixth week 😊.

I don’t have very thick hair, so I have used hair extensions now and then to feel more comfortable with my hair, and of course also with myself. Special because I didn’t feel very comfortable with my thin hair. I have now also dropped hair extensions. I haven’t use that either for over a year, or probably more. My hair is still thin, but okay,- I’m actually a bit fine with that one too. But I need to admit I do “eat” tablets to get thicker hair 😅. Something calls “Medebiotin” and “Relafit Capils”, but maybe I also should start to try some seaweed,- just in case? Even some of this tablets actually should contain some seaweed.

This tablets I did take for 3 months and then 3 months without, and if necessary 3 new months. And I think I’m going to “go” for 3 new months. So fare not to much have happen in the “be thicker hair” area, and it can’t do any harm anyway to eat a bit more of this tiny pills 😅, and it’s not so stressful to remember a tiny little hair pill every morning either 🦱😅.

My natural hair colour,- I’m actually not sure what kind of colour that is, because it’s still a bit mix of added hair color, some bleaching from the sun and then my own, – down there in the bottom.  But it is what it is – and I actually feel quite okay with my hair color as it is …..for now. Maybe I try to color my hair again one day, maybe not. But at the moment I prefer it “all” the way it is 😊.

So maybe as you probably understand I’m actually not “struggling” with my “hair situation” during this pre perimenopause process, something I’m very happy for 😊. Because I know some women do struggling with that too,- on top of all other kinds of “issues” menopause brings.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My “hair situation” during this pre perimenopause is not to bad,- a tiny mix of different colours,- but I’m actually fine with it 😊. It is what it is 🦱😊

One thing is what’s happen inside the mind and brain during the perimenopause ( and menopause as well), but for some also something happens with what’s “outside” like for example the hair colour. I did stop colouring my hair for over a year ago for different reasons,- and I’m fine with the natural colours that’s “shows up” so fare 😊🦱.

#perimenopause #menopause #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #hairsituation #haircolour #naturalhaircolour #lifeis

Midlife crisis and job opportunities? 🤔📝🎧

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Both men and women goes through menopause,- but differently. And both can also deal with a kind of midlife crisis too, but also differently. And it’s not all and everyone that have a midlife crisis when they go through menopause. Some have midlife problems, issues and thoughts instead.

I’m probably there in that “area” where I have different thoughts about my life, my midlife. I don’t feel I have any kind of personal crisis . I think I had my personal or life crisis from I was around 39/ 40 years old, and probably until a year ago. Because it was long before menopause, my personal crisis was. I think the best word for what I went through during those years is a personal or life crisis, not midlife crisis. At least it felt like that for me. Like a personal crisis, like a stone in my stomach and a claw in my heart and soul. Not constantly, but very often. Closely every day. And of course that’s also exhausting.

A very short summary and version of my personal / life crisis: My economy was to just cry of, something I also did now and then too. I was in a very bad relationship for me, lucky that one actually ended, but not because I manage to end it. I was to confused and had to little believe in my self at that point to end it. I think the desteny took care of that for me, to help me “out” from something I was “blocked” into.

I was in a new country. I was so unsure and had so little confidence and believe in my self. Our Prairie in Norway was “long gone”. I didn’t have any money to move back to Norway even if I wanted too, and I didn’t knew what I wanted to work with either, and felt very miserable in my teaching job in Norway ( not because of the job, because of my life), and later my customer service agent on the phone job in Spain (it’s not the same job/ product I’m working with now). But I needed the salary so badly. And in a way I also did “lost” someone close to me in Norway during this time. Something I did struggle with for many years- and now and then I still feel on pain, but I have more accepted the situation.

It took me closely 10 years to get distance, to accept the situation as well as be able to find myself again, the person I did like before I met this man in Norway that in his own way “created” me to a person I didn’t like, didn’t knew and was to uncomfortable in the situation to be able to do something with it.

Now I’m not there anymore,- slowly, very slowly during the last 10 years I’m in an other inner place in my mind and soul,- special when it comes to my self and my own comfortably with my self, and the believe and trust in my self.

When this personal crisis, or life crisis, if you will, finally let go, I felt free inside me. A very reliving feeling.

So I don’t feel on any kind of midlife crisis now at days- I think that one is over for me, but I have some midlife thoughts. And most of them are about my future, my job, where to live. (Nope,- still no boyfriend thoughts about my future- 😅) What to do when I’m going to continue now? And I don’t know yet,- to be honest, and I think it will take a bit of time before I know, but hopefully not 10 years this time 😅🤞🙏.

At the moment I have a okay job as customer service agent on the phone and the online freelance job. The costumer service agent on the phone job is stable, the salary is stable and my working hours are stable too. I’m also working from my home,- something I prefer, and the tasks and costumers are not to bad at all. But do I want to work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life? I don’t know. There’s no possibility to “grow” in the job or get knew knowledge, or new working challenges. It is what it is,- a costumer service agent job on the phone,- nothing more and nothing less.

And then it is this pension. I’m not getting any younger. And how will the pension question be for me if I’m moving to another country and starting working there? In Norway I know how it is as well as here in Spain,- but in Norway I’m going to have big economic challenges- and how will I manage to go through something like that again? And like I mention,- I’m not getting any younger.

And because I’m not getting any younger I’m also more and more invisible in the work market. Not so attractive at all. In Norway I could probably get a job in a store for the same company I’m working as a costumer service agent on the phone. And that’s okay,- but again- my economy in Norway is at this point a very lost case. So at the point to move to Norway for me will be challenging, special because of my Norwegian economic situation. ( something I can “thank” the stupid, stupid ex boyfriend in Norway for). But yes,- I do still actually consider Norway as a potential to stay “for the rest of my life”. But I need to find a couple more “solutions” on that one, that’s for sure.

Can I move back to the place in Norway where I’m actually born in and from? Or will I be lonely there?

I have also considered Ireland and Canada as well, or just continue stay in Spain. But Canada is very fare away,- so I think I let that one “go”. Ireland? I need to do more research then. Or just stay in Spain, have and do my job and,- until I die one day? Because that’s what’s going to happen to the end,- but what will I do in the meantime? What will I fill my life up with before I’m 101 years old?

Of course my dream is to be able to have my paintings as my main job,- and I do try to find a way to manage that. But as we all know,- a job as a artist is in general not a very good income economic job. It’s hard, hard work to manage success and also survive economic. And maybe even harder for me because of my age.

So at the moment and probably some years forward I’m going to be thinking about this,- my job, economy, where to live and be old. And how to live inbetween. And try to find a solution that suits me.

I’m also of course thinking about my children. I have one son in Norway, one son in Spain and a daughter in Bali. I want to live a place where it’s easy for me to be able to see and meet all three of them as much as possible. And then I’m thinking as least it will be possible to travel and visit them now and then during a year. I don’t think Canada is the best solution for that,- that’s for sure 😊.

I’m very happy and grateful for my living situation and the home I’m living in now. I enjoy to stay here, and I think I can stay here for a while too, if I understood Natasja correctly? But that’s also something that can’t last “forever”, one day I need to move out,- and I don’t like to move and move and move,- so after a while I need to find a home I can stay in for a long, long time. Hopefully to the day my children are sending me to the sky.

So no,- I’m not in any midlife crisis, but I do think a lot about what I want and where to go in my future. The good thing is,- I’m not stressing about to find a solution for it “all” now,- but hopefully I have some solutions when I’m maybe at age 55? (I have some few years to think and find a solution and two,- – I’m still “just” 49 😊).

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

What to do? Work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life?🎧 Or be creative and do something I really enjoy to do,- paint?🎨 (the photo is like this on purpose 😅)

I’m not in a midlife crisis, even the menopause is “knocking on my door”. I think I went through my kind of personal crisis instead in a period for closely 10 years 😳. But I have some midlife thoughts, and I do think a bit about them. Actually a lot. Norway? Spain? Costumer service agent job on the phone? Or maybe painting? Or something else, somewhere else? I don’t know yet.

#midlife #midlifecrise #midlifethoughts #changes #challenges #work #workingsituation #thougths #feelings #choices #menopause #mylife #gettingolder

Menopause,- “the new Spring in life” ? 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I did read somewhere that menopause was like “the new Spring in life”,- but I’m not so sure about that one yet 😳. Sometimes it feels a bit more like a cold winter storm, to be honest ❄. But just sometimes 😊. In general I’m still fine during this new “process” in my life, and body. But I don’t know how this menopause process later will be for me.

Menopause,- the new Spring in life? 🌱 I don’t know about that,- but things are changing like the Spring changes the nature from the cold winter time ❄. So maybe it’s something in it?

Some women are open about and talk about menopause, others do not say very much, and some even “deny” that they are there or have been there.  Why this is so I’m not sure.  Shame about getting older?  Fear of a new and unknown phase in life?  Or too big challenges in this phase for them to be able to talk about menopause? Probably a bit of it all.

We women don’t experiences menopause in the same way. Like we didn’t have the same experiences during the puberty. Some women can have a very hard menopause, and other more “sails” through it.

I did start to “research” about menopause before I was in the menopause, and I’m still not “in the menopause” yet, at the same time as I know this phase in life starts a bit before it has been a year since the last period. I wanted to know a bit about this new phase and period in my life, and what I could “expect” as well, as also maybe get some advice how to handle different kinds of challenges if they get to hard. Be a bit prepared for this new changes as well as challenges.

Menopause is in a way “official” when it has been more then one year since the last period, but it start some years before that. And it last some years after that too.

Like I mention, I’m still not “official” in menopause, but in a phase which in the technical language is called pre- perimenopause , but of course I notice different changes both in my body and mind.

I’m not ashamed over getting older, but if I like it? To be honest,- I’m not sure. It’s like I haven’t had the time to think or fell to much about it/ this yet,- if I like it or not, because so fare in this “period” in my life I haven’t been to much alone and be able to think or feel to much about this “new life experience” I’m going to go through.

As you know my children have been moving in and out during the last two- three years. And that’s a part I feel I’m very finish with,- live together with my children, or anyone else. My children can be my neighbours instead 😊. That I would actually loved 🥰.

I not worried to talk about menopause either, at the same time there’s “things” that’s happens in my mind I can’t explain very well. Special this “moody and emotional moments”. What I do know is that I need to be and live alone now so I can “sort” this out, find my own way to “deal” with “this”, handle it and learn to live with it- this “getting older and the different changes”, and now and then, challenges too.

I can’t at this point say I feel I’m going through a new Spring in my life 😅🌱,- but I can understand why some call menopause and the time after for a new Spring in life. Maybe special the time after, when this suddenly mood and emotion storms are a bit more “calm down”, and you in your own way have found “the new way” in life?

I know some feel and thinks their life is “over” when they go through menopause. And some also goes through a kind of “middle life crisis” during this process.

One part or epoch in life is over,- what will the next one brings? What should I do now? For many the children also are moving out during this period in life, and they feel a kind of “useless”, the empty nest syndrome are in a way “knocking on the door”. I need to admit I really like to live alone, so the empty nest syndrome haven’t knocking on my door 😊. Well at least the time I have tried to live alone so fare 😅. Let me put it this way,- I liked it so much to live alone I want to try it for a bit longer period then 2- 3 months 😊. I miss my children, I love my children, I enjoy spending time together with them- but I’m very finish to live together with them. And I’m not ashamed over being that, or feel like that- like I mention in an other post,- it’s feels like my freedom to be able to live alone now 💛.

An other thing during this “getting older” ,- you can get this feeling of being not very “attractive” any more. Maybe special when it comes to the work situation, and maybe also when it comes to dating?

In general I don’t think to much that my life is over because I’m getting older, I’m in my life and very happy and grateful for that 🧡. I’m fine with the fact that my children are out of the nest, and I’m fine in my job. I’m not stressing with this dating either. I have some others thing I want to try to do and “find out” before I’m going to date again,- and it’s not even sure I want to date again, or have a boyfriend. My experience when it comes to dating, men and relationships is that there are a lot of hassles, whining, nagging and unfavorable requirements from men/ boyfriend. I want to have peace in my life, and not hassles, whining, nagging and unfavourable requirements.

But,– when those emotional waves are coming, just running and rumbling through my soul, thoughts and mind I’m not so comfortable in my life. I can get a bit “bunch” of negative thoughts and feelings about closely “all and everything” to be honest. But still actually not about relationship, dating or men. My negative thoughts goes more to “what am I going to do with my life?” Move to a new place? Back to Norway? To another country? What about work? Do I want to work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life? And in my mind “the rest of my life” are a couple of years to be honest. And I also struggling with thoughts that I have been not the best mammi for my children. So this are mainly my negative waves, or “boble”. Sounds maybe like a nice and “easy” boble- but it’s not. I’m very “phu hu poor me” when this “waves” are “dropping by”.

And yes,- there’s one more emotional wave,- this tears that’s dropping up sometimes from no where. And the fuse that has become even shorter than it was before.  Things that have not annoyed me that much before can be incredibly annoying now.

But still in general I feel more and less like me. Without to many challenges, or “emotional waves” 🌊. But the thing is,- I’m not prepared for this “waves” when they “drops by”. I have actually no idea when they are dropping by 😳 They don’t give to many “hands up” or “warnings” like “we are going to mess a bit with your mind today” before they in a way are just “rolling over” me 😳.

Lucky for me they don’t last to long,- a day or two, and then I have some days, maybe even a couple of weeks without. But when they are “tumbling and rumbling” in my body- I really don’t feel I’m going through a new Spring in life- that’s for sure. And an other thing,- I really prefer to be alone during those “emotional waves moments” .

Unfortunately people in general doesn’t understand this, this “suddenly waves”, this need to be alone, be able to find your own way to handle them. The exception is, someone who actually are going through the same, or have bee thought menopause. They understand very well. Because it’s just not to “put your self together”. It’s actually not so easy. Not with this.

So yes,- I do really understand why some women in the 50’s, during this menopause, are a bit “trolly”. I’m a bit “trolly” my self,- even I don’t want to be “trolly”.

And I do understand this “colour up” with makeup and nail polish, clothes and accessories,- we don’t want to feel useless or invisible,- special not in work situations, and I can also understand the dating situation too,- even I’m not there.

We are some women with a lots of knowledge, in general even a good working moral,- something I can’t say many younger have. And,- we have so much to offer. Maybe I should write a bit more about my thoughts about the work situation and this feeling of being invisible in different work situations when you have turned 45 and on top of that is a woman in another post? Because I have some thoughts about that too,- more then I hade before 😊.

Anyway,- the new Spring in life? Yes in one way I can see and understand the “metaphor”, in other ways not at all. I think it depends where you are in the menopause as well as how “hard” and challeng the menopause is. This can, natural enough, be various from woman to woman 🧡. It’s can feel like a bit chaotic Spring now and then 😊😳😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The new Spring in life? Something happens, some changes, with both the mind and body during menopause,- and it could be like a kind of Spring?

I did read somewhere that menopause was like the “new Spring” in life. In one way I can understand the “metaphor”. But sometimes I need to admit that it feels like a very ” cold and stormy” Spring 😳😅🌱.

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