It needs to heal in it’s own way and tempo 🧩⚖

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Like I mention in my last post,- to have some mental challenges in life is more and less like break a leg or get a sore throat. Sometimes a kind of treatment is necessary, other times the body heals it self. Sometimes you get a scar, other times not.

To compare mental challenges with physical challenges is probably the best way for many people to understand a bit about mental challenges in life.

Mental challenges happens if a person get some not to good experiences in life. The experiences can be many different things,- lose someone close to you, be in a bad relationship, even a bad friendship. It can be so many different things and experiences in life that can make a open, painful sore in a person’s soul and mind. Like the physical open sore needs time to heal, also the open sore in the soul and mind needs time to heal as well. But the healing process is different from person to person, as well as the treatment process also can be different from person to person.

This is not a open sore,- it’s a part of a painting I’m working on,- but it looks a bit like a open inflamed wound, right?

Other times the mental challenges can feels like a big, black, painful and empty holes inside you that you are trying to fill up with different things to both get rid of the pain and close the hole.  Get rid of the empty feeling inside you.

Other times it can be a mix of both the open inflamed sore and the open, empty black hole. And the treatment? It depends on the person, the day, the situation.

I know my daughter very well. I’m probably the one who knows her best, maybe even sometimes better then she knows her self. Because I’m her mammi, I have carried her around, in my stomach, in my arms, in my heart ❤.

And when I say I sometimes wish she was 10 months or 10 years old it’s because it was so much easier to comfort her when she didn’t feel very well. Now at days I’m not always sure what I can do for her so she feels well inside her after what she has been through.

I try to do her days in our home as easy as possible so she can focus on her self, get better, heal her pain, heal her mind, do a good job in her job, get as ready as possible for the big travel to Bali.

I know I can’t fuss too much, demand too much, arguing to much. It’s a lot inside her that must be in place after what she has been through. I know that, and I know things needs to be healed in a way that’s good for her, in her own tempo,- so the scars after her experiences will not be to big in her soul and mind when they are healed.

And I also want her to try to focus on good sleep, regular and healthy food and some exercise. Yoga, walks,- what ever that’s suitable for her. I know this three things are a very important part of getting better, let the mind heal faster.

But to focus on a as regular lifestyle as possible for her is not so easy when she works shifts. Days, afternoons, nights and weekends. It’s not so easy to split the house work between us either when she works like this and also needs to focus to heal her mind and soul.

So even if we have tried,- it’s mainly me that makes the dinners, do the shopping, clean the house, do the dishes and wash the clothes.

So yes,- I can get incredibly tired sometimes. Do different things in the home for two people, take care of her as good as I can and do my own work and my own things too. I actually don’t manage “all and everything”,- but I know this is just for an period. And I know that this is the best solutions for my daughter at the moment.

In about 4 to 6 weeks she will be on the way to Bali. Things will be different for her as well as for me. Hopefully her soul and mind will be more healed, and if she needs me or her psychologist,- I’m just a phone call away, and her psychologist just a Skype conversation away 😊. And her friends will also be available for a good chat,- I know that 😊.

And to be honest,- I need to “heal” a bit too after this period. My daughter know I needs it too,- that Im tired now it’s not a secret. And I’m going to have one week holiday when my daughter has travelled to Bali and in that holiday is just for myself and for to do absolutely nothing (wonder if I can manage that 😅?) 😁.

So,- we both needs to be healed a bit,- but just in very different ways and for very different reasons. I know my daughter will be fine,- she is a strong, young woman ❤. And I will be fine too,- it’s going to be fine to just clean my own cups and plates, wash just my sock and jumpers, clean up just after just my self for a while 😁. I don’t need to heal a open inflamed sore in my soul or a empty painful black hole inside me, likely daughter needs to do. So my “treatment” is very easy actually compared to what my daughter’s has to work with ❤. But she is getting there,- better and better after every “down trip” 🙏🧡.

And she have found her drawing book and colours too during the last days,- a very, very good sign that her mind and soul is starting to heal more and more. I’m so happy and grateful she’s starting to filling up the painful, black hole with colours 🎨🧡. And the inflation is getting better, but I know there still will be days that that one can be painful again.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Sometimes the pain inside can feel like a painful, open, black hole inside you that needs to be fixed or filled up with something,- it’s just not always easy to find out what.

Mental challenges can feels like a inflamed sore inside, or like a big, black, painful hole that’s needs to be filled up with something so the pain stops 🚫. My daughter has found her drawing book and her colours, and have slowly started to fill up the black, painful hole with colours 🎨. We all need different ways to find our own way for the treatment of our soul and mind 🧡🥀🙏.

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“Breaking out in freedom” 🥀🍃

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Will we ever be totally free? Free for the things we regret? The choice and acts we regret we did in our past? I don’t think so, but I still think it’s possible to feel free. And to feel free is also a kind of way to be free. Isn’t it? Feel free and accept that the past is the past- even you should wish something, some choices was made different.

I feel free in my own way now,- but I know there still will come days and periods in my life that will be and feel challenged, also when it come to choices I made in my past. My biggest regret is that I let my children be a part of it, the not to best past, the not to best version of their mammi, the not best choice in my life when it came to a boyfriend and living together partner. Hopefully that one will also change a bit one day. Still be there, but in a easier way to “carry” around and deal with.

I have different and new mental “tools” to use now, different from before. To use to handle my thought, emotions and feelings when they try to go into “a bit darker place” in my mind- and that feels good- so good that I will call it “Breaking out in freedom”:

“Breaking out in freedom”.

And that’s the way it feels,- like my past just broke out and gave me some inner colour peace and freedom 🍃.

Can you see how the flowers in the painting just flying out from the broken the chains and links? Just like they are “popping up” with happiness. That’s the way it feels. Like nice, peaceful colours is filling up my soul and mind with happiness and peace 🍃.

And the colours are also a very conscious decision.

The blue color symbolizes clarity, although I probably have to admit that I do not see everything as clearly yet, but still better than before 🤓.

The green color stands for security.  I feel more confident in myself, but a hundred present confident I am not yet.  I’m not quite sure where I’m going in my life – but I’ll probably find out.  In any case, I am confident that the road will continue, and I will be walking and following it as best as I can- and creat- create my life the way I want it to be- little by little, step by step.

Green stand also for growing, and I’m growing in my own way 🌱.

Yellow is the color of optimism, and I am optimistic.  I have actually always been optimistic – but now I also believe that I can get things in order in my life.  Both physically and mentally, and I work more consciously for that as well. “Clean” up the past and get ready for the day today and all the next days there in the future.

White stands for peace, and I have more peace inside me than I have had in a long time.  It feels peaceful, good, relaxing and not least calm.

And then there is the color purple – it stands for freedom.  And I feel free, free from many bad feelings and thoughts that have plagued me for many years, not least guilt and the view of myself – my self-worth.  I’m basically not that bad – even though I made the wrong choice , decision and struggled a bit mentally with that. I’m still not to bad 😘.

There will still come “down days”,- but not like before 😊.

So yes,- I do feel I’m “breaking out in freedom”- my own freedom in myself 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

“Breaking out in freedom “- it’s not perfect, but still the ways it should be for me 😊

There’s different ways to feel this “breaking out in freedom”. I have felt on different kinds of “breaking out in freedom” in my life,- as probably must of us have 🥀. It’s depends of what kind of situation we are “breaking us out in freedom” from.

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