Very much for very little ❤📦 😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

In February my sweety pie of a daughter was on holiday in Norway. She visited friends and family before her travel went to Bali 🏖. But before Bali she had a ” longer stop” in my home again for some more weeks 😊.

Unfortunately, or maybe I should write, typical 😅? But Mathilde manage to forget her wallet in Norway. And in there was her cash, her Spanish bank card, her train ticket and her Norwegian bank card as well 😳. So she did travel from Norway to Spain without any kind of money, but luckily for her she managed to let me know 🙏. Thank you so much for internet and mobile and different social media channels we can chat on 🙏.

My plan was actually not to pick her up at the airport, because the train goes directly from the airport to our home, but without any kind of money, what else could I do ? 🧡 And parents do a lots for their children,- I know because I do as much as I’m available to do for mine three sweethearts 💙💙❤. As I for example did for my daughter today as well 😊. And my parents also did for me,- I know they did a lot for me ❤.

Her best friend in Norway did send the wallet to her in the mail addressed to Spain….and it was sent in the middle of February. And Mathilde did wait and wait and wait for her wallet to come in the mail to her here in Spain. And it did…..for just a couple of days ago 😅. And just in case it was sent to a post office in the centre of Malaga, around a 30 minutes train trip from our home, and a tiny walk for 15- 20 minutes from the train station too (and of course 15- 20 minutes back to the train station as well) 🚂. But before I went to the post office I needed to go the her work office in Malaga and pick up this “pick up note” to get out the wallet from the post office. And then back to her work office and deliver the wallet there 👛. Because one of her colleagues is going to Bali in June and visit the office “down there”,- and then he also can bring the wallet back to Mathilde 👛.

So it has been a bit running from one place to another place and back again today 😅. And when I had the chance I also brought with me some summer dresses he can take with him to Bali and Mathilde……it’s the summer dresses that doesn’t fit me anymore 😳👗.

But this tiny little wallet I did buy in the store for 3 euro to Mathilde in January this year, has now cost a bit more to both get it “down” to Spain as well as out of the post office 😅. Okay,- one of the card in the wallet is also an ID card to Mathilde, so that one I can understand it’s of a bit value for Mathilde,- but the two other ones are already replaced with new ones 😊. And the cash,- well she can’t use euro in Bali anyway. But obviously this wallet, this tiny little “piece” have a bit more “value” then 3 euro for Mathilde. Maybe because she got it from me?🥰 ( …at least I can believe so 😅). So of course I did what I could for her today so her wallet will be back in her hands around closely 5 months after she “lost” it 🧡.

Look at this tiny little wallet- that was forgotten in Norway and then went on a 3- 4 months travel to Spain before it hopefully will be in Mathilde’s hands again in the middle of June ,- but then in Bali 🙏🤞

But like I mention, this tiny little wallet did I pay 3 euro for, but to get it “back” in the correct hands again has been a bit bigger cost and challenge, to be honest😳.

Mathilde’s friend in Norway payd 50 euro for the post sending, something we of course transferred back to her account. And then I needed to pay 35 euro to get the wallet out from the post office today 😳. I knew it was around 35 euro cash in the wallet, but that did help me very much 😅. Because I needed to pay them before I could get the wallet. And just in case the post office only accepted cash, no card, so I needed to find a ATM and then go back again to the post office and try again.

I had also my passport, my NIE, a copy of Mathilde’s passport and NIE, and just in case her birth certificate too 🙏. The post office was most interested in my passport and her’s birth certificate. The rest they didn’t use one second on 😅. Mathilde had also written an email to the post office,- a kind of confirmation that I was going to pick it up this mail for her. That one was not necessary, they have probably not read it yet either,- but okay,- its better to be safe than sorry 😊.

So like I told Mathilde today,- it has been a bit of work and costs to manage to get “back” her tiny little wallet, and it’s still not in her hand. Cross fingers for that her colleague remember to bring it with him to Bali in June now🤞. Then, when, or maybe if it comes to Mathilde in June, this tiny little wallet has been on one of a trip as well as “the value” is a bit higher then 3 euro now,- it has cost a bit more then that, so Mathilde should get it back 😊🧡. And hopefully she doesn’t loose or forget to much, like wallets or mobiles, in the future. Hopefully a lesson and two has been learned? 🤞🙏

And yes,- of course I did this for her today,- I’m still not sure why this wallet have the kind of value it has for her,- I didn’t ask,- but I think one of the reasons is her ID, even she already have one kind of ID, and then I also can create my self my own imagenation that’s it’s because she got it from me 🥰😅. But as a mammi, and daddy and parents, we do a lots of small and big things, and sometimes very much for very little for our children ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Look how tiny this wallet is,- is closely at the same size as my hand 😅.

As parents we do a lots of different kinds of things for our children 🧡. And sometimes we do very much for very little,- like I did “run” around in Malaga after a tiny little wallet that has use 3-4 months from Norway to Spain,- so my sweety pie of a daughter hopefully can get it back in her hand in June,- but then in Bali 😅🤞.

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I will be careful with “replacement” 🥀🎁

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m on my own and are going to be living alone for a while now, (at least as fare I know- but you never know when it come to my kids 😅) , and this weekend I have used to pack down Mathilde’s things and stuffs in boxes 🎁. So now my home is really ready for a big house cleaning 😅🧹🧼. The big Spring cleaning next weekend 🌞🥀.

It’s not so dirty, but it’s get a bit dusty here and there, special when you are packing, and it’s easier to keep the house and home in “order” when “all and everything” are clean and in order and…kremt ….organized 😊. I like to have things organized, and that one is easier to keep up and follow up when it’s just me 😊.

I know many get a kind of “replacement” when the kids are “out of the nest”, something I actually really can understand. It gets a bit empty around you, and also this,- you are actually use to both have company and to take care of someone else. And in general not just for a while, but for many years. It’s a kind of a lifestyle, to be a mammi and parents, if I can use that word. Lifestyle. And to turn around to a new lifestyle in a bit it’s not the easiest thing to do, and not just done in a bit either.

And when I say “replacement” I hope you understand that I don’t mean anything or anyone can replace the young adult children. My children, your’s children. But some people in a way find a other living creature to take care of and keep them with company when the children are out of the nest.

Some get a dog, other a cat or maybe a other kind of animal to keep them with company and to take care of. Some even get a new child- and it’s nothing wrong with that. Some also maybe get into a new relationship, get a boyfriend or girlfriend. I’m not going to do anything of those things,- I’m going to be very careful with any kind of “replacement” after Mathilde (and also my sons) have moved out now. Special when it comes to something that needs to be taken care of in some or another way,- except from my self 😊. I don’t want to have that kind of responsibility either,- for a dog, or cat, or turtle or baby or boyfriend or some thing like that. I think I have enough with the responsibility for just myself for a while now 😊.

I’m in a place in my life now where I mainly want to just have the responsibility for just me for a while 😊.

For some people a kind of “replacement” feels natural after the kids are out of the nest, and for others is not. For me it doesn’t feel natural to find something that “replace” my children now. At the same time as I know my self very well . I have lived with my self for a couple of years now,- so I know a bit about my self. And I’m a person who in a why like to “take care of” in one or another way. As a mammi, as a friend, as a girlfriend, as a teacher, as a costumer service agent on the phone, as a assistant nurse, take care of guests and so on.

And I know I’m going to be a bit restless in a couple of weeks, I know that too,- “been there, done that” a couple of times now 😅, and I know I can in a “weak” moment make the wrong “replacement” decision.

That’s actually one of the positive things with all the moving in and out process to my children have done 🧡. I get more and more conscious about what’s happen with me during this getting use to “the empty nest” situation 🐣.

But I’m a bit tired now,- and need to be careful to not make the wrong “taking care of” replacement and decisions now. Because,- when all comes to all,- I actually need a break from it. I’m tired, my whole body is tired. I need to be honest with myself and focus on my job, myself, my plans. And not to much more then that for a tiny little while. I’m not ready for to much yet,- but I will be there in a bit 😊.

But I’m still going “replace” 😅. Just not with a dog, or a cat, or a new baby, or a boyfriend,- but instead use my time to maybe focus a bit more serious on my plans for my paintings, exercising and in a couple of weeks hopefully start to study too…Spanish 📚. And of course also use time together with family and friends. I just need to get my “breath” a bit back first 😊.

And by the way,- I already have a “living creature” to take care of. I have “replaced” Mathilde with a paprika/ pepper plant 🌶😅. Mathilde like peppers very much, so before she moved to Bali I sowed seeds from both red and green peppers.  And they are beginning to grow and grow.  For me at the moment, it’s enough to take care of them, give them so water and have a cozy chat during the day- and yes,- that’s correct, I do have a tiny chat with the pepper plants 🌶😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The green and the red pepper is growing. My “living taking care of replacement” and responsibility after my kids are out of the best for a while 🌶😊.

I’m in a place in my life now where I need a tiny little break from to much responsibility and to much “taking care of” for “living creatures” 😊🐕🐱. I’m not going to “replace” Mathilde, or my sons, with a dog or a cat- I did “replace” her/ they with some pepper plants instead 🌶😅. I think that’s enough responsibility for me for a while 😅😊.

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So then it’s Bali next for my tiny little sweety pie 🏖❤

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have just followed my daughter to the airport and now it’s Bali next stop for her for a while- closely. They are going to have stop in Istanbul and change the plane there befor the travel continue to Bali 🛩🏖. And,- well my sweety pie is not so tiny anymore- she is actually a young adult woman that’s travelling to Bali for open up a new Norwegian office “down there” 😊. That’s not to bad when you are 21, 5 years old 🥰.

She is not travelling alone- at the moment they are two young adults women travelling together, and they are also going to work together 😊.

It wasn’t easy to say Goodbye to Mathilde today,- and I need to admit I did try my very best to not cry 😔. I’m not very good to this “Goodbye’s” when it comes to my children,- that’s just the way it is ❤.

And I don’t know why my tears are jumping up into my eyes,- like for example today 😥. Because I’m so incredibly happy for this opportunity Mathilde get, so grateful for this exciting travel and experiences both in her work situation as well as in life 🥰. And Im so proud of her too 🥰. So why do I cry? I know I’m going to see her again- I just don’t know when, yet. And I know she will handle this so very well. The trip, the travel, the job, her new adventures. And like I mention- I’m so happy for her- but still my tears popping up.

I’m wishing my daughter the best travel in her life so fare 🥰❤and I’m also saying Goodbye to her for a while,- and trying my best to not cry- because then she will start crying too.

It was very empty to come home after the airport today- and like I told Mathilde,- when I’m hearing the train I think she is on the train, on her way back home, and will very soon pop up in the door and say “Haalloooo” – like she normally do 😊. But that’s not going to happen,- not for a long time now.

But Thank you so much for the internet and social media- I’m going to be able to be in contact with Mathilde during texting as well as any kind of video chat too now and then 😊.

So now I got one child in Norway- my lovely middle son, Ruben 🥰, and one child on the way to Bali- my sweet little butterfly Mathilde 🥰,- and my great oldest son, Marius, is still “around the corner” and just three train stations away 🥰. For now- but of course his plans can change too 😊.

Well,- that’s life. The children grew up, move out and in and out and in again and then out again from the nest, my nest- at least my does 😅. At the same time as they are actually creating their own adult life in their own way, inbetween this moving- in and out process 🧡.

And me? Well,- I’m in a place in life where I’m still not young anymore at the same time not old either- in the middle in life to be correct. And what does people do in the middle of the life? I’m not sure- but I will probably find out 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It’s going to be a long time before for I can hug her again- so a long, long warm and squeezing hug was very necessary today 🤗🥰

I’m not sure why I’m starting crying when I say Goodbye to my children,- but I do. Even when I know all is fine with them and I so happy and grateful for them and their new adventures in their life 🧡. I did my very best to not let all my tears popping up today- but it was a bit hard to say Goodbye 😔❤.

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It was Easter, but not quite a holiday 😊🐣

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The Easter is soon history for this year, and it was Easter in our home, but not quite a holiday 🏖. But the weather have the last days really became more and more like summer holiday weather 🌞.

I’m very happy my first day in the Easter was a relaxing day, because the next days felt a bit chaotic 😅. And of course it’s reason for that,- my daughter is leaving in just two days, and different papers needed to be in order, friends and some family needed to say Goodbye and things and stuffs needed to be packed and organized….and the kilos for the baggage have been weighed a couple of times too 😅⚖. But now I think Mathilde is ready for her big travel and some exacting and new adventures in her life,- to Bali in Indonesia 🏖

I’m in also in one way ready for her to travel, at the same time I have had a bit mixed feelings in my stomach and heart the last days. Bali is fare away 🌏 It’s not like she’s moving “just around the corner” or four train stations away 😳.

I’m looking forward to be just me for a while now, at the same time as I know it will be very empty in the home. The first days, maybe even the first weeks will feels empty. Empty, at the same time a bit nice and quiet too. And I know I’m going to miss her so much 😔, it feels like I miss her already, and she haven’t even travel yet. At the same time as I’m incredibly happy for my daughter and this incredible opportunity she have in her life and in her working- situation 💛.

Mathilde and my today 😊. Not the best photo- but absolutely better then nothing 🥰

I have been through this before,- my children are moving out….I go through different phases I my life like miss them a lot, cry a bit, think about all the things I should done better as a mammi for them , go through some regrets as a bad mammi. I’m restless, I’m dont sure how to organize my days even I have a plan and more then enough to keep myself busy and so on and so on……Parents that has been through this know what I mean ….And then when I feel I’m starting to have a bit control and overwive over my life without living together with my children they are moving back home again 😅.

When I have started to find my rhythm and routines in my dailylife , a life that’s just mainly contains my stuff and things, plans and how to organize different things in the home as well as the days and my life, I need to turn this a bit around,- and of course my children needs to do that too, but not in the same way. Because they are moving back in to their mammi.

Then it’s back to the “old routines”,- and they are not so easy to find back to either not for me, not for my children,- because I have my new one, my kids have their own ,- so when they are moving back home it’s a mixture of my new routines, my kids routines and lifestyle ……and also a kind of expectations that the “old” routines in our home are still the same as they was before my kids moved out- at the same time as they bring with them their new lifestyle. It’s not easy,- not for me and not for my children,- but I’m probably the biggest “challenge” in this situation 😳.

You should think I was starting to be a bit good to handle this “out of the nest- situation” now, and not at least use to it. But I’m not. It’s more and more challenging when they are moving back home, but it’s actually also more and more challenging when they are moving out again too 😳. I’m not sure why it is like that,- but it is.

I get so, so tired when I live together with my children because I’m actually a bit finish with that part of my life and that kind of responsibility. At the same time as I really enjoy and love to spend time together with them 🥰.

I have a couple of times welcoming my new area in life. When my children have moved out of the nest. I’m not going to do that this time 😅. I’m not sure what my new area in life is…..yet. And I also know that when Mathilde move back to Spain again she probably move back into my home for a tiny while when she’s looking for her own apartment. And I’m fine with that. I’m prepared for that.

So the Easter is over, the summer is coming and my daughter’s suitcases are packed and ready for a great travel to Bali 🏖. I’m ready too,- even with my very mixed feelings in my heart, soul and stomach. I’m ready to live just for myself for a while 😊. Maybe it’s a kind of travel that too,- I just don’t know it yet? 😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My daughter’s suitcase is beginning to be ready 😊👝🛍

The Easter is over, and a new daily life is just “around the corner” for both my daughter and me 🏖. We are both going to have some new experiences in our life, and also some new adventures- but in very different ways 😊🧡.

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The empty nest syndrome 🐣

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Some of you have heard about “the empty nest syndrome”, and some not,- natural enough. Some of you have grown up children and maybe you’re have gone through “the empty nest syndrome” your self, and some have small children or not children at all, and haven’t been “there”, felt “the empty nest syndrome”.

I have just heard and read about “the empty nest syndrome” during the last years. But I know I had my first “meeting and experience” with the “syndrome” when my oldest son moved out from the home for around 10- 11 years ago. I just didn’t know that it was “the empty nest syndrome” I went through. I should really wish I had know- maybe and probably I had made some other choices in my life then 🤔.

“The empty nest syndrome” is actually not a kind of illness or disease, even it can feels like that for some parents. Special mams.

It’s more a term describing that the nest is empty, the kids are moved out.  Furthermore, it is about insecurity, or a kind of feeling of loss that many parents can experience when their children grow up and move out of the nest / home. A kind of emptiness and sadness, a kind of grief.

One day you have your baby ducks in the nest- and suddenly the nest is empty- something that can create different types of feelings, emotions and thoughts 🧡.

One era in the life is over, and a new unknown, “unsure” and a bit scary era is in front of you. So many years has contained the child or the children. Raise them up, take care of them, following them up in different eras in their life,- like for example school and maybe various leisure activities.

And it’s many years you have been a parent, a mammi and daddy. At least 18 years of your life you have been a parent with a child in your home and life. In many cases actually more year then 18 years too, it depends how many children you have and how old your children are when they are moving out from the nest. And suddenly this life- situation changes- you are not “needed” in the same way anymore as a mammi or daddy.

Many, perhaps especially mothers, feel uncertain about what to fill their days with.  Many people suddenly feel that they are standing there without a purpose anymore.  The purpose has been to take care of the child / children, raise, support, take care of – and it has all changed shape, form, structure when the child and children moved out.

It is only natural to be sad when this part of life is over, and it is easy to look at this era in life as the end – and that is it too, a end of one era in life, at the same time the beginning of something new. And hopefully something exciting too.

It is only natural to be sad when life changes, and it is only natural to feel that those changes also feel very challenging.

Fortunately, this grief, this feeling of having lost something, the feeling of loneliness and emptiness is a temporary feeling, for most parents.  But it is a deep and difficult feeling to feel while “on” for a while.  And it is important to take the time to feel these feelings, spend time learning to deal with them, spend time adjusting to the new life.  And the older you get, the less you can tolerate and cope with different transitions and changes at once too.

It is not always and in all situations it is accepted to feel sad, and unfortunately “the empty nest syndrome” is one of these situations.  But it is perfectly fine to be allowed to feel sad, and to cry.  And it can be good to talk to someone about these feelings and thoughts that arise when going through “the empty nest syndrome”.

It’s just not so easy to talk about them to “all and everyone”, but maybe with someone who are going through the same, or have been through “the empty nest syndrome”.

On top of “the empty nest syndrome” also the menopause has a bad habit to “show up” in a woman’s life in this stadium of life. And it can be a bit much to handle emotional now and then- something that’s fine, and hard and difficult as well.

Some women prefer to be alone, use time to “feel and think” through what they are going through. Other prefer to handle “the empty nest syndrome”, as well as menopause differently.

What’s correct for one is not sure it’s correct for someone else- and that’s fine, that’s okay. We have all different ways to handle the different experiences and challenges in our life.

That the children grow up and out of the nest also does something with one’s identity.  What to do know? What to fell the days, the time with? Who am I know when Im not a daily mammi or daddy anymore? One can even feel useless, and not quite know what to do with the days, time, life.  Some get pets, others new interests and hobbies.

We are different and handle “the empty nest syndrome ” differently. In my next post I will share some of my own thoughts, experiences and feelings about “the empty nest syndrome”. Even my daughter moved back to “the nest” Autumn 2021 I do feel and have felt and will also go through more about and around “the empty nest syndrome”. And I know I’m not the only mammi that’s “goes” through this kind of changes, challenges and experiences during this period in the life. But it’s not always so easy to explain “it” for “all and everyone”.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I have been really lucky and had 3 baby ducks in my nest- one baby duck is still jumping a bit in and out of the nest- but I still do feel on “the empty nest syndrome” now and then.

“The empty nest syndrome” is not a illness or a disease. It’s more a term describing that the nest is empty, the kids are moved out, and the different feelings, emotions and thoughts that’s “shows up” when the nest is empty 🐣. We all handle “the empty nest syndrome” differently, at the same time as many parents goes through it on one or another way 🧡. 

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