I will probably do it again and again… 😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

My three baby ducks are young adults children now and in general also live on their own,- but now and then they still need to live in my home for a period and more. And I’m starting to wonder if that’s a part of my new “era” and epoch in my life? To not live totally “on my own” for to long …. at least not yet 😊.

“My three baby” ducks on their way out in the world,- but now and then they turn back home to their mammi 🥰

I’m on my own again now, my home is “empty” and it’s just me in the house, and I need to admit it’s nice and quiet, just the way I like to have it now at days in my home, in my life. But this time I think I’m not going to “brag” to much over my new epoch and era in my life,- this “part” where I think I’m going to live alone in my home because my children has moved out …. again 😅. I have already done that one a couple of times,- and it wasn’t quite “correct”.

I also need to admit that I’m going to do this over and over and over again,- let my kids live in my home for a while, for a period when ever they need this kind of help from me. No matter how tired I’m or how “needy” I’m with this focus on my self, my life and my time. And my children know that- I’m here and I will be here as long as they need me – no matter how, why, when and what 🧡.

And I know I’m incredibly lucky that have this possibility to help my children in this way,- let them have a bed to sleep in, food on the table now and then when they need it, and need this kind of help from me 🧡.

And I know I’m incredibly lucky that have this three children that obviously feel in their own a kind of safty and comfort with coming back and back and back again to their mammi’s home when they need this kind of help ❤. And I’m incredibly grateful for exactly this,- that my children actually feel in a way safe and comfortable around me, and loved by me- if not I don’t think they have come back home again as they do now and then ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

My three “baby ducks” needs now and then to be back in the home with their mammi- and even I’m finish with all “this” my children will always be welcome to stay in my home whenever they need it ❤.

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A year ago ❤🛫

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it’s a year since my middle son did moved to Norway 🧡. A year since I have hugged him and kissed him.

I’m not the only mammi that haven’t been able to kiss and hug my child, my young adult child, in a year. And that’s because of this corona- situation.

I really miss him. Miss to have him around me, not live together, but just be able to see him now and then, like I did when he was living in Spain. To hug him, kiss him.

I’m very grateful for the possibility to text him, talk with him and see him on “facetime” like WhatsUp and Messenger. And I know all is fine with him up there in Norway ❤.

He have a job, he is soon finish with the driving license, he is training football and exercises, he is spending time together with family and friends, and has even found an apartment he wants to buy 😊.

His plan was to visit me, us, here in Spain during this summer, but it became a bit difficult because of different restrictions during travelling to Spain from Norway. Special Spain. Because Spain has, and in a way still is, a very “red” country for Norway when it’s comes to the corona- situation.

Hopefully he will be able to visit me in Spain during this Autumn, but I don’t know yet, we don’t know yet.

A year goes fast and still so slow, and we do manage to “put in” all kind of different experiences during a year. In one way this year has went fast, in another when it comes to my middle son, I feel it’s like forever since I hugged him ❤.

I’m very grateful all is fine with him, he is healthy and he is enjoying his life, he is a young adult and it’s natural that he lives his own life, but sometimes it’s a bit to fare away. I’m a bit to fare away from him, he is a bit to fare away from me ❤. But this is life, special during this corona- situation.

I miss my middle son, I think of him every day, I text him, and I’m so lucky that I’m able to “see” him and at least give him some “air” – kisses and “air” hugs during Messenger or What’s Up ❤. It’s not for all mammi’s to be able to do that.

And I’m incredibly grateful he is doing well up there in Norway ❤. He is happy in his life, he is enjoying his life ❤. And I’m incredibly proud of him and proud he is my son and proud to be his mammi ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

This photo was taken one year ago at the airport in Malaga/ Spain- my middle son and me ❤ A photo that tells more then any words can say ❤

One year ago my middle son did moved to Norway, and I haven’t been able to see him, hug him or kiss him during this year ❤. I really miss him, but at the same time I’m very grateful he is doing well and is happy in his life❤. And I’m very grateful for things like What’s Up and Messenger too ❤.

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My first holiday guests in my holiday home 😊🏡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Since I moved to Spain I have had holiday guests (family and friends) from Norway every Spring, Summer and Autumn for closely 6 years, except from this two last years. Reason, – the corona- situation. But last weekend I actually got a couple of holiday guests ….”from” Norway, or more correctly, some Norwegian holiday guests 😊. My first holiday guests in my holiday home 🌞.

It was actually “just” my daughter and her boyfriend, Nathaniel Caprino, but still it was a kind of holiday guests, and my daughter really needed a “environment” change and a tiny holiday after being sick for some weeks- and of course she ( and me as well) needed a bit “mammi love and care- time” after the illness, because it was not possible for me to give her that when she was sick 🧡.

My daughter, Mathilde and her boyfriend Nathaniel Caprino on holiday in mammi’s home ❤ So sweet they are 🥰

The plan, my plan, was to have, or “house” them, from Friday to Sunday, but they wanted to come already on the Thursday 😅. Obviously they really wanted to have a holiday close to the beach, and maybe one extra day with me too? 😊

It was of course great to see them both again 🥰. But my daughter is still a bit out off energy after the Covid19 sickness. Hopefully she will recover little by little and get all her energy back again 😊.

In general their holiday weekend went very well, so well that my daughter actually wanted to come back on holiday this weekend too 😅. They are very welcome 🧡, but not every weekend, and not this weekend. I need to be a bit selfish and just take care of myself now and then too now when it’s actually starting to be a bit more “me time” 😊. But of course they are very welcome another weekend when it suits both me and them 😊.

Nyhet - vårsko til dame er i butikk

I did write “in general”,- because it dropped up a couple of unexpected challenges 😅. Well,- challenges have in general a ( bad) habit to drop up a bit unexpected, and of course also in times when it doesn’t “suits” very well to handle different challenges, but they still need to be handled in some or another way 😳.

My plan was to go to the grocery store and shop some food for the weekend after I was finish at work on Friday. But for some reasons my bank card and my bank account wouldn’t be in function 😳. So that one I could forget 😔. Lucky for me, I in general always have some kind of food in my fridge and freezer 😊.

We did barbecue two of the evenings, and I made taco/ nachos mix too, and even a Norwegian dinner called “lapskaus”. It’s a kind of stew, but still a bit different. I also made pancakes and chocolate cake as well, and drinks,- well,- when I did borrowed Irene’ s car I actually bought in a bit big quantum of water, coca cola, water with gas, juice and so on. So no empty stomachs even there was no grocery store shopping for the weekend 😊.

I was in my bank on Monday and Tuesday, and some had actually tried to hack into my bank account 😳, so they had closed everything down. All is fixed now, and I can go to the store again 😊.

But the “biggest” challenge this weekend was probably the toilet 😳🚽. I have been a plumber several times during this weekend because the toilet clogs 😳🚽. It’s clogs even when we didn’t throw any toilet paper into the toilet, but even a bit “poo poo” was enough to clogs it. This was not to fun, and unfortunately I let a bit if my frustration going out over them 😔. But I told them sorry after, because I knew it wasn’t their mistake, but you know how it is sometimes? It’s the closest ones that gets your frustration.

That one need to be fixed, this toilet issue, but we did manage it anyway during the weekend 😅. I’m obviously a pretty good plumber so I plumped the toilet several times, but I’m still not a so good plumber that I can fix it for a permanent time, just temporarily 😊.

Maybe it’s the cockroach I threw in the toilet over the week ago?  It is so grumpy that it now blocks almost all “toilet traffic”? 😳

And yes,- my daughter and her boyfriend are the first one who are trying out my guests room and the guest bed 🛏. And both was very agree that it was the best guest bed they have been sleeping in, even better then the one they have in their own home 😴 😊. That’s good to know, then I at least know my guests will sleep very well here 😊😴.

I know my daughter and her boyfriend had a great holiday weekend, and both are very welcome to take a new holiday weekend or two an other time 🧡. But just not this weekend,- I need a bit time to just be me too, now and then too 😊.

But all in all, – it was a great weekend together with this two young adults children 🥰. And they have really enjoyed the beach, the sand, the sun, the ocean every day during the weekend 🏖. And I have enjoyed their company 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The guests room in my home,- nice and cozy and ready for my first holiday guests 🥰.

My first holiday guests has been visiting me, they didn’t travel very long, but still it was a bit like a holiday for them 🥰🏖. Some few challenges “showed up” during their holiday weekend,- but not worse then it in one way or an other could be handle 😊. And I know now that the guest room is very functional for sleep over guests 🛏😴.

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I feel on a kind of sadness 💙💙❤

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I feel on a kind of sadness inside me. Not sadness over new wrinkles or lighter hair, or hormones balance that’s changing. But a kind of sadness that an era in my life is over. The era to be a fulltime mammi. This is over.

I’m still my children’s mammi, I’m always going to be that, but not in the same way I have been for closely 27 years.

I’m actually not sad over the fact that my children are young adults and live on they own either,- but because an era in my life is over, and this time will never come back.

Maybe it sounds strange to feel on sadness, but at the same time still not be sad? Or feel in a kind of grief while not being grieving? But that’s still the way I feel inside me,- because I’m a mammi and because an era in my life is over for always.

I think it’s just someone who have been in the same situation as me that actually will understand what I mean- when it comes to feel on sadness and grief, but not be sad or grieving, because of a era in life is over.

It’s not like I go around and cry all the time, or want my children to move back home again. I’m good in that way,- this is something I feel inside me, in my heart, soul and thoughts, and it’s actually difficult to explain. And I allow myself to feel this without too much interference and influence from outsiders too.

I’m very grateful for all the time, the years, the memories my children and me have together ❤. And I know we will create new memories together too, but in a different way then before 😊.

The sadness is over a time that’s over. An incredible fantastic time together, but also an incredible busy and hard days as a single mammi. I don’t miss the business, at the same time I’m very happy I know I tried my very best to follow up and raise all my three children in different eras in their life ❤.

I hope, think, believe and actually see my children has got a lots of good things and stuffs in their “bagback” from growing up together with me 😊. But of course I also think about all the things I could and should done differently when they was children and growing up. As well as when they was teenagers and on their way to be young adults.

It’s many things I should wish I could done differently, at the same time as I can’t go back to the past and change anything. And I can’t bother myself with thoughts like that either- then I’m going to be “nuts” in my head.

What I can do is to be grateful for being their mammi and for the marvellous young adults they all three are become ❤. And I’m, as I mention, incredibly grateful for all our time and memories together ❤. But I’m also going to allow myself to feel on this sadness and a kind of grief I have inside me for an era in my life that’s over, and use the time I need to use on “this” feelings.

I know this sadness and feeling of grief will change and be different, but I’m using the time I need to “go through” this feeling of sadness and grief inside me in my own way. And like I mention, – it’s difficult to explain how, why and what I’m feeling, it’s just feelings inside me and an era in my life that’s are over together with my children, an era who will never come back, – and that’s the way it is, and that’s the way the life is too 💚.

And now I stand on the starts line to an new era in my life, and at the moment I choose to just stand there a bit too, on the starts line, and feel a bit over emotions and thoughts in relation to a time that is over, before I choose to find any new directions in my life, and start on a new era in my life 💚.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A photo from a photo- so not the best photo,- but still from one of many best memories in my life as a mammi and together with my three children ❤. (I think this is around 12- 13 years ago) 😊

I stand on the starts line to an new era in my life, and at the moment I choose to just stand there a bit, on the starts line, and feel a bit over emotions and thoughts in relation to a time that is over, before I choose to find any new directions in my life, and start on a new era in my life 💚.

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I have baked a little for my children 🥯🍪💛

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 💛

I’m enjoying my Easter holiday, and I’m using it to more and less what I had in mind too 😊.

I have been sleeping a lot, and I needed it. It was some very busy days on the phone before the Easter at my customer service agent job 🎧. That’s the way it is sometimes 😊. And I know it will be busy on the line after the Easter as well, so I need to “recharge” my batteries a bit 😊.

I have been working at my freelance work too during the Easter. But that’s a job where I can log in and out a bit like it suits me, so I can more and less choose when I want to work as long as there’s work to do. And it’s has been some work to do the lasts days, and that’s good 😊.

And I have been baking to my children,- my oldest and my youngest. The one in the middle is in Norway so it’s a bit difficult to bake something to him. But maybe my daughter is travelling to Norway next month, and then she can bring something from me to my son in the middle 🥰.

Homemade cinnamon buns 😊

I like to bake, and I like to help my kids with fill up their freezer a bit. And of course I bake something my kids like to eat too😊. So at my first baking day it’s became homemade cinnamon buns 😊.

I know my oldest son is working a lots of nights at the moment, and I know he can be a bit lazy with the food then. So then it became some pizza whrils too from mammi 🍕.

Homemade pizza whrils 🍕

And then it also became some homemade sweet cookies with a lots of calories. Something that’s good for both of my kids (actually all three, but still one is in Norway 😊) and me. I have that opinion that it’s better to have a couple of kilos to much on the body then to less. Something that it’s a bit difficult for both my children and me. We are obviously just created to be a natural thin, but still we can “help the nature” a tiny bit and as good as we can with some good and homemade food with a touch of magic calories for our bodies now and then 😊.

Homemade American cookies 🍪

It was actually one of my students when I was a teacher for bakery and conditioner many years ago that teached me this recipe for the American cookies 🍪.

And to the end the cookies that takes longest time to back- Sara Bernard cookies 🍪

Normally I bake Sara Bernard cookies to Christmas, but this Christmas became and was a bit different then “usual”,- so I made them to the Easter instead 😊.

You will find all the Norwegian recipes under the category for “Homemade Norwegian food and recipes” , if you are interested to try to bake some of my “baked goods” 😊. I have made and shared this before 😊.

My mam did this to me,- baked different kind of “baked goods ” when I was living in Norway so I could have in my freezer 😊. And I really presage it. It made busy days with three children so much easier for me 🥰. My children don’t have their own children yet, but I know they have some busy days at work. And if I can make their days a bit easier with some homemade food and “baked goods” in their freezer, I do it with love and pleasure ❤.

If you want to try some of my “baked goods” I have shared with you today I hope you will enjoy it. I think it’s tasty and delicious, but we all like different things 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My “baked goods” this Easter to my children so they can have some homemade and tasty food in their freezer for busy days 🥰

I have been baking a bit to my children during the last Easter days, so they can have some Norwegian homemade and tasty food in their freezer for busy days 🍪🍕. I like to bake, and it’s in general nice to have something homemade and baked to also offer friends and guests when they are dropping by 🥰.

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