Am I without traditions and culture? 🇧🇻

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

This week was the Norwegian Constitution day 🇧🇻, and I used this day as a day off from “all and everything” for a tiny little while 😊. I could have celebrate together with some friends in Benalmadena as well as some friends in Fuengirola, but I did choose to just rest this day, in the sun,- and it was not to bad at all 🥰.

I’m still a bit low on energy, but slowly the energy is coming back now,- and that’s feels so great 🥰.

Marius, my oldest did work, Ruben did celebrate in Norway together with his friends, and Mathilde did her work together with a tiny celebration in Bali 🇧🇻. It’s make me happy to see my kids still do a bit of some of our traditions and Norwegian celebrations 🥰.

In a way I have “lost” many of this kind of Norwegian and family traditional and cultures celebrations during the last years. Some of the “losing” actually started before I moved to Spain. They started when I was in the relationship that wasn’t to healthy for my mind and soul up there in Norway. And, unfortunately, I haven’t managed to keep up with to many of my Norwegian traditions and the traditions I did grow up with after I/ we moved to Spain. I have tried, but slowly it’s a bit like the time, the daily life in a “new” country and the life on it’s own has in its own way slightly “erased” my/ our traditions.

I feel a bit “naken” , or more correctly, I feel my life is a bit “naken” without the traditions and cultures celebrations I did grew up with. At the same time I’m in a place in my life now where I need to find a kind of new rhythm when it comes to the traditions and cultures celebrations I had in Norway, because I’m not in Norway anymore.

I’m was perfectly fine in the sun during the Norwegian Constitution day this week 🌞. But of course I also did gave this traditions and cultures celebrations a thought and two. Am I without any specific traditions and cultures celebrations now? 🤔

If I have been in Norway I had maybe celebrate the Norwegian Constitution day,- I think, but I’m not sure- because who to celebrate the day together with in Norway? Everyone have their own to celebrate together with,- family and friends, and of course Ruben was and also had been together with his friends this day,- natural enough 💙.

And that’s also an other reason why our traditions and culture celebration are the way they are at the moment,- because we all four ( me and my three lovely children) are in different places in our life at the moment,- and also have been during the lasts years. We are trying to find our way in each of our lives, while walking a little next to each other as well ❤💙💙❤.

At the same time as we actually have created and made a kind of celebration during the Christmas- time as well as the Norwegian Constitution day, and my children’s birthdays too, and some few others traditions from our Norwegian culture. Not in the same way as we did when we did live in Norway,- but a kind of celebration in our own tiny, but nice and cozy way 🥰.

My birthday is many years since I did celebrate,- the exception was this year 🥰. Ruben did visit me/ us here in Spain the week I had birthday,- and we did celebrate my birthday together with just be together, order food delivered to the door ( a luxury on it’s own for me 😊) and we did watch a good movie together,- a cozy and in it’s own way,- perfect birthday, with the most amazing birthday present ever,- a surprise visit from Ruben 🎁❤.

In one way I do miss to celebrate our culture traditions the way we did in Norway when we did live in Norway. I miss family birthday parties, and other family “events”,- at the same time as I’m actually not sure I do “fit” in “there” anymore.

Some weeks ago two teenagers in Norway that I’m an aunt too, celebrated their baptism. I need to admit I did send them a lots of good thoughts for their day. And I also wondered how it had been to be there together with them, celebrate together with them and the family. At the same time as I think I don’t fit in “there” anymore. I have been away from “it all” a long time. I think I have felt very uncomfortable to be there, to be honest. They live their lives, I live my. And I feel different from them, a bit like an “outsider”.

At the same time as I do miss the different “old family culture traditions and celebrations” I don’t miss it, because we are not in Norway anymore,- and we need to try to find our own way to celebrate at the same time as we keep some of our “old” celebrations and create our new traditions and celebration “touched” with our culture in a new area in our life. Like make and create something that suits us as the family we are now, with something old and new traditions together in a way that’s best for us 😊.

I know my children have the tradition they did grew up with in their heart, mind and soul, and I have them too. Something Im very grateful for ❤ . They are just “resting” a bit, this traditions and cultures celebrations, and I think,- slowly when all four of us have found more our new places in our life we will get our new traditions and celebration together with some of the old one 🥰. I’m not worried about that,- this is a part of the life,- the different changes in life 🧡. But of course I at the same time will say I do miss now and then what was,- long time ago up there in Norway 🤗. What I’m incredibly grateful for that I and we have a lots of amazing memories together from different cultures and traditions celebrations in Norway 🥰. And good memories are gold worthy,- and really something to build something new on when the time is there 😊🤗. I have probably not missed the culture and traditions celebrations from Norway if they wasn’t some fantastic memories 🧡.

I like culture and traditions celebrations,- if not I have probably not miss them or given them to many thoughts. It’s like I also like the regular routines in the daily life 😊.

So no,- I’m not without traditions and cultures celebrations,- they are still there inside me, just “resting” a bit,- and slowly I’m, together with my children, are going to create our culture and traditions celebrations up again, build from something old and something new 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Me ,- the photo is taken on the Norwegian Constitution day this week,- after a lovely rest in the sun. And I’m without any kind of makeup,- it’s in its own way represented like I sometimes feel my life is a bit “naked” without traditions and cultures celebrations.

I’m not without traditions and cultures celebrations even it feels like that sometimes 🇧🇻. They are there inside me, in my heart, mind and soul, they are just “resting” a bit until we find our own and new way to celebrate the different traditions and cultures event with something new together with something old 😊.

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I will be careful with “replacement” 🥀🎁

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m on my own and are going to be living alone for a while now, (at least as fare I know- but you never know when it come to my kids 😅) , and this weekend I have used to pack down Mathilde’s things and stuffs in boxes 🎁. So now my home is really ready for a big house cleaning 😅🧹🧼. The big Spring cleaning next weekend 🌞🥀.

It’s not so dirty, but it’s get a bit dusty here and there, special when you are packing, and it’s easier to keep the house and home in “order” when “all and everything” are clean and in order and…kremt ….organized 😊. I like to have things organized, and that one is easier to keep up and follow up when it’s just me 😊.

I know many get a kind of “replacement” when the kids are “out of the nest”, something I actually really can understand. It gets a bit empty around you, and also this,- you are actually use to both have company and to take care of someone else. And in general not just for a while, but for many years. It’s a kind of a lifestyle, to be a mammi and parents, if I can use that word. Lifestyle. And to turn around to a new lifestyle in a bit it’s not the easiest thing to do, and not just done in a bit either.

And when I say “replacement” I hope you understand that I don’t mean anything or anyone can replace the young adult children. My children, your’s children. But some people in a way find a other living creature to take care of and keep them with company when the children are out of the nest.

Some get a dog, other a cat or maybe a other kind of animal to keep them with company and to take care of. Some even get a new child- and it’s nothing wrong with that. Some also maybe get into a new relationship, get a boyfriend or girlfriend. I’m not going to do anything of those things,- I’m going to be very careful with any kind of “replacement” after Mathilde (and also my sons) have moved out now. Special when it comes to something that needs to be taken care of in some or another way,- except from my self 😊. I don’t want to have that kind of responsibility either,- for a dog, or cat, or turtle or baby or boyfriend or some thing like that. I think I have enough with the responsibility for just myself for a while now 😊.

I’m in a place in my life now where I mainly want to just have the responsibility for just me for a while 😊.

For some people a kind of “replacement” feels natural after the kids are out of the nest, and for others is not. For me it doesn’t feel natural to find something that “replace” my children now. At the same time as I know my self very well . I have lived with my self for a couple of years now,- so I know a bit about my self. And I’m a person who in a why like to “take care of” in one or another way. As a mammi, as a friend, as a girlfriend, as a teacher, as a costumer service agent on the phone, as a assistant nurse, take care of guests and so on.

And I know I’m going to be a bit restless in a couple of weeks, I know that too,- “been there, done that” a couple of times now 😅, and I know I can in a “weak” moment make the wrong “replacement” decision.

That’s actually one of the positive things with all the moving in and out process to my children have done 🧡. I get more and more conscious about what’s happen with me during this getting use to “the empty nest” situation 🐣.

But I’m a bit tired now,- and need to be careful to not make the wrong “taking care of” replacement and decisions now. Because,- when all comes to all,- I actually need a break from it. I’m tired, my whole body is tired. I need to be honest with myself and focus on my job, myself, my plans. And not to much more then that for a tiny little while. I’m not ready for to much yet,- but I will be there in a bit 😊.

But I’m still going “replace” 😅. Just not with a dog, or a cat, or a new baby, or a boyfriend,- but instead use my time to maybe focus a bit more serious on my plans for my paintings, exercising and in a couple of weeks hopefully start to study too…Spanish 📚. And of course also use time together with family and friends. I just need to get my “breath” a bit back first 😊.

And by the way,- I already have a “living creature” to take care of. I have “replaced” Mathilde with a paprika/ pepper plant 🌶😅. Mathilde like peppers very much, so before she moved to Bali I sowed seeds from both red and green peppers.  And they are beginning to grow and grow.  For me at the moment, it’s enough to take care of them, give them so water and have a cozy chat during the day- and yes,- that’s correct, I do have a tiny chat with the pepper plants 🌶😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The green and the red pepper is growing. My “living taking care of replacement” and responsibility after my kids are out of the best for a while 🌶😊.

I’m in a place in my life now where I need a tiny little break from to much responsibility and to much “taking care of” for “living creatures” 😊🐕🐱. I’m not going to “replace” Mathilde, or my sons, with a dog or a cat- I did “replace” her/ they with some pepper plants instead 🌶😅. I think that’s enough responsibility for me for a while 😅😊.

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It was Easter, but not quite a holiday 😊🐣

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The Easter is soon history for this year, and it was Easter in our home, but not quite a holiday 🏖. But the weather have the last days really became more and more like summer holiday weather 🌞.

I’m very happy my first day in the Easter was a relaxing day, because the next days felt a bit chaotic 😅. And of course it’s reason for that,- my daughter is leaving in just two days, and different papers needed to be in order, friends and some family needed to say Goodbye and things and stuffs needed to be packed and organized….and the kilos for the baggage have been weighed a couple of times too 😅⚖. But now I think Mathilde is ready for her big travel and some exacting and new adventures in her life,- to Bali in Indonesia 🏖

I’m in also in one way ready for her to travel, at the same time I have had a bit mixed feelings in my stomach and heart the last days. Bali is fare away 🌏 It’s not like she’s moving “just around the corner” or four train stations away 😳.

I’m looking forward to be just me for a while now, at the same time as I know it will be very empty in the home. The first days, maybe even the first weeks will feels empty. Empty, at the same time a bit nice and quiet too. And I know I’m going to miss her so much 😔, it feels like I miss her already, and she haven’t even travel yet. At the same time as I’m incredibly happy for my daughter and this incredible opportunity she have in her life and in her working- situation 💛.

Mathilde and my today 😊. Not the best photo- but absolutely better then nothing 🥰

I have been through this before,- my children are moving out….I go through different phases I my life like miss them a lot, cry a bit, think about all the things I should done better as a mammi for them , go through some regrets as a bad mammi. I’m restless, I’m dont sure how to organize my days even I have a plan and more then enough to keep myself busy and so on and so on……Parents that has been through this know what I mean ….And then when I feel I’m starting to have a bit control and overwive over my life without living together with my children they are moving back home again 😅.

When I have started to find my rhythm and routines in my dailylife , a life that’s just mainly contains my stuff and things, plans and how to organize different things in the home as well as the days and my life, I need to turn this a bit around,- and of course my children needs to do that too, but not in the same way. Because they are moving back in to their mammi.

Then it’s back to the “old routines”,- and they are not so easy to find back to either not for me, not for my children,- because I have my new one, my kids have their own ,- so when they are moving back home it’s a mixture of my new routines, my kids routines and lifestyle ……and also a kind of expectations that the “old” routines in our home are still the same as they was before my kids moved out- at the same time as they bring with them their new lifestyle. It’s not easy,- not for me and not for my children,- but I’m probably the biggest “challenge” in this situation 😳.

You should think I was starting to be a bit good to handle this “out of the nest- situation” now, and not at least use to it. But I’m not. It’s more and more challenging when they are moving back home, but it’s actually also more and more challenging when they are moving out again too 😳. I’m not sure why it is like that,- but it is.

I get so, so tired when I live together with my children because I’m actually a bit finish with that part of my life and that kind of responsibility. At the same time as I really enjoy and love to spend time together with them 🥰.

I have a couple of times welcoming my new area in life. When my children have moved out of the nest. I’m not going to do that this time 😅. I’m not sure what my new area in life is…..yet. And I also know that when Mathilde move back to Spain again she probably move back into my home for a tiny while when she’s looking for her own apartment. And I’m fine with that. I’m prepared for that.

So the Easter is over, the summer is coming and my daughter’s suitcases are packed and ready for a great travel to Bali 🏖. I’m ready too,- even with my very mixed feelings in my heart, soul and stomach. I’m ready to live just for myself for a while 😊. Maybe it’s a kind of travel that too,- I just don’t know it yet? 😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My daughter’s suitcase is beginning to be ready 😊👝🛍

The Easter is over, and a new daily life is just “around the corner” for both my daughter and me 🏖. We are both going to have some new experiences in our life, and also some new adventures- but in very different ways 😊🧡.

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Happy Easter to you all 🐣😊🌞

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The Easter is here, the Spring is in the air,- and I wish you all some Great Easter Days 🐣🌞.

I have been looking forward to some days off for a while now,- and my plans for thise Easter Days is not very much. Relax, enjoy that the Spring is in the air, maybe paint a bit, and spend time together with my daughter,- and also Marius, my oldest and his girlfriend that’s coming back from Paraguay this week 🌞. And maybe I’m going to socials a bit together with some friends too.

Today it’s just one week until my daughter will be on the plane to Bali, and ready for some new adventures in her life, and a lots of new knowledge too 😊. So I want to spend as much time as I can together with her before she’s travelling. I’m actually not sure when I will see her again. But I also know she is going to spend a bit time together with some of her friends before she’s leaving as well as she need do work a bit and also start packing and organize the last things and paper work for her long and exacting travel in life 🏖😊. So she have a bit to do the last days before she’s leaving.

I’m going to take the days a bit as they are coming this Easter, but be available for Mathilde when or if she needs me 😊. I have two days off from my job, and then I need to be a bit like a “working bie” on Saturday on the phone 🎧🐝. Hopefully most of the costumers are on Easter Holiday so there will be a bit silent on the phone 🤞😊. And then I have two more days off from my work before a the “normal” working days are “up and running again” 😊🎧. I’m really looking forward to some days off even there’s a day with work inbetween 😊.

I hope you have some fantastic Easter Days to look forward to 🥰.

I wish you a great Easter Holiday 🐣🧡. And I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are as well 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I’m so ready to enjoying some Easter Days now 😊🐣

I wish you all a Great Easter 😊🐣. I hope you all have some relaxing and fantastic days to look forward too 🧡. I’m just looking forward to some relaxing Spring days, as well as using time together with two of my children. And maybe be a bit extra available for Mathilde- because it’s just one week until she is getting on a big and exciting travel in her life 🏖🧡. Happy Easter to you all 🧡🐣.

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Goodbye March ☔ Welcome to the Spring and April 🌱🤗

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

And then March was over too. I’m a bit happy for that,- it was a bit demanding month, at least in the mental area. For me more mental tired, for my daughter- mental challenges, but also tired. Both are a bit tired, but in two different ways 😊😴. Not tired of each other, but just the situation we have been through. But that’s life,- isn’t it?😊

But there’s still different things to be grateful for during March even it was a bit challenging month 😊. I’m Thankful for my friend that “borrowed” her ears to me when I needed someone to talk to during this month 🧡. And I’m grateful for the great friends my daughter have that has used their time together with her when her days was not the easiest 🧡.

I’m grateful for that our things and stuffs in Norway are “on the road” and in the direction Spain now 😊. And I’m grateful for canvas and glassbottles, oilcolours and a creative mind and two in our home 🎨😊.

I’m looking forward to “create” a colourful backyard “cafe” in my home area 🎨😊

I’m always grateful for my children, and I feel very lucky and thankful for that I have a good job 🤓😊 as well as my freelance work 📝. For me a good job is a stable job 🙏💛.

March was stormy, not just mentally, but we got a lots of rain and wind from Sahara that in it’s own way “coloured up” our days…..and all our things outside too 😅. I’m still not finish washing and cleaning that,- it wasn’t the easiest to clean up to be honest 🏖🧽.

Goodbye, goodbye March,- it was what it was. Experiences and knowledge in different ways and forms, maybe special the mental area this time? 😌

I’m looking forward to both meet and start on April. I’m looking forward to start to “prepare” my “backyard cafe” for the Spring and Summer, as well as the roof terrace 🌱 🌞. I have started to plant some plants “here and there”, and it’s so nice to see they are growing.

My daughter is going to have a terrace party in our roof terrace for her friends before she’s travelling to Bali,- and yes, if everything goes as it’s planned she will be on her way to Bali and some new and exciting adventures 20. April 🏖✈

April the month I became a mammi for the first time,- it’s my oldest son’s birthday month 🎁. I’m not sure if I’m getting older or he is just growing up very much and a bit to fast? 😅. I can’t believe that I will have a “child” in age 28 during April 😳. Wow,- imagine that 🥰.

I think April will be a bit more “relaxed” in the mind that March was 🤯. But I know there will be more then enough to do during April too, but in a very different way then during this month we now are waving Goodbye and Thank you too 🧡.

Welcome April,- the Spring is in the air 🌱🌞. And things will also change in our home,- and in general changes are good even they can be a bit “scary” because they are unknown,- like changes in general are. But this time I’m looking forward to some of this changes,- like for example live a bit my life, live a bit on my own and alone 😍. I love my children, and I love my daughter and her company too,- but it’s a time for everything in life,- like leave the nest 😉🐣.

I hope you too are looking forward to meet April and have some nice things in your life to look forward too 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Look how nice and colourful it can be in my “backyard cafe” this Spring and summer 🥰.

Goodbye, goodbye March- Thank you for the experiences 🧡. Welcome April,- I’m really looking forward to meet you 🤗.

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