Very much for very little ❤📦 😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

In February my sweety pie of a daughter was on holiday in Norway. She visited friends and family before her travel went to Bali 🏖. But before Bali she had a ” longer stop” in my home again for some more weeks 😊.

Unfortunately, or maybe I should write, typical 😅? But Mathilde manage to forget her wallet in Norway. And in there was her cash, her Spanish bank card, her train ticket and her Norwegian bank card as well 😳. So she did travel from Norway to Spain without any kind of money, but luckily for her she managed to let me know 🙏. Thank you so much for internet and mobile and different social media channels we can chat on 🙏.

My plan was actually not to pick her up at the airport, because the train goes directly from the airport to our home, but without any kind of money, what else could I do ? 🧡 And parents do a lots for their children,- I know because I do as much as I’m available to do for mine three sweethearts 💙💙❤. As I for example did for my daughter today as well 😊. And my parents also did for me,- I know they did a lot for me ❤.

Her best friend in Norway did send the wallet to her in the mail addressed to Spain….and it was sent in the middle of February. And Mathilde did wait and wait and wait for her wallet to come in the mail to her here in Spain. And it did…..for just a couple of days ago 😅. And just in case it was sent to a post office in the centre of Malaga, around a 30 minutes train trip from our home, and a tiny walk for 15- 20 minutes from the train station too (and of course 15- 20 minutes back to the train station as well) 🚂. But before I went to the post office I needed to go the her work office in Malaga and pick up this “pick up note” to get out the wallet from the post office. And then back to her work office and deliver the wallet there 👛. Because one of her colleagues is going to Bali in June and visit the office “down there”,- and then he also can bring the wallet back to Mathilde 👛.

So it has been a bit running from one place to another place and back again today 😅. And when I had the chance I also brought with me some summer dresses he can take with him to Bali and Mathilde……it’s the summer dresses that doesn’t fit me anymore 😳👗.

But this tiny little wallet I did buy in the store for 3 euro to Mathilde in January this year, has now cost a bit more to both get it “down” to Spain as well as out of the post office 😅. Okay,- one of the card in the wallet is also an ID card to Mathilde, so that one I can understand it’s of a bit value for Mathilde,- but the two other ones are already replaced with new ones 😊. And the cash,- well she can’t use euro in Bali anyway. But obviously this wallet, this tiny little “piece” have a bit more “value” then 3 euro for Mathilde. Maybe because she got it from me?🥰 ( …at least I can believe so 😅). So of course I did what I could for her today so her wallet will be back in her hands around closely 5 months after she “lost” it 🧡.

Look at this tiny little wallet- that was forgotten in Norway and then went on a 3- 4 months travel to Spain before it hopefully will be in Mathilde’s hands again in the middle of June ,- but then in Bali 🙏🤞

But like I mention, this tiny little wallet did I pay 3 euro for, but to get it “back” in the correct hands again has been a bit bigger cost and challenge, to be honest😳.

Mathilde’s friend in Norway payd 50 euro for the post sending, something we of course transferred back to her account. And then I needed to pay 35 euro to get the wallet out from the post office today 😳. I knew it was around 35 euro cash in the wallet, but that did help me very much 😅. Because I needed to pay them before I could get the wallet. And just in case the post office only accepted cash, no card, so I needed to find a ATM and then go back again to the post office and try again.

I had also my passport, my NIE, a copy of Mathilde’s passport and NIE, and just in case her birth certificate too 🙏. The post office was most interested in my passport and her’s birth certificate. The rest they didn’t use one second on 😅. Mathilde had also written an email to the post office,- a kind of confirmation that I was going to pick it up this mail for her. That one was not necessary, they have probably not read it yet either,- but okay,- its better to be safe than sorry 😊.

So like I told Mathilde today,- it has been a bit of work and costs to manage to get “back” her tiny little wallet, and it’s still not in her hand. Cross fingers for that her colleague remember to bring it with him to Bali in June now🤞. Then, when, or maybe if it comes to Mathilde in June, this tiny little wallet has been on one of a trip as well as “the value” is a bit higher then 3 euro now,- it has cost a bit more then that, so Mathilde should get it back 😊🧡. And hopefully she doesn’t loose or forget to much, like wallets or mobiles, in the future. Hopefully a lesson and two has been learned? 🤞🙏

And yes,- of course I did this for her today,- I’m still not sure why this wallet have the kind of value it has for her,- I didn’t ask,- but I think one of the reasons is her ID, even she already have one kind of ID, and then I also can create my self my own imagenation that’s it’s because she got it from me 🥰😅. But as a mammi, and daddy and parents, we do a lots of small and big things, and sometimes very much for very little for our children ❤.

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Look how tiny this wallet is,- is closely at the same size as my hand 😅.

As parents we do a lots of different kinds of things for our children 🧡. And sometimes we do very much for very little,- like I did “run” around in Malaga after a tiny little wallet that has use 3-4 months from Norway to Spain,- so my sweety pie of a daughter hopefully can get it back in her hand in June,- but then in Bali 😅🤞.

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So then it’s Bali next for my tiny little sweety pie 🏖❤

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have just followed my daughter to the airport and now it’s Bali next stop for her for a while- closely. They are going to have stop in Istanbul and change the plane there befor the travel continue to Bali 🛩🏖. And,- well my sweety pie is not so tiny anymore- she is actually a young adult woman that’s travelling to Bali for open up a new Norwegian office “down there” 😊. That’s not to bad when you are 21, 5 years old 🥰.

She is not travelling alone- at the moment they are two young adults women travelling together, and they are also going to work together 😊.

It wasn’t easy to say Goodbye to Mathilde today,- and I need to admit I did try my very best to not cry 😔. I’m not very good to this “Goodbye’s” when it comes to my children,- that’s just the way it is ❤.

And I don’t know why my tears are jumping up into my eyes,- like for example today 😥. Because I’m so incredibly happy for this opportunity Mathilde get, so grateful for this exciting travel and experiences both in her work situation as well as in life 🥰. And Im so proud of her too 🥰. So why do I cry? I know I’m going to see her again- I just don’t know when, yet. And I know she will handle this so very well. The trip, the travel, the job, her new adventures. And like I mention- I’m so happy for her- but still my tears popping up.

I’m wishing my daughter the best travel in her life so fare 🥰❤and I’m also saying Goodbye to her for a while,- and trying my best to not cry- because then she will start crying too.

It was very empty to come home after the airport today- and like I told Mathilde,- when I’m hearing the train I think she is on the train, on her way back home, and will very soon pop up in the door and say “Haalloooo” – like she normally do 😊. But that’s not going to happen,- not for a long time now.

But Thank you so much for the internet and social media- I’m going to be able to be in contact with Mathilde during texting as well as any kind of video chat too now and then 😊.

So now I got one child in Norway- my lovely middle son, Ruben 🥰, and one child on the way to Bali- my sweet little butterfly Mathilde 🥰,- and my great oldest son, Marius, is still “around the corner” and just three train stations away 🥰. For now- but of course his plans can change too 😊.

Well,- that’s life. The children grew up, move out and in and out and in again and then out again from the nest, my nest- at least my does 😅. At the same time as they are actually creating their own adult life in their own way, inbetween this moving- in and out process 🧡.

And me? Well,- I’m in a place in life where I’m still not young anymore at the same time not old either- in the middle in life to be correct. And what does people do in the middle of the life? I’m not sure- but I will probably find out 😊.

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It’s going to be a long time before for I can hug her again- so a long, long warm and squeezing hug was very necessary today 🤗🥰

I’m not sure why I’m starting crying when I say Goodbye to my children,- but I do. Even when I know all is fine with them and I so happy and grateful for them and their new adventures in their life 🧡. I did my very best to not let all my tears popping up today- but it was a bit hard to say Goodbye 😔❤.

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It was Easter, but not quite a holiday 😊🐣

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The Easter is soon history for this year, and it was Easter in our home, but not quite a holiday 🏖. But the weather have the last days really became more and more like summer holiday weather 🌞.

I’m very happy my first day in the Easter was a relaxing day, because the next days felt a bit chaotic 😅. And of course it’s reason for that,- my daughter is leaving in just two days, and different papers needed to be in order, friends and some family needed to say Goodbye and things and stuffs needed to be packed and organized….and the kilos for the baggage have been weighed a couple of times too 😅⚖. But now I think Mathilde is ready for her big travel and some exacting and new adventures in her life,- to Bali in Indonesia 🏖

I’m in also in one way ready for her to travel, at the same time I have had a bit mixed feelings in my stomach and heart the last days. Bali is fare away 🌏 It’s not like she’s moving “just around the corner” or four train stations away 😳.

I’m looking forward to be just me for a while now, at the same time as I know it will be very empty in the home. The first days, maybe even the first weeks will feels empty. Empty, at the same time a bit nice and quiet too. And I know I’m going to miss her so much 😔, it feels like I miss her already, and she haven’t even travel yet. At the same time as I’m incredibly happy for my daughter and this incredible opportunity she have in her life and in her working- situation 💛.

Mathilde and my today 😊. Not the best photo- but absolutely better then nothing 🥰

I have been through this before,- my children are moving out….I go through different phases I my life like miss them a lot, cry a bit, think about all the things I should done better as a mammi for them , go through some regrets as a bad mammi. I’m restless, I’m dont sure how to organize my days even I have a plan and more then enough to keep myself busy and so on and so on……Parents that has been through this know what I mean ….And then when I feel I’m starting to have a bit control and overwive over my life without living together with my children they are moving back home again 😅.

When I have started to find my rhythm and routines in my dailylife , a life that’s just mainly contains my stuff and things, plans and how to organize different things in the home as well as the days and my life, I need to turn this a bit around,- and of course my children needs to do that too, but not in the same way. Because they are moving back in to their mammi.

Then it’s back to the “old routines”,- and they are not so easy to find back to either not for me, not for my children,- because I have my new one, my kids have their own ,- so when they are moving back home it’s a mixture of my new routines, my kids routines and lifestyle ……and also a kind of expectations that the “old” routines in our home are still the same as they was before my kids moved out- at the same time as they bring with them their new lifestyle. It’s not easy,- not for me and not for my children,- but I’m probably the biggest “challenge” in this situation 😳.

You should think I was starting to be a bit good to handle this “out of the nest- situation” now, and not at least use to it. But I’m not. It’s more and more challenging when they are moving back home, but it’s actually also more and more challenging when they are moving out again too 😳. I’m not sure why it is like that,- but it is.

I get so, so tired when I live together with my children because I’m actually a bit finish with that part of my life and that kind of responsibility. At the same time as I really enjoy and love to spend time together with them 🥰.

I have a couple of times welcoming my new area in life. When my children have moved out of the nest. I’m not going to do that this time 😅. I’m not sure what my new area in life is…..yet. And I also know that when Mathilde move back to Spain again she probably move back into my home for a tiny while when she’s looking for her own apartment. And I’m fine with that. I’m prepared for that.

So the Easter is over, the summer is coming and my daughter’s suitcases are packed and ready for a great travel to Bali 🏖. I’m ready too,- even with my very mixed feelings in my heart, soul and stomach. I’m ready to live just for myself for a while 😊. Maybe it’s a kind of travel that too,- I just don’t know it yet? 😊

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My daughter’s suitcase is beginning to be ready 😊👝🛍

The Easter is over, and a new daily life is just “around the corner” for both my daughter and me 🏖. We are both going to have some new experiences in our life, and also some new adventures- but in very different ways 😊🧡.

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The first party and the topic was 1920s🎉😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

My daughter had a party for her friends this weekend on our roof terrace 🎉. She is going to travel to Bali next week and wanted to have a kind of not “goodbye party”, but “see you when I’m back” party for her friends 🎉😊. But before that was possible it was necessary to clean and wash 🧼🧽🧹….a lot…. after all the yellow sand from Sahara. It wasn’t sand anymore, it was mud and clay 😅,- and not so easy to just wash and clean away either,- but we manage to “clean up” most of it…..after some days of work 😅🧼.

This was actually the first party that has been arranged on the terrace, actually in our home, after I/ we moved in here. So my daughter was the first one that had a party on the roof terrace 🎉,- and it wasn’t any kind of party either,- the topic was 1920s 💄😊. Of course- it’s around 100 years ago 😊. So all her guests included her self was so fabulous and classy dressed up like from 1920s 😊. So it was a bit important that the terrace was clean and all the tables and chairs as well.

Look at this two fancy friends 🥰. My daughter, Mathilde and her friend, Martine- so classy and fancy dressed up for the 1920s party 🎉

I think they had a great time there up on the roof, and I know they behave perfectly 🍾. There will not be any problems for me to let her have a party on the terrace together with her friends an other time- when she’s back from Bali 🏖.

I’m very impressed over my daughter’s friends,- they are a nice “bunch” of young people, behave well and did dress up so very well too, they looked all so cool in their 1920s clothes and costumes 🎩.

And Martine and Mathilde “in colours” 😊.

I have also fixed the dress Mathilde used on her party during the last days before the party. It’s a dress that my youngest sister got tailored to me when she was on a 3 month trip in the East, including to Asia and Indonesia for around 21 years ago.  The dress is in real silk, and as “old” as Mathilde, and not least, in fact Mathilde is also the first to wear the dress.

I have tried it on a couple of times, but did never had the “correct” event to use it in. This weekend was a perfect event to use it. Maybe a bit symbolic too? Because she is going to the East, the dress is from the East, the party was for her, the dress was made when she was a baby, and many, including myself, think Mathilde and my youngest sister look at bit similar when my sister was in the same age as Mathilde is now, and also when she was younger. I have actually sometimes now and then even called Mathilde with my sister’s name 😅.

Here she is- my brave daughter that are going to “turn her nose” to Bali for a while 😘

It wasn’t easy to get any photos of my daughter where she was smiling,- and she told me that the reason for that was because women in 1920s did have any rights to for example vote, or the same education as men, or same salary for the same work, or the possibility that she have,- travel to another part of the world, be a part of starting up a office there and be able to work there as well as get new experiences and knowledge. And that’s true- women have a bit more rights and possibilities now at days then 100 years ago.

And the party place became ready and nice too. To be honest I was not sure if we would manage it,- because it was a lot to clean up. More and less everything needed a tiny bit of a wash 🧼. But look at this:

The party terrace is ready for my daughter’s friends and the 1920s party 🎉 Not to bad at all- but imagen most of this was with mud and clay before we started cleaning up 🧼😊. I’m very impressed over my daughter and my job 😊.

And me,- well I enjoyed my own company in my cozy backyard cafe this weekend,- not a bad place at all 🥰.

Look at this- not to bad to be “banished” to a backyard when it looks like this 😊

I’m very happy that it was my daughter that had the first roof terrace party in this home 🥰. And I’m grateful for her friends 🧡.

I’m not sure if I’m going to have a roof terrace party like this with my friends, not with any 1920s topic either. I’m not very good to host “big” parties,- the few times I have tried I needed to cancel the parties because in general the guests did chancel or didn’t answer my invitation. But I’m going to use the roof terrace to spend great times together with my children and friends during the summer 🌞. Just some few good friends at the time, not like any kind of party, just more like small gatherings 😊. Because I’m very good to host small and cozy gatherings 😊.

So that’s actually what our closely 2 first weeks in April has been used to,- preparing the first root terrace party with the 1920s as topic, fixing the dress to Mathilde, get different paper work Mathilde needed ready for her travel to Bali, and of course doing our jobs as well inbetween as “normal” things like shopping food, washing clothes, preparing food, cleaning the home outside as well as inside. It’s not a challenge to “fill up” the days, that’s for sure 😊. And yes,- I have been a bit good to socializing with some friends and colleagues too inbetween “all this” 😊. Tried? Yes,- I’m.

And now the Easter is soon “just around the corner” too. I need to admit I’m looking forward to a couple of extra days to just don’t do to much now 😊.

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See you soon as possible 😊

Two good friends- enjoying each other’s company and friendship as well as looking forward to a stylish 1920s party 🎉

My daughter’s getting ready for her trip to Bali, and this weekend she had a terrace party together with her friends 🎉. Topic 1920s 🎩. And all of her friends was so cool and classy dressed up 🥰. The days flies a bit to fast, and there’s not a big challenge to “fill up” the days either at the moment 😊.

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Colours and canvas in our home 😊🎨🥰

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It’s colours and canvas in our home at the moment. Or that’s not totally correct,- it’s in general always colours like acrylic colour and oilcolour and canvas and glassbottles of different kinds in our home, but at the moment we have it of it “everywhere”, not just in my painting area 🎨.

My daughter did find her colours, and have both started to draw, colouring and painting on canvas 🎨. I prefer to paint with oilcolour, she prefer acrylic painting. And look at this beach she have painted and created:

Pretty cool painting painted by my daughter 🎨

It’s great to see her drawing and colouring and painting again 😊. Then I know things in the painful black hole inside her is starting to be filled up with colours instead of this painful emptiness 🎨.

So at the moment we have painting, canvas and glassbottles both in my painting area as well as a bit “here and there” around in our home 😊. Just the way it should be under a healthy healing process 🧡.

I have one of her paintings on the wall in our living room. I like her paintings, they are so beautiful and so different from my paintings,- also the way it should be 😊. Unique and individual art style 🎨.

This is on our wall in the livingroom- pretty cool painting 😊🎨 Painted by my daughter 🥰

And she have some under process too,- like I in general have 😅. More then one to be honest 😁.

One of my daughter’s painting under process- look at the colours- from darkness to brighten up 😊

In a way we live a bit like in a atelie at the moment. A bit big one too 😅. There’s painting, canvas and brushes both in our livingroom as well as in my daughter’s bedroom and also in my working area 🎨. But it’s just for a while it’s like this. I’m okay with having it like this for a tiny while, but it’s a bit messy too 😅. I like to have things around me in a bit more “order” then it is now at days. But it is what it is,- and I think it’s a bit important for my daughter to have it like this now at days 😊.

In a couple of weeks my daughter is moving to Bali for a while, so it’s good for her to have this creative healing process in her mind and soul in her home now. And when she is on her way to Bali I’m going to put her things away until she comes back to Spain again 😊. And then I can have the home in a bit more order and the way I prefer for a while too 😊.

We find different ways to heal inside when we have been exposed for some mental challenges,- and this painting process is a way for my daughter to heal 🧡. She fills up her mind and soul with colours- and that’s good 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

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An other one of the paintings my daughter has painted 🎨

We all do heal in different ways after being exposed for some mental challenges in our life 🥀. In our home colours are one of the “healing process “,- and at the moment there’s bruches and canvas, colours and drawings a bit “here and there and everywhere”🎨😊

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