April is over 🐣and May has already started🌹

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

April is already a finish “capital” and May has already started. And like I feel the other months so fare this year went a bit fast, April did too.

In April we, or more correctly, Mathilde had the first roof terrace party in my, or again more correctly at that time, our home. A party thst went very well 🎉😊. But still I’m not going to have a party like that on the terrace.

It was Easter as well in April, and Mathilde did “leave the building” straight after and started on her new adventures in Bali 🏖. And so fare so very well, she is enjoying her new life in a new and very different place from Spain, and Norway too. She is very good to put out different posts both on Instagram as well as Snap chat. And it’s nice, funny and exciting to follow her and in a way be a part of her daily life. A tiny part, but still a part 😊.

I got some painting orders too in April, something I think are both exciting, a funny creative challenge as well as it gives me a bit ” performance anxiety”. Something that’s also good because I get more aware of how I paint and not least the customer’s wishes, as well as do my best to create the performance and illustrations that the customer wants to have painted 🎨. It’s a very new challenge for me, but a challenge I really like, a creative demanding challenge.  Demanding in a positive way 😊.

And my oldest son became 28 years old too during April, and he also got a new job, a job he wanted 💛🙏. I’m incredibly grateful and happy for that 🙏💛.

I have used my time after Mathilde moved to organize the home in a way I like it and want to have it. I have also baked some cakes to have in my fridge for guests that’s dropping by 😊.

I’m in general not bored 😅. A creative soul have in general always something to do 😅.

Last Saturday, that means two days ago, I got a text from one of my colleagues. He needed a place to stay for 3 nights, until we get our salary into our bank accounts. I said yes to that question, but I was also very clear- it’s just then for three nights, because I knew the question would come- to stay here longer when he was “well installed” in the guests room. But that’s not a option for me now, not at all.

I can’t and I don’t want to live together with anyone now. Not even for money. I choose rather to work more hours every day then live together with someone. I really need this time on my own now. To get to know “me”. Some will both think and say I’m selfish,- I actually don’t care very much about that. It’s not correct for me to live together with anyone at the moment. I’m not there in my life now. I need to find my place in my life, and I can just do that when I’m just with my self.

So why did he, this colleague, need a place to stay for just some nights? Because our salary get paid out the 1.every month. And yesterday was both a Sunday and 1. May. So the salary button will not be pressed before today. And then some will have their salary into their bank account today, others tomorrow. I will probably have my salary into my bank account tomorrow.

He is inbetween apartments, but couldn’t move into the other apartment before he have paid for the deposit, and he needed to be out of the other apartment because someone else was going to move in there yesterday, the 1.of the month.

Who is this colleague of mine?  He is a nice young man, about the same age as my eldest son. He is originally from Somalia.  moved to Norway with his siblings and mother when he was 11 years old.  And moved to Spain this Autumn to try some new adventures in life.

And why did I say yes to have a more and less foreign person in my home? My first thought was that as a mother I would have greatly appreciated if someone had helped my child in such a situation.  My second thought was that I myself have received so much help from other people when I have been in a difficult situation. So of course,- if I can help for some few days I do that.

Of course the question did came to rent the guests room, but my answer was and still is no. It’s not going to change. It’s not a option for me now,- then I prefer to work more hours every day. I need this time to just be me, find out who am I when I’m not in the mammi- role, and to be honest,- I need to handle this new period in my life too that’s “knocking on my door” called menopause, without to many people around me.

To setting boundaries and saying no was and is a good and liberated experience for me, and something I will do more in the future, and a word that I will become better at using. It made me actually happy to learn to be able to use “no” without feeling guilty 😊.

I’m very grateful for what April have “teaceh” me,- like it’s possible to have a kind of big party in my home, but that’s nothing for me. My daughter handle her new life in Bali so fare very well,- something I’m incredibly grateful for 💛. My oldest son got a new job he wanted, and Im so happy for that 🙏💛 . I have got some creative challenges, something that’s a new and exciting experience for me, and I know very well that I can’t live together with anyone at the moment, but I can help out for a tiny little while 😊. To be more clear about this last one,- I did say no because that’s correct for me, but it’s very new for me to say no to someone else because it’s actually correct for me to say no. In general I say yes,- even when I don’t want to say yes. I’m actually learning to say no to things I don’t want or can do. Things that is not correct and don’t feel correct for me to do. I’m not use to that- but it feels not to bad at all to actually say no, and do something that’s just for me and myself, and feels good and correct for just me. (Obviously I’m growing up too, and learning to use the word no 😅).

It is my kind of freedom to be able to live alone now. And I have family and friends I want use time together with in my home the way I want to use the time. That’s the way it is for me at the moment 😊.

May is very welcome,- even I don’t know very much what this new month will bring me 😊. I know I have a week holiday next week, and I’m going to use that week, that days to do what suits me best- no one else then me 🥰, just me, except from a couple of days when I’m going to look after Zorro,- my eldest son’s dog, but that will be a nice 😊. To have Zorro will be a nice relaxation in the days, and Zorro does not require much other than food and water in his bowls and some airing 🐕.

I’m going to continue painting in May, and do my work as well when I’m “back” from my holiday. And I’m actually going to deliver a basket with oilpainted glassbottles to Natasja and the Cafe Casa Barella in Mijas- glassbottles for sale with solar lights inside, a little more environmentally friendly light in other words than what I use now 💡🌞. And I know I’m going to spend some very nice and cozy time together with family as well as friends 💛. So yes,- I’m looking forward to meet, explore and experience May 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

May is already started with sunrise and nice and warm days- the summer is here 🌞

I’m grateful for the different experiences April gave me 💛. They was nice and gentle 😊,- and I learned to use the word “no” more for myself and more consciously than ever before.  A very liberated experience for me 💛.  May has already started, and I know I looking forward with pleasure to meet what May has to offer 💛🌹 .

#newmonth #april #may #mammi #raisingup #growingup #gettingolder #challenges #changes #thougths #no #settinglimits #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #experiences #differences #experiencesinlife

Welcome November 🍃🌹 Thank you October 🌹🍂

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been working a lot in October, mainly because I had some private students who was going to have an big Norwegian exam in October, called Bergenstesten. So I needed to try to do my best to guide them to the exam, make them as ready and prepared I could. And that has taken a bit off time 📚. But also my normal job is a customer service agent on the phone takes time, even that one has just taken the “normal” weekly work time. And my freelance work- I’m using a bit more time on that one know for different reasons at the moment 😊. I have some dreams and wishes I want try out and see if it’s possible to manage 😊.

And just in case, “of course” my teamleder in my customer “service agent on the phone job” wanted to “upgrade” my skills too in October, so I could and can do some more and other tasks in the customer service agent job🎧. But I need to admit I didn’t feel for any more skills or new tasks or training at all at the moment 😅. I’m actually find on the phone like everything is at the moment 😊. Maybe special because I have different tasks I work on in my other job, my freelance work- like reach my own dreams in life 😊😅. And that’s not to be on the phone as a costumer service agent “for ever”. It’s something different. But the customer service agent job is fine- so please don’t misunderstand me. I was not just prepared for a bit more training in that job straight after finishing teaching my students 📚😅. And I have some dreams and wishes I really wants to try and see if its possible for me to actually reach them and manage them. But then I both need to put in some “offer” in both in my time as well as a bit of money.

To have dreams and wishes are free, but to try to reach them cost both time and money, and I want to and need to try to see if its possible for me to reach and manage my dreams 🌠. I don’t know that if I don’t try, and I can’t “put it on hold” for to long know anymore, I have already done that to long. I have set up a timeline to see if I can manage this, my dream. And I will probably know in a two or three years if or if not I manage it 😊.

I will say Thank you to October for the different opportunities my education, knowledge and different work experiences , and last but not at least, my life experiences gives me when it comes to new and exciting possibilities in different job situations – like my freelance work 🙏.

And I’m Thankful for that my students manage the Norwegian exam, Bergenstesten. It was a bit of a stress, but is was worth it 📚.

October has been very much focus on job in one or another way. And then, unfortunately, not so much time together with my friends, but I have manage to squeeze in a date with my Spanish friend at least🥰. And of course time with my children, – on the phone with my middle one in Norway, and the oldest and youngest has dropped by my home now and then. One of them even dropped by with all his/ her things too 😳😅. Jepp,- one has moved back home to the mammi again during October. No comments from me on that one yet 😅.

I wish November very welcome,- this month is also one of my favourite months- because my daughter was born in November 🧡. And in November there will be homemade birthday chocolate cake too 🎂.

I know November will be busy with work in different ways and forms. And also to continue doing and working with my dreams beside ordinary working- hours and days, and yes, be a mammi in my home as well. And try to squeeze in both some dating with my Spanish friend as well as some nice and cozy meetings together with my friends 😊. And in some or another way I really need to start with some regular workout and exercises again too 😅. I’m just not sure how or where to put those hours in my “schedule” 🤸‍♀️. And I also need to try to be better to write and share posts as well 📝.

With some good planning I can manage this- special if I give my self time to accept that things takes time and maybe little by little I will manage to put “all and everything” in a functional schedule that’sworsk for me- but not “all at once”, and also accept that there will be days where I will not manage closely to do anything- like today 😊.

I did started on a 2 weeks holiday today,- and I have actually not done very much- and I just needed this day to not do very much too – just relax 😊. Then I will manage to do a bit more other days 😊.

Thank you October for changing and challenges, knowledge and wisdom 🙏🍂. And Thank you for my jobs and works and different opportunities I get 📚📝. Thank you so much for my patience friends 🧡,- and Thank October for just the possibility to “meet” you with your ups and downs 😊🧡. And Thank you October for some nice and refreshing walks on the beach during some afternoons- it helps to clear my mind 🏖.

Welcome November- my daughter’s birthday month 🧡. And welcome to two lovely weeks of holiday,- where I just need to use the time and days to “feel up my batteries”, to relax, be a bit selfish and take a bit care of just my self for a tiny little while,- in my own way 🧡. Welcome November to a new freelance job- a job I’m looking forward to start in 📝🌠. And Welcome November with your unknown changes and challenges- I will try my very best to handle them as best as I can in a positive, open minded way and with as much joy I can manage to give different challenges in life 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you 🧡 . Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😊

From one of my walks at the beach during an afternoon in October 🍂

Thank you October for changing and challenges, knowledge and wisdom 🙏🍂. Thank you for different works opportunities 📚📝. Thank you so much for my patience friends 🧡. And Thank you October for some nice and refreshing walks on the beach during some afternoons to just clear my mind 🏖. Welcome November with your unknown changes and challenges, opportunities, knowledge and wisdom 🧡🍂.

#changes #challenges #work #lifesituation #job #opportunities #october #newmonth #exam #teaching #knowledge #November #focus #positivefocus #holiday #dreams #goals

Goodbye September 🥀Welcome October 🍂⚘

Hi ❣It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

As August just “run away” September did too. And I haven’t been very good to write in my blog lately. It’s different reasons for that,- the main reasons are busy with work and trying to work with my private plans inbetween too 😊.

September brought both joy and happiness as well as a couple of challenges 😊. Things happened in September as well is in every month during the year,- both in negative as well as positive directions.

When people ask if I want to have the bad or good news first,- I always want to have the bad news first so I have something good to look forward too after,- the good news 😊. And like the different challenges that has “dropped by” in September I have thought a bit about if I should share them in my blog or not. And I have decided to just let the negative things be in the past and instead focus on the good things in September and just continue looking forward and on the bright side 😊.

To bring my thoughts back to the different negative challenges will not do my any good anyway 😊.

Like I mention,- it has been a bit work during September and busy days. But that’s the way it is, and it’s a good thing to have work even when it can be a bit busy and I can be a bit tired, and the energy to “all and everything” else aren’t quite there 😊. Like to write in my blog.

I have been so lucky and spend a lots of time together with my oldest son, and I also got the great news that I can rent this home until March 2023 😊 🏡. And I have also been on a date,- I can tell you a bit more about that one in an other post 😉. And good friends has dropped by my home too 😊.

So in general I just want to say Goodbye September and thank you for both the great moments as well as the different “lessons” 😊. And I wish October very welcome,- one of my favourite months 🥰. My middle son is born in October so this is his birthday month and just because of that also my favourite month 💙. And Natasja has birthday too in October, also a good reason to welcome October 😊.

I don’t know very much what I can expect from October,- there will probably be both lessons in life and new experiences, and happiness and joy too 🧡. So I just welcome this new month that has already started 🧡🤗.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡.

See you as soon as possible 😊.

October is one of my favourite months because my son in the middle was born in this month 🧡.

Like all months September also brought joy and happiness as well as some different not the best challenges 🥀. I choose to not use my energy to focus to much on the negative challenges I met in September, it’s so much better to turn the focus on the positive things in life 🧡.

#positivefocus #lifeisgood #thelife #thedailylife #mychildren #mammi #changes #challenges #lifeis #september #october #newmonth

July is over 🏝 and August is already started 🏖

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

We have already started on August, and July is already history. The days, weeks and months goes very fast, I think. So I in my own way, like to have this “summary” where I take a tiny look at the month that’s finish just to see that I actually have done a bit of different things during the month even when it feels like the time fly so fast that I sometimes feel I didn’t manage to do “anything” during the last month. But I did,- also in July 🌞.

I also like to be grateful for the different things and experiences the month has brought into my life in one or another way 🧡. As well as try to look forward to some new and unknown for the upcoming month, – like August will bring this time 🌞.

It’s in general always something to be grateful for, and in general it’s also something to look forward too,- even when we don’t know what it is always 🧡.

The ocean- photo taken from one of my walks in July 😊

I have had some really nice walks in the area, both in some mornings as well as evenings. It’s nice to “get to know” the area I’m living in, and a nice walk close to the beach isn’t to bad to do at all 😊.

I have been creative in July too, – both finish and delivered 25 painted glassbottles to Natasja and their cafe Case Barella in La Cala Mijas, as well as finish a knitted baby blanket, and also created me a creative corner outside on the roof terrace 🎨. I really like to spend time in “my outside corner”,- it’s a kind of luxury to be able to and have the possibility to paint outside under the sun 🌞🎨. And one of the glassbottles I painted to Natasja was obviously so nice that it actually was stolen 😋.

I have visited a good friend of my and her newborn baby girl at the hospital, and hopefully I will manage to visit them again in their home next weekend 🥰.

I have really tested out my kitchen with different kinds of food and baking. And the mini oven in my kitchen manage to bake both tasty dinners and cakes 🥮.

I have had nice guests too, both in the afternoons, evenings and even some “holiday guests” for some nights too. So the guest room is now tested out as well 😊. And I have “created” my own “private backyard cafe”, a nice place to spend time together with my family and friends 🧡.

And the coronavirus and Covid19 did “dropped” by my family too this month, and my poor little daughter ( ….well, little- she is 20, 5 years old now) was sick for closely 3 weeks 😔. And I couldn’t visit her because of the coronavirus. And,- just in case,- “my” date also got the coronavirus and became sick too with Covid19. Well,- “my date” was maybe to take a little good in, but he had invited me on a date that had to be canceled due to illness and risk of infection. But maybe he will be my date one day? I don’t know at the moment 😊.

In the end of July was also the end of my job as a costumer service agent on the phone for one company. But already on Monday 2. August I did started in a new company as an customer service agent on the phone 😊.

So changes and challenges during July, yes. New experiences and knowledge, yes to that too 😊.

And I have a lots to be grateful for during July 🧡,- great friends, and my sweet daughter is getting much, much better, my lovely sons doing well in their life. I’m enjoying my life in the new home, and the possibility for a nice walk on the beach when I want 🏖.

I’m looking forward to August 🌞. I know it will be some very warm summer days and nights, but that’s fine 🏖. I’m already started in a new job, and I’m actually slowly started to create my self a kind of “what do I want to do with my life- my “just me” life “- plan, and is it possible to manage what I want, and in case, how to do it?

I have not to many ideas about what August will bring me, but I know it will be changes, maybe just some small ones, but a new job is a change in it’s own way 😊. I know there will be some challenges, but hopefully not to big, and to many 🤞🙏. I know there will be some new experiences and knowledge too 😊.

So,- Thank you July for what you gave me in my life, for new knowledge, nice walks and new experiences 🧡. And Welcome August with a new job, and with some new, small “adventures” in my life that I at the moment have on idea what is or are 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I’m so lucky and so grateful for this opportunity to live so close to the beach,- a beautiful and various beach with sand, as well as with lovely stones close by 🥰

I like to take a tiny look at every month that has “passed by” and just “stop up” a bit, and think through the moments, and the months different experiences I have had during the last month, as well as be grateful for the different moments 🧡. And it’s also nice to just “feel a bit” on the unknown that’s infront of me in a new month 🧡🙏🧡.

#feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #luxury #newmonth #experiences #differences #changes #challenges #coronavirus #Covid19 #july #august #beach #summer #sun #enjoyinglife #knowledge #create #history #summary

Thank you December 💙, and welcome the winter month January ❄ 🧡.

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

And then this December is soon over, and we can turn over to a new month and a new year very soon 💛. Hopefully a bit different year then this 2020 has been.

Not just became this year, 2020, a bit different for me and my children, but also December became not quite the way I had in my mind when I welcome the month a month ago.

Welcome sweet December 🧡. The Christmas- month 🎄. The month for family, friends and traditions, culture and history, religion, celebration, joy and happiness, and maybe even some touch of magic and love ?” 🌠❣

This was my thoughts around December. Not to much, but still it became a bit different then I had in my mind. It came with changes and challenges I hadn’t in my mind at all, but so fare we actually did manage to handle them in a good way 😊.

Close family and good and close friends are priceless, that’s for sure 🧡. And December showed us that, nice and easy, but still so magical in it’s own way 💛. My friends as well as my children’s friends have been helping us in different ways this month. Some did the most important Christmas- shopping for me, like the Christmas- dinner. And others helped my daughter to move her back home to me. Some has borrowed their ears and given away a lots of hugs when we needed someone to talk to, or just a hug because things in life felt a bit challenging for a tiny little while.

Traditions, culture and history around the Christmas- time. What can I say? The only Christmas- traditions I manage to do this year was the Christmas- dinner and create a cozy, nice and relaxing atmosphere as possible. But at least I manage that 😊. And traditions are anyway changing at the moment, because of the situation around the coronavirus.

Culture? I haven’t given that to much thoughts during this December, but we are from one culture and does live in another one. And it’s also seems that the culture in general are changing all over the world because of this coronavirus.

History? Well,- at least my daughter’s relationship is history and I think that’s for the best for her (as well as for my mammi heart ).

Religion? Yes,- I have turned to my religion a couple of times this month 🙏. For my daughter, for my children, for myself, for our future. I have turn to the religion with questions as well as gratefulness 🧡. And with hope, wishes and dreams as well as with Thankfulness 🧡.

Celebration, joy and happiness? Yes,- all in all we manage to celebrate the Christmas- eve, we manage to feel both joy and happiness, for the Christmas- time as well as for our family and friends 🧡.

Some touch of magic and love? In the relationship area, no not to much. But in the family and friends area,- oh yes- a lot ❤.

So I can say with peace in my heart,- Thank you so much dear, sweet December 🧡. You did showed us a lot, and you did open up some new doors in life too 🗝. Or, not open them totally up, but at least let us turn the keys around so it’s just for us to open up and move on when we are ready in one or another way 🔐 💛 🔑. There has been some changes and challenges this month, but not “bigger” then we could handle them with good help from the people around us 🧡.

Snd it’s soon to say: Welcome the first month in a new year, the cold and sparkling winter month,- January ❄ 💚. My birthday month 🎁. I have no idea what you will bring of joy and happiness, but I choose to believe there will be some ❤. And I choose to believe it will be peace and strength, nice surprises and maybe even a bit fun too 😊.

I know my daughter is going to be here, live here for a tiny little while, and I know I will get my neon paint in the beginning of the month. Neon colours I’m going to try to paint on different glass bottles. I think that will be fun to do 🎨. Except from that I don’t know very much about January yet,- but I welcome you with a open heart and mind, and will try to do my best of what the days will bring me 🧡. I’m looking forward to meet you, January, with a open mind and peace in my heart ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡.

See you soon 😊

A December rose from our patio. Flowering so nice the 15.12.2020- a flower with hope, joy and love ❤🌹

Thank you so much, December 🌹. You didn’t quite became like I had in my mind,- but still you gave us new experiences in life in your own way. At the same time there had been so much joy, happiness and love too ❤. And soon it’s just to Welcome the cold and sparkling winter month, January ❄💚. I don’t know what you will bring of joy and happiness, but I’m looking forward to meet you with a open mind ❤.

#changes #challenges #newmonth #traditions #Spain #Norwegian #livinginspain #lifeis #myblog #mylife #lifeis #lifeexperiences #feelinggrateful #openmind #newexperiences #december #janury #thankyou #welcome #positivefocus 💚🌹