I’m not ready for this …. again 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

During the two last years I have had some kind of “moving in and moving out” process mostly every second or third month in my home. Then it has been to reorganize the home as best as possible to get room and space for both the people and their things and stuffs, as well as my own.

This last moving situation was my own, and that’s around 3 months ago.

My plans changes every time in a situation like this, this “moving out and moving in”- situation, and its delays my plans too….. and unfortunately, I use time to “get back in business” again as well, to “find” my routines again. Or even find a new routine. I don’t know if this is “normal” for “all and everyone”,- but for me it takes a bit time to get back in my “normal” routines after a “moving in and moving out” situation.

In general it’s my children that’s move in and out, and now and then some friends of them too. So “here we go again” 😅.

I manage to live “on my own” for around 10 weeks this time before I got a “child” dropping by with bags and boxes, and a dog and a friend too.

And I got 2 weeks “notice” before they just come “rumbling” into my home with all their stuffs.

Some of ny oldest son’s bags stable in the livingroom at the moment

I need to admit a couple of things when it comes to this last “moving in” – situation,- I did actually cry a bit, for myself, alone in my bed, because I wasn’t and I’m not ready for this again- reorganize my home, live inbetween boxes and bags, “put my life” as well as plans “on hold” for a tiny while….again, and Im not ready to live together with anyone at the moment, to be honest, closely not even my children at the moment.

I know it sounds awful, and I feel awful too, because I feel it like this. But unfortunately it’s still the truth.

And I didn’t see it’s coming either, this “moving in”. I actually thought I was more and less finish with this “moving in and out” situation for a very long time. But obviously not.

It’s my oldest son, his dog and a friend of him that “moved” into my home for around 2 weeks ago.

I know that wasn’t their plan either, and it was really not my plan,- that’s for sure. But of course I’m helping my child, my children as best as I can with the possibility I can and have. But I told them they could just stay a couple of weeks this time, and use this weeks to find another “living” solutions.

And my oldest son knows I’m not to happy with this “solution” and situation, at the same time he knows I really, really love him, unconditional ❤. I just don’t want to live together with him any more 😅. And my son knows about this text, it’s not a secret for him that I actually wasn’t overwhelmed  by happiness for living  together with him again 😅- and he is also looking forward to not live together with me,- but it was and is necessary at the moment for him to do this 🧡.

My oldest son and his friend had actually a house they should move into, but suddenly the owner changed his mind. Not to let them rent, he chose to but put up the deposit from 2 months to 3 months 😳. And of course that’s not okay. And expensive too,- and the changes and possibilities for getting the 3 months deposit back when you are moving out is more and less, and unfortunately, a “lost case” here in Spain. And maybe even more now at days in this corona- situation and the economic situation the pandemi has “created”, then it was before.

The house or apartment you are moving out from can be in perfect order, but still the owner will find “something”, some kind if reason to not pay back the deposit. Of course there are rules and rights for this, to get back the deposit,- but it can be a long and struggling way to go.

I don’t say this is the way for all and everyone, but yes, in general when you are renting a place to live here in Spain you can just say “Goodbye” to the deposit you did pay. Like I mention,- there are rules and rights also for the one who is renting,- but the process can be long and difficult,- and yes,- we live in Spain 😉. To have rules and rights and to practice the rules and rights can be two very different things.

Anyway,- my oldest son, his lovely dog, Zorro and his friend are “camping” over in my home now at days, and I’m not to happy with the situation at all. At the same time as I struggling with feelings like being a bad and selfish mammi who want to live her own life now. I feel on guilt because I’m not very happy over this “moving in”, and it’s my child too. But for my children I try to do as best as I can to help them out, even when I’m not to happy for the situation.

I think the “worst” thing this time is that I live together with someone I don’t want to live together with anymore,- my son’s friend. I have lived together with him before, twice…..and it went okay,- and he is an okay guy,- but not “my kind of guy” or my kind of friend or my kind of living together partner.

Short summary,- he doesn’t do very much, but still except to be “served”. And have even a tiny challenge to say “Thank you” when he gets served.

Some people it’s just like they have a straw into your soul and just “drinking” out the energy. I don’t know if you have any experience with that kind of people?

I understand my oldest son and his friend’s friendship, and why they are friends, but still it’s not my kind of friend or friendship. And I actually think this is more “hard and heavy” for me to live together with this friend then to live just with my son and his dog. Maybe things has felt a bit more easier if it was just thise two that moved in? I think so.

Zorro,- my son’s dog is a very happy and easy dog- so he is actually not the biggest “challenge” now at days 😊. Probably I’m the biggest challenge to be honest 😅. A grumpy mammi 😅

They are all three moving out next week . I feel and felt bad for giving them a “time limit” to find another living solution then to stay in my home “forever”. But I have also plans and things I want to do,- kind of life where I m not just a mammi anymore……a life on my own, without any responsibility for someone else.

I need to admit I don’t have the energy for this at the moment, this living together with my children, and even more together with someone I really don’t want to live together with, and I don’t want it like this either. I need a bit of time on my own now, do my things, live my life, be just me, not the mammi- me. “Fille up” with some other kind of energies for awhile so I probably can “handle” a situation like this a bit better next time then I did and do this time.

A colleague of my told me that my children obviously and probably likes to live with me, and enjoys being around me a bit.  And that I am lucky to have children who come home, and home and home again. It’s not for all parents to actually have this kind of “opportunity” to spend this kind of time together with their children, or even be liked so much by their children. And I see and understand what she mean, and of course feel even more bad then, and a bit shameful too,- just because I actually it’s and wasn’t to happy with this “moving in” situation this time.

I’m actually incredibly lucky, I know that ❤. So there has been a lots of mixed feelings around my “living together situation” this time. Guilt, shame, feeling as a bad mammi, feeling selfish at the same time as I also want to help my child and my children ❤.

And this menopause doesn’t make the situation better or easier either to be honest. I really like and want to be alone when that one is “fucking up” with my brain. And I told my son that too. I know he doesn’t understand, but okay,- it is what it is.

I think maybe if you are a parent with grown up children, or young adults children, you know and understand why I feel the way I feel when it comes to this “moving in” again situation? Or is it just me?

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡.

See you soon 😊

A bit stuffs and things here and there,- and the friend need to camp on the sofa. I didn’t had or have any other solutions at the moment. I can’t reorganize “all an everything” either.

I need to admit that I wasn’t ready or to happy for this “moving in” situation a couple of weeks ago, and unfortunately I’m still not. At the same time I feel on guilt and shame and being a bad mammi. At the same time as I of course want to help my child, and i do feel grateful too. So you can say,- it is a bit of mixed feelings at the moment 😳😅.

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A year ago ❤🛫

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it’s a year since my middle son did moved to Norway 🧡. A year since I have hugged him and kissed him.

I’m not the only mammi that haven’t been able to kiss and hug my child, my young adult child, in a year. And that’s because of this corona- situation.

I really miss him. Miss to have him around me, not live together, but just be able to see him now and then, like I did when he was living in Spain. To hug him, kiss him.

I’m very grateful for the possibility to text him, talk with him and see him on “facetime” like WhatsUp and Messenger. And I know all is fine with him up there in Norway ❤.

He have a job, he is soon finish with the driving license, he is training football and exercises, he is spending time together with family and friends, and has even found an apartment he wants to buy 😊.

His plan was to visit me, us, here in Spain during this summer, but it became a bit difficult because of different restrictions during travelling to Spain from Norway. Special Spain. Because Spain has, and in a way still is, a very “red” country for Norway when it’s comes to the corona- situation.

Hopefully he will be able to visit me in Spain during this Autumn, but I don’t know yet, we don’t know yet.

A year goes fast and still so slow, and we do manage to “put in” all kind of different experiences during a year. In one way this year has went fast, in another when it comes to my middle son, I feel it’s like forever since I hugged him ❤.

I’m very grateful all is fine with him, he is healthy and he is enjoying his life, he is a young adult and it’s natural that he lives his own life, but sometimes it’s a bit to fare away. I’m a bit to fare away from him, he is a bit to fare away from me ❤. But this is life, special during this corona- situation.

I miss my middle son, I think of him every day, I text him, and I’m so lucky that I’m able to “see” him and at least give him some “air” – kisses and “air” hugs during Messenger or What’s Up ❤. It’s not for all mammi’s to be able to do that.

And I’m incredibly grateful he is doing well up there in Norway ❤. He is happy in his life, he is enjoying his life ❤. And I’m incredibly proud of him and proud he is my son and proud to be his mammi ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

This photo was taken one year ago at the airport in Malaga/ Spain- my middle son and me ❤ A photo that tells more then any words can say ❤

One year ago my middle son did moved to Norway, and I haven’t been able to see him, hug him or kiss him during this year ❤. I really miss him, but at the same time I’m very grateful he is doing well and is happy in his life❤. And I’m very grateful for things like What’s Up and Messenger too ❤.

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Chicken fillet in creamy cheese sauce at the request of my daughter

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

One of my goal was to make and bake all my recipes I have in my own cookbook I have made my self with different Norwegian recipes, and share them with my readers. So fare I’m a bit fare away from that goal, for different reasons. I’m not even halfway in my cookbook 😅. But I’m “on my way”- slowly, slowly 😊.

As we all know, – things don’t always goes the way we plans, and in many “cases” it’s outside situations, and not one’s own “laziness” that makes different plans change or take longer than one had actually imagined.  At least that’s my experience. So that’s why I’m a “bit” behind my “food and recipes” goal.

And it’s not just the same to cook and bake for just myself,- it’s a bit nice to cook for and to someone too 😊.

My daughter and her boyfriend has moved closer to my home and live in the area now, something that means I see them a bit more often, and can also invite them a bit more often to dinners 😊.

When my daughter was sick with Covid19 she was dreaming about some of the dinners I made to my children when we lived in our “Prairie” in Norway- and one of those dinners was “Chicken fillet in creamy cheese sauce” 🍗. So then it was “Chicken fillet in creamy cheese sauce” for dinner last weekend 😊.

It’s a very easy recipe, and incredibly tasty 😊. And of course homemade 😊.

The recipe for “Chicken fillet in creamy cheese sauce”: ( for 4 pers)

3- 4 chicken fillets, 1 box of creme fresh (around 250ml), approx. 150- 200 gr.  grated cheddar or jarlsberg cheese, 1 chicken broth, 2 crushed garlic cloves, pepper.

Place the chicken fillet in an ovenproof dish.

Mix creme fresh together with grated cheese, crushed garlic clove, bouillon cube, and pepper.  Pour the mixture over the chicken.  Bake at about 160 degrees for an hour, or 200 degrees for 45 minutes.

Served with rice and salad 🥗🍚

Sound delicious? It is,- and as you can see at the recipe it’s not to difficult to make either 😊.

I really hope you enjoy this tasty dinner as much as we do 😊. And my daughter, – she was so happy for this meal and this dinner 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

The “Chicken fillet in creamy cheese sauce”- look tasty? It’s delicious 😊.

Tasty food and dinners don’t need to be difficult to made, or even expansive 😊. And one of my children’s favourite from Norway was “Chicken fillet in creamy cheese sauce”- a dinner and meal worth trying 😊. In case you want to try this delicious dinner you will find the recipe in my text 📃.

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Trying some yeast baking in the mini oven (in the middle of the night 😅)🥐😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Like I mention in my last post it’s a bit too hot now at days here in South of Spain, something that also makes it a bit hot to cook, bake and make to much hot and warm food. Even to do some barbecue is a bit to hot now at days 🔥. Special during the daytime and afternoon 🌞. But some food are necessary even during really warm days 🥐😊. And in days like we have here South at the moment “easy food” are very welcome on “the table” 😊.

So I did decide to try the mini oven to bake some yeast baking. I haven’t try that one yet. And to bake yeast baking are a bit different then to bake different kinds of cakes, or fry a pizza.

Homemade Norwegian cinnamon rolls- tasty and delicious 😊

So I actually used a late evening and night to bake and fill up my freezer a bit with some homemade yeast baking to use and eat during this a bit hot summerdays 😊. It’s a tiny bit cooler in the evenings and nights, buy not to much when you are in front of a mini oven filled up with yeast baking 😅.

The mini oven did function perfectly, it was just a tiny little “challenge”,- it took a bit longer time to fry the yeast baking in the mini oven then in a normal oven 😳😊. Actually two hours longer then “normal 😅. So I actually did regret my “baking mission” in the middle of the night, but since it was yeast baking I needed to “go for it” when I already was started, and just finished my baking plan 😴. Oh, I was so tired and so warm long before the baking was finished 😅. But I did manage to finish, and my freezer has now a bit of homemade pizza whrils and cinnamon rolls, and they taste perfectly too 😊. And I can promise I felt in a very good sleep to that night,- even I was “hot like a oven” 😅😴. My “easy food” was not so “easy” to finish during a warm night in front of a warm oven- but it’s at least easy to eat 😊.

I need to admit it was actually a bit warm “experiences” even to bake late in the evening and early in the night 😅. But at least I manage to fill up my freezer with some pizza whrils and cinnamon rolls 🍕🥯. So now there’s some “easy” food to just pick up, put in the sun for some minutes, and “volà”,- the food are ready to eat 😊. Tasty, easy homemade food for hot summerdays 😊. And even something to serve to my guests that’s dropping by now and then as well 😊.

I have made both pizza whrils and cinnamon rolls before and shared the recipes with you. So if you want to try to bake some of it you will find the recipes under the category “Different food recipes….” in my blog 📃.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Homemade Norwegian pizza whrils too, – tasty and delicious 😊

I have filled up my freezer with some homemade food like cinnamon rolls and pizza whrils 🍕. Tasty and delicious, but I did regret a tiny bit that I started my “yeast baking” so late in a hot summer evening 🌞🌡. It became sn hot “experience” 😊🌡🍕.

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A little bit hot, yes 🌞🌡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I get “always” a bit supriced when we comes to August and the summer temperatures gets a bit “sky high” here in Spain 🌡. After living in Spain for 8 years I know August is a bit “hot” month, but I, in general, never remember how hot it’s actually can be 🌞.

This year I know it has been a bit higher temperature then before, and what’s in general is “normal” at this time of the year. There has been a “tiny” heat wave during the last week here in Spain, and yes it felt like a wave of heat too 🌊.

I like, no, not just like, I love the summertime, the sun, the beach (or even the pool) and actually that the temperature gets a bit higher during the summertime. But I need to admit that the last week was even a bit to high for me 🌞.

A wonderful sunrise at the train station one morning- and it’s going to be a nice, warm day…..even a bit “up heated” day too….🌞🌡

I really understand the concept “siesta” here in Spain now, because I needed to have a siesta every day after work this week 😴. And it has been a bit difficult to do to much then just the most necessary like do my job, drink a lots of water, eat, cool down in the ocean or under a cold shower 🚿. It’s incredibly how tired it’s possible to be when it’s over 40 degrees and maybe even a bit more then that during the day 😅. And the humidity does not help either, because it has not been directly low either.

Painting, writing, reading, be focused on something to long, even clean the house or wash clothes has been a tiny challenge to do, or knit 😅. But watch a movie or three like s zombie are going very well 😅.

Like I mention, – I have been living in Spain for 8 years now, but this August is the first year I have invested in a air conditioning on wheels, not just invested, but used it every day too, special when I’m at my work as a costumer service agent on the phone ☎️. I need to, and I want to be focused on my job, and do a good job as possible even during very hot summerdays 🌡🌞. So then it was necessary to get a tiny little air conditioning on wheels so I at least did (and can continue to do) a good job.

My tiny little air conditioning on wheels- a necessary investment during the last week 😊

I could probably count on one hand how many times I have used an air conditioning during this 8 years. But during this last week I can’t count it any more 😅.

I have been thinking it could be nice to put some of this heat on glasses for use to let a bit out now and then during the wintertime ❄. Special when we comes to February and March, maybe even a bit in January too. Because at that time of the year the temperature can be a bit opposite then now. Then it’s a bit cold. But, unfortunately, that’s not possible, that’s not the way it’s work 🍶.

The night sleep has also been a bit “cosmi comsa” too, to be honest, because I’m, my body isn’t use to have a over 2 hours power nap, or siesta during the daytime after my work.

And I’m not use to have any problems or challenges with sleeping during the nights, but that has been a challenge now. It’s not so hot on the nights as during the daytime, but still very warm. It can be the heat and the to long siesta that’s makes this challenges for my night sleep, or it can be the menopause. I actually don’t know. It can, of course also be a combination.

I have read somewhere that women in the menopause can get a challenge with the night sleep, but I don’t remember why. Different thoughts maybe? Or just the hormones changes that’s “plays” their own “games” during the night? But to be honest, I didn’t think the night sleep should be a challenge for me during menopause, because in general I just can go to bed, lay down and fell at sleep. But not during the last week 😳. I’m not use to that, to not be able to sleep. So of course I’m a bit extra tired because I don’t sleep very well during the nights.

I have even used a electricity fan outside when I have been outside in my cozy backyard “cafe” or at my sweet roof terrace 🌬. It has been necessary to just get a tiny bit “movement” in the air 🌬🌞. To get a “imagination” that the air became a tiny bit “cooler” ❄.

Are there climate changes that give us these different temperature fluctuations?  Or hot waves?  Major floods?  Landslides from the mountains?  And several other different natural challenges? 🤔. Probably. But this changes has been in the nature for thousands of years,- it all just happens a bit faster at the moment because of all the different changes we people have done around in the world, and in the atmosphere. And at the moment all I can do is to do the best of it. The changes. The challenges.

Hopefully it will be a bit better this upcoming week, a bit less heat wave, a bit lower temperature 🌞🌊. And a bit more energy and a bit more normal sleep too 😊.

But Im actually not complaining,- this is just the way it is at the moment. I feel very grateful for the possibility to actually be able to take a cold shower, to be able to buy a tiny little air conditioning on wheels, to be able to use a fan outside, to drink cold and fresh water and even feel the tiny fresh air from the ocean,- actually every day ❤. But maybe special during this last heat waved week in Spain. I’m feeling incredibly lucky ❤ for this different things and opportunities that’s, unfortunately, not are for all and everyone to have 😔

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊

My fan I use outside at the moment 😊

This last week has been a bit hot here in South of Spain 🌡🌞. I even needed to “invested” in a tiny little, but well- functional, air conditioning on wheels this summer 🌞. Until this week I could count how many times I have used an air conditioning during the years I have been living in Spain- I can’t say I can do that anymore 😊🌡🌞.

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