Very much for very little ❤📦 😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

In February my sweety pie of a daughter was on holiday in Norway. She visited friends and family before her travel went to Bali 🏖. But before Bali she had a ” longer stop” in my home again for some more weeks 😊.

Unfortunately, or maybe I should write, typical 😅? But Mathilde manage to forget her wallet in Norway. And in there was her cash, her Spanish bank card, her train ticket and her Norwegian bank card as well 😳. So she did travel from Norway to Spain without any kind of money, but luckily for her she managed to let me know 🙏. Thank you so much for internet and mobile and different social media channels we can chat on 🙏.

My plan was actually not to pick her up at the airport, because the train goes directly from the airport to our home, but without any kind of money, what else could I do ? 🧡 And parents do a lots for their children,- I know because I do as much as I’m available to do for mine three sweethearts 💙💙❤. As I for example did for my daughter today as well 😊. And my parents also did for me,- I know they did a lot for me ❤.

Her best friend in Norway did send the wallet to her in the mail addressed to Spain….and it was sent in the middle of February. And Mathilde did wait and wait and wait for her wallet to come in the mail to her here in Spain. And it did…..for just a couple of days ago 😅. And just in case it was sent to a post office in the centre of Malaga, around a 30 minutes train trip from our home, and a tiny walk for 15- 20 minutes from the train station too (and of course 15- 20 minutes back to the train station as well) 🚂. But before I went to the post office I needed to go the her work office in Malaga and pick up this “pick up note” to get out the wallet from the post office. And then back to her work office and deliver the wallet there 👛. Because one of her colleagues is going to Bali in June and visit the office “down there”,- and then he also can bring the wallet back to Mathilde 👛.

So it has been a bit running from one place to another place and back again today 😅. And when I had the chance I also brought with me some summer dresses he can take with him to Bali and Mathilde……it’s the summer dresses that doesn’t fit me anymore 😳👗.

But this tiny little wallet I did buy in the store for 3 euro to Mathilde in January this year, has now cost a bit more to both get it “down” to Spain as well as out of the post office 😅. Okay,- one of the card in the wallet is also an ID card to Mathilde, so that one I can understand it’s of a bit value for Mathilde,- but the two other ones are already replaced with new ones 😊. And the cash,- well she can’t use euro in Bali anyway. But obviously this wallet, this tiny little “piece” have a bit more “value” then 3 euro for Mathilde. Maybe because she got it from me?🥰 ( …at least I can believe so 😅). So of course I did what I could for her today so her wallet will be back in her hands around closely 5 months after she “lost” it 🧡.

Look at this tiny little wallet- that was forgotten in Norway and then went on a 3- 4 months travel to Spain before it hopefully will be in Mathilde’s hands again in the middle of June ,- but then in Bali 🙏🤞

But like I mention, this tiny little wallet did I pay 3 euro for, but to get it “back” in the correct hands again has been a bit bigger cost and challenge, to be honest😳.

Mathilde’s friend in Norway payd 50 euro for the post sending, something we of course transferred back to her account. And then I needed to pay 35 euro to get the wallet out from the post office today 😳. I knew it was around 35 euro cash in the wallet, but that did help me very much 😅. Because I needed to pay them before I could get the wallet. And just in case the post office only accepted cash, no card, so I needed to find a ATM and then go back again to the post office and try again.

I had also my passport, my NIE, a copy of Mathilde’s passport and NIE, and just in case her birth certificate too 🙏. The post office was most interested in my passport and her’s birth certificate. The rest they didn’t use one second on 😅. Mathilde had also written an email to the post office,- a kind of confirmation that I was going to pick it up this mail for her. That one was not necessary, they have probably not read it yet either,- but okay,- its better to be safe than sorry 😊.

So like I told Mathilde today,- it has been a bit of work and costs to manage to get “back” her tiny little wallet, and it’s still not in her hand. Cross fingers for that her colleague remember to bring it with him to Bali in June now🤞. Then, when, or maybe if it comes to Mathilde in June, this tiny little wallet has been on one of a trip as well as “the value” is a bit higher then 3 euro now,- it has cost a bit more then that, so Mathilde should get it back 😊🧡. And hopefully she doesn’t loose or forget to much, like wallets or mobiles, in the future. Hopefully a lesson and two has been learned? 🤞🙏

And yes,- of course I did this for her today,- I’m still not sure why this wallet have the kind of value it has for her,- I didn’t ask,- but I think one of the reasons is her ID, even she already have one kind of ID, and then I also can create my self my own imagenation that’s it’s because she got it from me 🥰😅. But as a mammi, and daddy and parents, we do a lots of small and big things, and sometimes very much for very little for our children ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Look how tiny this wallet is,- is closely at the same size as my hand 😅.

As parents we do a lots of different kinds of things for our children 🧡. And sometimes we do very much for very little,- like I did “run” around in Malaga after a tiny little wallet that has use 3-4 months from Norway to Spain,- so my sweety pie of a daughter hopefully can get it back in her hand in June,- but then in Bali 😅🤞.

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I will be careful with “replacement” 🥀🎁

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m on my own and are going to be living alone for a while now, (at least as fare I know- but you never know when it come to my kids 😅) , and this weekend I have used to pack down Mathilde’s things and stuffs in boxes 🎁. So now my home is really ready for a big house cleaning 😅🧹🧼. The big Spring cleaning next weekend 🌞🥀.

It’s not so dirty, but it’s get a bit dusty here and there, special when you are packing, and it’s easier to keep the house and home in “order” when “all and everything” are clean and in order and…kremt ….organized 😊. I like to have things organized, and that one is easier to keep up and follow up when it’s just me 😊.

I know many get a kind of “replacement” when the kids are “out of the nest”, something I actually really can understand. It gets a bit empty around you, and also this,- you are actually use to both have company and to take care of someone else. And in general not just for a while, but for many years. It’s a kind of a lifestyle, to be a mammi and parents, if I can use that word. Lifestyle. And to turn around to a new lifestyle in a bit it’s not the easiest thing to do, and not just done in a bit either.

And when I say “replacement” I hope you understand that I don’t mean anything or anyone can replace the young adult children. My children, your’s children. But some people in a way find a other living creature to take care of and keep them with company when the children are out of the nest.

Some get a dog, other a cat or maybe a other kind of animal to keep them with company and to take care of. Some even get a new child- and it’s nothing wrong with that. Some also maybe get into a new relationship, get a boyfriend or girlfriend. I’m not going to do anything of those things,- I’m going to be very careful with any kind of “replacement” after Mathilde (and also my sons) have moved out now. Special when it comes to something that needs to be taken care of in some or another way,- except from my self 😊. I don’t want to have that kind of responsibility either,- for a dog, or cat, or turtle or baby or boyfriend or some thing like that. I think I have enough with the responsibility for just myself for a while now 😊.

I’m in a place in my life now where I mainly want to just have the responsibility for just me for a while 😊.

For some people a kind of “replacement” feels natural after the kids are out of the nest, and for others is not. For me it doesn’t feel natural to find something that “replace” my children now. At the same time as I know my self very well . I have lived with my self for a couple of years now,- so I know a bit about my self. And I’m a person who in a why like to “take care of” in one or another way. As a mammi, as a friend, as a girlfriend, as a teacher, as a costumer service agent on the phone, as a assistant nurse, take care of guests and so on.

And I know I’m going to be a bit restless in a couple of weeks, I know that too,- “been there, done that” a couple of times now 😅, and I know I can in a “weak” moment make the wrong “replacement” decision.

That’s actually one of the positive things with all the moving in and out process to my children have done 🧡. I get more and more conscious about what’s happen with me during this getting use to “the empty nest” situation 🐣.

But I’m a bit tired now,- and need to be careful to not make the wrong “taking care of” replacement and decisions now. Because,- when all comes to all,- I actually need a break from it. I’m tired, my whole body is tired. I need to be honest with myself and focus on my job, myself, my plans. And not to much more then that for a tiny little while. I’m not ready for to much yet,- but I will be there in a bit 😊.

But I’m still going “replace” 😅. Just not with a dog, or a cat, or a new baby, or a boyfriend,- but instead use my time to maybe focus a bit more serious on my plans for my paintings, exercising and in a couple of weeks hopefully start to study too…Spanish 📚. And of course also use time together with family and friends. I just need to get my “breath” a bit back first 😊.

And by the way,- I already have a “living creature” to take care of. I have “replaced” Mathilde with a paprika/ pepper plant 🌶😅. Mathilde like peppers very much, so before she moved to Bali I sowed seeds from both red and green peppers.  And they are beginning to grow and grow.  For me at the moment, it’s enough to take care of them, give them so water and have a cozy chat during the day- and yes,- that’s correct, I do have a tiny chat with the pepper plants 🌶😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The green and the red pepper is growing. My “living taking care of replacement” and responsibility after my kids are out of the best for a while 🌶😊.

I’m in a place in my life now where I need a tiny little break from to much responsibility and to much “taking care of” for “living creatures” 😊🐕🐱. I’m not going to “replace” Mathilde, or my sons, with a dog or a cat- I did “replace” her/ they with some pepper plants instead 🌶😅. I think that’s enough responsibility for me for a while 😅😊.

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And then it was my oldest son’s birthday 🎉🎁💙

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It’s a bit empty in my home now at days. I’m miss my daughter’s sounds, her energies, her nice smell, her company, her voice, her hugs, her “Haallooo” when she was coming home ❤, but not her mess 😅. It’s actually the same with Ruben,- I miss him to,- everything with him, except for the mess they both could and can manage to create around them with socks and plates, glasses and different things and stuffs 😅. Marius is “just around the corner” so I don’t miss him in the same way. We can still meets now and then, something we also does 💙. Like for example yesterday 🥰.

Luckily for me it has been some busy days after Mathilde did “leave the buildig”, so I haven’t had to much time to “feel” to much on the “emptyness” after her in my home yet.

My oldest son was 28 year yesterday 💙- so I have been a bit busy with both my work, my painting- planning and of course baking “mammi’s “famous” birthday chocolate cake” to my son and his girlfriend 🎂. Well,- I can at least “believe” for myself that my chocolate cake is “famous”, but more correctly it’s probably to say it’s a favourite cake for and to my children instead 😊.

And I have not started to “clean up” the mess after Mathilde yet, I haven’t had the time. But her things and stuffs, clothes and so on needs to be put in boxes. And I will probably start with that this weekend 😊.

And I can’t quite understand that that my oldest son is already 28 years old 🤔. That must mean that I’m probably older then I’m feeling too?😅😉

If he’s getting older, means that I’m getting older as well. Hmmm….well,- something I can think a bit more about another day 😊. Today I’m thinking a bit about this young man that made me a mammi for the first time in my life,- something I’m incredibly grateful for and proud of 🥰 💙.

Marius,- my oldest and a proud mammi 🥰

My plan was to maybe just have not more then two kids,- but for some reason I was so lucky I got three healthy children. Marius is my first born, and I was “just” 21 years old when he was born. I felt so much in love with that tiny little baby boy, I’m still felt up with unconditional love for him, but he is not so tiny and small anymore 😅.

I really need to stretch me a bit to give him some squeezing hugs now- I didn’t need to do that 28 years ago 😅.

A happy son and a happy mammi- life is good 🥰.

Like I mention,- it has been some busy days after Mathilde travel to Bali, and yesterday wasn’t any exception. But I did manage to drop by to Marius and Irene and celebrate Marius a bit with some chocolate cake and just spend some time together with them for a while 😊. Very nice and cozy 🥰. And it seems that they two turtlebirds are going good together,- something that makes a mammi heart really happy 💙❤. They haven’t been able to spent so much time together the lasts months,- so it was nice to see how good they was together yesterday 🥰.

Marius is working from home, something he have done for a while now. And in general it seems that he like to work that way he does- and that’s good. But I know he is looking for some other position, possibilities and challenges now when it comes to work,- and I really hope he will manage to both go for his dreams as well as get his dreams 💛🧡. I think he will, but as we all know it’s not always about ourselves if and when we manage to reach our dreams- mostly things around us are also effected by other happenings. So I cross my fingers for him, for them both 🤞🙏💛.

They are going to Madrid for some days next month, and asked me to look after Zorro,- his dog,- something I of course do with happiness for him and they both 🥰.

And my “dreams” at the moment is to get the home a bit more “in order” during the next days. It’s not done in “a swoop” because things needs to be washed, organized and put a way in different boxes so it’s easier for Mathilde to find her things the day she is back in Spain again, as well as I have a “organized” home too during the next weeks and months 😊. I like to have thing in order, organized and a bit clean too 😁. Now I have the possibility to have my home in my way for a while, the way Ilike it- and that’s exactly what I’m going to do and have too 😁.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

And the chocolate cake made as muffins- because it was easier for me to bring the cake with me on the train that way 😊.

The days fly by- yesterday was my oldest son already 28 years old 😳😊💙. Imagine that I have a son that old? It means that maybe I’m getting older too?😅 Of course I dropped by my son and his girlfriend with some chocolate cake and hugs for his birthday 🎁. And as always it’s so nice to be together with both him and his Irene 🧡.

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So then it’s Bali next for my tiny little sweety pie 🏖❤

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have just followed my daughter to the airport and now it’s Bali next stop for her for a while- closely. They are going to have stop in Istanbul and change the plane there befor the travel continue to Bali 🛩🏖. And,- well my sweety pie is not so tiny anymore- she is actually a young adult woman that’s travelling to Bali for open up a new Norwegian office “down there” 😊. That’s not to bad when you are 21, 5 years old 🥰.

She is not travelling alone- at the moment they are two young adults women travelling together, and they are also going to work together 😊.

It wasn’t easy to say Goodbye to Mathilde today,- and I need to admit I did try my very best to not cry 😔. I’m not very good to this “Goodbye’s” when it comes to my children,- that’s just the way it is ❤.

And I don’t know why my tears are jumping up into my eyes,- like for example today 😥. Because I’m so incredibly happy for this opportunity Mathilde get, so grateful for this exciting travel and experiences both in her work situation as well as in life 🥰. And Im so proud of her too 🥰. So why do I cry? I know I’m going to see her again- I just don’t know when, yet. And I know she will handle this so very well. The trip, the travel, the job, her new adventures. And like I mention- I’m so happy for her- but still my tears popping up.

I’m wishing my daughter the best travel in her life so fare 🥰❤and I’m also saying Goodbye to her for a while,- and trying my best to not cry- because then she will start crying too.

It was very empty to come home after the airport today- and like I told Mathilde,- when I’m hearing the train I think she is on the train, on her way back home, and will very soon pop up in the door and say “Haalloooo” – like she normally do 😊. But that’s not going to happen,- not for a long time now.

But Thank you so much for the internet and social media- I’m going to be able to be in contact with Mathilde during texting as well as any kind of video chat too now and then 😊.

So now I got one child in Norway- my lovely middle son, Ruben 🥰, and one child on the way to Bali- my sweet little butterfly Mathilde 🥰,- and my great oldest son, Marius, is still “around the corner” and just three train stations away 🥰. For now- but of course his plans can change too 😊.

Well,- that’s life. The children grew up, move out and in and out and in again and then out again from the nest, my nest- at least my does 😅. At the same time as they are actually creating their own adult life in their own way, inbetween this moving- in and out process 🧡.

And me? Well,- I’m in a place in life where I’m still not young anymore at the same time not old either- in the middle in life to be correct. And what does people do in the middle of the life? I’m not sure- but I will probably find out 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It’s going to be a long time before for I can hug her again- so a long, long warm and squeezing hug was very necessary today 🤗🥰

I’m not sure why I’m starting crying when I say Goodbye to my children,- but I do. Even when I know all is fine with them and I so happy and grateful for them and their new adventures in their life 🧡. I did my very best to not let all my tears popping up today- but it was a bit hard to say Goodbye 😔❤.

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It was Easter, but not quite a holiday 😊🐣

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The Easter is soon history for this year, and it was Easter in our home, but not quite a holiday 🏖. But the weather have the last days really became more and more like summer holiday weather 🌞.

I’m very happy my first day in the Easter was a relaxing day, because the next days felt a bit chaotic 😅. And of course it’s reason for that,- my daughter is leaving in just two days, and different papers needed to be in order, friends and some family needed to say Goodbye and things and stuffs needed to be packed and organized….and the kilos for the baggage have been weighed a couple of times too 😅⚖. But now I think Mathilde is ready for her big travel and some exacting and new adventures in her life,- to Bali in Indonesia 🏖

I’m in also in one way ready for her to travel, at the same time I have had a bit mixed feelings in my stomach and heart the last days. Bali is fare away 🌏 It’s not like she’s moving “just around the corner” or four train stations away 😳.

I’m looking forward to be just me for a while now, at the same time as I know it will be very empty in the home. The first days, maybe even the first weeks will feels empty. Empty, at the same time a bit nice and quiet too. And I know I’m going to miss her so much 😔, it feels like I miss her already, and she haven’t even travel yet. At the same time as I’m incredibly happy for my daughter and this incredible opportunity she have in her life and in her working- situation 💛.

Mathilde and my today 😊. Not the best photo- but absolutely better then nothing 🥰

I have been through this before,- my children are moving out….I go through different phases I my life like miss them a lot, cry a bit, think about all the things I should done better as a mammi for them , go through some regrets as a bad mammi. I’m restless, I’m dont sure how to organize my days even I have a plan and more then enough to keep myself busy and so on and so on……Parents that has been through this know what I mean ….And then when I feel I’m starting to have a bit control and overwive over my life without living together with my children they are moving back home again 😅.

When I have started to find my rhythm and routines in my dailylife , a life that’s just mainly contains my stuff and things, plans and how to organize different things in the home as well as the days and my life, I need to turn this a bit around,- and of course my children needs to do that too, but not in the same way. Because they are moving back in to their mammi.

Then it’s back to the “old routines”,- and they are not so easy to find back to either not for me, not for my children,- because I have my new one, my kids have their own ,- so when they are moving back home it’s a mixture of my new routines, my kids routines and lifestyle ……and also a kind of expectations that the “old” routines in our home are still the same as they was before my kids moved out- at the same time as they bring with them their new lifestyle. It’s not easy,- not for me and not for my children,- but I’m probably the biggest “challenge” in this situation 😳.

You should think I was starting to be a bit good to handle this “out of the nest- situation” now, and not at least use to it. But I’m not. It’s more and more challenging when they are moving back home, but it’s actually also more and more challenging when they are moving out again too 😳. I’m not sure why it is like that,- but it is.

I get so, so tired when I live together with my children because I’m actually a bit finish with that part of my life and that kind of responsibility. At the same time as I really enjoy and love to spend time together with them 🥰.

I have a couple of times welcoming my new area in life. When my children have moved out of the nest. I’m not going to do that this time 😅. I’m not sure what my new area in life is…..yet. And I also know that when Mathilde move back to Spain again she probably move back into my home for a tiny while when she’s looking for her own apartment. And I’m fine with that. I’m prepared for that.

So the Easter is over, the summer is coming and my daughter’s suitcases are packed and ready for a great travel to Bali 🏖. I’m ready too,- even with my very mixed feelings in my heart, soul and stomach. I’m ready to live just for myself for a while 😊. Maybe it’s a kind of travel that too,- I just don’t know it yet? 😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My daughter’s suitcase is beginning to be ready 😊👝🛍

The Easter is over, and a new daily life is just “around the corner” for both my daughter and me 🏖. We are both going to have some new experiences in our life, and also some new adventures- but in very different ways 😊🧡.

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