Packed away 📚, and made room for something new🌠

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It has been some busy weeks for both my students and me in October,- but now their big Norwegian exams, called Bergenstesten, in both written form as well as oral forms are finish and well done too 📚😊.

My students did passed the exams and I can put away all my teaching stuffs, things and books for a while 📚. And to be honest,- it feels great. It feels great that my students manage the exams, and it feels great to not be teaching for a while, maybe for always?

All my teaching stuff, things and books are now put away for a while 📚.

I feel very fine with having a rest from being a private teacher for some time now. I like to teach, and I like my students, but it has been some hard and demanding weeks before the exam, both for me as a teacher and for my students.  I feel with all my heart that I need a long break from teaching now.

So now I have cleaned my teaching desk in my home, put a way all the teaching materials and books, and it feels great, it was a good feeling. But probably because I’m tired too now.

An exam is hard, most of us know that, and have experience that. And,- I felt on an extra responsibility to follow up my students as best as I could, special because they also are private students and I feel a big responsibility for them to manage the exams.

The exam cost also a bit of money for my students because it is arranged in private forms and it’s in different parts too. It is an officially approved exams both in Norway and at universities in Europe. And,- I really didn’t wanted my students to lose their money or the exams, because I had probably got the complaints if they did 😅. And I didn’t want that, and I felt I needed a big break from being a teacher now, so if they had failed I actually needed to continue to teach them to March or April 2022, and I was not mentally prepared for that either 😊.

I have now made place and space for something new instead. A new job, a new freelance job that in it’s own way “replace” my teaching job, but it’s still a different job from the freelancework I’m already doing. But Im still going to work for and with people, and still be working from my home too 😊. But this time I’m available when I want to be available for the clients, and not on a working schedule 😊. And that feels great, it feels great to work when I want and can work, but of course I need to do the work in some or another way during the day, or more correctly during a month 😊.

I’m really looking forward to this new job, and I got my own work phone too ☎️. I have never had a work phone before- this is my first one ☎️. I need to admit I’m a bit proud over that one 😊.

Look at this- my own job phone – not a fancy phone- but it’s in function for what it should be in function too 😊. And I’m need to admit I’m a bit proud to have my on “job- phone ” ☎️.

So yes,- I’m still on the phone 🎧😅, but still not like my costumer service agent on the phone job 🎧. This is about conversation with people, give them advice, listen to them and try to give them some guidance for their various questions they have.

I’m going to work for a big Norwegian company together with many other people. The lines is open 24/7, but I don’t need to work 24 hours a day,- but of course I have a time- limit I need to be available on the phone during 24 hours, or more correctly actually during the month. But I can choose what hours that can be, what day, what time,- closely from day to day 😊.

And then it is my painting plans too,- and I’m in a process I like. Like I mention in my last post,- I have a dream and two with the painting- and I want to try to see if its possible for me to manage this dream 🎨.

I’m just some very few centimetres on the “star- line” on my painting dream, but some very few centimetres is still some few centimetres more then no one, and also in my correct direction for my plans, goals and dreams 🎨. And actually more centimetres then for just a mont and two ago. Maybe I will manage my dreams, maybe not- but I will only know if I try 😊. So then I try, if I fail I fail, but then I at least never need to wonder on any “what if” if I didn’t gave my dreams a try 😊. I hope you will give your dreams a try too 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon I hope 😊

My “painting plans” are under “process ” and in it’s own way under “production” too 🎨

Half of October went to prepare my students for a big Norwegian exam- Beregenstesten 📝. And very much the rest of October went to my ordinary customer service job, as well as my freelance work and also some new and exciting things in a other freelance work as well. I have even got my own job- phone ☎️. And of course,’ my painting plans too 🎨😊

#work #job #workingfromhome #opportunities #jobphone #plans #dreams #goals #lifeis #livinginspain #Norwegian #positivefocus

Welcome November 🍃🌹 Thank you October 🌹🍂

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been working a lot in October, mainly because I had some private students who was going to have an big Norwegian exam in October, called Bergenstesten. So I needed to try to do my best to guide them to the exam, make them as ready and prepared I could. And that has taken a bit off time 📚. But also my normal job is a customer service agent on the phone takes time, even that one has just taken the “normal” weekly work time. And my freelance work- I’m using a bit more time on that one know for different reasons at the moment 😊. I have some dreams and wishes I want try out and see if it’s possible to manage 😊.

And just in case, “of course” my teamleder in my customer “service agent on the phone job” wanted to “upgrade” my skills too in October, so I could and can do some more and other tasks in the customer service agent job🎧. But I need to admit I didn’t feel for any more skills or new tasks or training at all at the moment 😅. I’m actually find on the phone like everything is at the moment 😊. Maybe special because I have different tasks I work on in my other job, my freelance work- like reach my own dreams in life 😊😅. And that’s not to be on the phone as a costumer service agent “for ever”. It’s something different. But the customer service agent job is fine- so please don’t misunderstand me. I was not just prepared for a bit more training in that job straight after finishing teaching my students 📚😅. And I have some dreams and wishes I really wants to try and see if its possible for me to actually reach them and manage them. But then I both need to put in some “offer” in both in my time as well as a bit of money.

To have dreams and wishes are free, but to try to reach them cost both time and money, and I want to and need to try to see if its possible for me to reach and manage my dreams 🌠. I don’t know that if I don’t try, and I can’t “put it on hold” for to long know anymore, I have already done that to long. I have set up a timeline to see if I can manage this, my dream. And I will probably know in a two or three years if or if not I manage it 😊.

I will say Thank you to October for the different opportunities my education, knowledge and different work experiences , and last but not at least, my life experiences gives me when it comes to new and exciting possibilities in different job situations – like my freelance work 🙏.

And I’m Thankful for that my students manage the Norwegian exam, Bergenstesten. It was a bit of a stress, but is was worth it 📚.

October has been very much focus on job in one or another way. And then, unfortunately, not so much time together with my friends, but I have manage to squeeze in a date with my Spanish friend at least🥰. And of course time with my children, – on the phone with my middle one in Norway, and the oldest and youngest has dropped by my home now and then. One of them even dropped by with all his/ her things too 😳😅. Jepp,- one has moved back home to the mammi again during October. No comments from me on that one yet 😅.

I wish November very welcome,- this month is also one of my favourite months- because my daughter was born in November 🧡. And in November there will be homemade birthday chocolate cake too 🎂.

I know November will be busy with work in different ways and forms. And also to continue doing and working with my dreams beside ordinary working- hours and days, and yes, be a mammi in my home as well. And try to squeeze in both some dating with my Spanish friend as well as some nice and cozy meetings together with my friends 😊. And in some or another way I really need to start with some regular workout and exercises again too 😅. I’m just not sure how or where to put those hours in my “schedule” 🤸‍♀️. And I also need to try to be better to write and share posts as well 📝.

With some good planning I can manage this- special if I give my self time to accept that things takes time and maybe little by little I will manage to put “all and everything” in a functional schedule that’sworsk for me- but not “all at once”, and also accept that there will be days where I will not manage closely to do anything- like today 😊.

I did started on a 2 weeks holiday today,- and I have actually not done very much- and I just needed this day to not do very much too – just relax 😊. Then I will manage to do a bit more other days 😊.

Thank you October for changing and challenges, knowledge and wisdom 🙏🍂. And Thank you for my jobs and works and different opportunities I get 📚📝. Thank you so much for my patience friends 🧡,- and Thank October for just the possibility to “meet” you with your ups and downs 😊🧡. And Thank you October for some nice and refreshing walks on the beach during some afternoons- it helps to clear my mind 🏖.

Welcome November- my daughter’s birthday month 🧡. And welcome to two lovely weeks of holiday,- where I just need to use the time and days to “feel up my batteries”, to relax, be a bit selfish and take a bit care of just my self for a tiny little while,- in my own way 🧡. Welcome November to a new freelance job- a job I’m looking forward to start in 📝🌠. And Welcome November with your unknown changes and challenges- I will try my very best to handle them as best as I can in a positive, open minded way and with as much joy I can manage to give different challenges in life 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you 🧡 . Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😊

From one of my walks at the beach during an afternoon in October 🍂

Thank you October for changing and challenges, knowledge and wisdom 🙏🍂. Thank you for different works opportunities 📚📝. Thank you so much for my patience friends 🧡. And Thank you October for some nice and refreshing walks on the beach during some afternoons to just clear my mind 🏖. Welcome November with your unknown changes and challenges, opportunities, knowledge and wisdom 🧡🍂.

#changes #challenges #work #lifesituation #job #opportunities #october #newmonth #exam #teaching #knowledge #November #focus #positivefocus #holiday #dreams #goals

Then we try the dating again 😊🥂

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Two months after the planned date with my earlier neighbour we actually managed to have a date 😊. The date was delayed because he got the coronavirus and then became sick with Covid19 😔. But now he’s “back in business” again and healthy and feel well. And yes,- he got his two vaccines ling before he was infected by the coronavirus- in case you wonder 😊.

I’m actually not sure if I should call it a date or a meeting, because I have knew my “date” for seven years now, and we have in a way “dated” a bit before too. Four years ago we “dated” in our own way for around three years 😊. So we do know each other a bit.

To be honest,- I’m actually not sure what “dating” means,- but the way I do understand “dating” is when two people like or are interested in other each meet up and spend time together as well as do things together. In my mind a date doesn’t necessary means that we goes out for a drink or a dinner, but spend time together in some or another way 😊. But I think we can have different understanding for what a date is.

Me dressed up for a date- and this time no sickness and Covid19- so my date did showed up 😊

Since we do know each other, my date and me, we decided to have the date in my home,- with barbecue and red wine mixed with coca cola, because my date like the red wine best that way 🍷. And to be honest ,- the wine do taste good mixed with some coca cola. It’s not to bad at all 😊.

We had a very nice and cozy evening together. It was good to see him again, and very nice to talk with him too,- even we now and than can have some communication “challenges” because of the language, and maybe also because we are a woman and a man too 😊.

I like that we have different things to talk about and even some similar interests as well. He likes to paint and create too, and he likes to fish too. And he is a bit handyman as well, and can fix different things in- and outside the home. I like that.

I haven’t been fishing since I lived in Norway, and I did like to fish and I have now and then missed to stand there with the fishing rod, the sea, the silence, and maybe even some fishing luck too 🐟. And it’s a fishing pier very close to my home, a place where we can stand and fishing, and I actually want to go there and just be there and fish. Try to get a fish or two, but it’s nice to be together with someone else that have the same interests as my self. Like maybe my earlier neighbour. We see what’s happen. Maybe I’m going to go to the pier on my own too one day, I just need to get both fishing equipment and a fishing rod first 🐟😊.

My “date” also like to spend some time on the beach under the sun, like me, and maybe the best,- he actually like to spend time together with me, at the same time as he has actually respect for this need I have for use my own time, to be alone. Maybe because he actually also like to use his time in the same way?😊

We have decided to meet up now and then,- but what’s more that will happen I don’t know. I’m not stressing anything, and to be honest I Iike it this way,- that we meet up now and then and just spend some time together. Not stressing anything anywhere 😊.

And,- I’m still not in this “relationship” corner in my life,- so this kind of “deal” or agreement we have suits me actually very well 😊. And I’m very relaxed to “this” together with my earlier neighbour 😊.

But at least there was someone that manage to go on a kind of date with me 😅. And it was a really nice and cozy evening too,- and I’m looking forward to meet and see him again 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon I hope 😊

Creating a cozy atmosphere at my terrace for a nice and cozy meeting, or maybe some will call it a date 😊

I’m still not in the “dating- corner” in my life, or “relationship- corner” either,- but I did say yes to meet up on a kind of date together with someone I have knew for some years 😊🥀. And it was a nice and cozy evening that’s probably is going to be repited 😊🥀.

#dating #meeting #cozy #nicetime #dressingup #friendship #lifeis #livinginspain #Norwegian #relaxing #relationship #coronavirus #Covid19 #changes #positivefocus

Goodbye September 🥀Welcome October 🍂⚘

Hi ❣It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

As August just “run away” September did too. And I haven’t been very good to write in my blog lately. It’s different reasons for that,- the main reasons are busy with work and trying to work with my private plans inbetween too 😊.

September brought both joy and happiness as well as a couple of challenges 😊. Things happened in September as well is in every month during the year,- both in negative as well as positive directions.

When people ask if I want to have the bad or good news first,- I always want to have the bad news first so I have something good to look forward too after,- the good news 😊. And like the different challenges that has “dropped by” in September I have thought a bit about if I should share them in my blog or not. And I have decided to just let the negative things be in the past and instead focus on the good things in September and just continue looking forward and on the bright side 😊.

To bring my thoughts back to the different negative challenges will not do my any good anyway 😊.

Like I mention,- it has been a bit work during September and busy days. But that’s the way it is, and it’s a good thing to have work even when it can be a bit busy and I can be a bit tired, and the energy to “all and everything” else aren’t quite there 😊. Like to write in my blog.

I have been so lucky and spend a lots of time together with my oldest son, and I also got the great news that I can rent this home until March 2023 😊 🏡. And I have also been on a date,- I can tell you a bit more about that one in an other post 😉. And good friends has dropped by my home too 😊.

So in general I just want to say Goodbye September and thank you for both the great moments as well as the different “lessons” 😊. And I wish October very welcome,- one of my favourite months 🥰. My middle son is born in October so this is his birthday month and just because of that also my favourite month 💙. And Natasja has birthday too in October, also a good reason to welcome October 😊.

I don’t know very much what I can expect from October,- there will probably be both lessons in life and new experiences, and happiness and joy too 🧡. So I just welcome this new month that has already started 🧡🤗.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡.

See you as soon as possible 😊.

October is one of my favourite months because my son in the middle was born in this month 🧡.

Like all months September also brought joy and happiness as well as some different not the best challenges 🥀. I choose to not use my energy to focus to much on the negative challenges I met in September, it’s so much better to turn the focus on the positive things in life 🧡.

#positivefocus #lifeisgood #thelife #thedailylife #mychildren #mammi #changes #challenges #lifeis #september #october #newmonth

Goodbye August 👋🌻,- and Hello September 🤞🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

The best is to try to focus on the good moments and memories, even when you “crashing” out of one month, or a happening in your life and “crashing” straight into a new one 😳. But easy? No. But possible? Yes 😊.

We are already closely a week into September, but I actually did “crashing” out of August and just continue “crashing” into September. So I needed a couple of days to just sort out a couple of things before I was ready to write, to say Goodbye to August, and Hello to September 🥀.

At the moment I’m not quite ready to “welcoming” September, but I probably will be there, little by little, but I can at least say Hello September 😊.

August was a very warm month, “touched” up with some great moments worth keep in my mind and soul with happiness and a smile 😊.

I started in a new job, and I’m very grateful for having a job 🧡. I’m back in my home office, something I’m also very grateful for 💻🎧☎️. Pleasant guests has dropped by during August, and I even managed to do some baking too 🥨. I have try to enjoyed the sun as best as I can, but I need to admit it was a bit difficult under a sun with 43 +++ degree ( Celsius) 🌞. Then it’s good to live so close to the beach and ocean 🏖. And Natasja did dropped by too, it was so nice to see her again 🥰.

But August wasn’t just joy and happiness. I did find out that a person who I thought was a very good and trustworthy person was not that at all. I thought this person was a good friend I could trust, but it was just a person who used a friendship for it’s owns benefits.

I need to admit that to find out this was not to good, but at the same time it’s better to know then not know. But I have used a bit time to “get over it”. Get over that this person is not worth my time, energies or tears, but yes, I have used both times, energies and tears on this person, or more correctly, on the way this person did “treated” me. I know it is not worth it, but still it wasn’t so easy to control my tears or my disappointment.

I have choose to not use to much more time on “why”, or this person, or what happen. I have already use to much time, so I just leave it to that. Must of us has been there,- had people in our life that wasn’t the friends or people we thought they was. It’s not the first time for me either to meet a person like this, but hopefully I will meet less and less.

Then my bank account became closed again and I didn’t have any access to my money. Of course this happen on a Friday too, just in case. So I couldn’t reach the bank or any other office before after the weekend. And also I needed to get permission from my job to go to the bank as well.

And just in case,- this time when I went to the bank they couldn’t open it. I need help from some a bit “higher” up in the “system” 😳. Something that’s not to easy to do when “all and everyone” = all kind of office are open when I’m at work. But after a week with no access to my bank account, and actually no money either then, except from the money in my bank account that was “locked” and I couldn’t use, I was “allowed” to get money to pay the different expenses and buy some food. But that’s it.

Just in case I also got my period that week I hadn’t any money, and of course I didn’t have any tampons or something like that in my home either. Because my plan was to buy all this stuff that Friday my bank account was closed. And also just in case I was empty for shower soap too 🧽🧼. Fun? No, not at all.

Lucky for me I was at least working from my home so I didn’t need to go any office in my “condition”.

Solution for my period, – well I used toalett papir, but that wasn’t quite the best. Then I used washcloths,- not to comfortable, but better then the toalett papir or nothing at all. And I had shampoo, so I washed my body as best as I could with shampoo, and my hair too. And of course I manage to bleed during a couple of clothes too. Still very happy I was working from my home 😅.

My bank account is still not up and running as it should be, but I have got some days off from my job in the end of September to fix different kinds of things. Go to the different offices and a that kind of stuff.

As some of you know I was exposed to financial crime / financial fraud in Norway in 2012. Something that I’m probably going to struggle with for the rest of my life,- obviously no matter how hard I’m working to get back in my feet again 👣.

And of course I’m the one who get the “punishment” even it wasn’t me that did the economic fraud. The people who did it will probably never get any punishment if not karma kick their as one day.

It’s not any kind of financial crime that’s happen in my bank account at the moment,- that’s what my bank actually trying to avoid. That’s why even I haven’t any access,- but to get the access I need to visit offices and lawyers- phuha! That will be fun 😳. At least it will be fun, I hope, when I can use my bank account and my bank card normal again. But it’s a process that will take s bit of time and energy. And it has already took a lots of time and energy. Not just this last week, but the economic fraud has taken many years of my thoughts, feelings and energies. And I probably just need to start to accept the facts that this will probably following me and affect my life for the rest of my life.

All here Im telling you are very short version of what actually happened. It’s takes a bit of time to take the long version 😊. And it did took a big more then just a couple of days to been “through” this different things. The last week in August and the first one in September has been a bit challenging to be honest. I feel I crashed out of August and straight into September with out any control over my life, my time, my money.

But in the beginning of September I was able to pay my bills and buy some food, soap, and of course some tampons too, but then my period was over 😅.

And just in case,- when I feel I have a bit more then enough with my own things and stuffs in my life to sort out and fix, my oldest son is knocking on my door and need a place to sleep in between apartments 😳. And it was not just him, but of course his dog, Zorro and his friend too.

And just to “top it all”,- this French man I meet some years ago is back in Spain again 😅. As some of you know, – he was in Spain in the middle of my moving process this June, and now his back again and texting and texting and want to meet up. Well,- I’m not exactly “there” now at days to meet up for a “date”- and I also know what kind of “date” he wants to have. I don’t want to have that kind of date at the moment. It has been to much for me during the lasts weeks.

And yes, I have been praying and crying a lot, and asked for solutions, and at the same time tried to be grateful for everything that’s good in my life too 🧡. I need to admit I was very close to just give up all and everything a couple of days ( not suicidal- I’m not there anymore). But then I became a bit more “No, what the fuck- I’m not going to let this break me, I’m going to find solutions and do all the best I can with my “situation” and my life”.

softies home pajamas

I could have told you all this with a bit more dramatic, the real dramatic I have felt and experienced during the last 2 weeks, but it would take to much time,- and it’s probably not to much of interest for you either 😊. But that’s why I have been a bit “silent” on my blog and not quite ready to “Thanks August” or wish September welcome- because I felt more like a ” big crash” than something I wanted to say “Thank you for” or wish welcome to. I know I have a lots of things to be Thankful for during August, and I think I will have a lots of good things to welcome in September too. But at the moment I’m really not sure what it is. In that “place” I’m now I just see a lots of challenges and then not good challenges. But of course that can, and hopefully, will change 😊.

I don’t want to much drama in my life, or negative challenges. I just want my life to be nice, peaceful and quiet. Hopefully it will be like that too, soon 😊.

I’m sending you a lots of good thoughts and hope the life is good to you 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊

I felt and still feel a bit like this- a bit “broken” inside after “crashing” out of August and “crashing” into September.

The best is to try to focus on the good moments and memories, even when you “crashing” out one situation in your life and “crashing” straight into a new one 😳. Easy? No. Possible? Yes 😊. We are already closely a week into September, but I actually did “crashing” out of August and just continue “crashing” into September. So I needed a couple of days to sort things out a bit before I could both say Goodbye and Hello 😊.

#changes #challenges #lifeis #happeningsinlife #economicfraud #lifesituation #solutions #work #positivefocus