I bought myself a ladder 😊🏗

Hi❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

At my 30 years birthday a good friend of my bought me a ladder to me as my birthday present 🏗. I remember is so well, and I was so happy and grateful for the ladder too 😊.

Sounds maybe a bit strange to be a woman in age 30 and be happy for a ladder to a birthday present,- but I’m actually a bit handy woman, so with a ladder I was able to do more different things in and outside the home on my own at our Prairie 😊.

I couldn’t take the ladder with me to Spain, so I gave it to an other friend of my that needed a ladder.

But now I have bought myself a new ladder. I need a ladder, and I don’t have any neighbours here in the area I can borrow a ladder from either.

Me with my new ladder 😊🏗 a ladder I need and know I’m going to use a bit “here and there” too 😊

I needed a ladder because the the awning that I can pull over the roof terrace has been destroyed by the wind this winter.  When it blows here on the sunny coast, it blows at full strength as well 🌬🌪.  The wind even moves on the summer furniture if they are not placed safely for the wind.  There is a lot of sun on the roof terrace during the summer, and I need a new roof over the terrace so that it is possible to enjoy the summer time up there. If not it’s actually not possible to use the terrace, it will be to warm and very uncomfortable 🌡🔥.

Here you can see the roof terrace before I’m starting to fix me a bamboo roof 🌴😊

So I bought me a ladder and I bought a bamboo root to put over the terrace too 🌴. I need to admit it was a bit of a job, and it took a bit of time a well. And I’m actually a bit worried for hights too, so I did have some struggling with the high, special when I was close to the the railing and looked down into my backyard cafe. Phu,- I was a bit worried to fall over the railing and down, and be destroyed, even maybe die 😳. But it all went very well.

I’m actually a bit proud over my job,- it became so nice and cozy,- and it’s comfortable to “hide” a bit from the sun under the bamboo roof. And,- yes,- I did it all on my own. No help at all from anyone.

Look how cozy and nice it became 😊.
A tiny video too from my terrace and the job I did 😊

I have also put up lights in the roof, but not quite the lighting I wanted 😅. I wanted white lights, but it was just possible the get lights with colours 😅. But okay,- it’s better then nothing, and it gives the terrace a cozy evening atmosphere anyway.

Look at this,- not to bad? 😊

I’m just a bit worried about one tiny thing,- and that’s the wind 🌬🌪. Will my bamboo roof manage to stay? Or will it blow away with the Autumn and winter wind, I know will come? Cross fingers that it all will stay there “on the roof” for a long, long time 🤞🙏.

I’m looking forward to spend both sunny summerdays as well as soft summer evenings both alone and together with family and friends up here on the roof 🥰. Barbecue, just be in the sun, drink a glass of cold and tasty white wine, have some nice conversations, read a good book, listen to music, just enjoy the the view to the beach and so on. Just spend a lots of great quality time during the summertime, days and evenings 🌞🌛.

So yes,- I am a bit proud over my roof terrace job,- all done by myself and without any kind of help 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Hopefully I will spend some great time together with both family and friends during the summertime here,- both during the days as well as the evenings 🥰

Believe it or not,- but I’m actually a tiny bit of a handy woman,- and manage to fix a bit here and there on my own 😊. And now I have bought me a ladder because I needed to fix something, get something ready for long and warm sunny summerdays as well as soft and sweet summer evenings 🌞🌛. And proud? Yes,- of course I’m 😁. You will find out why in my post 😋😁.

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But there’s some “issues” too during this “new Spring” in life 😳🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days too. I don’t have the biggest challenges during this pre perimenopause, but there’s some issues, or tiny challenges that’s dropping by. And I don’t know what this period in my life can or will bring me later, so I at least choose to enjoy the changes I do like at the moment,- like for example my body changes 😊.

But I still need to “deal” with some few other issues, or rainy and stormy days, if you want. It’s not to much to complain about, in general this issues are not difficult to deal with, and don’t last very long either. But when they “shows up” it’s quite fine to be alone, and “deal” with them in my own way 😊. Another thing,- in general I don’t know when the “issues” are dropping by. Because that’s exactly what they are doing,- dropping by exactly when it suits them, and not me. It’s nothing I can choose or control.

In short periods I have had water in my body, causing the hormone changes. And also one of the reasons why it didn’t dropped my mind that I could have put on weight when my winter clothes felt a bit thigh.

It has mainly been in my feet, ankles to be more correct, and sometimes in my hands too. It’s not often, and not to bad, but it is uncomfortable. And I have never had any kind of water like that in my body before. I think the closest “water in my body” was the water in my stomach under my pregnancies 💧.

And I’m still not “leaking” (thank so much for that 🙏),– and I really hope I can avoid that too, even I know it is natural for a woman to have or get some “water leakage” in a certain age. I’m really doing my “exercises” ,- “pinch and hold and pinch a little more”. Hopefully that will help forever to avoid any kind of water leakage 🤞.

And my stomach,- also that one can be a bit “troubling” now and then. It can feels like it is a marble in there 😳. But it’s not, and of course the marble also “disappear”, but not always when I want. I just need to give it a bit of time and maybe a prune and two 😅. But of course this marble in my stomach also has been a reason for why I didn’t offer weight increase and small clothes so many thoughts.

When I’m in this “body” area I can also mention cellulite. I have some of them too, mainly on my thighs. They don’t bother me. They are a part of this “process” as well, I think. And as long as they don’t bother me I don’t give them to many thoughts.

But there’s a challenge I do struggling a bit with when this one shows up,- and that’s challenges with the sleep. For some reasons I don’t know, I can have a night and two or three where I’m not sleeping very well without knowing why, or the reason. And phu,- the days after some nights without a good sleep feels like I have been on a party with a few glasses of too much wine 😴🍷 . I’m so, so tired and feel so uncomfortable the day after a sleepless night 😴. It’s more then enough to just do my customer service agent job on the phone then, and not very much more then that.

I’m not use to that,- in general I do sleep very well and also fast when I’m putting down my head on ny pillow 😴.

An other thing,- I actually want to go to bed at 21.00 in the evening 😅. But Im trying my very best to be awake until around 23.00. And in general I do manage that one 😊. And I get my 7- 8 hours with beauty sleep 🥰.

Off,- and yes,- this mind and soul and thoughts and feelings things- more correctly “moody button”. That one is not very fun at all. I know I did mention that one in my other “new Spring in life post”. That one feels seriously not like any kind of Spring. More like a very stormy and cold winter day with out any kind of control ❄😳. And so, so hard to explain.

And like I mention in an earlier text,- I don’t have any midlife crisis, but I have different midlife thoughts, and some days I think more about my midlife thoughts than other days, but I can’t call my thoughts challenging. I’m just trying to find some kind of solutions, but I don’t rush the solutions. I know I need to use time on them.

And yes,- then it’s this “sexual feelings” too. I’m single so what can I say? I don’t have any lover, or friends with benefit. But it seems that “all is still in function”,- because I need to admit a friends with benefit haven’t been to bad to have 😅.

But maybe that’s just fine I’m in my bed alone at the moment? Because for some reason I get this hot flashes in the nights now and them,- and so fare haven’t had anyone during the day yet.

It’s the sleeplessness nights and the grumpy moods that’s bothering me most – then I really really don’t want anyone to bother me or Visa versa- bother them,- special not with my grumpy mood.

I’m also use reading glasses 🤓🧐. I needed to start with that some years ago. I’m using glasses when I working at my computer, when I use my mobile, and when Im reading a book. Still no need for more use for glasses yet, but of course that one can change too. It will probably change when I’m getting older,- and I still have glasses a bit “here and there” because even after a couple of years as a “part time” glass- user I’m still forget to use glasses when I need to read the menu in a restaurant, or my tiny shopping list when I go for shopping food 🧐. It’s nice to know what I’m order from the menu as well as bringing with me home from the store 😅. So I have some painting glasses in my painting – corner, a couple in my work corner, a couple in my handbag and a couple on the table in the livingroom – just in case 🤓.

So,- all in all so fare in this pre perimenopause things aren’t to bad actually 😊. But I need to admit I actually really hope it doesn’t will be or “bring” me more or other “issues” then that I’m “dealing” with at the moment. My “issues” are not to bad, but I don’t need more of them 😊.

And I can understand why ladies in the 50′, or more correctly during the menopause, can be a bit scary and grumpy. Actually trolly. Imagine “water leakage”, water in the body that should be leaking, but don’t, and marble in the stomach, some sleepless nights and hot flashes too 😳. Clothes that suddenly and without any warning are shrinking, and when I’m into this “no warning”- a mind that’s not give any kind of warning for suddenly tears or anger 😳. It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes.

So I think I let the whole menopause “rest” for a tiny while, and use my focus on other things, stuffs and happenings in life for a while instead 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon,- and I’m not going to bother you with any menopause issues for a while (at least it’s not my plan) 😊.

So a tiny cheers for the different changes and challenges,- for the life and that life is what it is 🧡,- and for a “new Spring in life” that I’m not always understand because it doesn’t quite feels like a Spring- but I have heard it’s painful when flowers growing,- it hurts when buds bloom 😊🥀

It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes 😳. During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days as well 🌬. But I have heard that it hurts when buds bloom,- so I choose to believe so 🌱. So a tiny cheers for a “new Spring in life” 🍷😊.

#issues #preperimenopause #perimenopause #menopause #gettingolder #growingup #newspringinlife #lifeis #midlife #matur #challenges #changes #thougths #positivefocus #lifeisgood #feelinggrateful

“Touching” the menopause 😳😊🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

In my last post I did “touch” the “subject” menopause. A bit “scary subject” for some women, and for others not so much. I’m going to “touch” this subject a bit more during my next posts. I’m not in “the middle” of this “menopause- process” yet, …..I think….I actually know 😊…..but in the beginning,- this stadium befor peri- menopause (proper advanced words are there too 😅). I have “learned” lately that obviously I’m in the middle of the menopause process when I have been a year without my period. And I have just been some weeks without my period 😅,- and there’s something in my body that tells me that I will probably get my period again in a couple of weeks 😳.

I have “touched” the menopause subject a couple of times before in my blog, but not to much for different reasons. I’m not quite “there”, at the same time as I’m, and I’m not struggling to much on daily basis with the different changes and challenges menopause can gives. But of course I notice different “things” “here and there”, both mentally and physically when it comes to “getting older”. So I haven’t had to much to write about, at the same time as I maybe have a bit more to write about now then for just a year ago 😊.

I have always thought ladies in the 50’s has been a little bit scary,- and I know I’m not the only one with thoughts like that. Both men, children, young adults and women not in the 50’s have a couple of thoughts about ladies in the 50’s. I have never been a big fan of ladies in the 50’s. I didn’t like them to much when I was younger. They are rude and mean, grumpy and talk load and seems to have no limit to what can come out of their mouths sometimes 😳. And many use a lots of colours in their hair, the clothes, the nail polish and make up, even nickles and ear rings can be big and colourful so we should be pretty sure to notice them both with our eyes and ears 💍💄. They are a bit like very pretty, colourful and scary trolls 😅😊.( ps- I really hope you know I’m exaggerating a bit now 😊)

And then suddenly after some years, some of this ladies became so soft and nice, caring, smell nice and safe, even the colours are tone down a bit down. It’s like you want to be hugged by them because they are so good and gentle 🥀.

And now I’m one of this scary trolly ladies in the 50’s 😳, and suddenly, little by little I’m starting to understand this scary attitude the ladies in the 50’s had and have, and why.

It’s actually not the easiest “changes in life” we are going through,- and like I mention,- I know I don’t have the biggest challenges at all when it comes to menopause, but still,- “wow” it can be a bit of a emotional waves some days 🌊. And to be honest,- I really like to be alone when this emotional waves “shows up” so I don’t need to be to “trolly” with the people around me.

The body is changing, the hair, the skin, the wrinkles, something inside you as well is changing. Sometimes there’s no control over the tears, other times no control over the anger- and you don’t even know where the tears or the anger comes from, or why it just suddenly showed up. And the clothes is changing too. Or maybe that’s because of the body changes ?😅 And it’s difficult to put the correct words on the different things that’s happen with you during this new period in life- this menopause,- special this “jumping Jack flash” moods. It’s like an adult puberty,- really 😳😊.

Some will of course find it interesting to read about my personal “experiences” so fare during this pre peri- menopause period, others not. Natural enough, because we are in different places in our life 😊. But I will try my very best to share with you some of my experiences in this/ my pre peri menopause during my next posts during this week (what a fancy word for maybe a not so “fancy” period in life?)📝😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I’m still not “there” in my life where I find it necessary to use a lots of colours- I prefer this a bit anonymity “style” 😊

I have always thought ladies in the 50’s (the ladies during this “magical” menopause) has been a little bit scary. And “soon” I will be one of this scary trolly ladies in the 50’s myself 😳, Not because I’m 50 yet,- but because this “exacting” phase in my life is starting- this a bit scary (peri) menopause 🥀.

#perimenopause #menopause #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #gettingolder #growingup #scary #trolly #positivefocus

So then it’s Bali next for my tiny little sweety pie 🏖❤

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have just followed my daughter to the airport and now it’s Bali next stop for her for a while- closely. They are going to have stop in Istanbul and change the plane there befor the travel continue to Bali 🛩🏖. And,- well my sweety pie is not so tiny anymore- she is actually a young adult woman that’s travelling to Bali for open up a new Norwegian office “down there” 😊. That’s not to bad when you are 21, 5 years old 🥰.

She is not travelling alone- at the moment they are two young adults women travelling together, and they are also going to work together 😊.

It wasn’t easy to say Goodbye to Mathilde today,- and I need to admit I did try my very best to not cry 😔. I’m not very good to this “Goodbye’s” when it comes to my children,- that’s just the way it is ❤.

And I don’t know why my tears are jumping up into my eyes,- like for example today 😥. Because I’m so incredibly happy for this opportunity Mathilde get, so grateful for this exciting travel and experiences both in her work situation as well as in life 🥰. And Im so proud of her too 🥰. So why do I cry? I know I’m going to see her again- I just don’t know when, yet. And I know she will handle this so very well. The trip, the travel, the job, her new adventures. And like I mention- I’m so happy for her- but still my tears popping up.

I’m wishing my daughter the best travel in her life so fare 🥰❤and I’m also saying Goodbye to her for a while,- and trying my best to not cry- because then she will start crying too.

It was very empty to come home after the airport today- and like I told Mathilde,- when I’m hearing the train I think she is on the train, on her way back home, and will very soon pop up in the door and say “Haalloooo” – like she normally do 😊. But that’s not going to happen,- not for a long time now.

But Thank you so much for the internet and social media- I’m going to be able to be in contact with Mathilde during texting as well as any kind of video chat too now and then 😊.

So now I got one child in Norway- my lovely middle son, Ruben 🥰, and one child on the way to Bali- my sweet little butterfly Mathilde 🥰,- and my great oldest son, Marius, is still “around the corner” and just three train stations away 🥰. For now- but of course his plans can change too 😊.

Well,- that’s life. The children grew up, move out and in and out and in again and then out again from the nest, my nest- at least my does 😅. At the same time as they are actually creating their own adult life in their own way, inbetween this moving- in and out process 🧡.

And me? Well,- I’m in a place in life where I’m still not young anymore at the same time not old either- in the middle in life to be correct. And what does people do in the middle of the life? I’m not sure- but I will probably find out 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It’s going to be a long time before for I can hug her again- so a long, long warm and squeezing hug was very necessary today 🤗🥰

I’m not sure why I’m starting crying when I say Goodbye to my children,- but I do. Even when I know all is fine with them and I so happy and grateful for them and their new adventures in their life 🧡. I did my very best to not let all my tears popping up today- but it was a bit hard to say Goodbye 😔❤.

#growingup #gettingolder #challenges #movingout #dailylife #emotions #feelings #thougths #positivefocus #beingamammi #outofthenest #newadventures #differences #changes #mydaugther

Goodbye March ☔ Welcome to the Spring and April 🌱🤗

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

And then March was over too. I’m a bit happy for that,- it was a bit demanding month, at least in the mental area. For me more mental tired, for my daughter- mental challenges, but also tired. Both are a bit tired, but in two different ways 😊😴. Not tired of each other, but just the situation we have been through. But that’s life,- isn’t it?😊

But there’s still different things to be grateful for during March even it was a bit challenging month 😊. I’m Thankful for my friend that “borrowed” her ears to me when I needed someone to talk to during this month 🧡. And I’m grateful for the great friends my daughter have that has used their time together with her when her days was not the easiest 🧡.

I’m grateful for that our things and stuffs in Norway are “on the road” and in the direction Spain now 😊. And I’m grateful for canvas and glassbottles, oilcolours and a creative mind and two in our home 🎨😊.

I’m looking forward to “create” a colourful backyard “cafe” in my home area 🎨😊

I’m always grateful for my children, and I feel very lucky and thankful for that I have a good job 🤓😊 as well as my freelance work 📝. For me a good job is a stable job 🙏💛.

March was stormy, not just mentally, but we got a lots of rain and wind from Sahara that in it’s own way “coloured up” our days…..and all our things outside too 😅. I’m still not finish washing and cleaning that,- it wasn’t the easiest to clean up to be honest 🏖🧽.

Goodbye, goodbye March,- it was what it was. Experiences and knowledge in different ways and forms, maybe special the mental area this time? 😌

I’m looking forward to both meet and start on April. I’m looking forward to start to “prepare” my “backyard cafe” for the Spring and Summer, as well as the roof terrace 🌱 🌞. I have started to plant some plants “here and there”, and it’s so nice to see they are growing.

My daughter is going to have a terrace party in our roof terrace for her friends before she’s travelling to Bali,- and yes, if everything goes as it’s planned she will be on her way to Bali and some new and exciting adventures 20. April 🏖✈

April the month I became a mammi for the first time,- it’s my oldest son’s birthday month 🎁. I’m not sure if I’m getting older or he is just growing up very much and a bit to fast? 😅. I can’t believe that I will have a “child” in age 28 during April 😳. Wow,- imagine that 🥰.

I think April will be a bit more “relaxed” in the mind that March was 🤯. But I know there will be more then enough to do during April too, but in a very different way then during this month we now are waving Goodbye and Thank you too 🧡.

Welcome April,- the Spring is in the air 🌱🌞. And things will also change in our home,- and in general changes are good even they can be a bit “scary” because they are unknown,- like changes in general are. But this time I’m looking forward to some of this changes,- like for example live a bit my life, live a bit on my own and alone 😍. I love my children, and I love my daughter and her company too,- but it’s a time for everything in life,- like leave the nest 😉🐣.

I hope you too are looking forward to meet April and have some nice things in your life to look forward too 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Look how nice and colourful it can be in my “backyard cafe” this Spring and summer 🥰.

Goodbye, goodbye March- Thank you for the experiences 🧡. Welcome April,- I’m really looking forward to meet you 🤗.

#spring #lifeis #livinginspain #Norwegian #positivefocus #lifeisgood #thelife #thedailylife #mychildren #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #feelingthankful #march #april