Someone “has” “Friday the 13th”, I think I “had” “Monday the 13th” 😳

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

First of all I need to say I had a really great time together with my friend from Norway 🥰. It was good to see her again and “chat up” after so long time 🥰. And I hope I will get some more guests from Norway during the summer, but first of all I need to sort out some private challenges and issues.

For some people Friday the 13th is a kind of unlucky day,- but for me I think it’s Monday the 13th. Or maybe not unlucky, but challenges. In Spain it’s Tuesday the 13th, or some say also Monday the 13th, that is the “famous unlucky day”- so I’m actually not sure what’s correct. For me it feels more like it’s Monday the 13th that is a day that have this “touch” of this unlucky stuff.

Anyway,- I need to admit this day haven’t quite been my favourite day today. Actually it has been a day with different uncomfortable feelings. So I do feel it has been a bit like a “unlucky the 13th….Monday “.

My private computer collapsed, there’s no life in it no matter what I’m trying to do. That’s not to good, because I do my freelance work on that one,- a job I’m a bit financially dependent on having a while ahead. And I can’t buy a new one at the moment either because…..

…..also today all our things and stuffs suddenly was delivered on my door. I was not prepared for that one, and not my wallet either 😳. And I was really not prepared for the mental and emotional reaction either- that one was really hard. It was hard to “get” our life in Norway after so long time “delivered” on my door. Our past, memories- a lots of great and good memories,- but it’s because of bad memories and experiences all our things are here now. And I was not prepared it was so much things and stuffs either.

I’m very grateful my oldest son is “just around the corner”- because it became a bit to much for me to handle alone today- emotions, thoughts, feelings and worries, tears, so many tears,- and how to manage pay for this? I had a plan- but that one did work out. I haven’t payed for it yet- and that doesn’t feel very good either. It shouldn’t come yet,- and now I feel a bit like I have stolen my own things and stuffs, and past. Not a very good feeling that one either. Hopefully that feeling will past- and solutions showing and coming up too. And hopefully a solution will come very soon. I’m really trying to find a solution.

Luckily there’s different things we can sell- but how fast will it be possible to sell them?

I should also pay for the water to day, but that wasn’t easy to do. A old house with a old payment system, and they couldn’t find my home or the water bill in the system- that one felt very uncomfortable too. Will they turn off the water now? I really don’t hope so.

And then it’s also a strike in my job today at the customer service senter. Strike for higher salaries. I’m very agree that we need to get a bit better / higher salary,- but still it feels a bit like I have done that one illegal today- to not log me on the phone and do my job. I can’t say I felt it was like a great day off from work- more like a day where “all and everything” just “happen”, things I didn’t wanted or wished for to happen. I don’t like to be away from my job when it’s not because of holiday or illness or a legal approved appointment I have and have the right to be away from my job. I didn’t enjoy this day off from work at all for. It feels like i’ve skipped my job today, something I don’t like. So hopefully at least the salary will be higher- but I don’t know.

If it’s something that really stressing me out it’s when I don’t have the overview over the economy. I thought I slowly was getting there now- but with this computer crash, not be able to pay the water bill and also for our things and stuffs- phu- it’s stressing me a bit. And no- at the moment I have no overview over the situation at all.

In one way of course this day also was a good day just because of the reason that our things and stuffs from Norway actually are here now after so many, many years in Norway. And I know that,- but I need to admit that today I have a tiny challenge to see that and feel that. Feel happy and grateful- I feel most sad. Really , really sad, and I do cry too.

At the same time I also was “off from my job” today because of the strike when suddenly all our things was “standing” there. If I have been working I haven’t been able to take them. So maybe something with this day have a kind of meaning, I just don’t see it all yet 😊.

When I have got a bit more control and economic overview it will be better. It will feels better,- but today I’m not ready for any nice and great holiday guests from Norway- but I will be- I just need a tiny bit of time to sort things out a bit first 😊. The economic situation and when I don’t have the control and overview and don’t see the solutions- I don’t like that, it’s stressing me. Even I know it’s not “the end of the world”- it feels a bit like that for me.

And of course I know for many people my day, my unlucky Monday the 13th, and this different experiences and challenges doesn’t feel so much and so big and so challenged- and I understand that- but for me it feels like a tiny mountain with (money) challenges around me today.

And then just to “top it a bit more” my television stopped loading, the chrome caster didn’t wanted to cast, and I suddenly didn’t have any access to my blog either 😅. But both of that ones are fixed now. But of course then even tiny little small things that goes wrong can feel like a tiny mountain to move, and to get things correct again.

And I needed to write this today,- not for complaining- even I know I’m doing that- but in a way write a kind of distance to the things that’s feels a bit challenging and difficult today. And to be honest,- I do feel a bit more calm down then for just a tiny while ago- even I still not have any solutions or overview. I’m actually grateful for the strike today so I was able to take our things and stuffs into my home. And of course I’m grateful for that the things actually are here. And hopefully solutions will come for my private computer, the water bill and the payment for our things too.

Thank you so much for just letting me “squeeze a bit out” on “the paper” today- it helped a bit to be honest 🧡

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😊

I’m trying to smile as best as I can- but I do feel a bit chaotic inside me today 😊

For some Friday the 13th is a unlucky day, for me it felt a bit like Monday the 13th was a bit uncomfortable day, with a touch of some lucky stuffs. But at the same time touched with some things, happenings, feelings, thoughts and emotions I was not prepared for- lucky ones at the same time as it feels a bit challenging too.

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It needs to heal in it’s own way and tempo 🧩⚖

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Like I mention in my last post,- to have some mental challenges in life is more and less like break a leg or get a sore throat. Sometimes a kind of treatment is necessary, other times the body heals it self. Sometimes you get a scar, other times not.

To compare mental challenges with physical challenges is probably the best way for many people to understand a bit about mental challenges in life.

Mental challenges happens if a person get some not to good experiences in life. The experiences can be many different things,- lose someone close to you, be in a bad relationship, even a bad friendship. It can be so many different things and experiences in life that can make a open, painful sore in a person’s soul and mind. Like the physical open sore needs time to heal, also the open sore in the soul and mind needs time to heal as well. But the healing process is different from person to person, as well as the treatment process also can be different from person to person.

This is not a open sore,- it’s a part of a painting I’m working on,- but it looks a bit like a open inflamed wound, right?

Other times the mental challenges can feels like a big, black, painful and empty holes inside you that you are trying to fill up with different things to both get rid of the pain and close the hole.  Get rid of the empty feeling inside you.

Other times it can be a mix of both the open inflamed sore and the open, empty black hole. And the treatment? It depends on the person, the day, the situation.

I know my daughter very well. I’m probably the one who knows her best, maybe even sometimes better then she knows her self. Because I’m her mammi, I have carried her around, in my stomach, in my arms, in my heart ❤.

And when I say I sometimes wish she was 10 months or 10 years old it’s because it was so much easier to comfort her when she didn’t feel very well. Now at days I’m not always sure what I can do for her so she feels well inside her after what she has been through.

I try to do her days in our home as easy as possible so she can focus on her self, get better, heal her pain, heal her mind, do a good job in her job, get as ready as possible for the big travel to Bali.

I know I can’t fuss too much, demand too much, arguing to much. It’s a lot inside her that must be in place after what she has been through. I know that, and I know things needs to be healed in a way that’s good for her, in her own tempo,- so the scars after her experiences will not be to big in her soul and mind when they are healed.

And I also want her to try to focus on good sleep, regular and healthy food and some exercise. Yoga, walks,- what ever that’s suitable for her. I know this three things are a very important part of getting better, let the mind heal faster.

But to focus on a as regular lifestyle as possible for her is not so easy when she works shifts. Days, afternoons, nights and weekends. It’s not so easy to split the house work between us either when she works like this and also needs to focus to heal her mind and soul.

So even if we have tried,- it’s mainly me that makes the dinners, do the shopping, clean the house, do the dishes and wash the clothes.

So yes,- I can get incredibly tired sometimes. Do different things in the home for two people, take care of her as good as I can and do my own work and my own things too. I actually don’t manage “all and everything”,- but I know this is just for an period. And I know that this is the best solutions for my daughter at the moment.

In about 4 to 6 weeks she will be on the way to Bali. Things will be different for her as well as for me. Hopefully her soul and mind will be more healed, and if she needs me or her psychologist,- I’m just a phone call away, and her psychologist just a Skype conversation away 😊. And her friends will also be available for a good chat,- I know that 😊.

And to be honest,- I need to “heal” a bit too after this period. My daughter know I needs it too,- that Im tired now it’s not a secret. And I’m going to have one week holiday when my daughter has travelled to Bali and in that holiday is just for myself and for to do absolutely nothing (wonder if I can manage that 😅?) 😁.

So,- we both needs to be healed a bit,- but just in very different ways and for very different reasons. I know my daughter will be fine,- she is a strong, young woman ❤. And I will be fine too,- it’s going to be fine to just clean my own cups and plates, wash just my sock and jumpers, clean up just after just my self for a while 😁. I don’t need to heal a open inflamed sore in my soul or a empty painful black hole inside me, likely daughter needs to do. So my “treatment” is very easy actually compared to what my daughter’s has to work with ❤. But she is getting there,- better and better after every “down trip” 🙏🧡.

And she have found her drawing book and colours too during the last days,- a very, very good sign that her mind and soul is starting to heal more and more. I’m so happy and grateful she’s starting to filling up the painful, black hole with colours 🎨🧡. And the inflation is getting better, but I know there still will be days that that one can be painful again.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Sometimes the pain inside can feel like a painful, open, black hole inside you that needs to be fixed or filled up with something,- it’s just not always easy to find out what.

Mental challenges can feels like a inflamed sore inside, or like a big, black, painful hole that’s needs to be filled up with something so the pain stops 🚫. My daughter has found her drawing book and her colours, and have slowly started to fill up the black, painful hole with colours 🎨. We all need different ways to find our own way for the treatment of our soul and mind 🧡🥀🙏.

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Reuse and recycling 🌍 ♻️

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

As some of you know I like “old” and “used” things, and I like to reuse and recycling. For example I really like to get a bag or two of clothes someone else are “finish” with, or can’t use anymore ( = reuse) , or I like to try to find some kind of “solutions” to use different things “over again” if that’s possible ( = reuse) . Many times it’s not possible. Even food I try to use in the best way as possible instead of throw it into the garbage 🗑.

I was also very good to recycling paper, plastic, glass, metal and so on until I moved last summer. The reason why I haven’t been very good to recycling this things after I moved is because it has been difficult to find the correct recycling garbage boxes here in the area. But now during the last weeks there’s some new recycling boxes in the street so it will be easier to do that kind of “job” for the nature again, recycling ♻️🌍.

I don’t need new things and fancy stuff. For me it’s most important that I like the things and stuffs I have, get or find ….or buy,- because now and then I also need to buy something 😊.

And when I’m painting on the glassbottles I in my own use a glassbottle over again instead of throwing it away 🎨. And I did also find a couple of solutions to use plastic bottles “over again” too 😊 (= reuse)

I made a kind of “gift- , “safe”-, carry- and possibility to hang up” bag for my painted glassbottles 🎨

Now and then, not very often, but it happens people “drops by” to take a tiny look at my art and also want to buy a glassbottle or two 🎨. Then it could be good to have something “safe” to put the glassbottle into, as well as carry in. So then I did cut up some plastic bottles and “created” some simple “gift- and carry bags” in plastic 🛍.

I have some “gift- and carry” plastic bags/ bottles ready in case someone is “dropping by” to buy a glassbottle or two 🛍

It’s a tiny way to reuse the plastic bottles, maybe not the best, but anyway better to throw them away.

It’s also possible to hang the glassbottles up on your clothesline too 😊. But on your own responsibility.

Look at this 😊. A bit cool,- isn’t it? 😊

I’m a bit better on reuse now at days then recycling, but now when there’s new recycling garbage boxes in the street it will be much easier to continue recycling too ♻️.

I have also planted a bit in the plastic bottles. Maybe there will come some more different kinds of onions, tomatoes and paprika in our kitchen during the next weeks? 🍅🌶

I like to find creative solutions and I like to be creative. And I slowly starting to realise that that’s probably a bit of my kind of lifestyle to do too- to be creative and find solutions 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Two different onions and tomatoes are planted,- and in just a couple of days I’m going to plant some paprika too 🌶

I haven’t been very good to recycling after I moved, but there wasn’t any recycling garbage boxes close by my home ♻️. But when it comes to reuse,- I try to do my best and find some kind of solutions on that one 😊.

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