Thank you, April 🌹Welcome May 🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

April is soon over and it’s time for me to say Thank you, April for the time “together” and Goodbye 🥀.

It’s not very much that’s happen, at the same it’s a bit “here and there” 😊. The days as an customer service agent on the phone are very busy, and have been busy all month 🎧. The phone is more and less calling “non stop”. So I’m very happy I used the Easter days to relax and sleep as much as I did 😊.

I have baked to my children and knit and painted too 🍪 🎨🧶.

My cold showers become warm again and that was very nice 🚿, and I did dropped by the hairdresser too for a short visit to “refresh” my hair a bit ✂️.

I have been dropping by menopause and the midlife, and that’s not over that’s for sure. So I’m probably going to “drop by” that subject now and then a bit more.

I did change the name at my blog, and at the moment I’m also trying out a “email- concept” to my blog and see how that goes and will working out😊.

My oldest son was born in April, and I could “celebrate” 27 year as a mammi 🧡.

I have also had a short “dropping in” to the dating “subject”. I thought I had more “distance” to my experiences from the past then I obviously have. So dating, and relationship are still put “on hold” for a while. I need to resett my self a bit more when it comes to that. That’s the way it is. And well,- I don’t think the online chatting is “helping” either,- but what to do? I need to earn some money.

April has been in it’s own way nice and gentle 💛, and busy too, but now in the end a couple of not to “good news” showed up, “just in case”. But I will probably manage to handle them too, as well as find solutions that’s best for me. I just need to keep calm, use my the wise and do my best, look for and try to find solutions 😊.

The first “not to good news” is that there has been some unexpected withdrawals to my bank account. Not very much, 9 euro here and 10 euro there. Lucky for me the bank found out what is was and did transfer the money back to my bank account. It was actually some unknown phonenumber I have answer, no one in the other end, but to pick up the phone cost me 9 and 10 euro. So I’m not picking up my phone anymore when a number I don’t know is calling me ☎️. I can’t support scammers, that’s for sure.

But scammers did “dropped up” in my computer too 😳. The internet company I’m using called me and asked me about some streaming I did once a week around midnight 😳. I’m not streaming, and had now idea what they talked about. But that one costed me 20 euro pr week, and they couldn’t pay that money back 😔. But they could at least stop the streaming. Obviously someone has hacked into my internet in some or another way. 20 euro pr week doesn’t sound to much for some, but for me it is a bit of money. Special when it has last for 8 weeks too, and I didn’t know. But hopefully this is over as well.

And them the house- owner asked me if I wanted to continue renting the house, and also told my that they needed to change the rent, but in a good way for both them and me. I actually said yes to rent for a bit longer time, because I need to save up some money to deposit, one month houeserent, fee to an rent agent company and a movingcar for moving to a new place…. before I can move 😐. And I actually believed the house owner when they told me “in a good way for both them and me”. We are, after all, living in a pandemic time, with all the various changes and challenges it entails for most people. So I need to admit I haven’t see a rent rise for 150 euro per month coming 😳. Phu,- that one was really like a cold shower 🚿.

But okay,- I will manage to find a solution for this too,- you know when one door is closing a new one is opening up 🔑. Unfortunately I can’t effort moving at the moment either, because it cost both one month deposit, one month rent and in general also one month to the renting agency too. So it’s just to “fold up my arms” , work and work and save as much as I can during the next months.

And yes,- me and my colleague got an other cold shower too, yesterday. It’s not sure the company we are working for will manage to find an other job for us from August. So we both have felt on a tiny little stone in our stomachs today. So at the moment I know I have the customer service agent job on the phone for 3 more months, after that? I have no idea what will happen.

But I have at least my freelance work, so my focus for the next months is actually work and work and work a bit more to manage this “different unexpected not to good news”, and save, save, save as much as I can. And get as many and much online work projects as possible.

But I will still Thanks April for the nice and gentle moments and time this month has given me 🧡. Hopefully I can say Thank you for the unexpected “not to good news” too one day, but not today. Today I need to sort out a bit thoughts and feelings, things and also change my plans a bit too. But it will be more hours for work and not to many hours for other things for a while, that’s for sure 😊. But,- That’s life, isn’t it? It is what it is, and I just need to try to do my best of it, as well as the “not to good news” too. Maybe there are some nice surprises behind them? 🥀 I really hope so 🙏.

And Welcome May, the month that slowly brings the summer into our days 🌞. I don’t know very much about what I can expect, but I know it will be sunny days, and days with a bit more work then I had in my mind, and hopefully I will find some kind of “solutions” to both of the “not to good news” I got now in the end of April 🥀. And I know my daughter is coming some days to visit me and be on “holiday” in my home for some days, as well as I know my oldest son will drop by too ❤. So there’s something really good to look forward to in May as well 🥰.

Thank you April for nice and gentle days 🥀, and Welcome May 💛- I really hope you are coming with a lots of sunshine, warm and relaxing days in more then just the physical way,- but also mentally as well as with some “sunny” solutions too 🌞.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Thank you, April, and welcome May- with your warmer days 🌞

Thank you April for nice and gentle days 🥀, and Welcome May 💛- I really hope you are coming with a lots of sunshine, warm and relaxing days in more then just the physical way,- but also mentally as well as with some “sunny” solutions too 🌞.

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Black and white is not black and white at all 🎨🥰

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been at the post office today and sent some gifts to Norway that should been sent a long, long time ago 😔. But it’s not the easiest thing to reach the post office when I’m in general are at work or need to work during the time the post office is open. And now at days the post office is just open from Monday to Friday too, and then between 8.30 to 14.30,- in that time I’m working 😔. But today I reached the post office because I also needed to pick up my new passport, and then I did dropped by the post office on my way to the Norwegian Consulate 😊. And there’s not very much “post in the store” here in Spain as they have in Norway either.

This gift was finish some years ago, and the plan was to bring them with me to Norway myself at that time, but, unfortunately, I couldn’t priority any trips to Norway because of economic reasons. That’s the way it is,- and I’m not sure when I actually can travel to Norway at the moment. It’s not the easiest time to travel anywhere at the moment.

The gifts that’s on the day to Norway 🧡🎁

The gift is to a couple that was so incredibly kind to borrow their attic to us so we could have and take care of what was left of our things and stuffs in Norway. Actually our memories.

I’m more grateful for this guest than I probably ever will manage to show them, but I hope they will see some of my gratefulness in the gifts 🧡.

I’m going to send some more gifts up to them later. I have actually created more, because I’m so, so thankful that we didn’t also lost those things too in something that felt a bit like living in a tornado at that moment. We lost so much at that time 😔.

It’s many years since I felt was living in this tornado, but it also took many years to get the tornado on distance 🌪.

I did paint two paintings to this couple, and I called the paintings for “Black and white” because that’s something this people really are not like at all,- black and white 🎨.

Maybe it sounds strange to call a painting and two for more and less the opposite then I feel and think, but for me it felt correct. They are so open minded and helpful, and there’s no no form of judgment or condemnation. Something I really didn’t need at that time. To be honest, I don’t feel I needed now either, but unfortunately, many people are a bit to good to do exactly that, – judge and condemnation. Special when they haven’t been in a tornado situation or an other person’s shoes,- if you understand what I mean?

This painting is 40*40 cm- and actually not very much black and with 🎨

For me the illustration in this painting stands for my gratefulness as well as for their incredibly big heart and help. The colours represent Thankfulness, hope, love, future. And as you can see there not just black and white. But because of the black and white the other colours showing a kind of softer texture and touch,- like I felt they gave me with their help 🧡.

I know it’s “just” things and stuffs that was in this attic, but for me and my children it’s, like I mention, memories, the rest what’s left from our good memories from the past, our past.

This painting is 30*30 cm.

It can seems like the painting are in their own way similar, and they also are, at the same time as you can see this last one is more “flying” with the heart. It’s actually my love and gratefulness I’m sending them, this couple that helped us to take care of our memories 🧡. It’s like I just want to embrace them for their help with this “flying” heart 🤗.

I have been thinking a lot about this and that our things and stuffs was at their attic. Not just on their attic, but also on “overtime” too 😔.

Hopefully I will manage to “correct up” some things after this tornado long time ago now in the future. With “correct up” I mean try to take some other and new choices and directions in my life, as well as better solutions for the future then be in a tornado 😊. And also show the people around me how much I presage their help during the tornado many years ago 🧡.

My focus during the lasts years has been to try to mitigate the damage the tornado did to my children.  Now I have to try to clean up some of the other damage this tornado did in my life. I will not manage it all, because there’s so much that belongs to the past, and it’s actually not possible to go back to the past and “correct up” different damage or acts. But there’s a day today and a future I can do something good and positive with 😊.

What I can do is try to find a way to deal with the different damage after the tornado in a better way then I have done 😊.

Anyway,- I hope the gifts will bring this incredible couple some kind of joy 😊. If not, maybe they can lighting up their attic as a “reminder” about us that “occupied” their attic for years 😊.

I’m very grateful – and I really hope they know- I hope they can see and feel my gratefulness in the paintings in some or another way 🧡.

And,- I have some few more gifts I need to send to Norway during the nexts weeks, but hopefully I will find a solution for that when the time is there 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Here are both of the paintings together- similar, but still not.

I have sent some gifts to Norway today. Something I should done long time ago, but life is and life happens. And it’s not always easy to control “all and everything” in life 💚. I’m more grateful for this help a couple in Norway did gave me and my children than I can give any expression for. Hopefully the paintings tells a bit how grateful I’m for the help 🧡.

#helpful #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #thankful #lifeis #gifts #paintings #challenges #changes #tornado #oilpaintin, #oilcolor #creative #myart #art #oneofakind #heart #create #myfeelings #memories #lifegoeson 🧡

“She is like a little sister for me” 👨‍👦🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m finish with my first glassbottle painted with neon colours. It didn’t became exactly the way I had in mind, but I think it is because I don’t have any neon lights? 🤔 Anyway,- I still think it became a bit cool 😊. And this glassbottle is to my oldest son’s friend 🧡.

My first glassbottle with just neon colours 😊 A gift to my oldest son’s friend 🎁

He lived in my home for 3 months last year at this time, and then it actually was the second time he has been living here together with my oldest son and me and my daughters well. Both the young boys lived here for a tiny while when they moved to Spain some years ago and was looking for to find their own apartment 😊.

And he had been a bit in and out of my home since that, visiting me together with my oldest son 😊. Both are now living together at the mountains ⛰. I’m actually a bit happy my son and his dog, Zorro, don’t live alone at the mountains anymore 😊. It’s a bit fare away from people to be honest,- after a mammi’s heart and opinion 😅. But maybe that’s why they’re enjoying living there so much?

When my daughter needed help in December 2020 to move all her things back home my oldest son’s friend helped her together with her oldest brother. Both of the young men picked up all here things in a very good and calm way. I was actually very impressed how they handled the situation 🧡.

And of course I did Thank him a lot because he chose to use his time, even take of his working- hours to help her. Then he told me “Of course, she is like a little sister for me”🧡. And as a mammi that touched my heart a lot. Imagine he looked at my daughter as a little sister 🧡. His little sister 🥀.

The glassbottle “all around: but without any lights inside 💡

But maybe it is in away a bit natural too? It’s 10 years between them, and they have spend a lots of time together here in Spain. My daughter has spent some evenings together with them looking at movies or watching her big brother when he was streaming different kinds of online games when they lived a bit closer.

I also knit a hat, scarf and elf- socks to him,- just because he deserves it 😊. And it can still be s bit cold up there in the mountains even the Spring is slowly coming ❄

It’s also my daughter that has been looking after his two cats when he has travelled to Norway and visiting his family and friends.

And last Spring when Spain “closed down” for 3 months, and put us all into curfew, one of his cats actually moved into my daughter and lived there for 3 months 🐱.

Some details from the glassbottle with neon colours 🔎

So in so many ways I can actually understand why he looks at my daughter as his little sister, also because I myself think about him as a part of my and our family. But it still touched my heart very much when he actually told me this, and even more because he used the words “of course” 🧡.

So I want to give him something that shows him how much I presage him as a the person he is, the part of my and our family he has become, as well as the care he had shown my daughter, and still do 🧡. And then it became some knit and some painted, both one of a kind, and made just for him 💙.

And PS- a big Thank you to the blogger #zoewiezoe that actually gave my the idea to try to paint with neon colours 🎨 🥀 I m going to continue try to paint with neon colours as well as oil colours, and also some acrylic painting too, in between 😊🎨.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

The neon painted glassbottle with lights inside 💡

I was, and still is, very touched by my oldest son’s friend’s words when he was helping my daughter moving back home to me in December 2020 💙. And I wanted to give him something “special” made just for him because of this- just to try to show him how much I presage him and also his help 💙.

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Thank you 2020, and Goodbye ❄. Very Welcome you sweet and unknown 2021 ❤

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I sneaked quietly out of the strange year 2020, and also sneaked quietly into the new and unknown year 2021. I actually slept out of 2020 and into 2021. Not because I thought 2020 was something to not celebrate, or something to not be grateful for, or not to say goodbye too 💛.  And the same is for this new and unknown 2021,- I really do welcome this new, sweet and unknown year, and it is also nice to celebrate a new year, a new start, a new beginning on it’s own way 😊. But I sneaked out of one year and sneaked into a new year simply because I was exhausted and so, so tried 😴.

It has been some of a year this 2020. A year that I think most of us not had in mind at all one year ago. I had different goals and plans, wishes and dreams, even some small hopes for 2020. And I need to admit I’m still not even close to reach them,- but I have at least started. Hopefully it will be better and more possible for me to try to reach them this year. This unknown 2021 I just whisper nice and softly Welcome to 💚.

I know many will probably not be grateful for 2020, and also think it’s strange that “someone”, like for example me, can be grateful for the year 2020. But I have different things to be grateful for during this very different year, a year with changes and challenges I didn’t see was coming at all one year ago. I knew it would be changes and challenges, new experiences, new possibilities and new knowledge, but I didn’t expected quite what it all was, and special not the way “it all” became. I don’t think most of us did . But still I choose to be grateful instead of feeling sad, disappointed or unhappy for this year that now has been.

It’s “showed” up a “new” virus that changed our lifesituation totally, not just in our home and life, but for the society in the whole world. It’s called a “pandemi”,- but I have some different thoughts about the whole situation around this pandemi, to be honest. And to be honest, – I really don’t like this new lifesituation we all are living in either. But I don’t think, unfortunately, there’s very much I can do about it. Except for trying to do my best of it.

It has been a very difficult year for most of us, but still I feel and know I have a lots of good things to be grateful for during this year, and I also choose to focus as best as I can on the good things during this year.

Even during the not to good days there can in a strange way a tiny positive thing or two. If we choose to take a good look, or just choose to turn things a bit around. Easy? No,- I really know it’s not easy. Sometimes it’s even a really “deep dive” “down under” or inside you for even trying to find a tiny little touch of something positive or “magical”. But in most cases and situations there’s always something you can turn around to something positive, just even a tiny little bit. But a tiny little bit of something positive is better and more then nothing 💚.

I have most of this year been living together with my children, not all three at the same time, but one or two of them together with one or two of their friends. That was not my plan for 2020. 2020 should actually, in my mind, be the first year in my adult life when I was going to live on my own. To “find me” and not just the “mammi me” 😊. It didn’t quite became that way 😊.

I feel and I know I have a lots to be grateful for when it comes to this “living together with my children again”- situation, even my children are young adults and should been able to live on their own. But the corona- situation did change some of my children’s plans too.

There’s so many that even have been able to see their children or grandchildren this year. I have been able to see my children, talk with them, hug them, and live together with all three of them ❤. I have been able to spend a lots of time together with my children, and their friends too 🧡. Something I’m very happy and grateful for, even there was time and days I was a bit tired of having so many people around me “all the time” 😊.

It has been a year filled up with restrictions. New restrictions all after how the green or red “corona- numbers” changed.

Sometimes it feels like living in a silent war. Sometimes it feels like our freedom is removed away from us. Well,- our freedom has been changing a lot during this year. But I need to admit that after closely 3 months with curfew during the Spring 2020 here in Spain, it’s actually felt like a kind of freedom to be able to walk a bit around “here and there”, even when we have bedtime- restrictions between 23.00 and 06.00 here in Spain at the moment.

I don’t like to use the mask, a mask I have restrictions for using all the time when I’m not in my home 😷. And we have actually lived with this mask- restriction for over 6 months now. But it still feels and is very unnatural for me to use a mask in this way. I’m not sure it’s going to be or feel natural for me either.

In its own way it has been a “silent” year with not to much “happenings”, but still some different “happenings” at the same time. And in a very strange way 2020 went very fast too.

We have been living in Spain for around 7,5 years now, but 2020 is the first year during all this years we didn’t have any holiday guests from Norway to visit us. No one. No friends. No family. At the same time I have had more people “living” in my home this year then other years.

I have no idea what 2021 will bring of mostly anything or nothing. I know there will be some new changes, some new challenges, but also new possibilities, new wisdom and new knowledge, even some new experiences in life too. There will also be a lots of July and happiness too ❤ But I have no idea what. It’s actually just to wait and see what’s happen, what’s comes up and try to handle it as best as possible 💚.

And I know I will try my very best to reach my different goals and dreams, plans, wishes and hopes this year. But I felt a bit like I was taken a bit with suprice in 2020 and the new “lifesituation”, the different restrictions and the a bit unexpected changes in my life. So I in away lost a bit focus on my “things and stuffs” for a while. And it’s not easy to find your own dynamic either when you share your days and weeks, even months with “new” people, “new” habits 😊.

softies home pajamas

I have no New Year’s resolutions, but ….. :

I hope, wish, dream, will work for, create plans for and do my best for to reach my dreams and goals: I hope I will manage to get my children and my things and stuffs from Norway to Spain this year. And I also hope I will manage to renew my driving licence and buy my own car. I hope I will manage to save up enough money to go to the dentist, as well as pay back money I have borrowed from my friend. I hope I will manage to work a bit more with my textes and blog, and maybe even earn some money in it. And I hope I will manage to paint creative paintings and fancy and nice glassbottles that’s “touch” people’s souls in some or another way. Maybe even be able to sell some of them? I hope I can live in this home to the Spring 2022. And I hope I’m “back in business” with my workout, and I hope I will still have “all” my jobes too. And maybe even “the love of my life” will shows up during this year? And I hope I will manage to save up enough money to maybe find a new home during the Spring 2022.

Anyway, – what I do know is that I just can do my very, very best to reach my dreams and wishes, goals and hopes. But I also know that thing can change “on the road”. Like it did in 2021. So I need to admit that I have that in my mind too. That also this year can be different from what I have in my mind at the moment.

And I hope, wish, dreams that my children will continue to be happy in their life with whatever they want to do and like to do 💙💙❤.

And I wish you all the best for 2021 🧡. Try to find and focus on the positive things during your days. I know it can be difficult, and I know a day can have more negative things then positive now and then too. But a positive focus gives in general a positive attitude, results and responses 💚.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon 😊

I have this in my livingroom- and for me it’s stands for positive focus….in case I do forget now and then I just take a look and remember why I put and created it this way 💛.

Thank you strange and different 2020. Thank you for all the great time I have shared together with my children as well as their friends ❤. Thank you for the changes and challenges, knowledge and experiences during this year 2020 🧡. Welcome sweet, soft, lovely and so very unknown 2021🌹. I don’t know what you will bring of anything yet,- but I still whisper you a soft and nice welcome 🌹❤.

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