Maybe there’s something in it …? 🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

As some of you know I’m going to move, something that came a bit unexpected and a bit faster then I had in mind.

I had something else in my mind and in a bit different “time schedule” too. In my mind I thought maybe I was going to move from this home in October or maybe during the Spring 2022. But obviously that was not the plan 😊.

And I have been thinking a bit about this “plan”,- my plan that’s not going the way and direction I had in mind,- that’s for sure 😅. But obviously there is a kind of plan in front of me, but I have just no any idea what it is, or where, or how to find it 😊.

One of my neighbours told me exactly this one day too,- that it was probably an other plan for me then I had in mind. And maybe there’s something in it? 🤔 But what? And where? And how? Because I don’t know at the moment, or maybe I do? 🍇

One thing is the pandemi- situation in the society and the world. That one has changed many people’s plans and lives, and not to the best either 😔. And of course also many of my plans are affected by the corona- situation. Maybe also this a bit sudden moving- situation? It’s just that I’m actually moving because of a increase of the rent, and not the opposite, that maybe should be a bit more natural under an pandemi?

I have many times said “when one door is closing, a new one is open up”. And I believe that it true too. It’s just a bit “scary” to open up and go into the “unknown”, the new door- opening and into something new and unknown. Special when I actually don’t know what will “meet” me behind this new door- opening in my life.

Well,- in one way I know where I’m going to live, and how the new home is 🏡. I have visit Natasja in their holiday home I’m going to rent many times 😊. And I’m going to live so close to the beach, something I really looking forward too 🏖. I actually thought I was not going to vist the beach very much this summer, but the beach is going to be my neighbour instead 🏖. So there will be more beach- visits then I had in mind too 😊. And I really like to spend time at the beach 🏖.

So literally I know what’s behind the new door I’m going to open up, because I know how the new home is looking like. But mentally I have not any ideas what I can expect,- except from that I’m incredibly grateful for this new home opportunity 🧡, and things in my life are changing, that’s for sure 😊.

It’s also the first time in my adult life I’m going to move on my own, alone 😳. I moved from my parents home when I was 19 years old, but then I became a mammi just some few months after my 21. birthday, and after that I have not moved to much and to many times, and always together with my children too.

It feels a bit strange to move without my children. I knew this day would come, but I thought I had a bit more time to “feel and think” about “this” new living on my own, and moving on my own situation too 😊. Now I feel I was a bit “thrown out” in something I’m not quite ready for 😅.

But at the same time I need to admit I feel a bit comfortable and “safe” with my new living- situation because I’m going to rent from someone I know very well. And in a way, like I mention, I “know” the home I’m moving into 🏡. But still it feels a bit strange too,- like “someone” else just changed my plans without “consulting” me first if it was okay for this new changes 😅. Sounds maybe strange, but that’s the way I feel at the moment 😊. I don’t know if you understand what I mean?

At the moment I feel, I actually know I don’t have any other choices then to open the new unknown door in my life. And the first step into this “unknown” is to move and start to live in a new home for a while 🏡. But not before in the middle of June, its about more or less a month to I’m going to move.

And,- yes,- I do believe there’s probably a “reason” or “plan” for why this happen in my life now, I just don’t know what it is 😊. I believe there’s maybe something in “it”, an other “plan” that I have and had in my mind, and that’s a new and unknown door is open up in my life. But what? Well,- it’s just to live, do the best of it and see “what’s happen” 🧡.

Do you feel like this sometimes? 🥀 Like “someone” changing your plans in your life without “consulting” you first? And that it feels a bit scary to open up the new door in your life because you don’t know what’s behind it? What can or will happen when you open the new door ? 🌸

I’m actually looking forward to this new unknown door I have in front of me, at the same time I hope it’s “allowed” to “feel” a bit around this soon new living- situation in my life 😊. The unexpected, the new door, the changes in my plans without “consulting” me first 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡 Take good care 🌹.

See you soon 😊

A new door is “slowly” open up in my life,- and I don’t know what I can or will meet behind it 😊 That is both a bit scary and exciting at the same time 😊

My neighbour told my that maybe it was “the plan” that I was going to move soon and a bit unexpected, even it was not my plan 🏡. I know when one door is closing in life, a new one is open up. But it is both a bit scary and exciting at the same time to open up the door to the unknown 😊.

#thelife #thougths #lifeis #livinginspain #Norwegian #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #positivefocus #anewdoorinlife #scary #exating #changes #challenges #movingout #dailylife #plans #theunexpexted #consulting

Thank you, April 🌹Welcome May 🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

April is soon over and it’s time for me to say Thank you, April for the time “together” and Goodbye 🥀.

It’s not very much that’s happen, at the same it’s a bit “here and there” 😊. The days as an customer service agent on the phone are very busy, and have been busy all month 🎧. The phone is more and less calling “non stop”. So I’m very happy I used the Easter days to relax and sleep as much as I did 😊.

I have baked to my children and knit and painted too 🍪 🎨🧶.

My cold showers become warm again and that was very nice 🚿, and I did dropped by the hairdresser too for a short visit to “refresh” my hair a bit ✂️.

I have been dropping by menopause and the midlife, and that’s not over that’s for sure. So I’m probably going to “drop by” that subject now and then a bit more.

I did change the name at my blog, and at the moment I’m also trying out a “email- concept” to my blog and see how that goes and will working out😊.

My oldest son was born in April, and I could “celebrate” 27 year as a mammi 🧡.

I have also had a short “dropping in” to the dating “subject”. I thought I had more “distance” to my experiences from the past then I obviously have. So dating, and relationship are still put “on hold” for a while. I need to resett my self a bit more when it comes to that. That’s the way it is. And well,- I don’t think the online chatting is “helping” either,- but what to do? I need to earn some money.

April has been in it’s own way nice and gentle 💛, and busy too, but now in the end a couple of not to “good news” showed up, “just in case”. But I will probably manage to handle them too, as well as find solutions that’s best for me. I just need to keep calm, use my the wise and do my best, look for and try to find solutions 😊.

The first “not to good news” is that there has been some unexpected withdrawals to my bank account. Not very much, 9 euro here and 10 euro there. Lucky for me the bank found out what is was and did transfer the money back to my bank account. It was actually some unknown phonenumber I have answer, no one in the other end, but to pick up the phone cost me 9 and 10 euro. So I’m not picking up my phone anymore when a number I don’t know is calling me ☎️. I can’t support scammers, that’s for sure.

But scammers did “dropped up” in my computer too 😳. The internet company I’m using called me and asked me about some streaming I did once a week around midnight 😳. I’m not streaming, and had now idea what they talked about. But that one costed me 20 euro pr week, and they couldn’t pay that money back 😔. But they could at least stop the streaming. Obviously someone has hacked into my internet in some or another way. 20 euro pr week doesn’t sound to much for some, but for me it is a bit of money. Special when it has last for 8 weeks too, and I didn’t know. But hopefully this is over as well.

And them the house- owner asked me if I wanted to continue renting the house, and also told my that they needed to change the rent, but in a good way for both them and me. I actually said yes to rent for a bit longer time, because I need to save up some money to deposit, one month houeserent, fee to an rent agent company and a movingcar for moving to a new place…. before I can move 😐. And I actually believed the house owner when they told me “in a good way for both them and me”. We are, after all, living in a pandemic time, with all the various changes and challenges it entails for most people. So I need to admit I haven’t see a rent rise for 150 euro per month coming 😳. Phu,- that one was really like a cold shower 🚿.

But okay,- I will manage to find a solution for this too,- you know when one door is closing a new one is opening up 🔑. Unfortunately I can’t effort moving at the moment either, because it cost both one month deposit, one month rent and in general also one month to the renting agency too. So it’s just to “fold up my arms” , work and work and save as much as I can during the next months.

And yes,- me and my colleague got an other cold shower too, yesterday. It’s not sure the company we are working for will manage to find an other job for us from August. So we both have felt on a tiny little stone in our stomachs today. So at the moment I know I have the customer service agent job on the phone for 3 more months, after that? I have no idea what will happen.

But I have at least my freelance work, so my focus for the next months is actually work and work and work a bit more to manage this “different unexpected not to good news”, and save, save, save as much as I can. And get as many and much online work projects as possible.

But I will still Thanks April for the nice and gentle moments and time this month has given me 🧡. Hopefully I can say Thank you for the unexpected “not to good news” too one day, but not today. Today I need to sort out a bit thoughts and feelings, things and also change my plans a bit too. But it will be more hours for work and not to many hours for other things for a while, that’s for sure 😊. But,- That’s life, isn’t it? It is what it is, and I just need to try to do my best of it, as well as the “not to good news” too. Maybe there are some nice surprises behind them? 🥀 I really hope so 🙏.

And Welcome May, the month that slowly brings the summer into our days 🌞. I don’t know very much about what I can expect, but I know it will be sunny days, and days with a bit more work then I had in my mind, and hopefully I will find some kind of “solutions” to both of the “not to good news” I got now in the end of April 🥀. And I know my daughter is coming some days to visit me and be on “holiday” in my home for some days, as well as I know my oldest son will drop by too ❤. So there’s something really good to look forward to in May as well 🥰.

Thank you April for nice and gentle days 🥀, and Welcome May 💛- I really hope you are coming with a lots of sunshine, warm and relaxing days in more then just the physical way,- but also mentally as well as with some “sunny” solutions too 🌞.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Thank you, April, and welcome May- with your warmer days 🌞

Thank you April for nice and gentle days 🥀, and Welcome May 💛- I really hope you are coming with a lots of sunshine, warm and relaxing days in more then just the physical way,- but also mentally as well as with some “sunny” solutions too 🌞.

#april #may #solutions #changes #challenges #thankful #lifeis #thatslife #thelife

It feels like the time just flies away 💙🎈🎁

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it’s 27 year since I became a mammi for the first time in my life,- to a lovely baby boy. The most fantastic, sweetest and gorgeous baby boy I have ever seen 💙. It was a marvellous moment, and in it’s own way still is 💙.

I still remember that day, 27 years ago, and it’s a day I’m probably going to remember with joy and happiness for the rest of my life 💙. I was so proud, and still is 🥰.

A so proud mammi to my first born child 27 years  ago- a friend of my in Norway did take this photo when she visited us in the hospital 💙

The feeling to hold him in my arms for the first time was fantastic 🥰. I felt so deeply in love with this little baby boy it felt like my heart was going to explode 💖. And this love has not became any less during the years, not at all ❤. Just bigger and stronger for very day 💙.

The love I feel for him is so strong, so unconditional- it’s impossible for me to explain with any words. There’s no words big enough to manage explain my love for him, and how incredibly proud I’m to be his mammi 💙. And how incredibly proud I’m of my son, my oldest son, my first born child 💙.

He is not a baby or child anymore, he is a young adult man. I do forget that sometimes, actually a bit often now and then too. He will probably always be my child, no matter how old he is 💙.

He goes his own ways in life, and that’s so fine 🥰. I see he is happy in his life, he works hard, and he reach the different goals he want to reach. He loves to entertain, something he always has liked to do.

He is helpful, and help out as best as he can if anyone close to him need some help of any kind 😊. And he really love to live close to the nature, and enjoys his life in the mountains 😊.

It’s getting a bit more difficult to find good and useful birthday presents to him as older he get 🎁. He manage to buy what he need on his own now 😊. But I really want to give him something that in it’s own way represent the love I feel for him. The proud. The best wishes for him in his life.

If I could, I have probably given him what ever he wanted and wish for, but I can’t. I can give him my unconditional love, and something that shows my love for him 💙. So this year it became a painted winebottle, but not a empty winebottle. A winebottle with wine inside. A winebottle, one of a kind, just like my oldest son 💙.

It’s the first time I have painted on a winebottle with wine inside. It was a bit different to paint, because the bottle was heavier and the different reflections became different then I’m use to. And I was so worried to loose the bottle when I painted. I really didn’t want it to break.

I have actually looked around in different stores to find a winebottle colour with blue glass, and lucky for me I did manage to fine one after a while 💙.

In case I could not remove the label on the bottle I took a picture of it to be able to show my son what wine is inside the bottle.

I did manage to remove the label, and put it together with his birthday card 😊.

The birthday- card to my oldest son- with the label from the wine too 😊

I have been working with this winebottle for a while, but still I was a bit worried I shouldn’t manage to get finish to my son’s birthday. But I did 😊.

Some few details from the winebottle to my oldest son 💙
The winebottle in different “environment” 😊.

And of course I wanted to try to made the present so “special” as I can and have the possibility to do,- so I found a bit cool winebox to the painted winebottle too 🎁.

Look ,- a bit cool ,- isn’t it? 💙

And of course I made the favourite chocolate cake I always makes to my children’s birthdays 😊🎁

The chocolate cake/ birthday cake and the birthday gift to my oldest son at his 27 years birthday 🎁💙.
And here you can see the winebottle “all around ” 💙

I should actually painted the winebottle in different violet colours, because that’s my oldest son favourite colour 🎨. But since the kids was small I have “created” things and stuffs, like for example clothes in different blue colours to my oldest, in different green colours to my middle son, and my daughter, – she was a bit “luckier” with the colours because I switched a bit between red, pink and violet in different varieties 😊. So then it became blue winebottle to my oldest son 💙.

And my oldest son has got some different knitted things in different violet colours so I think he know I know what’s his favourite colour anyway, and they all three know I have this “habit” to still give them things “touched” with the colours from their childhood 🥰.

So it’s actually and really 27 years since I became a mammi for the first time today 🥰. It feels incredible, – the time just flies away. I feel so incredibly grateful and lucky, and so proud 💙.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It was not easy to put lights inside a not open bottle, so then it became a bit lights around the the bottle instead 💙

Imagen it’s 27 years since I had this tiny little baby boy in my arms and felt so deeply in love 💙. He will probably always in a way be my child no matter how old he is 💙. In my post you will find my birthday gift to him this year, and if you want to take a look, you are welcome to do 🥰.

#mammi #raisingup #growingup #gettingolder #Norwegian #livinginspain #lifeis #myoldestson #lifeexperiences #lifeisgood #thelife #feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #proud #birthday #gift #winebottle #create #creative #myart #art #oneofakind #oilcolor #oilpainting #unconditionallove ❤

JustLailaS is now JustLailaS 😊🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Like I mention in a post for around a month ago I’m changing my domain name to my blog 😊. It’s no more mybumpyshininglife.com only Justlailas.com from now 😊.

And it feels very correct for me to do this change now at days, and I’m also comfortable with using my own name at my blog domain now 😊.

It has been a kind of process for me from mybumpyshininglife to JustLailaS. My focus on my domain name at that time was that my life felt a bit bumpy but also very shiny 🌞. But at that time, when I chose the name for my blog and domain name, my focus was also very much about “the bump” that dropped me off in Spain with a couple of kids in my suitcase. I’m not there anymore, – and that feels incredibly great 🥰.

I in a way did write me “out of it”, and that’s a very good feeling 😊.

It feels also as a good time to change name on my blog and domain name now when I’m standing on one “stop line” in my life as well as a new “start line” in my life too 😊. And from now it is “just me” too, but of course my blog will still contain my children too, as well as other friends and family that are important for me in my life 🧡.

It will still contain my art and what’s happen in my life- small and big things, stuffs and happenings. And it will still contain some of my thoughts about and around different subjects in life as well as dreams too 😊. And I’m still going to try to take and use my own photos as well to my texts.

It’s actually not many different changes in my blog, it’s more the symbolic name change that is the biggest changes in my blog. And the name change is more symbolic for me then my readers 😊.

And in a couple of weeks I’m also going to get an email connected to my blog,- something I’m actually looking forward to 😊. It’s not sure I will get any emails, but it feels nice to just have the possibility for my readers to contact me on an email if they want to 😊.

And hopefully there will be some new brands or banners in my blog too. One thing at the time,- and the first step was to change my domain name and name at my blog 😊.

I’m looking forward to continue writing in my blog, and I hope you also are looking forward to read my blog and posts now and then 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Laila S. from April 2021 😊

I have changed my domain name at my blog,- and it feels as the correct time in my life to do this change 😊. It’s also a tiny bit symbolic change of the name since I’m on my way out from inexera in my life and on my way into a new era in my life 🥰.

#justlailas #lifeis #myblog #mylife #mypost #newname #newdomain #writing #sharing #texts #readers #followers #positivefocus #lifeisgood #thelife #life 💚

Where does the road go in my life now? 🛤💚

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Like I mention in my last post,- I’m standing on the start line into a new era in my life. At the moment I’m standing and I choose to stand for a tiny little while too, because I just need to do this for myself. I need to feel on my feelings before I start “moving” in one or another direction in my life.

In one way I have some of the same thoughts I had when I was a teenager and was standing on the start line to be a young adult. What to do? Where to go? What can I expect? How do I do this? What do I want? Where do I want “go”? How to “get there”? What will happen there in the future? And so on. Maybe you recognize some of my thoughts from when you was a teenager and on the start line into the young adult life too? 🤔

To be honest,- I think I’m thinking a bit more about this different questions now then I actually did when I was a teenager and on my way to the young adult life. When I was a on my way to be a young adult I lived a bit more in the moment then I’m doing now. And I was also a bit more “what happens happens, it will probably be fun anyway” 😊.

I still think I have a very exciting time in front of me, and I still think I will meet on a lots of joy, fun and happiness,- but I’m probably a bit more conscious of my thoughts, my feelings, and hopefully my choices further too, – than for for example around 30 years ago 😊.

Will I continue be living in Spain? Work as an customer service agent, private teacher and freelance writer? 🎧📝 I have two of my three children here in Spain. At least at the moment,- but I don’t know what they’re plans will be in the future.

Or am I going to move back to Norway? Try to find a job as a teacher or maybe work in the home- nursery or at nursery home? 📚💉 I have one child in Norway, and I really do miss him, at the same time he is living his own life, and I’m not going to be the same part in his life as I was just some few years ago.

Or maybe I’m going to get the opportunity to move to California and squeeze some grapes into wine? 🍇🍷 Or maybe Ireland and visit the leprechaun 🧚‍♂️?

At the moment I don’t know what or where,- and at the moment I actually can’t take any choices either. At the moment I’m in a bit “emotional place” in my life and then it’s not the correct time to make to many and to big choices, elections and decisions in my life and for my future.

What I do know is that I’m going to live in the home I’m living in for a time now. I’m not ready to move anywhere at the moment,- and one of the reasons for that is because it has already been a bit moving in and out from this home during the last 18 months, – even it’s not me that has moved in and out 😊. I just need to have a tiny while of not to much moving “here and there”, just in way to “calm down” 😊.

But I’m actually not sure if I want to continue living in Spain or work as a costumer service agent “for ever”. Or as a private teacher either. But I’m not very tempted to move back to Norway either and work as a teacher or in the home- nursery up there in the North.

At the moment I feel I’m finish with being a teacher and to work in the home nursery, and also as a costumer service agent. But don’t we all have that now and then where you are a bit tired of your job?

And of course,- I’m also a bit “touched” with some emotional feelings because I’m standing on a finish line for one era in my life, as well as a starting line into a new era in my life 😊. So I’m probably not in “the best place” in my life to make any big decisions at the moment either 😊.

I know when we are turning the page on the calendar to August I’m finish working for the department I’m working in. It’s closing down in Norway. But I also know that the company I’m working for have an obligation to try to find an other job to me in the company as long as I have been an employer for more than 6 months,- something I have. But at the same time,- we are living in a corona- situation,- so it’s difficult to tell to much about the future too. I’m can assume what’s in front me until August, but after August I actually have no idea at the moment.

At the moment I have just decided to not do to much of anything, not make to many work- or moving plans or decisions, – just do my work where I’m working, be a private teacher and do my online freelance work, and live in the home I’m living in. Then I see what’s coming up, or what’s happen. I don’t know,- I don’t know if “the road” in the future will be in Spain or Norway or California or maybe another place.

What I do know is that I actually like to work with creative things, and people too,- and I like to see progression in my work too. But my weakness, or strength, is to create, be creative and see a result of my job.  A product.  My dream is really to be able to feed myself on something I make, write, create, paint – or even “squeeze” some grapes into wine? But is something of this actually possible, special because we are living in a corona- situation?

When that’s said,- of course I have seen a lots of great positive progressions in both my work as a teacher as well as in the home nursery 😊. But it’s a different kind of progression.

I want and I like to create, own a product, is a (physical) result of what I do, what I work with.  (ex- paint, knit, write, maybe make wine). But it possible to work and live from something like that? I don’t know.

I do not know what my future will bring me, – but something that contains both joy, happiness and probably a bit new knowledge as well as wisdom, and some changes too.

At the moment I take one tiny step at the time, one from an era that’s over and one into an era that’s started 💚. I need to find my balance in my life before I take to many decisions about my future 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I’m just going to take one step at the time – one from an era in my life that’s over, and one into the new era in my life 😊.

I don’t know what to future will bring me,- and I don’t know what kind of changes, choices or directions I’m going to do or take 😊. At the moment I just take one step from an era in my life that’s over, and one step at the time into a new era in my life 💚

#changes #directions #choices #lifeis #livinginspain #Norwegian #era #gettingolder #menopause #midlife #erainlife #me #future #questions #thelife #thougths #reflections #positivefocus 💚