Am I without traditions and culture? 🇧🇻

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

This week was the Norwegian Constitution day 🇧🇻, and I used this day as a day off from “all and everything” for a tiny little while 😊. I could have celebrate together with some friends in Benalmadena as well as some friends in Fuengirola, but I did choose to just rest this day, in the sun,- and it was not to bad at all 🥰.

I’m still a bit low on energy, but slowly the energy is coming back now,- and that’s feels so great 🥰.

Marius, my oldest did work, Ruben did celebrate in Norway together with his friends, and Mathilde did her work together with a tiny celebration in Bali 🇧🇻. It’s make me happy to see my kids still do a bit of some of our traditions and Norwegian celebrations 🥰.

In a way I have “lost” many of this kind of Norwegian and family traditional and cultures celebrations during the last years. Some of the “losing” actually started before I moved to Spain. They started when I was in the relationship that wasn’t to healthy for my mind and soul up there in Norway. And, unfortunately, I haven’t managed to keep up with to many of my Norwegian traditions and the traditions I did grow up with after I/ we moved to Spain. I have tried, but slowly it’s a bit like the time, the daily life in a “new” country and the life on it’s own has in its own way slightly “erased” my/ our traditions.

I feel a bit “naken” , or more correctly, I feel my life is a bit “naken” without the traditions and cultures celebrations I did grew up with. At the same time I’m in a place in my life now where I need to find a kind of new rhythm when it comes to the traditions and cultures celebrations I had in Norway, because I’m not in Norway anymore.

I’m was perfectly fine in the sun during the Norwegian Constitution day this week 🌞. But of course I also did gave this traditions and cultures celebrations a thought and two. Am I without any specific traditions and cultures celebrations now? 🤔

If I have been in Norway I had maybe celebrate the Norwegian Constitution day,- I think, but I’m not sure- because who to celebrate the day together with in Norway? Everyone have their own to celebrate together with,- family and friends, and of course Ruben was and also had been together with his friends this day,- natural enough 💙.

And that’s also an other reason why our traditions and culture celebration are the way they are at the moment,- because we all four ( me and my three lovely children) are in different places in our life at the moment,- and also have been during the lasts years. We are trying to find our way in each of our lives, while walking a little next to each other as well ❤💙💙❤.

At the same time as we actually have created and made a kind of celebration during the Christmas- time as well as the Norwegian Constitution day, and my children’s birthdays too, and some few others traditions from our Norwegian culture. Not in the same way as we did when we did live in Norway,- but a kind of celebration in our own tiny, but nice and cozy way 🥰.

My birthday is many years since I did celebrate,- the exception was this year 🥰. Ruben did visit me/ us here in Spain the week I had birthday,- and we did celebrate my birthday together with just be together, order food delivered to the door ( a luxury on it’s own for me 😊) and we did watch a good movie together,- a cozy and in it’s own way,- perfect birthday, with the most amazing birthday present ever,- a surprise visit from Ruben 🎁❤.

In one way I do miss to celebrate our culture traditions the way we did in Norway when we did live in Norway. I miss family birthday parties, and other family “events”,- at the same time as I’m actually not sure I do “fit” in “there” anymore.

Some weeks ago two teenagers in Norway that I’m an aunt too, celebrated their baptism. I need to admit I did send them a lots of good thoughts for their day. And I also wondered how it had been to be there together with them, celebrate together with them and the family. At the same time as I think I don’t fit in “there” anymore. I have been away from “it all” a long time. I think I have felt very uncomfortable to be there, to be honest. They live their lives, I live my. And I feel different from them, a bit like an “outsider”.

At the same time as I do miss the different “old family culture traditions and celebrations” I don’t miss it, because we are not in Norway anymore,- and we need to try to find our own way to celebrate at the same time as we keep some of our “old” celebrations and create our new traditions and celebration “touched” with our culture in a new area in our life. Like make and create something that suits us as the family we are now, with something old and new traditions together in a way that’s best for us 😊.

I know my children have the tradition they did grew up with in their heart, mind and soul, and I have them too. Something Im very grateful for ❤ . They are just “resting” a bit, this traditions and cultures celebrations, and I think,- slowly when all four of us have found more our new places in our life we will get our new traditions and celebration together with some of the old one 🥰. I’m not worried about that,- this is a part of the life,- the different changes in life 🧡. But of course I at the same time will say I do miss now and then what was,- long time ago up there in Norway 🤗. What I’m incredibly grateful for that I and we have a lots of amazing memories together from different cultures and traditions celebrations in Norway 🥰. And good memories are gold worthy,- and really something to build something new on when the time is there 😊🤗. I have probably not missed the culture and traditions celebrations from Norway if they wasn’t some fantastic memories 🧡.

I like culture and traditions celebrations,- if not I have probably not miss them or given them to many thoughts. It’s like I also like the regular routines in the daily life 😊.

So no,- I’m not without traditions and cultures celebrations,- they are still there inside me, just “resting” a bit,- and slowly I’m, together with my children, are going to create our culture and traditions celebrations up again, build from something old and something new 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊.

Me ,- the photo is taken on the Norwegian Constitution day this week,- after a lovely rest in the sun. And I’m without any kind of makeup,- it’s in its own way represented like I sometimes feel my life is a bit “naked” without traditions and cultures celebrations.

I’m not without traditions and cultures celebrations even it feels like that sometimes 🇧🇻. They are there inside me, in my heart, mind and soul, they are just “resting” a bit until we find our own and new way to celebrate the different traditions and cultures event with something new together with something old 😊.

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But there’s some “issues” too during this “new Spring” in life 😳🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days too. I don’t have the biggest challenges during this pre perimenopause, but there’s some issues, or tiny challenges that’s dropping by. And I don’t know what this period in my life can or will bring me later, so I at least choose to enjoy the changes I do like at the moment,- like for example my body changes 😊.

But I still need to “deal” with some few other issues, or rainy and stormy days, if you want. It’s not to much to complain about, in general this issues are not difficult to deal with, and don’t last very long either. But when they “shows up” it’s quite fine to be alone, and “deal” with them in my own way 😊. Another thing,- in general I don’t know when the “issues” are dropping by. Because that’s exactly what they are doing,- dropping by exactly when it suits them, and not me. It’s nothing I can choose or control.

In short periods I have had water in my body, causing the hormone changes. And also one of the reasons why it didn’t dropped my mind that I could have put on weight when my winter clothes felt a bit thigh.

It has mainly been in my feet, ankles to be more correct, and sometimes in my hands too. It’s not often, and not to bad, but it is uncomfortable. And I have never had any kind of water like that in my body before. I think the closest “water in my body” was the water in my stomach under my pregnancies 💧.

And I’m still not “leaking” (thank so much for that 🙏),– and I really hope I can avoid that too, even I know it is natural for a woman to have or get some “water leakage” in a certain age. I’m really doing my “exercises” ,- “pinch and hold and pinch a little more”. Hopefully that will help forever to avoid any kind of water leakage 🤞.

And my stomach,- also that one can be a bit “troubling” now and then. It can feels like it is a marble in there 😳. But it’s not, and of course the marble also “disappear”, but not always when I want. I just need to give it a bit of time and maybe a prune and two 😅. But of course this marble in my stomach also has been a reason for why I didn’t offer weight increase and small clothes so many thoughts.

When I’m in this “body” area I can also mention cellulite. I have some of them too, mainly on my thighs. They don’t bother me. They are a part of this “process” as well, I think. And as long as they don’t bother me I don’t give them to many thoughts.

But there’s a challenge I do struggling a bit with when this one shows up,- and that’s challenges with the sleep. For some reasons I don’t know, I can have a night and two or three where I’m not sleeping very well without knowing why, or the reason. And phu,- the days after some nights without a good sleep feels like I have been on a party with a few glasses of too much wine 😴🍷 . I’m so, so tired and feel so uncomfortable the day after a sleepless night 😴. It’s more then enough to just do my customer service agent job on the phone then, and not very much more then that.

I’m not use to that,- in general I do sleep very well and also fast when I’m putting down my head on ny pillow 😴.

An other thing,- I actually want to go to bed at 21.00 in the evening 😅. But Im trying my very best to be awake until around 23.00. And in general I do manage that one 😊. And I get my 7- 8 hours with beauty sleep 🥰.

Off,- and yes,- this mind and soul and thoughts and feelings things- more correctly “moody button”. That one is not very fun at all. I know I did mention that one in my other “new Spring in life post”. That one feels seriously not like any kind of Spring. More like a very stormy and cold winter day with out any kind of control ❄😳. And so, so hard to explain.

And like I mention in an earlier text,- I don’t have any midlife crisis, but I have different midlife thoughts, and some days I think more about my midlife thoughts than other days, but I can’t call my thoughts challenging. I’m just trying to find some kind of solutions, but I don’t rush the solutions. I know I need to use time on them.

And yes,- then it’s this “sexual feelings” too. I’m single so what can I say? I don’t have any lover, or friends with benefit. But it seems that “all is still in function”,- because I need to admit a friends with benefit haven’t been to bad to have 😅.

But maybe that’s just fine I’m in my bed alone at the moment? Because for some reason I get this hot flashes in the nights now and them,- and so fare haven’t had anyone during the day yet.

It’s the sleeplessness nights and the grumpy moods that’s bothering me most – then I really really don’t want anyone to bother me or Visa versa- bother them,- special not with my grumpy mood.

I’m also use reading glasses 🤓🧐. I needed to start with that some years ago. I’m using glasses when I working at my computer, when I use my mobile, and when Im reading a book. Still no need for more use for glasses yet, but of course that one can change too. It will probably change when I’m getting older,- and I still have glasses a bit “here and there” because even after a couple of years as a “part time” glass- user I’m still forget to use glasses when I need to read the menu in a restaurant, or my tiny shopping list when I go for shopping food 🧐. It’s nice to know what I’m order from the menu as well as bringing with me home from the store 😅. So I have some painting glasses in my painting – corner, a couple in my work corner, a couple in my handbag and a couple on the table in the livingroom – just in case 🤓.

So,- all in all so fare in this pre perimenopause things aren’t to bad actually 😊. But I need to admit I actually really hope it doesn’t will be or “bring” me more or other “issues” then that I’m “dealing” with at the moment. My “issues” are not to bad, but I don’t need more of them 😊.

And I can understand why ladies in the 50′, or more correctly during the menopause, can be a bit scary and grumpy. Actually trolly. Imagine “water leakage”, water in the body that should be leaking, but don’t, and marble in the stomach, some sleepless nights and hot flashes too 😳. Clothes that suddenly and without any warning are shrinking, and when I’m into this “no warning”- a mind that’s not give any kind of warning for suddenly tears or anger 😳. It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes.

So I think I let the whole menopause “rest” for a tiny while, and use my focus on other things, stuffs and happenings in life for a while instead 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon,- and I’m not going to bother you with any menopause issues for a while (at least it’s not my plan) 😊.

So a tiny cheers for the different changes and challenges,- for the life and that life is what it is 🧡,- and for a “new Spring in life” that I’m not always understand because it doesn’t quite feels like a Spring- but I have heard it’s painful when flowers growing,- it hurts when buds bloom 😊🥀

It’s not strange that ladies during the menopause gets a bit scary- it’s a bit scary the whole menopause sometimes 😳. During this “new Spring” in life there’s also some rainy and stormy days as well 🌬. But I have heard that it hurts when buds bloom,- so I choose to believe so 🌱. So a tiny cheers for a “new Spring in life” 🍷😊.

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Something strange has happened to my clothes 😳

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Yes,- it’s true- something very strange has happened to my clothes lately 😳. Many of my clothes doesn’t fit me anymore. They are actually to small 😳. How did that happen without me notice it? 🤔

Or….maybe it’s me, and not my clothes something strange has happened too?

I know it is a kind of joke to say the wardrobe shrunk the clothes. But you should not ignore the fact that something like this actually happens when you reach a certain age. The wardrobe act strange too during menopause. That’s for sure,- even my do.

One of ny favourite shorts for the Spring and summer,- and last summer I needed to use a belt in this. This summer I can’t even button it together.

I have noticed during the last months that some of my winter clothes was started to be a bit thigh “here and there”. But to be honest I thought maybe it was because I had wash them a bit to much, or in to to high temperature or something like that. And new washed and clean clothes also sometimes have the habit to be a bit to thigh in the beginning. But it’s not my clothes that has changed- it’s my body.

I found my clothes for the summer and….wow….there was at least half of them that was to small, to thigh. Didn’t fit my body at all and anymore. I can’t actually not use them. I can’t actually not get some of them on my body even when I’m trying, and if I get them on I had big challenge to get them of me, it felt like they was glued into my body 😳. It’s shorts and dresses, tops and trousers, even blouses and skirts. Phu! I was seriously not prepared for this.

And one of my favourite skirts,- I didn’t even manage to “move” it over my hips,- and last time I used this was in October 2021.

I know it is natural that the body is changing and also to put on some weight when we comes to a certain age,- but I was not quite yet prepared for this 😅. Like I mention I’m in the pre perimenopause, not menopause, and thought maybe this body changes came in the menopause, or after. But obviously not.

Last time I was on my bathroom weight I was a place between 56- 58 kilos, and I think that was maybe in December or January. I don’t remember, but it’s a while ago. And today I’m 63, 5 kilos. Where did they come from? I know it’s not much, but for my body it’s actually is. I have been over 60 kilos only 3 times in my life,- and that was during my pregnancies.

I’m not crying (yet) to put on weight. I was just a bit surprised over my thighs and hips, stomach and breasts, even my arms have increased in size without me even noticing it. And it all are a bit “rounder” in the “fashion” too. Even my ass has changed.  Or maybe it’s the hips?

I do take a look at my self in the mirror closely every day, as well as I see myself in photos too….but I haven’t notice this changes very much. But I can promise you I notice the changes when I was trying to find some summer clothes to put on my body……and couldn’t even manage to button them together. Or get them of my body when I had really squeezed my body into them.

I’m fine with this changes at the moment. But this is a bit new for me, the body, the weight, even to have clothes in my wardrobe that doesn’t fit me. So I need to get a bit use to this body changes,- and also for seriously start to work out. Not just mornings walks, and steps walks to the train station,- but now it is for real “back to business” to my earlier work out and exercises I did before.

Since my body “spreads out” a bit “here and there”, and my clothes shrink, I had to stop by a pharmacy today to check that I have not shrunk in height, that that one also had changed,- fortunately I am still 170 cm, and then I think 63,  5 kilos divided by the number of centimeters is perfectly ok.  Although there are obviously a few extra pounds over my thighs, hips, stomach and breasts.

I’m not sad over this body changes, actually the opposite,- because I have for so many years struggling with my weight and have to little kilos on my body. But I’m a bit sad over all the clothes that doesn’t fit me anymore. To get a new “summer wardrobe” is actually really not on my budget this summer. And I was not prepared for this body changes yet. But okay,- it is what it is 😊. I’m growing up to be a grown up and mature woman,- and I’m actually happy with my “new” body. I know it is not for all women during menopause to be happy for the extra pounds/ kilos that “shows up”,- but I allowed me to be happy for mine 😊.

I know some maybe think I shouldn’t be- but at the moment I need to admit that I do like this changes and like this kilos,- but I don’t need to put on to much more. It is “heavier” to “carry”,- I also notice that, so my body needs to be stronger now 😊. And luckily it is different second hand clothes stores in the area , so I can visit and see if I can find some new summer clothes for my summer wardrobe 🌞.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

Yes,- the dress looks nice, button be honest, I actually can’t even walk or move in it- and to get it off,- phu! Seriously stress.

I need to admit that something very strange has happened to my wardrobe during the last months 😳. And obviously my body “spreads” a bit “here and there” too. Hips are changing, stomach too. Or maybe it is actually the clothes and not me ? 👗

#preperimenopause #perimenopause #menopause #gettingolder #growingup #maturewoman #puttingonweight #challenges #changes #thougths #feelings #wardrobe #clothes #weight #pounds #newkilos #happy #feelinggrateful #feelingfine

Wrinkles, you said?😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

After the hair on our top, we have our beautiful faces 😊,- and as we gets older there is a tiny habit that some fine lines and wrinkles are “showing up”. To be honest I don’t think my wrinkles are to bad, but what can happen in some years? I don’t know,- but I admit I do my very best to have the wrinkles and fine lines I have a bit under “control” 😅.

They are not so wrinkled and whining yet. But I never know what the age can bring me 😊.

Wrinkles, you say? 😊 Im stretching them out as best as I can as you can see 😅

But I need to admit that when I wake up and a little while afterwards there can be a bit more extra wrinkles. My skin is like a little extra “curly”, – trolly, trolly- and yes I think I can scare a soul and two with my morning trolly wrinkle face 😅. At least until the wrinkles has taken their morning stretches and calm down bit. You know like we stretch our body when we wake up, it’s also like my face need a bit time for “stretching” here and there after a good night sleep to let the wrinkles fall in the correct places, the correct nice places where they look a bit better 😅. But my morning wrinkles need to be stretched a bit out, maybe a kind of face morning exercise before they look “good”🤸‍♀️. Is it like that for you too? That this morning wrinkles have a habit to show up very much in the morning, a kind of a bit “trolly, trolly”, and then they in a way “calm down” a bit during the day?

And also when I’m very, very tired, ( or angry 😳),- uff, then I feel it’s wrinkles “everywhere” in my face and even on my throat too 😳. Not very charming,- but okay,- it it what it is 😳. I can be charming in other “settings” instead 😅.

And yes, there are a few more smile wrinkles and lines when I’m smiling now at days than for some few years ago, – but I take that as a good sign, – it means that I have smiled a lot and have a lot to be happy about. And that’s true too 😊🧡. I feel I have very much in my life to be grateful and happy for, and smile for 😊🧡

My happy, morning face from one of my morning walks at the beach 😊. Smiley wrinkles,- of course 😊 I have a lots to be happy for, grateful for and smile for 😊

Like I mention earlier in my post I do a couple of things to “slow down” the wrinkle process” in my face. I use honey and almond scrub a couple of times during the week, and I also “squeeze” some aloe vera in my face every day. Both honey, almond and the aloe vera are “fresh”. Well,- not quite the honey- that one is from a box in the store, and the almond too. But the aleo vera I have a big plant I’m using the leaves from. And I also “eat”, or drink is more correctly, collagen from Norway 😊. My youngest sister and her husband have their own collagen company and they makes and sells collagen,- and it’s perfect for the skin and also the health in general 😊. Except from this I also try my best to get 7- 8 hours sleep, try to eat healthy, and is very moderate with alcohol and I always use suncream in my face when I’m in the sun. Factor 30 or 50, it depends a bit.

I’m not sure if this “things” I’m doing can be a factor that my wrinkles are not to bad. Well,- at least I don’t think my wrinkles are to bad,- it doesn’t matter so much what other thinks. But if I believe it helps it’s good enough for me 😊. So I’m still not there where I think or feel I need to “lift” something in my face, yet, or fill up a bit here and there. But I don’t know how I will feel about that in a couple of years. Maybe thing will be different, maybe not- maybe I will still like my happy wrinkles and grateful for the fact that I actually still have them, and even maybe a couple of more 😊. Or maybe I will feel more confident and comfortable with my self if I Iift and fill a bit “here and there”? I don’t know. At the moment I’m fine with the way my wrinkles in my face are, I feel confident and comfortable like it is 😊.

I know some women feel for “lifting” and “filling up” here and there in their face,- and I can understand their choices, even I don’t want to do something like that, at least not yet. I don’t know what I will feel in a couple of years. But it’s about feeling confident and comfortable with your self and your age, so if some face lifting helps in the age of 50 or more,- why not? It’s all about feeling confident and comfortable with your self 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

This are more and less what I’m using for my skin in my face, and also aloe vera cream or suncream,- it depends.

Of course I have a bit more fine lines and wrinkles now at days then for just some years ago, I’m getting older,- and that’s a part of getting older 😊. But I choose to believe they are happy smiley wrinkles 😊.

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Midlife crisis and job opportunities? 🤔📝🎧

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Both men and women goes through menopause,- but differently. And both can also deal with a kind of midlife crisis too, but also differently. And it’s not all and everyone that have a midlife crisis when they go through menopause. Some have midlife problems, issues and thoughts instead.

I’m probably there in that “area” where I have different thoughts about my life, my midlife. I don’t feel I have any kind of personal crisis . I think I had my personal or life crisis from I was around 39/ 40 years old, and probably until a year ago. Because it was long before menopause, my personal crisis was. I think the best word for what I went through during those years is a personal or life crisis, not midlife crisis. At least it felt like that for me. Like a personal crisis, like a stone in my stomach and a claw in my heart and soul. Not constantly, but very often. Closely every day. And of course that’s also exhausting.

A very short summary and version of my personal / life crisis: My economy was to just cry of, something I also did now and then too. I was in a very bad relationship for me, lucky that one actually ended, but not because I manage to end it. I was to confused and had to little believe in my self at that point to end it. I think the desteny took care of that for me, to help me “out” from something I was “blocked” into.

I was in a new country. I was so unsure and had so little confidence and believe in my self. Our Prairie in Norway was “long gone”. I didn’t have any money to move back to Norway even if I wanted too, and I didn’t knew what I wanted to work with either, and felt very miserable in my teaching job in Norway ( not because of the job, because of my life), and later my customer service agent on the phone job in Spain (it’s not the same job/ product I’m working with now). But I needed the salary so badly. And in a way I also did “lost” someone close to me in Norway during this time. Something I did struggle with for many years- and now and then I still feel on pain, but I have more accepted the situation.

It took me closely 10 years to get distance, to accept the situation as well as be able to find myself again, the person I did like before I met this man in Norway that in his own way “created” me to a person I didn’t like, didn’t knew and was to uncomfortable in the situation to be able to do something with it.

Now I’m not there anymore,- slowly, very slowly during the last 10 years I’m in an other inner place in my mind and soul,- special when it comes to my self and my own comfortably with my self, and the believe and trust in my self.

When this personal crisis, or life crisis, if you will, finally let go, I felt free inside me. A very reliving feeling.

So I don’t feel on any kind of midlife crisis now at days- I think that one is over for me, but I have some midlife thoughts. And most of them are about my future, my job, where to live. (Nope,- still no boyfriend thoughts about my future- 😅) What to do when I’m going to continue now? And I don’t know yet,- to be honest, and I think it will take a bit of time before I know, but hopefully not 10 years this time 😅🤞🙏.

At the moment I have a okay job as customer service agent on the phone and the online freelance job. The costumer service agent on the phone job is stable, the salary is stable and my working hours are stable too. I’m also working from my home,- something I prefer, and the tasks and costumers are not to bad at all. But do I want to work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life? I don’t know. There’s no possibility to “grow” in the job or get knew knowledge, or new working challenges. It is what it is,- a costumer service agent job on the phone,- nothing more and nothing less.

And then it is this pension. I’m not getting any younger. And how will the pension question be for me if I’m moving to another country and starting working there? In Norway I know how it is as well as here in Spain,- but in Norway I’m going to have big economic challenges- and how will I manage to go through something like that again? And like I mention,- I’m not getting any younger.

And because I’m not getting any younger I’m also more and more invisible in the work market. Not so attractive at all. In Norway I could probably get a job in a store for the same company I’m working as a costumer service agent on the phone. And that’s okay,- but again- my economy in Norway is at this point a very lost case. So at the point to move to Norway for me will be challenging, special because of my Norwegian economic situation. ( something I can “thank” the stupid, stupid ex boyfriend in Norway for). But yes,- I do still actually consider Norway as a potential to stay “for the rest of my life”. But I need to find a couple more “solutions” on that one, that’s for sure.

Can I move back to the place in Norway where I’m actually born in and from? Or will I be lonely there?

I have also considered Ireland and Canada as well, or just continue stay in Spain. But Canada is very fare away,- so I think I let that one “go”. Ireland? I need to do more research then. Or just stay in Spain, have and do my job and,- until I die one day? Because that’s what’s going to happen to the end,- but what will I do in the meantime? What will I fill my life up with before I’m 101 years old?

Of course my dream is to be able to have my paintings as my main job,- and I do try to find a way to manage that. But as we all know,- a job as a artist is in general not a very good income economic job. It’s hard, hard work to manage success and also survive economic. And maybe even harder for me because of my age.

So at the moment and probably some years forward I’m going to be thinking about this,- my job, economy, where to live and be old. And how to live inbetween. And try to find a solution that suits me.

I’m also of course thinking about my children. I have one son in Norway, one son in Spain and a daughter in Bali. I want to live a place where it’s easy for me to be able to see and meet all three of them as much as possible. And then I’m thinking as least it will be possible to travel and visit them now and then during a year. I don’t think Canada is the best solution for that,- that’s for sure 😊.

I’m very happy and grateful for my living situation and the home I’m living in now. I enjoy to stay here, and I think I can stay here for a while too, if I understood Natasja correctly? But that’s also something that can’t last “forever”, one day I need to move out,- and I don’t like to move and move and move,- so after a while I need to find a home I can stay in for a long, long time. Hopefully to the day my children are sending me to the sky.

So no,- I’m not in any midlife crisis, but I do think a lot about what I want and where to go in my future. The good thing is,- I’m not stressing about to find a solution for it “all” now,- but hopefully I have some solutions when I’m maybe at age 55? (I have some few years to think and find a solution and two,- – I’m still “just” 49 😊).

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What to do? Work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life?🎧 Or be creative and do something I really enjoy to do,- paint?🎨 (the photo is like this on purpose 😅)

I’m not in a midlife crisis, even the menopause is “knocking on my door”. I think I went through my kind of personal crisis instead in a period for closely 10 years 😳. But I have some midlife thoughts, and I do think a bit about them. Actually a lot. Norway? Spain? Costumer service agent job on the phone? Or maybe painting? Or something else, somewhere else? I don’t know yet.

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