Just enjoying my first holiday in my holiday week 🏖🌞

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today is my first holiday in this holiday week and … yes, in this holiday home too 😅. I’m living in a holiday home and I actually have holiday too at the moment 😍. Perfect 😁.

I’m going to start in a new job in the beginning of August, and in that case I needed to “take out” one holiday week before I’m starting in the new job,- and then it became this upcoming week 🌞.

Enjoying my first holiday in my holiday week and my holiday home as well 🌞

And my first holiday I have just enjoyed. First no wake- up call, just slept to my body obviously was finish sleeping. A lovely feeling to wake up when I was ready to wake up 😊. And then a nice breakfast outside in the sun on my roof terrace, and then actually some freelance work when there was a bit “speed” in my internet (yes, I know- dont work when it’s holiday… 😅but this is some work I need to do and don’t mind to do if I should manage to reach some of my goals 😊 …. so it doesn’t quite feels like work 😊).

I have prepared a nice meal/ meat for some barbecue too, and I have spent some hours on the beach as well 😊.

The meat getting ready for some barbecue later today, with some fresh herbs from my “garden” 🌞.
It takes me just some very few minutes to go to this lovely beach 🏖.

Reading, relaxing and listen to music. I can’t read with sunglasses anymore, I actually need to use glasses 🤓. But with my eyes and nose in the book and the sun on my back it’s “in function”. That’s the way it is when I’m getting older 😅. I know I can get glasses with sunglass- function, but at the moment it’s not necessary. That day will probably come soon enough 😊🤓.

My book, my glasses and some music on the ear too 🎶🎵
The meat getting ready on the barbecue 🍗

It’s a first time for everything,- and this weekend was actually the first time I have barbecue on my own, just for me and myself. I have barbecue a lot, but never to just myself. It was not to bad to just be me, but of course it’s a bit nicer with good company 😊.

But this “just me”, or actually do different kinds of things on my own, alone without my children, is something I’m going to “learn” now. It’s a bit scary, but I have already manage a couple of things, so I will probably manage a bit more too. I don’t know what “all and everything” I need to learn to do on my own are yet, but I will probably soon enough find out 😊.

I have learn to shop food without my “babyducks” following me in the food store. I have been at the beach several times on my own, and I have moved to a new place,- just me 😊. I have even travel to Madrid, without any kind of “company”.

I know for some people this things I have “learned” to do without my children around me sounds very strange, but I have actually had from one to three of my children around me more and less “all the time” for 27 years. So for me it’s actually a bit strange to not “share” or “do” normal things without one or two or three of my kids around me 😊.

I remember I told my son in the middle that there was days I really was looking forward to live alone and didn’t need to pick up socks or towels in the sofa, or go on glasses and plates “hunting” in my children’s rooms, but I forgot that when the socks, towels, glasses, plates and so one was “gone”, my children was gone too 😅.

This is a so normal situation for mostly every parents when their children are moving out. It’s a situation we are sometimes really looking forward to, but we aren’t always “prepared” on how it will be after the children are “out of the nest” 😊.

Anyway,- I’m going to do the best of this holiday week I have in front of me 😊. The first day was not to bad at all 😊🌞🏖.

I’m going to use some days on “just me” now because I actually need it, and there’s not to many plans for this week either. And that feels great 😊. I have a couple of things I need to do, but I can choose when I want to do them, and I’m going to invite some friends over too, for maybe some barbecue or maybe just some snacks, but great conversations will it be anyway 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A tasty homemade barbecue meal together with a cold glass of Tinto de Verano 🍷

I’m have enjoyed my first holiday in my holiday home in my holiday week 😊🏖. Breakfast outside under the sun, some hours at the beach, even some barbecue in the evening too 🍗🍷. And of course some thoughts about “living on my own”, having young adults children that’s living their own lifes now, and I need to learn to live just my life now 😊.

#children #movingout #mammi #raisingup #growingup #gettingolder #midlife #lifeexperiences #changes #challenges #thougths #holiday #holidyahome #beach #sun #enjoyinglife #barbecue

One month with the beach 🏖😊

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It’s around one month since I moved to the beach, or more correctly in a holiday home very close to the beach 🏖. A holiday home that’s going to be my home for the next around 9 months 😊.

I have been here already a month. The time is “flying”, at the same time I have actually manage to “squeeze” in a bit of “this and that” this month too 😊. Moved to a new place, and also starting to get things in a kind of “order” in my new place too 😊. I have cleaned and organized the old place and given the keys back to the owner. I have done my jobs as best as I can, even dropped by my blog a bit more often as well 😊. And also had some guests in my new home too, and even baked a bit 😊. I have finished and delivered glassbottles, and visit my friend and her newborn baby at the hospital as well 😊. I have also been at the beach a couple of times, even stolen some sand from the beach to have in my plants and in the umbrella “foot” so that one shouldn’t fly away with the wind 😊.

But I feel I have just “been” here during the last month, not lived. It’s just lately I feel I’m starting to live here. But obviously I have in a way “lived” if I take a look around me and think about what I actually have done during the last more and less, 4 weeks 😊.

For me it’s a different between “be” and “live” 😊. And now I feel I’m slowly starting to live in this home, get some of my daily and weekly “routines” “back in business” again,- and in a bit I probably also will be more ready to work for my “bigger plans in my life” too 😊. I haven’t them “all” figured out yet,- but I think that’s normal and natural 😊. They will “find” their place little by little 😊.

It’s the first time in my adult life I actually organize and facilitate a life, an everyday life with only myself in and no children in it 😊. It feels very, very strange, and even sometimes I feel I do something “wrong” to make plans or something like that without my children or at least telling my children, or “included” them in some or another way 😅.

I need to learn that, that now my life is a bit more about me, and I don’t have any special duty to report to anyone and everyone about what I do or do not do. ( ….except from the fact that I’m actually writing a blog about “my daily life” and share that ome with everyone 😅).

Sometimes it is a bit scary this new era in my life, this “just me- era”, because I’m not always sure what to do with it,- even it can seems like I’m, and that I have “a lots” of “big plans” and “it all figured out”,- but I haven’t, and inbetween I’m actually “losing” it a bit too 😳 😅. And menopause and getting older scares me a bit too, but what to do?

And like I mention a while ago, when I was “packing down” 7 years of our life in the other home,- who to create new memories together with? Who to make plans with? Create new experiences in life with? Share memories with? And share plans and experiences with? My readers? 😊 Of course I’m going to do that- share with my readers, but…. it could and would be nice and great to have someone else too, to share things and stuffs in my life together with 😊. At the same time as I know I’m not ready for a relationship either. But I have some great friends around me, and my kids are here too, just not in the same way as before 😊.

I feel a bit lost without my children, but it’s nice too, to just be me. I’m probably more lost without them, then they are without me,- natural enough 😊. And I’m know I’m going to learn to live my life without them around me on daily basis as it was before they became young adults and moved into their own homes 😊. I just don’t think it’s “learned” to do during some weeks or just a couple of months 😊. It will take a bit more time 😊.

I feel more ready now to start enjoying my life close to the beach, sort things out and start to find a kind of new “road” to walk. I just need to be patient, and remember that “all and everything” takes time 😊.

And it’s incredibly nice to listen to the waves before I go to sleep in the night as well as waking up to in the morning 🌊😊. And I like to live so close to the beach too, and have the possibility to enjoy the beach when I want, but it could be a bit less people around me,- but we can’t get it all at the same time, can we? 😅😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

It’s a fantastic view from my roof terrace 😊

It’s already a month since I moved into the holiday home close to the beach 🏖. I have been here a month, but it’s just lately I’m started to feel I’m living here too, not just being here 😊. It takes a bit time to learn to live with a new lifesituation, like for example not living together with my children anymore 😊.

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The Norwegian Constitution Day 🇧🇻

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Today it’s The Norwegian Constitution Day 🇧🇻. A day people in Norway, and many norwegians all over the world in general are celebrating with parades and speaks, good food and different social activities and events 🥀. We dress up, eat hotdogs and ice cream, and spend time together with family and friends 👨‍👩‍👧‍👧

But not this year, but still a bit more then last year 😊.

I’m working today so I’m not going to celebrate very much, but I know some of my Norwegian friends in Spain are going to celebrate a bit today 🎉. And I know it will be a bit more celebration this year in Norway then last year too 🎉.

I’m not sure if our Norwegian Traditions when it comes to the Norwegian Constitution Day will change, or if it’s just a bit “put on hold” until the pandemi is a bit less like a pandemi. But I think some traditions are changing during an pandemi both in Norway, Spain and other countries around in the world.

It’s a bit sad, but at the same time traditions are changing with or without any pandemi too all over the world, just in a slower tempo, so we actually don’t recognize the changes in the same way as when they are changing a bit fast. Like for example during the last year.

For me this day was more like a incredibly busy day where we “runned” from one place to another. Three kids should be ready early in the morning in nice clothes for reaching the parade, and I needed to be ready to in my bunad- the Norwegian National dress. And I needed to remember “this and that” too, and a couple of cakes to bring with me as well. And it was on top of that always difficult to find a good parking place too, close to the celebration place.

And then it was to bring some cakes “here”, put some kids in the parade “there” and find a nice spot for my self so I could watch my kids in the parade 😊.

I know it’s a bit sad to say it, because The Norwegian Constitution Day is a very important day for us norwegians, but I didn’t like this day very much when I was living in Norway. All the stress this day brought, and all the people around me all the time.

I don’t mind the celebration of the Norwegian Constitution day, but it was not a kind of celebration that suited me as person. I like a bit less people around me, and a bit less stress too 😊.

I’m not a person who do like me very much in environment where it’s to much people around me. But this day it was in general people “every where”. Sometimes I felt someone had “shaked” all the house all over the landscape so all the people needed to run out and celebrate this day. It was people everywhere 😊.

It’s nothing wrong with that, and it’s nothing wrong with me. This is just my experience and the way I do remember the celebration of the Norwegian Constitution Day in Norway,- short summary. Hopefully I will get some new and different experiences and memories about this day one day 😊. But of course it was nice to meet people an chat up a bit, it was just so many people everywhere 😅. I don’t like that, and I didn’t like the stress either 😊. ( …yes, I know I have mention it before 🤭).

For some I have maybe been to honest today about my memories and experiences when it comes to the Norwegian Constitution Day, – but it is what it is. We all have different memories and experiences 😊🇧🇻. I have nothing against the Norwegian Constitution Day 😊,- it was just not a kind of celebration I really enjoyed, – that’s it 😊 .

I really hope all the Norwegian all over the world will enjoy this day, celebrate it the way that’s best and most correct for you, special during an pandemi, and hopefully together with some family and friends, hotdogs and ice cream too 🎉🇧🇻😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

I have packed my Norwegian Flag- so I needed to improvise a bit with the photo today 🇧🇻😊

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Maybe there’s something in it …? 🥀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

As some of you know I’m going to move, something that came a bit unexpected and a bit faster then I had in mind.

I had something else in my mind and in a bit different “time schedule” too. In my mind I thought maybe I was going to move from this home in October or maybe during the Spring 2022. But obviously that was not the plan 😊.

And I have been thinking a bit about this “plan”,- my plan that’s not going the way and direction I had in mind,- that’s for sure 😅. But obviously there is a kind of plan in front of me, but I have just no any idea what it is, or where, or how to find it 😊.

One of my neighbours told me exactly this one day too,- that it was probably an other plan for me then I had in mind. And maybe there’s something in it? 🤔 But what? And where? And how? Because I don’t know at the moment, or maybe I do? 🍇

One thing is the pandemi- situation in the society and the world. That one has changed many people’s plans and lives, and not to the best either 😔. And of course also many of my plans are affected by the corona- situation. Maybe also this a bit sudden moving- situation? It’s just that I’m actually moving because of a increase of the rent, and not the opposite, that maybe should be a bit more natural under an pandemi?

I have many times said “when one door is closing, a new one is open up”. And I believe that it true too. It’s just a bit “scary” to open up and go into the “unknown”, the new door- opening and into something new and unknown. Special when I actually don’t know what will “meet” me behind this new door- opening in my life.

Well,- in one way I know where I’m going to live, and how the new home is 🏡. I have visit Natasja in their holiday home I’m going to rent many times 😊. And I’m going to live so close to the beach, something I really looking forward too 🏖. I actually thought I was not going to vist the beach very much this summer, but the beach is going to be my neighbour instead 🏖. So there will be more beach- visits then I had in mind too 😊. And I really like to spend time at the beach 🏖.

So literally I know what’s behind the new door I’m going to open up, because I know how the new home is looking like. But mentally I have not any ideas what I can expect,- except from that I’m incredibly grateful for this new home opportunity 🧡, and things in my life are changing, that’s for sure 😊.

It’s also the first time in my adult life I’m going to move on my own, alone 😳. I moved from my parents home when I was 19 years old, but then I became a mammi just some few months after my 21. birthday, and after that I have not moved to much and to many times, and always together with my children too.

It feels a bit strange to move without my children. I knew this day would come, but I thought I had a bit more time to “feel and think” about “this” new living on my own, and moving on my own situation too 😊. Now I feel I was a bit “thrown out” in something I’m not quite ready for 😅.

But at the same time I need to admit I feel a bit comfortable and “safe” with my new living- situation because I’m going to rent from someone I know very well. And in a way, like I mention, I “know” the home I’m moving into 🏡. But still it feels a bit strange too,- like “someone” else just changed my plans without “consulting” me first if it was okay for this new changes 😅. Sounds maybe strange, but that’s the way I feel at the moment 😊. I don’t know if you understand what I mean?

At the moment I feel, I actually know I don’t have any other choices then to open the new unknown door in my life. And the first step into this “unknown” is to move and start to live in a new home for a while 🏡. But not before in the middle of June, its about more or less a month to I’m going to move.

And,- yes,- I do believe there’s probably a “reason” or “plan” for why this happen in my life now, I just don’t know what it is 😊. I believe there’s maybe something in “it”, an other “plan” that I have and had in my mind, and that’s a new and unknown door is open up in my life. But what? Well,- it’s just to live, do the best of it and see “what’s happen” 🧡.

Do you feel like this sometimes? 🥀 Like “someone” changing your plans in your life without “consulting” you first? And that it feels a bit scary to open up the new door in your life because you don’t know what’s behind it? What can or will happen when you open the new door ? 🌸

I’m actually looking forward to this new unknown door I have in front of me, at the same time I hope it’s “allowed” to “feel” a bit around this soon new living- situation in my life 😊. The unexpected, the new door, the changes in my plans without “consulting” me first 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡 Take good care 🌹.

See you soon 😊

A new door is “slowly” open up in my life,- and I don’t know what I can or will meet behind it 😊 That is both a bit scary and exciting at the same time 😊

My neighbour told my that maybe it was “the plan” that I was going to move soon and a bit unexpected, even it was not my plan 🏡. I know when one door is closing in life, a new one is open up. But it is both a bit scary and exciting at the same time to open up the door to the unknown 😊.

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I’m not currently dating,- and it’s my choice 🌹

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I’m not currently dating, and it’s a time since I actually did date, and also was “looking” for a date. And I’m very fine with that. I actually don’t miss dating or being in a relationship. Because in my mind I do understand the “dating- concept” as you meet up with someone because you want, and hopefully will get a serious relationship together with this person. Both are interested in each other,- that’s why it is a date. It’s not sure this “understaning” is correct. It’s just the way I understand the “dating- concept”.

But I need to admit that for a period I actually thought that I miss dating, miss being in a relationship, and missed a boyfriend in my life. But the truth is I did miss an imagination, and not my reality when it comes to relationships. But my imagination over how a relationship can or should be.

I deleted the dating app Tinder in October/ November 2019, and haven’t regret that so fare. But I was “tired” of the “dating” before I deleted the app. It didn’t gave me very much, to be honest. Like relationships haven’t given me to much either. To be fair,- it’s my last “long term- serious” relationship that’s “freshest” in my mind, and also where many of my not to good experiences when it comes to relationships are “build on”. Natural enough, but also maybe unfortunately?

And it’s actually more the 7 years since that relationship ended- something I’m very grateful for 🙏, but still it has “marked” my mind and soul in a bit negative direction and with a bit negative thoughts and experiences when it comes to dating and relationship.

I have met some nice dates during the lasts years, but also some strange dates. But that’s not the reason why I have made a choice and decision to not date for a while.

Dating didn’t gave me very much, or to use the dating app and “try” to find a date, a date that’s also maybe would became to a serious relationship after a while.

Maybe I’m not a “nettdating- person”? Maybe I need to met a man in “the real life” and not during a “switch left or right” app? I know it’s different dating- app’s, not just like the way Tinder is in “function”. But still I don’t think nettdating is something for me.

It’s not just that I’m not a “nettdating- person” that made me choose to not date for a while, but also because I know I need to resett my self when it comes to dating and relationship. Really resett my self. Maybe I manage to do it, maybe not. I don’t know, I don’t even know if I’m going out there in the “dating and relationship” world again either. And it’s fine. I’m fine with that.

I have thought a bit over why I wanted to date at that time I was a bit “busy” with that. And for me it was about attention, be attracted and became attracted of, intimacy and sex, hopefully feel “close” to an other man both mentally as well as psychic, meet someone to share different things and stuffs in life together with, someone to have different experiences together with as well as do things and stuffs together with, feel “connected” together with, someone “special” and be “special” for, feel butterflies in my stomach and some extra heartbeats too, just because of that man and the feelings I had for him, to feel important for someone, to miss someone as well as be missed, and probably a bit more I don’t remember anyone and at the moment 😊.

But the reality, my reality is that I haven’t actually very much real experiences from this, this thoughts about how I think a relationship is “in function”. My own experiences when it comes to, special relationships, are not like my “dreams and imaginations”, if I can call it that. Because my dreams and imagination about a relationship is “my why” I wanted to date and be in a relationship, but the truth is, my truth and my experiences and my reality is not very similar with my imagination.

My experiences from a relationship are actually something I don’t want to go through again. And we date because we want to meet someone that’s makes us feel “comfortable”, feel happy and happiness, joy and love and so on. We in general dates because of “my why” I wanted to date.

So I made a decision for more then over 1,5 years ago that I don’t want to date. I don’t want to date before all of me, my heart, my mind, my soul are ready for dating and ready for the commitments and the responsibility a relationship has. I need to really resett my mind, my heart and my soul first. And I have no idea how long time my “resett- process” will take. Maybe “forever”? I don’t know, and that’s fine 😊.

And it’s actually a good feeling to say “Thank you, but No Thank you, I’m not dating at the moment”, when someone asks me out for a ice tea or a coffee, a glass of wine or a lunch. And in general I don’t even get the question “why not”, and to be honest, it’s actually no one’s “business” either why I don’t date. It’s my choice, and I’m very fine and comfortable with my choice too 😊. And I’m very relaxed with my choice as well, when it comes to this “currently not dating” 😊. And I’m actually not even sure it’s worth it, – the dating and relationship,- to expose myself to maybe get the same experiences again when it comes to relationships.

Like I have mention before,- when or if I’m want to date again and want a serious relationship I can but out an “vaccination available” in my blog 😅. We see what’s happen there in the future 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

My imagination about how a relationship should be and my reality about how a relationship is,- is two very different things 🥀.

My imagination about how a relationship should be and my reality about how a relationship is,- is two very different things 🥀. So that’s why I have chosen to not date for awhile,- I need to resett my self, my mind, my soul, my heart before I maybe start dating again 😊. And I’m very relaxed with my decision about not dating 😊.

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