Midlife crisis and job opportunities? 🤔📝🎧

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Both men and women goes through menopause,- but differently. And both can also deal with a kind of midlife crisis too, but also differently. And it’s not all and everyone that have a midlife crisis when they go through menopause. Some have midlife problems, issues and thoughts instead.

I’m probably there in that “area” where I have different thoughts about my life, my midlife. I don’t feel I have any kind of personal crisis . I think I had my personal or life crisis from I was around 39/ 40 years old, and probably until a year ago. Because it was long before menopause, my personal crisis was. I think the best word for what I went through during those years is a personal or life crisis, not midlife crisis. At least it felt like that for me. Like a personal crisis, like a stone in my stomach and a claw in my heart and soul. Not constantly, but very often. Closely every day. And of course that’s also exhausting.

A very short summary and version of my personal / life crisis: My economy was to just cry of, something I also did now and then too. I was in a very bad relationship for me, lucky that one actually ended, but not because I manage to end it. I was to confused and had to little believe in my self at that point to end it. I think the desteny took care of that for me, to help me “out” from something I was “blocked” into.

I was in a new country. I was so unsure and had so little confidence and believe in my self. Our Prairie in Norway was “long gone”. I didn’t have any money to move back to Norway even if I wanted too, and I didn’t knew what I wanted to work with either, and felt very miserable in my teaching job in Norway ( not because of the job, because of my life), and later my customer service agent on the phone job in Spain (it’s not the same job/ product I’m working with now). But I needed the salary so badly. And in a way I also did “lost” someone close to me in Norway during this time. Something I did struggle with for many years- and now and then I still feel on pain, but I have more accepted the situation.

It took me closely 10 years to get distance, to accept the situation as well as be able to find myself again, the person I did like before I met this man in Norway that in his own way “created” me to a person I didn’t like, didn’t knew and was to uncomfortable in the situation to be able to do something with it.

Now I’m not there anymore,- slowly, very slowly during the last 10 years I’m in an other inner place in my mind and soul,- special when it comes to my self and my own comfortably with my self, and the believe and trust in my self.

When this personal crisis, or life crisis, if you will, finally let go, I felt free inside me. A very reliving feeling.

So I don’t feel on any kind of midlife crisis now at days- I think that one is over for me, but I have some midlife thoughts. And most of them are about my future, my job, where to live. (Nope,- still no boyfriend thoughts about my future- 😅) What to do when I’m going to continue now? And I don’t know yet,- to be honest, and I think it will take a bit of time before I know, but hopefully not 10 years this time 😅🤞🙏.

At the moment I have a okay job as customer service agent on the phone and the online freelance job. The costumer service agent on the phone job is stable, the salary is stable and my working hours are stable too. I’m also working from my home,- something I prefer, and the tasks and costumers are not to bad at all. But do I want to work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life? I don’t know. There’s no possibility to “grow” in the job or get knew knowledge, or new working challenges. It is what it is,- a costumer service agent job on the phone,- nothing more and nothing less.

And then it is this pension. I’m not getting any younger. And how will the pension question be for me if I’m moving to another country and starting working there? In Norway I know how it is as well as here in Spain,- but in Norway I’m going to have big economic challenges- and how will I manage to go through something like that again? And like I mention,- I’m not getting any younger.

And because I’m not getting any younger I’m also more and more invisible in the work market. Not so attractive at all. In Norway I could probably get a job in a store for the same company I’m working as a costumer service agent on the phone. And that’s okay,- but again- my economy in Norway is at this point a very lost case. So at the point to move to Norway for me will be challenging, special because of my Norwegian economic situation. ( something I can “thank” the stupid, stupid ex boyfriend in Norway for). But yes,- I do still actually consider Norway as a potential to stay “for the rest of my life”. But I need to find a couple more “solutions” on that one, that’s for sure.

Can I move back to the place in Norway where I’m actually born in and from? Or will I be lonely there?

I have also considered Ireland and Canada as well, or just continue stay in Spain. But Canada is very fare away,- so I think I let that one “go”. Ireland? I need to do more research then. Or just stay in Spain, have and do my job and,- until I die one day? Because that’s what’s going to happen to the end,- but what will I do in the meantime? What will I fill my life up with before I’m 101 years old?

Of course my dream is to be able to have my paintings as my main job,- and I do try to find a way to manage that. But as we all know,- a job as a artist is in general not a very good income economic job. It’s hard, hard work to manage success and also survive economic. And maybe even harder for me because of my age.

So at the moment and probably some years forward I’m going to be thinking about this,- my job, economy, where to live and be old. And how to live inbetween. And try to find a solution that suits me.

I’m also of course thinking about my children. I have one son in Norway, one son in Spain and a daughter in Bali. I want to live a place where it’s easy for me to be able to see and meet all three of them as much as possible. And then I’m thinking as least it will be possible to travel and visit them now and then during a year. I don’t think Canada is the best solution for that,- that’s for sure 😊.

I’m very happy and grateful for my living situation and the home I’m living in now. I enjoy to stay here, and I think I can stay here for a while too, if I understood Natasja correctly? But that’s also something that can’t last “forever”, one day I need to move out,- and I don’t like to move and move and move,- so after a while I need to find a home I can stay in for a long, long time. Hopefully to the day my children are sending me to the sky.

So no,- I’m not in any midlife crisis, but I do think a lot about what I want and where to go in my future. The good thing is,- I’m not stressing about to find a solution for it “all” now,- but hopefully I have some solutions when I’m maybe at age 55? (I have some few years to think and find a solution and two,- – I’m still “just” 49 😊).

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

What to do? Work as a costumer service agent on the phone for the rest of my life?🎧 Or be creative and do something I really enjoy to do,- paint?🎨 (the photo is like this on purpose 😅)

I’m not in a midlife crisis, even the menopause is “knocking on my door”. I think I went through my kind of personal crisis instead in a period for closely 10 years 😳. But I have some midlife thoughts, and I do think a bit about them. Actually a lot. Norway? Spain? Costumer service agent job on the phone? Or maybe painting? Or something else, somewhere else? I don’t know yet.

#midlife #midlifecrise #midlifethoughts #changes #challenges #work #workingsituation #thougths #feelings #choices #menopause #mylife #gettingolder

Thank you February 🥀Welcome March 🌱🍃(2022)

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

A nice and peaceful February is over,- peaceful in our home and life at least. Busy with work,- for both Mathilde and me- but still February was a peaceful month in it’s own way 🥀.

Not to much and many different things have happen, but I like it that way😊.

I have some goals I want to try my best to reach- but for be able to reach goals it’s necessary to put in some effort like time and work- something I’m going to do my very best to continue doing the next months too. But of course also use some time to be social together with friends and family 🧡

In the beginning of February I got information about some of our things that are still in Norway, actually still is in Norway- and that made me very happy. I thought it was lots and gone. And today I got the information that it all will be picked up in a couple of days and be ready to be sent to Spain with a big car in June this year 🚚.

I know it’s “just” things- but it’s what’s left from a time in my life I really do miss. The time it was just me and my there kids on our Prairie ❤. That time is over, I know that, and I also know I can’t live in the past or get the past back- but for me to get this things to Spain will be in a way to “clean up” in the past, go through things and stuffs, accept what is gone is gone- in my way. Not all and every one elses way- but the way that’s best for me 😊. And I’m really looking forward to that 🥰. We all do handle things in life differently and that’s just the way it is 😊.

My nest is not empty either- I did start to write a bit about “the nest” and “the empty nest syndrome ” in the beginning of February- and my daughter and me have found a kind rhythm in our life and home that’s not to bad at all. We live different lives, natural enough, and it’s not always easy to find a kind of balance and rhythm in our life when we live together, and also are in very different areas in our life, work in different times from home and have different things and stuffs we want to do. But things have a habit to find a suitable “solution”, or way to create a kind of rhythm that’s best for us in the living together situation we are in 😊.

February is a short month and in general the last day in February comes a bit surprised on my, also this year. It’s like in my mind I think I have a couple of more days before a new month starts 😊. But not in February 😊.

I’m very grateful for that February have been in it’s own way peaceful without to much ups and downs- just work and normal things – the daily life 😊. I should really wish most people could feel on a nice and peaceful February- unfortunately it’s not like that- so I’m feel I’m extra lucky and have all the reason to be and feel grateful 🧡.

March will also be a lots of work and probably April too- but that’s the way it is if I want to try my very best to manage some of my goals for this year- and one of the goals is the get my children and my things and stuffs from Norway to Spain in June 🚚.

I wish March very welcome 🧡. I’m looking forward to this month even I know I need to and is going to and must do- use some hours in front of my computer. But that’s fine- I want to do what I need to do to get what I want to have 😊. That’s the way it is- to manage something I need to complete something too 😊🚚.

I hope you can look forward to a new month with hope and dreams, happiness and joy 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you soon 😊

A rose for hope and love, harmony and peace to all the people who haven’t this in their life 🧡

I’m very grateful for this February- a month with a lots of work- but still a peaceful month in it’s own way in our life 🧡. I should wish most people had day, weeks and months like this in their life 🧡. I’m welcoming March- a month I don’t know to much about yet,- I just know I need to work a bit because I want to do what I need to do for trying my best to reach my dreams and goals 🧡

#feelinggrateful #feelinglucky #positivefocus #lifeisgood #thelife #thedailylife #february #march #goals #job #work #lifesituation #happiness

My daughter’s story: But he didn’t manage to steal her dreams and goals 🏖🏝🧡

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

As some of you know this Summer and Autumn has been a bit challenging for my daughter, both with long Covid19 as well as not the best choice of a boyfriend. And like I mention in my post 17. November, at her birthday- she is a young hard working woman, and work hard to reach her goals, special when it comes to her job and her goals and dreams in her job. She easily work 12 hours shift to try to reach her dreams and goals.

When my daughter moved back into my home she told me that she felt her ex boyfriend has stolen her whole life- not just all her money and different things, but her life. But he still didn’t manage to steal her dreams and goals 🧡. And no matter how down she has been both mentally after the different experiences with her ex boyfriend and not felt to well with long Covid19 she have used what she have of energy to still work for her dreams and goals in her job – and manage to reach some of them too 🧡.

You have during the last week got parts of my daughter’s story- it was and is very difficult to manage to explain and tell it all, also in a chronology way. But at least you got the essential in her story. You got her story- this story- we used more and less around a week to share it with you- but the “story’ did last a bit longer in the real life- some more months, closely 6 months to be more exact.

In just some few months my daughter is going to start on a new story in her life, new and totally different. There are some new and exciting adventures and experiences waiting for her “just around the corner” 🏝.

My daughter is going to move to Bali in March 2022, we don’t know the date yet, because of the world situation when it comes to Covid19, but at the moment the plan is that she is moving in March. And I’m so so happy for her ❤, and of course incredibly proud too 🥰. Because this has been one of her dreams since the beginning of 2021. And one year after is seems that this dreams now will get through 😍.

Some of my daughter’s dreams are coming true- she is going to live and work at Bali/ Indonesia for 1 or 2 year 🧡( photo is from over view when we lived in Benalmadena)

The company she is working for have had plans to open a norwegian office in Bali for a while, but because of the corona- situation this plans has been a bit delayed.

My daughter really enjoys her job and the company she is working for, and she is doing a good job too. She has been working for the company for two years now, and have grown with the different tasks and work, and also got more and more responsibilities. She wants to climb, learn, do a good job, grow, get new experiences and knowledge- and she manage to do it all.

She is a strong young woman, even she got this not to good “boyfriend- experiences”. Luckily he didn’t manage her take her dreams and goals from her 🥰. And she have probably even got stronger and wiser to after this experiences as well.

In Bali she is going to have the whole responsibility for the office as well as for some few employees. She is also the contact person for different companies in the main company she is working for, and she have also some administrative tasks too.

She wanted to grow, she wanted to learn, get more knowledge and more experiences, she wanted to have more and different experiences then “just” a costumer service agent on the phone. And she manage it too 🧡.

And this week she also got a new mobile phone,- not the most expensive and fancy one- but it’s at least better then no phone at all, and she can reach me and I can reach her.

She have also managed to get the train ticket to Madrid and the Norwegian Embassy this week, and is going to travel to Madrid next week and get a new passport.

Hopefully we will manage to get a dentist appointment to her soon too,- because she have a bit pain in her teeth now at days 😔.

So hard work helps to reach different goals and dreams in life- my daughter is a good example for this 🥰. One step at the time 👣. Just don’t let anyone steal your dreams and goals from you, and you can reach them too- if you want to and actually really goes for it. But as we all know- in general you need to do an effort and five to get what you want and wish for, to reach your goals and dreams, and it’s not always easy, and in general not “for free” either.

My daughter’s motto is: ” Get up, dress up, show up and never give”- and that’s exactly what she is doing- every day, “spiced” up with a “touch” of her mammi’s motto: ” It all will be fine” 🥰.

My daughter’s motto 🥰

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for dropping by my blog today 🧡

In just some few months the next stop for my daughter will be in Bali for some new and exciting adventures, experiences and knowledge in life. ( The photo is from the beach in Carvajal/ Spain- I haven’t any photos from Bali yet )😊

Even there has been some thought months with not the best experiences in my daughter’s life she still manage to work as best as she could to reach some of her goals and dreams in her working- career 🏝. And in just a couple of months some new adventures in life is waiting for her in another destination then Spain 🛫🥰.

#work #lifesituation #job #caree #positivefocus #lifeis #experiences #challenges #goals #adventurer #knowledge #travelinlife #mydaugther #mydaugthersstory #beingamammi #dontgiveup #destination #dreams

Packed away 📚, and made room for something new🌠

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

It has been some busy weeks for both my students and me in October,- but now their big Norwegian exams, called Bergenstesten, in both written form as well as oral forms are finish and well done too 📚😊.

My students did passed the exams and I can put away all my teaching stuffs, things and books for a while 📚. And to be honest,- it feels great. It feels great that my students manage the exams, and it feels great to not be teaching for a while, maybe for always?

All my teaching stuff, things and books are now put away for a while 📚.

I feel very fine with having a rest from being a private teacher for some time now. I like to teach, and I like my students, but it has been some hard and demanding weeks before the exam, both for me as a teacher and for my students.  I feel with all my heart that I need a long break from teaching now.

So now I have cleaned my teaching desk in my home, put a way all the teaching materials and books, and it feels great, it was a good feeling. But probably because I’m tired too now.

An exam is hard, most of us know that, and have experience that. And,- I felt on an extra responsibility to follow up my students as best as I could, special because they also are private students and I feel a big responsibility for them to manage the exams.

The exam cost also a bit of money for my students because it is arranged in private forms and it’s in different parts too. It is an officially approved exams both in Norway and at universities in Europe. And,- I really didn’t wanted my students to lose their money or the exams, because I had probably got the complaints if they did 😅. And I didn’t want that, and I felt I needed a big break from being a teacher now, so if they had failed I actually needed to continue to teach them to March or April 2022, and I was not mentally prepared for that either 😊.

I have now made place and space for something new instead. A new job, a new freelance job that in it’s own way “replace” my teaching job, but it’s still a different job from the freelancework I’m already doing. But Im still going to work for and with people, and still be working from my home too 😊. But this time I’m available when I want to be available for the clients, and not on a working schedule 😊. And that feels great, it feels great to work when I want and can work, but of course I need to do the work in some or another way during the day, or more correctly during a month 😊.

I’m really looking forward to this new job, and I got my own work phone too ☎️. I have never had a work phone before- this is my first one ☎️. I need to admit I’m a bit proud over that one 😊.

Look at this- my own job phone – not a fancy phone- but it’s in function for what it should be in function too 😊. And I’m need to admit I’m a bit proud to have my on “job- phone ” ☎️.

So yes,- I’m still on the phone 🎧😅, but still not like my costumer service agent on the phone job 🎧. This is about conversation with people, give them advice, listen to them and try to give them some guidance for their various questions they have.

I’m going to work for a big Norwegian company together with many other people. The lines is open 24/7, but I don’t need to work 24 hours a day,- but of course I have a time- limit I need to be available on the phone during 24 hours, or more correctly actually during the month. But I can choose what hours that can be, what day, what time,- closely from day to day 😊.

And then it is my painting plans too,- and I’m in a process I like. Like I mention in my last post,- I have a dream and two with the painting- and I want to try to see if its possible for me to manage this dream 🎨.

I’m just some very few centimetres on the “star- line” on my painting dream, but some very few centimetres is still some few centimetres more then no one, and also in my correct direction for my plans, goals and dreams 🎨. And actually more centimetres then for just a mont and two ago. Maybe I will manage my dreams, maybe not- but I will only know if I try 😊. So then I try, if I fail I fail, but then I at least never need to wonder on any “what if” if I didn’t gave my dreams a try 😊. I hope you will give your dreams a try too 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog 🧡

See you soon I hope 😊

My “painting plans” are under “process ” and in it’s own way under “production” too 🎨

Half of October went to prepare my students for a big Norwegian exam- Beregenstesten 📝. And very much the rest of October went to my ordinary customer service job, as well as my freelance work and also some new and exciting things in a other freelance work as well. I have even got my own job- phone ☎️. And of course,’ my painting plans too 🎨😊

#work #job #workingfromhome #opportunities #jobphone #plans #dreams #goals #lifeis #livinginspain #Norwegian #positivefocus

Welcome November 🍃🌹 Thank you October 🌹🍂

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I have been working a lot in October, mainly because I had some private students who was going to have an big Norwegian exam in October, called Bergenstesten. So I needed to try to do my best to guide them to the exam, make them as ready and prepared I could. And that has taken a bit off time 📚. But also my normal job is a customer service agent on the phone takes time, even that one has just taken the “normal” weekly work time. And my freelance work- I’m using a bit more time on that one know for different reasons at the moment 😊. I have some dreams and wishes I want try out and see if it’s possible to manage 😊.

And just in case, “of course” my teamleder in my customer “service agent on the phone job” wanted to “upgrade” my skills too in October, so I could and can do some more and other tasks in the customer service agent job🎧. But I need to admit I didn’t feel for any more skills or new tasks or training at all at the moment 😅. I’m actually find on the phone like everything is at the moment 😊. Maybe special because I have different tasks I work on in my other job, my freelance work- like reach my own dreams in life 😊😅. And that’s not to be on the phone as a costumer service agent “for ever”. It’s something different. But the customer service agent job is fine- so please don’t misunderstand me. I was not just prepared for a bit more training in that job straight after finishing teaching my students 📚😅. And I have some dreams and wishes I really wants to try and see if its possible for me to actually reach them and manage them. But then I both need to put in some “offer” in both in my time as well as a bit of money.

To have dreams and wishes are free, but to try to reach them cost both time and money, and I want to and need to try to see if its possible for me to reach and manage my dreams 🌠. I don’t know that if I don’t try, and I can’t “put it on hold” for to long know anymore, I have already done that to long. I have set up a timeline to see if I can manage this, my dream. And I will probably know in a two or three years if or if not I manage it 😊.

I will say Thank you to October for the different opportunities my education, knowledge and different work experiences , and last but not at least, my life experiences gives me when it comes to new and exciting possibilities in different job situations – like my freelance work 🙏.

And I’m Thankful for that my students manage the Norwegian exam, Bergenstesten. It was a bit of a stress, but is was worth it 📚.

October has been very much focus on job in one or another way. And then, unfortunately, not so much time together with my friends, but I have manage to squeeze in a date with my Spanish friend at least🥰. And of course time with my children, – on the phone with my middle one in Norway, and the oldest and youngest has dropped by my home now and then. One of them even dropped by with all his/ her things too 😳😅. Jepp,- one has moved back home to the mammi again during October. No comments from me on that one yet 😅.

I wish November very welcome,- this month is also one of my favourite months- because my daughter was born in November 🧡. And in November there will be homemade birthday chocolate cake too 🎂.

I know November will be busy with work in different ways and forms. And also to continue doing and working with my dreams beside ordinary working- hours and days, and yes, be a mammi in my home as well. And try to squeeze in both some dating with my Spanish friend as well as some nice and cozy meetings together with my friends 😊. And in some or another way I really need to start with some regular workout and exercises again too 😅. I’m just not sure how or where to put those hours in my “schedule” 🤸‍♀️. And I also need to try to be better to write and share posts as well 📝.

With some good planning I can manage this- special if I give my self time to accept that things takes time and maybe little by little I will manage to put “all and everything” in a functional schedule that’sworsk for me- but not “all at once”, and also accept that there will be days where I will not manage closely to do anything- like today 😊.

I did started on a 2 weeks holiday today,- and I have actually not done very much- and I just needed this day to not do very much too – just relax 😊. Then I will manage to do a bit more other days 😊.

Thank you October for changing and challenges, knowledge and wisdom 🙏🍂. And Thank you for my jobs and works and different opportunities I get 📚📝. Thank you so much for my patience friends 🧡,- and Thank October for just the possibility to “meet” you with your ups and downs 😊🧡. And Thank you October for some nice and refreshing walks on the beach during some afternoons- it helps to clear my mind 🏖.

Welcome November- my daughter’s birthday month 🧡. And welcome to two lovely weeks of holiday,- where I just need to use the time and days to “feel up my batteries”, to relax, be a bit selfish and take a bit care of just my self for a tiny little while,- in my own way 🧡. Welcome November to a new freelance job- a job I’m looking forward to start in 📝🌠. And Welcome November with your unknown changes and challenges- I will try my very best to handle them as best as I can in a positive, open minded way and with as much joy I can manage to give different challenges in life 🧡.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you 🧡 . Thank you so much for using your time and dropping by my blog today 🧡

See you as soon as possible 😊

From one of my walks at the beach during an afternoon in October 🍂

Thank you October for changing and challenges, knowledge and wisdom 🙏🍂. Thank you for different works opportunities 📚📝. Thank you so much for my patience friends 🧡. And Thank you October for some nice and refreshing walks on the beach during some afternoons to just clear my mind 🏖. Welcome November with your unknown changes and challenges, opportunities, knowledge and wisdom 🧡🍂.

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